In this very first episode of BFTA we explore one of the most frightening parts of the abyss, coming face to face with the desperate need to die. Elizabeth woke up five days after her near fatal suicide attempt and found herself with another chance--  this is her story of finding a new way to live and be in this world.Helpful websites on:Bipolar disorderhttps://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/bipolar-disorder/index.shtmlClozapinehttps://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/25346322https://www.thelancet.com/journals/lanpsy/article/PIIS2215-0366(16)30081-5/fulltexthttps://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/7883728Ketaminehttps://www.knowablemagazine.org/article/mind/2019/listening-ketaminehttps://www.scientificamerican.com/article/getting-the-inside-dope-on-ketamine-rsquo-s-mysterious-ability-to-rapidly-relieve-depression/https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/28749092Dr. H and Back from the Abysshttps://www.craigheacockmd.comDr. Craig Heacock is an adolescent/adult psychiatrist and addiction specialist in Colorado. He was a co-therapist in the Phase 3 trial of MDMA-Assisted Psychotherapy for PTSD and has particular interest in the use of ketamine and other psychedelics to treat severe mood disorders and PTSD.  He is a graduate of the University of New Mexico School of Medicine and did his psychiatry training at Brown University.