This episode of Ayahuasca Anonymous is brought to you by Unleash Your Inner Pussy:  How to Conquer Your Goals and Dominate Your Life, the revolutionary workshop hosted by Thorax Carnitine.  Thorax earned his bachelors in Sports Management from the University of Brussels, his Ph.D in bro science from the Boston Institute of Anatomy, worked as a consultant for the Cleveland Browns 2017 season, pioneered the High Gluten, Zero Carbon Diet, and has appeared on Joe Rogan over 7 times.My guest this week is John Steiner! John is Sinclair from episode 2's partner, the former manager of an ayahuasca retreat, and a great guest. John shares his story of how after overcoming an addiction to opiates, he went back to school, won some medals as a competitive weight-lifter, and scratched everything off his sober to-do list—only to find himself feeling lost and empty.  Queue ayahuasca!John and I discuss external goals, the negative aspects of masculinity we notice in ourselves, blaming your partner for them triggering your own inadequacies, how much 'young man' ego we both brought to the world of psychedelics, the difficulty in growing as a person and renegotiating relationships with your family, and MORE!I also share in this episode how having explosive ayahuasca diarrhea in front of my fantasy crush led to a great moment of personal healing .I can't even keep track of all the things John and Sinclair are up to, they might even be leading retreats in Ecuador again this year? Find more about John at https://mysticalheartcollective.com/