The Scarecrow
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Is any of this real? Is Emily really dead? Have crows started roosting in my attic? Why don’t the doors in my house lead to the places they’re supposed to? And above all, what is this mysterious voice whispering in my ear, telling me that things don’t have to be this way? Can he really bring her back? Do I want him to? This strange straw man is coming after me and I’m letting it happen. I just miss her so much... and not in a sweet, romantic way. I’m talking about the kind of loneliness that makes you claw deep scars into the back of your own neck. I won’t cry. Is madness really so bad compared to a reality of despair? Am I the monster? Every day is another bite, that’s the deal. Fair trade.
Nathan Wellman
Nathan Wellman is a writer/actor living in Los Angeles. Originally hailing from Kentucky, some of his short fiction has appeared in Midwest Literary Magazine, Arkham Tales, Daily Science Fiction, and Spilling Ink Review, among others. As an actor, he has been featured in 1000 Ways to Die and a national commercial alongside Blake Griffin.
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The Scarecrow - Nathan Wellman
The Scarecrow
By: Nathan Wellman
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Copyright 2012 by Nathan Wellman
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CONTENTS
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Chapter 36
Chapter 37
Chapter 38
Chapter 39
Chapter 40
Chapter 41
Chapter 42
Chapter 43
Chapter 44
Chapter 45
Chapter 46
Chapter 47
Chapter 48
Chapter 49
Chapter 50
Chapter 51
Chapter 52
Chapter 53
Chapter 54
Chapter 55
Chapter 56
Chapter 57
Chapter 58
Chapter 59
Chapter 60
Chapter 61
Chapter 62
Chapter 63
Chapter 64
Chapter 65
Chapter 66
Chapter 67
Chapter 68
Chapter 69
Chapter 70
Chapter 71
Chapter 72
Chapter 73
Chapter 74
Chapter 75
Chapter 76
Chapter 77
Chapter 78
Chapter 79
Chapter 80
Chapter 81
Chapter 82
Chapter 83
Chapter 84
Chapter 85
Chapter 86
Chapter 87
Chapter 88
Chapter 89
Chapter 90
Chapter 91
Chapter 92
Chapter 93
Chapter 94
Chapter 95
Chapter 96
Chapter 97
Chapter 98
Chapter 99
Chapter 100
Chapter 101
Chapter 102
Chapter 103
Chapter 104
Chapter 105
Chapter 106
Chapter 107
Chapter 108
Chapter 109
Chapter 110
Chapter 111
Chapter 112
Chapter 113
Chapter 114
Chapter 115
Chapter 116
Chapter 117
Chapter 118
Chapter 119
Chapter 120
Chapter 121
Chapter 122
Chapter 123
Chapter 124
Chapter 125
Chapter 126
Chapter 127
Chapter 128
Chapter 129
Chapter 130
Chapter 131
Chapter 132
Chapter 133
Chapter 134
Chapter 135
Chapter 136
Chapter 137
Chapter 138
Chapter 139
Chapter 140
Chapter 141
Chapter 142
Chapter 143
Chapter 144
Chapter 145
Chapter 146
Chapter 147
Chapter 148
Chapter 149
Chapter 150
Chapter 151
Chapter 152
Chapter 153
Chapter 154
Chapter 155
Chapter 156
Chapter 157
Chapter 158
Chapter 159
Chapter 160
Chapter 161
Chapter 162
Chapter 163
Chapter 164
Chapter 165
Chapter 166
Suicide Letter
Break in Chapters
Chapter 345
Chapter 346
Chapter 347
Chapter 348
Chapter 349
Chapter 350
Chapter 351
Chapter 352
Chapter 353
Chapter 354
Chapter 355
Chapter 356
Chapter 357
Chapter 358
Chapter 359
Chapter 360
Chapter 361
Chapter 362
Chapter 363
Chapter 364
Chapter 365
Chapter 366
Chapter 367
Chapter 368
Chapter 369
Chapter 370
Chapter 371
Chapter 372
Chapter 373
Chapter 374
Chapter 375
Chapter 376
Chapter 377
Chapter 378
Chapter 379
Chapter 380
Chapter 381
Chapter 382
Chapter 383
Chapter 384
Chapter 385
Chapter 386
Chapter 387
Chapter 388
Chapter 389
Chapter 390
Chapter 391
Chapter 392
Chapter 393
Chapter 394
Chapter 395
Chapter 396
Chapter 397
Chapter 398
Chapter 399
Chapter 400
Chapter 401
Chapter 402
Chapter 403
Chapter 404
Chapter 405
Chapter 406
Chapter 407
Chapter 408
Chapter 409
Chapter 410
Chapter 411
Chapter 412
Chapter 413
Chapter 414
Chapter 415
Chapter 416
Chapter 417
Chapter 418
Chapter 419
Chapter 420
Chapter 421
Chapter 422
Chapter 423
Chapter 424
Chapter 425
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Chapter 1
Emily is dead.
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Chapter 2
Three drops of blood stick to the side of the hospital sink. My nose won’t stop gushing. Headache too.
There are too many things that I haven’t told her. Three years... We only got three years? The corner of my mouth keeps twitching upward, smiling the way you do when you’re waiting for the punch line to a really good joke. The hidden cameras are going to come out and she’ll be giggling with some film crew.
I’m cackling alone in the hospital bathroom, laughing so hard that I’m doubled over. The echoes magnify my voice into something bigger than just sound. Surely the whole building can hear me. I can’t help it, though. It’s such a funny joke.
I’ll have to remember to tell Emily about this when I get home. She’ll get a kick out of it. I turn on the sink faucet and my blood droplets disappear underneath the sudden current. I watch them dilute and silently swirl down the drain.
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Chapter 3
I dial a number. It rings once. I quickly hang up.
Who do I tell first? Her mother? Her brother? The wedding planner?
Technically, for all intents and purposes, Emily is still alive. Her mom is still planning to meet her tomorrow for lunch at Rocko’s. She has a dentist’s appointment next Thursday at eight o’clock in the morning. Life still has places for her to be and people for her to talk to. As long as I sit in this white hospital hallway without talking to another human being, I can keep her alive. It’s only been an hour. I’ve been away from her for longer than this before, so it’s really no big deal yet. If I want to, I can tell myself that she’ll be back in just a little while, and the childish part of me that’s separated from logic still believes it.
It’s like knowing that you’re having your last sane moment. Soon the sound of her name will hit my ears like a car crash. I’ll fall and fall and fall. Friendly memories will hold daggers behind their backs.
I’m buckled into the roller coaster and waiting for the first drop.
I dial a number. Somebody answers. I hang up.
It’s too cruel. I’ll tell everyone that we’ve moved to another country. She’s joined a convent and taken a vow of silence. Don’t try to contact her for any reason. My head rests against the wall, and eventually I fall asleep. My phone vibrates and wakes me up. I look at the name and a sudden velocity takes my stomach.
Here we go.
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Chapter 4
What a beautiful day. The sun is bright and shining like a Saturday morning cartoon. The grass is green. The sky is blue. Seventy-five degrees and not a cloud to be seen for miles. A little kid with red ice cream stains on his yellow shirt clicks by on his bicycle. Nobody harasses him or runs him over. An old couple sits on a park bench. The old man’s hand runs through his wife’s silver hair and she rests her head against his shoulder.
The only ugly thing in sight is a single crow, black as doubt, making for the horizon as if its wings were on fire.
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, pretty day.
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Chapter 5
Emily’s mother is screaming at the top of her lungs. They are lovely, nonsense shrieks that make everyone in the hospital grit their teeth. People are running towards the sound to try to help her. I don’t know what her father’s doing. Probably just shaking his head.
I’m hiding in a bathroom stall, looking at my cell phone.
Her name is highlighted in my address book and I try to delete her number, but instead I wind up hearing her voice. Hi everyone, this is Emily! I’m sorry I can’t come to the phone right now, but if you leave your name and number, I’ll be sure to get back to you as soon as I can. Bye!
And suddenly I’ve listened to it eight times, guzzling every word and wishing she’d made it longer. I look through our text messages from today.
Me: Pick up some ham on the way home?
Emily: lol didn’t you get some yesterday?
Me: I forgot
Emily: what am I going to do with you!
It’s not enough. I read them until they’re memorized. I mouth the words to myself. Then I whisper them again. The words leave a horrible taste in my throat but I can’t stop. The chant repeats again and again until I don’t even know what I’m saying. Until I manage to forget that the last talk we ever had was about ham.
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Chapter 6
What am I going to do with me!
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Chapter 7
I’m pretty sure that I eventually found Emily’s parents. They probably cried a lot more. I’m pretty sure that, for whatever reason, her Dad tried to hit me. I wasn’t paying much attention.
What are we going to do? Oh, not my baby!
her mom said.
Oh God! God help us!
her dad said.
...............
I said.
The nurses always looked uncomfortable when they had to walk by, and I tried to apologize with a shrug whenever I could get them to meet my eyes. In retrospect, I think that my indifference freaked them out even more.
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Chapter 8
The whole house is booby trapped. Her smells are in the carpet and her hairs are on the furniture. She had Pop-Tarts for breakfast the day she died and I’m scared to move the plate because I know that she’s the last one to have touched it. The crumbs are still all over the table.
I want to duct tape the windows and put deadbolts on all the doors. People keep trying to drag me through the worst of it: offering condolences, praying with me, touching me. They mean well. They want to help me heal. But I don’t want to be a part of that world anymore, because that’s not where Emily is.
Every five minutes or so, I think about shoving a knife through my stomach like the hero in a Shakespearian tragedy. As my life slowly oozed out onto the floor, I could lay my head in her cold bosom. Whisper her name one last time. The whole thing would be very dramatic, and nobody would be able to blame me. But then, what if this whole thing really isn’t real, and she wakes up right after I close my eyes?
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Chapter 9
I never used to think about things like this. I used to be so normal. I used to watch football.
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Chapter 10
Simon offered to stay through the night with me, but I told him to leave me alone. The bed is too big now. I stay on my side and try not to fidget around too much. I don’t want to wake up Emily. She has work in the morning.
(Did I tell her work that she’s gone? I don’t remember, and I guess I don’t care.)
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Chapter 11
First hour. I think to myself This is the rest of my life Buckle up the drop never stops That’s what I said I said let’s do this I said bring it on I can take it I’ll just shut my eyes and go to sleep Go to sleep When my eyes turn out the lights it’ll be like nothing ever happened I could sleep for days if I wanted to That’s the secret to strangling this whole thing never be awake I can get through this It happens to people every day of course it would happen to me They say it just takes time They say it’s better this way because now she’s in the clouds Did I say that I say my room is dark I say that I can’t see my hand in front of my face Was it always like this How had I never noticed Tomorrow I’ll buy a night-light I say without my other half I am just a pair of legs.
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Chapter 12
Third hour. Still awake. Maybe I’ll never sleep again.
I haven’t cried yet. How can I, when this silent house won’t stop making all this noise? I swear I can hear the insects tap dancing between the walls. The hushed whisper of the air conditioner is breathing down my neck.
The problem is, I have a golf ball lodged in my throat. How am I supposed to cry when I haven’t even breathed since this morning? The space on the bed that Emily’s sleeping body used to fill is colder than the surrounding air. Tears would only freeze if I