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Suzana Thayer
I realized when I was young that I was never a normal child. I was very different indeed. My life change dramatically after my dad passed away when I was only 11. He was my mentor, my friend, my da...view moreI realized when I was young that I was never a normal child. I was very different indeed. My life change dramatically after my dad passed away when I was only 11. He was my mentor, my friend, my dad. I was the last one to talk to him, and my world changed. That's when I closed off a big part of my heart. In saying that, I ended up meeting my first love, who ended up becoming my husband years later. My life with him wasn't a bed of roses, but I believed in marriage and my vows and to always be faithful, so I stuck it out and never complained. I believed that one has to respect their spouse, to be there for them always. He was controlling, manipulating, and a cheat, which in turn ended up being a catalyst or a part of what made it easy for me to be manipulated. And I was used not just by the con, but by my family and friends over all the 45 years we were together, and this played a major role in why I was so overwhelmed by the good doctor. You could have called me the ugly duckling; my sisters and my mom never looked at me as part of the family. A big part of my life was spent helping people financially, physically, and emotionally. To many people I had a heart of gold. They loved how consistent, caring, and loving I was and still am. That part of me never changed. I always felt like I was a humanitarian, caring about those around me, never judging anyone for their words or actions. I believe that it's important to look at the good in others and have faith, understanding, and compassion regardless of their actions. When I was young I would help my sisters by doing their chores, and one day my dad looked at me and said, "Why are you doing their chores?" I looked at him and said, "They asked me to help them, and I have nothing else better to do," so you see, I have always been a giver of time and effort. After my dad passed, this only became stronger and more prominent than ever. Don't get me wrong, I loved my husband very much, but I think that was something that came with time and getting comfortable with him and my life. Oddly, I didn't even realize that I never got jealous or upset with him about what he would do, I was always able to forgive him for everything and just kept moving forward. To me, the most prominent thing were my children. I would give up the world for them to be happy. I love my children to the moon and back. They were and are my world to the day I die. I know they grew up go out on their own and live their lives to do what they want. I respect their wishes to no end. How they live is not for me to say or interfere with, because to them it is the right way. My heart will always be open to them, even though they may not feel that way about me. Because of being conned, it is theirs forever.view less