Freefall

By Anna Levine

What would your life be like if military service was compulsory, not voluntary?

Aggie is eighteen and getting ready to do her service for the Israeli Army. She could get a cushy assignment—maybe pushing paper somewhere—or she could just take her chances. Only, Aggie isn't like that. Despite her small size and the fact that she needs to gain weight to even make the grade, and despite the total disbelief of her entire family (except her grandmother, who is an old freedom fighter and don't you forget it), Aggie is trying out for an elite combat unit.

Ben—Aggie's crush of the moment—isn't at all convinced that she's making the right choice. Shira, Aggie's best friend forever, is bewildered (and perhaps a bit too interested in Ben). Then there's Noah. And the serendipitous snow. And a good-bye kiss that turns into, well, a real kiss.

Luckily for Aggie, her backbreaking, sand-in-mouth, completely-lost-in-the-desert training produces an unlikely dividend: friends. The kind she never imagined she could have. The kind you'd go to war with—and for.

• Language: English
• Publisher: HarperCollins
• Release date: Mar 17, 2009
• ISBN: 9780061881206

Anna Levine

Anna Levine has lived in Israel for more than twenty years, having emigrated there on her own when she was eighteen. She is the mother of two sons—both of whom are serving in the Israeli Army. Aggie's experiences in the novel are partly based on the author's time spent in underground bomb shelters after rockets hit her kibbutz.

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Chapter One

I jump into the taxi.

Shira follows behind me. Ben and Ron hop in through the opposite door.

It’s so cold out there, says Shira.

And it’s supposed to be spring. I scoot to the middle and snuggle next to Ben. The spaghetti-strap top I thought perfect earlier in the evening does little to keep out the cold. We shouldn’t have worn skirts, I say to Shira, my teeth chattering.

Better? asks the taxi driver, turning up the heater.

Getting there, I say, rubbing my knees.

The driver looks us over in the rearview mirror. Four separate drop-offs will cost you extra.

Come on, says Ben. We’re all in the same area.

He revs the motor but doesn’t drive.

I’ll get off with Shira, Ron offers.

The taxi driver shifts into gear and takes off down King George, honking and swearing at everything that moves.

Rush hour. You’d think it was five in the afternoon, not midnight.

Midnight on a Thursday and the town is packed with people trying to grab parking spots closest to the bars.

The driver careens through the narrow streets. I am thrown against Ben with each tight swerve. Finally the taxi pulls to a stop in front of Shira’s house.

Your mom’s at the window, says Ron.

As usual. Shira jumps out and blows us all a kiss.

G’night! she shouts. And good luck, Ben. Next week, my house. We’ll celebrate.

Ron leans through the taxi window. Okay, Ben. Show ’em how it’s done. Call me as soon as you get back.

You bet.

We watch as Ron waits for Shira to run up the stairs, and then he darts behind her house, where he disappears into the maze of alleyways that crisscross through the courtyards.

Ben glances at his watch.

Nervous? I ask.

He shrugs. I think it’ll be okay. They said we had to have at least eight hours of sleep before the exercise or we’re immediately disqualified, which would mean waiting another month until the next trial.

Maybe you shouldn’t have gone out with us tonight?

Probably, but my dad was driving me crazy.

I wait for him to go on. We’re at a traffic light, and now that I’ve warmed up, I’m in no hurry to get home. We’re still sandwiched together though Ron and Shira are gone and there’s room to spread out. I rest my head against his shoulder.

You should have heard him, says Ben. It was painful. ‘In my day, pre-army training courses were tough.’ Ben mimics his father’s gravelly voice. ‘Keep away from the slackers, son. You don’t want them to think you’re a shirker. Grab the stretcher and leave the lighter loads for the wimps.’ Ben shakes his head. If I don’t make it—

I hear the catch in his throat and nudge him in the ribs with my elbow. Since when have you ever doubted yourself? I tease him. You’ve been training for this since junior high. Look at those biceps. I give his arm a playful squeeze.

He laughs. You’re right. I’ve just got to stay focused.

The taxi draws up in front of my place. The flicker of the TV screen shines through the curtain slits. My dad’s still awake.

The late-night news?

Of course. They interviewed him this morning, and he keeps watching the reruns.

Like living with a movie star.

Oh, please. I groan. "When was the last time you saw a Knesset minister on the cover of People magazine?"

The taxi driver laughs. He looks at us through the rearview mirror. In this country, he says, everybody’s got to be a somebody.

Tell me about it, says Ben.

Before opening the door I turn toward Ben for our familiar cheek-peck good-bye. But this time something more happens. Maybe the taxi jolts or maybe—I don’t know—maybe we’ve both been waiting for the opportunity, but it’s our lips that touch and for a moment, or longer, our bodies press together. His lips hold mine. His hand circles my waist.

I am suspended. My heart beats like tiny bird wings, and I hover in this unfamiliar territory before pulling away. I fumble out of the taxi and manage a breathless good-night. By the time I run down the path to the entrance of my building, there is only a glimmer of taillights left to remind me of the moment.

A week has passed since then.

I speed up, taking a shortcut toward Shira’s house, urged on by the crispness in the air and the anticipation of seeing Ben again. Tonight not even the tantalizing aroma of falafel and freshly baked pita from the outdoor snack bars can tempt me to linger.

Cutting through the cherry tree garden, I skirt the gang of stray cats huddled for warmth outside the old synagogue and arrive almost breathless at Shira’s house. Their iron gate, which borders the alley, is half open. As I step inside their garden, I notice Shira’s brother sitting at the top of the stairs leading to the entrance to their house.

Look, Noah, snowflakes! Tilting my head to the sky, I watch them parachute their way down, covering the wet Jerusalem courtyard with a layer of white.

He watches me from beneath the porch awning and laughs. He’s dressed in his army pants and a green thermal shirt with the sleeves rolled up to his elbows. A scruffy pair of reddish brown army boots are beside him. One of his thick socks has a hole where his toe pokes through. Traces of snow in his short-cropped hair hint that he too must have been looking up at the flakes just seconds earlier.

I run up the stairs, and he moves aside to let me pass.

Aren’t you coming in to see the game?

No. Got to go back to my base soon. I’d rather catch some peace and quiet out here. He reaches for his guitar, which is propped against the door. Besides, I love the smell of snow.

Me too. I glance back. But Shira’s waiting for me. I’ll let you know how many baskets we’re up at halftime, I promise, letting the screen door swing shut behind me as I step inside.

The house greets me with smells of Yemenite spices: coriander and some others I can’t name. A plate of leftover malawah is on the counter. I’m hoping that Shira will ask me later if I want to take some home with me.

I’ve saved this for you, says Dalia. Shira’s mom points to the plate. Pick it up on your way out.

Thank you.

A pleasure. The gang is in the den.

I toss my shoes onto the pile. Part of me would rather sit outside with Noah watching the snow fall, but before I can change my mind, Shira comes flying into the hall. Aggie! What took you so long to get here? I’m bursting with news!

Her hug envelops me in a garden of jasmine blossoms.

Well, how did it go?

Amazing! She flashes me a glossy purple smile. Totally amazing. My first audition! With all those military personnel watching me, I thought my voice would crack, but I sang like honey!

Really, Aggie. She fans her fingers through her thick hair. Yemenite hair. Full of decisive, tight dark curls. They don’t tell you right away! Total chaos would erupt. World War Three. The competition is more explosive than a minefield. She licks her lips and glances over my shoulder, examining herself in the hall mirror. Scowling, she moves closer to inspect an invisible blemish. You should have seen some of the other girls looking at me. You’d think I was the enemy. She wipes away a smudge of mascara.

I check the mirror to see if the snow has made my makeup run.

You know, she says, with your coloring, you should use black eyeliner. It would make the blue in your eyes stand out more. Make them look smokier and less innocent.

You think so?

We stare at our faces in the mirror. Shira’s dark eyes are so much more seductive than mine. Her hair is crammed into a bright purple hair band. My hair never stays put. It frizzes into a thousand confused directions in an uncommitted shade of light brown.

Shira sighs. Anyway. ‘Me?’ I said to them. I said, ‘We’re all on the same side, you know. In the end, we’ll all be wearing the same uniform and singing for the same troops.’

Except that some of you won’t be. Some of you won’t be chosen.

She spits three times, pursing her lips the way her grandmother has taught her, to ward off the evil eye. You shouldn’t say things like that! I hope you didn’t jinx me.

I meant the others, not you.

We look at each other in the mirror.

Will we still have time for each other next year? I ask. You’ll be off singing to the troops in some glamorous spot—and me?

Shira turns and throws her arms around me. And you, Aggie, will always be a major part of my life. You ground me. Holding me at arm’s length, she says, Without you I’d never see the stuff that matters. Songs would be melodies without meaning. She tugs on the end of my hair, and laughs. We’ll always be friends, no matter where you end up.

That’s exactly what I’m worried about. Where will I end up? What if they stick me somewhere I hate? Two years is a long time to be stuck behind some army desk. I’ll go crazy filing papers, making coffee, and sitting in a stuffy room with a bunch of girls who probably have pop jingles for their ring tones.

Shira groans. Don’t be such a pessimist. You never know, your commanding officer might be a gorgeous hunk who will fall madly in love with you.

I shove her aside and make my way into the den. It’s total chaos in there. The TV is on at full volume. The hollers and groans of the Maccabi game compete with the Shark girls singing from the stereo. Ben sits on the sofa cracking sunflower seeds and dropping the shells into a bowl balanced on his thigh while he shouts above it all, telling Ron about the field exercise.

Then he said, ‘Fill it up, all the way up!’ In the end the sandbags weighed, oh man, at least twenty-five kilo.

Shira grabs my arm. Her sigh drowns out the coach’s call of foul as even Ben stops to look up. The blood rushes to my face. Ben notices. Winks. I see him nudge Ron in the ribs and whisper something.

I’m so wired, Aggie. Getting into the army’s entertainment corps is like—is like making the charts before you’ve made your first single.

‘Forty seconds,’ our commander shouts. ‘Run! Up the hill and back.’

With the sacks? Ron puts his beer on the edge of the table and leans in closer to Ben.

Rebound!

Ben stands to turn up the volume on the TV and catches my eye before he sits back down. He looks thinner. His jeans hang lower on his waist, but from the sound of his voice and the look on his face, he’s made it through the first round. Half listening to Shira, I strain to catch Ben’s conversation. He kept shouting, ‘Quit now if you can’t hack it.’

My voice never wavered, says Shira.

‘Again!’ he shouts. ‘That wasn’t forty seconds. Now do it in thirty-five.’

"I have no other country," Shira belts out.

No way. Thirty-five seconds? Ron’s beer teeters on the edge of the table.

Yeah, says Ben. And we had to shout out each second as it passed. Thirty more times. The hill. Back. Hill. Back. Then, my luck, the strap on my back broke! I had to carry the sack in my arms like a fat calf. He rolls up his sleeves to show the cuts and bruises—and his solid muscles. My arms were killing me. Some of the guys tried spilling out sand while the commander wasn’t looking. As if a cupful would make a difference.

And then—"

Then when I got on stage—Shira pauses to smooth back her hair—all the nervousness disappeared. You know that feeling? Aggie, you know what I mean?

What a move! Stellar defense by Israel’s Maccabi team.

Hey, Shira, can you put on some normal music? asks Ron. Their voices are driving me nuts. We can’t hear the game.

"It’s West Side Story—and get used to it. I’m practicing for an audition."

I nod as if I’m with her on stage, but I am with Ben in the desert, a bag of sand heavy in my arms as I run back and forth thirty times. I feel sweaty. My shoulders ache. My legs, as if cased in concrete, are too heavy to lift. I lean against the table.

‘No slacking. Get moving!’ He kept shouting for us to hurry up. Taunting us that we didn’t have what it takes. It was the dead of night. We were walking with canteens, ammo round our waists, an M16 and all our stuff on our backs. And he’s striding along expecting us to keep up. There wasn’t even a ray of moonlight. At first we walked with him, but then the gap kept getting wider. ‘Keep up!’ he shouted.

And? Ron prompts him.

There was no way—

I’ll die if I don’t get in. Shira’s voice quivers. If I don’t get in, then I’m not going. No one can make me do what I don’t want to do. Are you listening, Aggie?

She shakes my arm. I focus on the colored stud in her right nostril. This one’s a garnet. It catches the light and reflects it back at me. I think of the stars. Ben in the desert, the darkness, the sounds of boots crushing the earth and the burdened breaths of the group as, exhausted, they push on.

You can’t tell them you aren’t going, I say to Shira. That’s kind of the definition of compulsory service: you don’t have a choice.

You girls have it easy, says Ron. Two years of service is nothing next to our three.

Did you hear about Micha? says Ben. Made the pilot’s course. Had to sign on for seven years.

No way! I sweated through those exams but got bounced out faster than a whirling propeller. Man, they were tough. Ron balances the beer bottle on his knee. "I’ve got

Reviews for Freefall

[abbylibrarian_1 · Rating: 4 out of 5 stars]

What would your life be like if military service was compulsory, not voluntary? For 18-year-old Aggie, life is pretty stressful. Sure, she's got the normal teen girls things going on - crushes on boys, hanging out with her best friend - but she's also trying to decide which military service to join. Will she be happy pushing pencils at a desk for the next two years? How about auditioning for the entertainment corps with her best friend? No... Aggie's got something different in mind: an elite combat group. But does she have what it takes to get in? And if she does get in, is it what she really wants? The interesting concept and likeable characters will hook teens who will find a lot to think about and discuss in this book. This would make a great book discussion title or conversation starter and it's sure to spark an interest in Israel. Hand this one to kids who wonder about teens in other parts of the world.

[salsabrarian · Rating: 3 out of 5 stars]

This wasn't fully what I expected. I thought it was a book about a teenager serving in the Israeli military but Abigail is really just getting her toes wet with a boot camp tryout. This is more about being on the cusp of a new phase of life and trying to make sense of her place during uncertain times. A good addition to the number of books for young people about life in the Middle East.

[sensel_2 · Rating: 4 out of 5 stars]

I love books about young women who push against boundaries, both external and internal, and Aggie does both in Freefall. The first-person, present-tense narrative lends an intimacy and immediacy that makes Aggie's excitement, doubts, and adventures -- both physical and emotional -- engaging and dramatic. At the same time, the setting and story are so different from the lives of most readers, they'll be transported to a whole new world.

[jrlibrary · Rating: 1 out of 5 stars]

Didn't grab me after the first 20 pages so I abandoned it. Don't usually do that, but life is too short to keep reading books that take too long to get going. If I'm wrong, and it turned out to be an incredible story, someone please let me know.

[girlwiththebraids · Rating: 5 out of 5 stars]

Eighteen-year-old Abigail Jacobs is faced with two years in compulsory military service in the Israeli Defense Force. She has to gain weight, leave her childhood friends, and abandon fear to get what she wants.What’s worse is that her family doesn’t believe that she could do it. Her friends are dumb-founded. Why would she do something like this? Can’t she just work in an office?When things start to play in the right direction: she is in love, her military unit goes a step higher…. She finds herself in the midst of war. Now it is real.This book was a wonderful read. I like how Author Anna Levine explained the feelings of a girl who is scared to be in love and war. Aggie is such a likeable character that I couldn’t stop reading.The Israeli Defense Force is an interesting topic and I was fascinated how well this book played out. This book takes place during the 2006 Lebanon War in Israel.The way the people’s emotions are described makes everything feel real, that their emotions are real. I like that Anna Levine picked a topic worth reading about. I enjoyed every minute while reading this book.