have always craved the feeling of being useful to the world. But fulfilling this need for utility has always been a struggle, like it's the first day of school and I don't know where to stand. At 37, I've moved in many spaces trying to find my usefulness and despite awkwardness along the way I'm glad for every experience outside my comfort zone. My most profound growing has happened working beyond my capabilities with people who have a vision, whether artistic or for a better world. In the best cases of either art and altruism - or both - there has always been
