Alex Unveiled

By Angela Schmeling

Protecting the girl next door has been my priority for as long as I can remember. Our life hasn't been easy and our love story has been rocky, but I will never stop fighting for her.

My name is Alex and this is my story.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Angela Schmeling
• Release date: Dec 29, 2023
• ISBN: 9798869014757

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Alex Unveiled

Angela Schmeling

Copyright © 2023 Angela Schmeling

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This is a work of fiction. All of the characters, names, incidents, organizations, and dialogue in this novel are either the products of the author's imagination or are used fictitiously.

DEDICATION

So grateful for the wonderful friends and family that have helped me and encouraged me with each book that I write.

Isaac, Jazzy, Jocelyn, Ariana, your patience and love is incredible. I love you so much.

Thank you, Jesus, for the inspiration and ability to write stories that are intriguing. Let them always bring glory to You.

Chapter 1

There are few childhood memories without them in it. We were always together in our small Polish village nestled in the mountains, and it all started on a hot summer day.

This is my story.

I was sitting in our backyard waiting for my best friend Filip to come by so we could go fishing when I caught my first glimpse of the girls. The oldest, my age, was blonde wearing pink overalls and heading to the swings in Meena’s yard with her younger sister in tow. Her sister was the opposite, with dark hair and an oval face.

I watched them curious.

Now, Lenny, the blonde pointed at the dark-haired girl. You sit there and don’t move.

She seemed pretty bossy, but the girl named Lenny seemed to take it in stride and sat down, watching her sister intently. Some blocks lay in the grass next to her, so she leaned over and began to pick them up while the blonde sat on the swing.

We have to make sure we are good for Grandma, Lenny. We can’t be naughty or Mommy will be mad and Grandma won’t give us cookies and her cookies are the best.

Lenny nodded.

She wasn’t wrong. Meena’s cookies were the best in town and just the thought of them made my mouth water.

What are you staring at, boy? The older girl suddenly caught me sitting there watching.

I looked away, embarrassed.

What’s wrong with you? She asked. Are you stupid?

My head jerked back at her. No. I’m not stupid!

Well, then why are you staring at us?

Julia! Her mother scolded as she came out of the house. Don’t be rude!

But, Mama, he was just sitting there staring!

I’m sure he was just curious. Her mother reasoned.

About what? The girl’s nose crinkled in confusion.

Well, I’m sure Grandma doesn’t normally have little girls in her backyard. She smiled at me, her blonde hair framing her face. Hi.

Hi. I said walking over.

I’m Mrs. Kaminski.

Alex! I turned to see Filip waving at me, fishing pole in hand.

I turned back and said. Nice to meet you. I have to go.

Mrs. Kaminski smiled at me and nodded. We will see you again soon.

With that, I took off ready to head to the river with my friend.

That night, my mother came into my room and as she tucked me in, she asked. So, you met our new neighbors?

Yes.

Those little girls might be fun playmates for you.

I wrinkled my nose. They’re girls.

What’s wrong with that?

They’re girls! I repeated.

So am I! Mom said.

That’s different.

Oh, really? Mom tickled my belly until I laughed.

Okay, okay! I giggled, squirming out of her grip.

Mom smiled. Alright.

Why would I need to play with girls anyway? I have Devin and Filip to play with.

Well, these girls are closer and one day, you won’t mind so much to hang out with girls.

I shook my head as she kissed my forehead. Girls are gross.

One day, you’ll think very differently.

I watched from the yard as the blonde girl kicked her legs and swung high in the air. She wore jeans and a t-shirt, her hair in long braids flying behind her. Her sister sat in the sandbox a few feet away, digging at the sand with a plastic shovel, her dark hair showing flecks of brown sand within its strands.

I pulled at the grass, bored, wishing that Devin or Filip were around today.

Why are you doing that? The blonde was suddenly in front of me.

Doing what?

Pulling at the grass like that.

I shrugged.

She cocked her head to the side and stared at me for a moment. Well, you going to come play with us or what?

Why would I want to do that?

Because you need something to do. She reached over and grabbed my hand. Come on. We will build a sand castle.

Why?

Because it’s fun and then Lenore won’t be left alone.

I reluctantly followed this tenacious blonde girl over to the sandbox where her sister played.  She plopped down in the sand. Pulling a bucket towards her, she began to fill it with sand.

What’s your name? She asked, not looking up at me.

Alex.

I’m Julia. She said, pouring more sand into her bucket. And that’s Lenore, but I call her Lenny. She’s little.

I sat down in the sand and Lenny looked at me. Pearly white teeth gleamed at me as she smiled.

She doesn’t talk much. Julia said, rattling on. She’s only three. She doesn’t like to do much. She gets scared.

Not scared. Lenny said softly.

Are to. Julia said, sticking out her tongue at her sister. She turned to me. Go get some water for the sand so we can make our castle.

I stood up and then looked at her. She was a pretty girl but completely bossy.

Julia gave a face. What?

What am I putting the water in?

Go ask Granny for a cup.

I continued to stare.

What now?

You want me to just walk into your house?

Why not? Julia looked confused.

It’s not my house!

Suddenly, a small hand tucked into mine and I looked down to see Lenny looking up at me. She was such a contrast to her sister. Quiet, her green eyes always watching and trying to figure things out.

Come, Alex. She led me inside the house. Opening the door, I saw Meena and Mrs. Kaminski. They both looked at us when we entered.

Alex!

Hello, Meena. Hello, Mrs. Kaminski.

How are you? Meena asked as she reached into a container and pulled two cookies from its depths. She handed one to me and then one to Lenny, who excitedly grabbed it and then went over to her mother.

I’m fine, thank you, ma’am. I said as I took the cookie. Meena’s cookies were the best in the whole village.

Now what are you guys doing out there?

Sand ‘astle. Lenny said around a mouthful of cookie.

What’s taking so long? Julia called as she came in. She stopped short when she saw the cookies in our hands. Hey! Why didn’t I get one?

Julia! Her mother scolded.

What?

Manners!

Julia shrugged. Sorry. May I have a cookie, Granny?

Yes. Meena’s eyes twinkled as she handed her granddaughter the sugary snack.

After we finished our cookies, Meena gave us some milk and then we remembered our pitcher of water and went back outside. Finishing our sand castle, we stopped back and admired our creation. We thought it was good enough to win an award.

Until Lenny sat on it.

I guess girls aren’t so bad to play with. At least when the other boys are gone.

Chapter 2

I grabbed my fishing pole that was just the right size for my seven-year-old hands and then the tackle box that Dad had given me. I was to meet Filip at the river, but first I needed some worms and after the rain, I knew a good spot to find some.

Cutting through my back yard, I noticed Lenny swinging by herself, her five-year-old legs dangling and her face sad.

Setting my pole down, I walked over to her. What’s going on, Lenny?

She shrugged, her black hair falling over her face.

Something wrong?

Mama’s leaving. She said softly.

I leaned against the bar. Where’s she going?

Something for work.

How long will she be gone?

Lenny turned to me, her green eyes sad. I don’t know. She’s taking a suitcase with her. So, it will be a long time I think.

My heart broke at how sad she looked.

Have you ever gone fishing?

Her eyebrows furrowed as she slowly shook her head.

You wanna come?

Her lips pursed together in contemplation. I don’t know.

Come on. I insisted. It’ll be fun.

But I don’t know how.

I’ll teach you.

She bit her lip and then jumped off the swing. Okay.

Would Julia want to come, too?

Maybe.

Leaning my pole against the side of the house and setting my tackle box down next to it, we walked into the house. Julia was leaning against the wall, her back to us, facing the living room. As we came up to her, we saw Meena at the front door, her arms crossed as Julia and Lenny’s mother climbed into her car and drove away.

Meena turned around and when she saw the three of us her face brightened. Now, Alex. What are you doing here?

I was going fishing. I was thinking maybe Julia and Lenny would like to come.

Were you going by yourself?

No ma’am. I replied. I was meeting Filip.

I don’t think I have a pole for them. Meena said.

We can share. I reasoned.

Meena looked at her granddaughters. You can go if you want to, but be back for dinner.

The girls nodded and we walked out of the house. Picking up my pole and my box, I led the girls towards my favorite fishing spot. The air was brisk as we walked through the tall grass, the trees and mountains rising up around us.

Where are we going? Julia asked.

The river. I replied. But first we need some worms.

Ewww. Julia said crinkling her nose. What for?

For the fish.

The fish? Lenny questioned.

Yeah. I said as we reached the bank. For them to eat.

I looked down at the ground, damp from the morning rain and moved some of the wet dirt. Ah-ha!

Julia squealed at the wiggling worms in my hand. What are you going to do with those?

I stuffed them in my pocket and continued forward down the bank, the gurgling stream meeting our ears. Use them as bait of course.

Alex! I heard Filip call. What took you so long? He came around the bend and his face fell. You brought girls?

They’ve never gone fishing before.

So? Filip glowered at me. Girls can’t fish!

I shrugged. Maybe they can. I pulled out a worm from my pocket and handed it to him before pulling out another one for my own hook.

What are you doing? Julia screeched as I hooked the worm. You’re hurting it!

What do you think’s gonna happen when the fish eats it?

Julia’s mouth dropped open.

I shook my head and looked at Lenny. She was merely curious. I tossed out my line and then handed the pole to her. Here. If it starts to wiggle, it means we have a fish and need to pull it in.

She nodded but said nothing, her eyes intent and focused on the pole in her hand.

Julia. I said. Want to get more worms?

The blonde rolled her eyes. Gross. No. She plopped down in the dirt and watched the river.

Uh. Alex? Lenny’s small voice came through. The pole is shaking.

I walked over and together we reeled in a good-sized trout. Way to go! I gave her a high five and then tossed the fish in our bucket.

Even Julia came over to inspect the catch. So, what are you going to do with it now?

Take it home and eat it of course. Filip said in annoyance. I knew he was mad I let girls invade our fishing day, but I didn’t care.

You’d eat that? Julia retorted.

You’ve never had fish?

Julia put her hand on her hip. Yes, just not like that.

Well, you’d have to fillet it first and get all the bones out. Filip said. Duh.

Julia stuck her tongue out at him and then gave a sly grin. I think there’s a fish trying to take your pole down the river.

Filip looked over at his pole that was coming loose from the ground he had stuck it in and ran towards it. It came loose just as he reached it and he dove to keep it from going in the river. Quickly, he reeled in another trout and triumphantly held it up.

Julia laughed at Filip caked in mud and leaves from his dive. His hair was matted to his face and he glared at her. Let’s see you catch a fish!

Fine! Julia’s chin went up and her eyes blazed. She stood up and took a step. And then slipped in the mud and landed on her face. Aaagghhh! She growled as she pulled herself up, mud streaking her blonde hair.

I laughed and soon felt mud collide with my face.

Still funny? Julia challenged.

Yep. I said, throwing dirt back. Soon it was an all out mud battle.

When we stopped to catch our breath and a few more fish, Filip grinned at me. I guess girls aren’t so bad. At least these ones aren’t.

I grinned in agreement.

I can’t do this. Lenny cried out. My feet barely touch the pedals! She threw the bike down in anger. I’ll never get to ride with you and Julia.

Yes, you can. I insisted. And you will. I picked up the bike and handed it to her.

She looked at me unconvinced.

Come on.

Lenny held onto the bike, her shoulders slumped. I wish my dad was here.

You never knew your dad. I reminded her.

Or my mom.

I placed my hands over her white knuckles gripping tightly to the handlebars.

I could wait another year. She said stubbornly. It’s not that big of a deal.

Stop being such a baby. I said.

She scoffed. I’m not a baby! I’m 8!

Then let’s do this so we can all ride bikes together.

She sighed.

I looked at her. I’m sorry that your parents aren’t here to teach you, but as your honorary brother and friend, I want you to ride bikes with me. It’ll be fun.

The all too familiar look crossed her features. It went from a look of uncertainty to one of determination. It started after the first time we went fishing and it was inspiring to see.

She straightened her shoulders and held her chin high. Pulling herself on the bike, she started to pedal as I held onto the back.  After a few, knowing she had it, I let go and watched her take off.

Pedaling faster, I shook my head with a smile on my face watching her. Suddenly, I saw her hit some loose gravel and lose control. I started running towards her as the wheel went one way and then the other before she screamed and flew off the bike, rolling down the embankment.

Lenny! I cried out, my heart racing. Are you okay?

Running down the hill, I slid next to her as she sat up, her face flushed. Are you hurt?

She giggled. No. Let’s do it again!

I internally groaned.

With determination, she got up and went back over to her bike. Looking it over and seeing it was okay, she started to climb back on.

Hold up there, Daredevil. I said, following her. You may want to get the tree out of your hair first.

She shook her head, flying pieces of dirt, leaves and grass all around me.

You’re making it worse! I laughed as I tried to help her.

What do you care? She asked in challenge. Messy hair or not, I’ll still beat you down the street!

You’re on! I ran to go get my bike. Moments later I returned, my bike in tow. You sure you’re ready for this?

Yes. I can do this. Her green eyes twinkled.

Ready…. set…  I took off like a shot, laughing as I did.

Cheater! She yelled behind me and I heard her coming up behind me. I pedaled faster to stay ahead of her.

Lenny! Julia’s voice called out from down the street. Grandma says it’s time to come home for dinner!

We both slowed down and I grinned at her as our bikes stopped. I guess that means you lose!

Not a chance! She said. I demand a rematch!

Alex! Mom’s voice called. Time to come in!

We looked at each other, our eyes twinkled.

Race you to our houses? She said.

You’re on!

This time, she didn’t wait and I found myself racing to catch up to her, my heart doing funny things as I fought to catch up.

You like her. Filip said as he tossed me the football.

What? I said, catching the ball easily. My eyes veered off towards Lenny who was with Julia playing on the monkey bars at the school. It was a fall day and school had just ended.

You like Lenny.

Nah. I said dismissively throwing the ball back. She’s like a little sister.

Julia then?

I shook my head.

Then what gives? Filip asked. You’re always with them.

Their dad’s gone. Their mom left. All they have is Meena. I’m like a brother to them. I replied. And I’m not always with them.

Most of the time. Filip said. Especially Lenny. If it were me, I’d go after Julia.

I raised an eyebrow at him.

What? Filip asked defensively, the ball coming back in a perfect spiral. She’s cute.

And bossy.

Yeah, I like that in a woman.

I snorted, tossing the ball back to Filip.

Hey, Alex. I turned to see Meena walking up the street waving at me. Can you get the girls for me?

I nodded. Sure.

Thank you! Meena turned and started heading back towards home.

Hey, monkeys! Your granny says it’s time for dinner! I waved at them, Lenny upside down on the monkey bars. She scrambled to get up and I saw her slip, tumbling to the ground.

Julia was laughing as I came over to help Lenny up.  Shut up, Julia. You should take care of your little sister when she’s hurt. Are you okay, Lenore?

She nodded. It just hurts. I want Mama.

Julia looked ashamed and squatted down next to me and Lenny. Mama left, Lenny. She can’t take care of us anymore.

I took her elbow and helped her up. But I will. I ignored the look that Filip gave from the side. He shrugged and started to walk away with a smirk on his lips.

And so will I. And so will Granny.

She sniffled and gave a small nod as we walked back home.

Meena opened the door. Oh, my dear little one, what happened?

She fell off the monkey bars. I replied.

But you’ll be right as rain in no time. Meena said as she wiped away her tears. You’re strong and tough. Stronger than you think.

I watched Lenny’s look turn from downcast to determination and felt my heart turn over again. Maybe I did like her, not that I would ever let Filip know that.

Hey, sport. Dad came by as he got home from work and ruffled my hair. I got something for you.

Really? My eyes lit up.

Go outside and check it out.

I scrambled from my spot at the table, homework long forgotten, and ran outside. A basketball hoop graced the top of our garage. Turning, I saw Dad standing there with a basketball in his hand and a grin.

Wanna play?

Homework first. Mom warned, coming up behind Dad.

Dad grinned. That’s okay. I have to change first.

Running back inside, I finished my homework in record speed before going and changing myself.

I heard the bouncing of the ball and knew my dad was ready as well. Opening the front door, I watched as Dad took a shot and it swished through the net perfectly.

Wow.

Dad looked at me. Ready to try?

Yeah!

Taking the ball, I shot it up and it bounced off the rim.

Close! Try it like this. Dad showed me the proper way to shoot the basketball and added. I used to play a lot in high school. It was my favorite thing to do.

He tossed me the ball and I shot it up again, this time it bounced off the backboard and went in.

Great job! Dad praised, giving me a high five. Now we just need to keep practicing.

It became a nightly ritual after that day of us playing basketball together. Sometimes Lenny joined. She was pretty good. Julia came over once, but she just watched. She wasn’t into sports, unlike Lenny who loved the challenge. Filip and Devin would also come, and sometimes we’d play teams. But the best times were when it was just me and my dad shooting hoops.

I sat by the river and watched the fishing line sitting stoic in the water. The sun was hiding behind the tall mountains and the luscious green trees making it cooler at my fishing spot.

Chewing on the end of a reed, I laid back and stared at the blue sky, not wanting to think about summer ending. My birthday was coming up, too, but eleven wasn’t anything to get too excited about.

I pulled out some twigs and started randomly weaving them together.

A rustling behind me caused me to sit up abruptly, turning. My eyes pierced through the trees.

Boo!

I jumped as Lenny poked me from the other way and then proceeded to dissolve into a fit of giggles.

You didn’t even hear me! She laughed.

Yeah, yeah. I said, my heart still racing. You’re sneaky.

Why are you so grumpy? She asked as she plopped down next to me.

I’m not. I said, focusing back on my fishing line.

Yeah, you are. Lenny poked me.

What are you doing here anyway?

Lenny shrugged. Julia’s moody. Granny’s making a cake and I was bored. So, I went for a walk. I saw you sitting here by yourself and…

You figured you’d come scare the crap out of me?

Actually, I was thinking it would be fun to fish.

Where’s your pole?

Lenny jerked her head towards the tree. Over there.

How you gonna fish if it’s over there?

She gave me a look as she got up and followed the small trail to the tree.

I looked down at the twig creation in my hand and gave a sly grin. Lenny! The frog prince has given you a gift!

I watched as her eyes lit up and she skipped down the trail to meet me. A prince?

I dangled the twigs and branches I had wrapped in a perfect circle and dangled it from my fingers. Slimy algae, caked mud and leaves stuck to its exterior.

Lenny crinkled her nose. I thought she looked cute. Surprised by my thought, I stuffed the emotion down quickly. She was nothing more than a little sister.

That’s not a gift from a prince. She said.

Of course, it is. I said sensibly. The frog prince. You don’t want to insult him by not accepting his gift, Lenny.

I watched as her lips pursed in contemplation. A moment later, she shook her head. You’re the frog, Alex, definitely not a prince!

I laughed and then shouted, Ribbit! I jumped toward her, the muddy tree branch still in my hand.  Ribbit!

She giggled and ran as I chased her around the trees. Ribbits echoing in my wake.

Lenny came around a tree and then suddenly pointed. You got a fish I think!

We ran over together and reeled in the line. After the fish was safely in my bucket, we sat down in comfortable silence, staring at the river.

What’s really wrong, Len? I asked, breaking the quiet.

I heard her sigh. It’s Mama’s birthday. She laid back in the dirt and stared at the blue sky. It’s like everyone is starting to forget about her. Like she will never come back. But she will. I’m sure of it. Lenny looked at me, her emerald eyes filled with tears. Wherever she is, she’s spending her birthday alone and I don’t want her to think no one cares.

A lone solitary tear fell down her cheek and I reached over and caught it with my finger before putting my arm around her. But you care and I’m sure wherever she is she knows that.

She leaned against me as silence came over us again.

Swish. The ball sliced through the net with ease and I grinned at the perfect shot. Dad was running late and I wanted to be ready for when he got home. He promised we were going to play today.

Lucky shot. Filip said as he took the ball and made his shot. It bounced off the backboard and skirted into the street with Filip running after it.

You going to try out for the team this year? Filip asked, jogging back. We finally can have our own team now that we’re twelve.

I think so. I replied. Dad said I should. He says my three pointers are killer.

You should. Filip said as he took another shot. It twirled around the rim before falling through the net. With those shots, we’d be unstoppable. But how’s your dribbling? He grinned.

Better than your defense! I challenged as I charged at him and we took off in a fierce game until a police car pulled into my driveway. We watched as the officer came out of the car and walked over to us, halting our game.

Hello, boys.

Sir. We said in unison.

Do you live here?

I do, sir. I said, my heart sinking.

Is your mother home?

I swallowed hard and nodded slowly. Running back to the house, I shouted. Mom!

Mom came to the door and at the sight of the officer, her hand went over her chest.

A strange ringing started in my ears as I watched tears fill my mother’s eyes and slowly fall down her cheeks. I put my hand over my ears, my heart beating rapidly, and then I lost all support in my legs. I felt Filip grab my arm just as I fell to the ground.

The casket carrying my father’s body dipped further into the earth until I couldn’t see it any longer. Tears streaked down my face as I held Mom’s hand. My grandmother was on the other side.

Looking across the grave, I saw Lenny, Julia and Meena standing there. Julia’s face was pale as she stared down and clutched Meena's hand. In contrast, Lenny held her head high, her raven hair framing her face. She didn’t look at the casket, instead she looked at me. Holding my gaze, she gave me a small smile.

I gave her a weak one back, wishing I could go talk to her. She had barely left my side since my world had been turned upside down. Her, Filip, and Julia. They had been with me ever since that officer came by to tell us that my father had been involved in a car accident and didn’t survive. The drunk driver that had hit him head on had walked away without a scratch.

Sighing, we left the cemetery. Back at the house, I sat quietly in a corner while people mingled and expressed their condolences, eating food that overflowed our counters and table. How could anyone eat at this time? I didn’t want their condolences. I didn’t want their food. I wanted my dad!

Filip and my friend Devin came by, but said nothing as they sat by me. Julia and Lenny also sat with me. Meena was in the kitchen with Mom and Grandma helping them with all the food and whatever else she could.

The house was quiet, everyone talking in low tones. As if speaking normal would somehow make it seem like the tragedy never happened. Somehow diminish my father’s memory.

It couldn’t.

My mind drifted. I could still see his smile. His excitement when I caught my first fish. The joy he had when we played basketball. All that was taken away in an instant because of one man’s stupidity.

Thinking of that man who could continue living while my father did not caused anger to course through my veins and tears to flood my eyes.

My anger dissipated as I felt a hand reach over and touch mine. I looked over and Lenny looked at me, her green eyes filled with sorrow.

It’s okay to be angry and sad. She said.

Julia took my other hand. We’ll be here to help you.

We’re here too. Filip added and Devin nodded.

That night, I couldn’t sleep. Throwing the covers off, I went to my window and flung it open. Climbing out, I walked down to the river. Sitting down, I laid back and watched the stars, putting my hand behind my head absently and pulling at the dead grass next to me with the other hand. The cool fall breeze washed over me and I inhaled deeply, its musky scent washing over me as I closed my eyes.

I felt a presence come and sit beside me. How’d you know I was here?

Saw you leave and wanted to make sure you were okay. Lenny responded.

I’m fine.

No, you’re not. Lenny said. And that’s okay. Your dad died. You don’t have to be okay right now.

How’d you get so smart for being ten?

She didn’t respond.

I opened my eyes and peered over at her. She was sitting next to me, hugging her knees, her cheek resting on them as she watched me.

Propping myself up on an elbow, I asked. Do you think my dad is in heaven?

You think there is a heaven? She countered.

I sighed. I don’t know.

I don’t either. She said honestly. Granny says there is. I see her reading a big book sometimes. But I’m just not sure. If there is, I’m sure your dad is there watching over you.

I reached over and took her hand, enjoying the feel of it in mine, and then laid back down. We went silent, watching the stars peering through the trees until I felt her shudder slightly from the cooling mountain air sweeping through.

Let’s go. I pulled myself up, my hand still in hers, and we began walking back home.

Thanks, Lenny. I said, letting go of her hand as we reached our houses, immediately missing her touch.

For what?

Being my friend.

I’ll always be your friend, Alex.

I came home and tugged angrily at the tie like it was choking me. Throwing it on my bed, I kicked at the wall. Two years! That’s all they gave the man that killed my father. Two years in prison for murdering him. It was infuriating!

Hearing the commotion, Mom came in and stood quietly next to the door. Grandma made us some apple pancakes.

I’m not hungry.

It might help.

It hasn’t helped for the past few months, I don’t think it will help now.

Mom came in and sat down on my unmade bed. I know the trial didn’t go well today, but we need to forgive him for what happened to your father.

I glared at her.

Don’t act like you are the only one hurting, Alexander. I miss him, too.

It hurts, Mom.

Mom wrapped her arms around me and let me cry.

I hate him. I said after a moment, my mourning turning into anger. I hate what that man did to our family!

And that hate is only hurting you. Mom said pointedly.

He’s not even getting punished for what he did! The anger welling up within me now.

Mom looked at me with sorrowful eyes. I understand your anger, but it’s going to eat you up if you let it. We have to find a way to forgive.

I shook my head, her words barely registering in my hurting soul.

Standing up, Mom kissed my forehead. I love you, Alex. Don’t forget that I’m still here for you. She got up and left the room.

I slammed the door in her wake and climbed out my window. It was cold and threatened snow, the winter air coming sooner this year. I didn’t care. It fit my mood.

Sitting outside, I pulled my knees up to my chest and let the anger simmer within my chest.

I heard the crunching of the dried grass as Julia came up from her yard, wearing designer jeans, a large sweater and heavy boots. Her hair was tucked in a loose braid.

She sat down next to me and said, Didn’t go well, huh?

I shook my head.

Her braided blonde hair waved loose with the shake of her head. Ridiculous. The guy killed your dad and he gets off?

He didn’t get entirely off. He has to serve time.

Really? Julia looked at me pointedly. How much time?

Two years.

Ridiculous. She muttered again. Eye for an eye. Someone should go kill him.

Julia! Lenny came up, her jaw dropping. Taking a life for a life isn’t the answer!

Oh really, little sis? Julia said wryly. And what is? Just forgetting about it?

No.

So, what’s your grand idea? What would help Alex feel better?

I don’t think someone else dying would help him feel better, Julia. Lenny snapped.

How would you know? I snapped back. Maybe I would feel better. Especially if I killed him myself. It’s not like your parents are dead. They just abandoned you!

Lenny looked like I slapped her and I instantly wished I could stuff the words back in my mouth. Even Julia’s petite mouth dropped.

Lenny’s lips quivered before she turned on her heel and walked away.

Julia turned to me, her eyes flashing. That was low, Alex.

I’m sorry, Julia.

She held her hands up. Hey, I get it. You’re mad and you’re not the only one that is. We were abandoned. First by our father and then by our mother. I’m sure Granny will soon, too. Maybe that makes it worse. We know they’re still out there and just don’t want to be with us.

I’m sure that’s not true.

Julia shrugged. Prove me wrong. There’s not one person we can rely on.

You have me.

For now.

She was hard and bitter. It was sad to see such a beauty on the outside be so calloused inside. But I could understand. My bitterness towards the man who killed my father was turning me hard and callous as well.

Lenny is softer than us. She has more heart.

What’s that supposed to mean? I asked.

Julia sighed. Our parents leaving still hurts her. It doesn’t hurt me anymore.

You think I don’t care about my dad’s death?

I think you have a different way of looking at it. You want to take vengeance. So would I. Lenny would want you to have compassion. That’s why what you said hurt her so much. But don’t worry about Lenny. Julia said as she stood up. She’ll get over it. She’s tough. She pointed a threatening finger at me. But if you hurt her again, I may just have to punch you. No one hurts my little sister. Julia started to turn away and then stopped. I’m glad she got over that little crush she had on you.

My head shot up. She had a crush on me?

Surely you noticed! Julia laughed. Why else was she following you around?

We’re friends.

Obviously.  Julia looked at me curiously. You don’t mean that…

No. I said standing up. Just took me by surprise is all.

Julia chuckled as she walked away and I wondered if this crush was at the same time that I was wondering about my own feelings.

Chapter 3

I sat on the bench and stared at the basketball on the court, itching to go and play but not able to get myself out there. School had ended and I found myself here. Mostly looking for Lenny. I caught one of her friends after school who stated that Lenny mentioned she was going to shoot some baskets before heading home.

It had been a week since my outburst and she was avoiding me. I hadn’t had a chance to apologize because every time I tried, she would go the other direction or have Meena say she wasn’t home. Julia was no help. She would give me non-subtle and very smug I told you so looks whenever I asked.

I was just about to give up and leave the gym when I saw her come in alone, bouncing the ball as she did. She didn’t notice me sitting on the bleachers watching her. She came up to the free throw line and dribbled a few times before making the shot. Then she went in for a perfect layup, before back to the free throw. For 10, she had incredible natural athletic ability. My dad had commented on it more than once when we played together.

I stuffed the reminder of my dad down and turned my focus back to the black-haired girl.

A few baskets later, I called out, Nice shot.

Lenny turned to face me as I came down the bleachers. Her eyes narrowed and I received a glare before she turned back. What do you want, Alex? She asked as she made another shot. This one banked and she ran after it.

I stuffed my hands in my pockets. I’ve been trying to talk to you.

I know. Lenny said, still not looking at me. I didn’t want to talk to you.

Yeah, I caught that.

Did you? Lenny asked pointedly.

Listen, I’m sorry for what I said. It wasn’t right. It was mean. I was hurting and took it out on you and I’m sorry.

Lenny turned and looked at me.

I don’t know what happened with your parents, but they were fools to leave you and Julia. Just know that I will never abandon you. I’ll always be here for you.

She dropped the basketball then and came over to me. Thank you. She then wrapped me in a hug that made my heart turn over.

Lenny let go and then retrieved her basketball. Wanna play?

I shook my head.

Why not? Lenny cocked her head to the side. You love to play and you’re good!

Not anymore.

Why? She threw the basketball up and it bounced off the rim.

Drop it, Lenny.

Grabbing the ball, she came over to me. What’s going on?  Then her mouth stopped at an oh. That was your thing with your dad. It’s what you loved to do together.

I looked at her.

You don’t want to play anymore because it reminds you of your dad.

You’re pretty smart for being so little.

She threw the ball at me and I automatically caught it.

Don’t you think your dad would like you to keep on with it, knowing how you loved it? You could do it in memory of him.

I stared at the ball, spinning it around in my hands, feeling the rubber on my fingers. Then I sat down, still holding it. I don’t know.

You could try. Lenny said, sitting down cross-legged next to me.

I miss him so much. I admitted, my voice choking slightly. I keep expecting him to come back.

I understand. Lenny said, pulling her knees up to her. I pretty much believe that my parents aren’t coming back. I didn’t know my dad, but my mom…. we don’t even know where she is or if she’s alive. But she would want me to keep going, so that’s what I’m going to do and I think your dad would, too. She tapped the ball in my hands. Maybe shooting a basket is a way to start. Standing up, she looked at me wryly. Although it may hurt if you lose to a girl.

A small grin escaped. Like I could lose to you, Kaminski.

Prove it.

I spun the ball in my hands again and stood up. Prepare to get slaughtered, little girl.

Her eyes sparkled as she came over to me faster than I was ready and bumped the ball out of my hand. Bring it on, old man.

We engaged in a fierce one on one battle. She was quicker than I was, but my outer shots were more on point.

Hey! We turned to see the janitor watching us with a mop in his hand. You kids need to head on home now. Snow’s coming in and I need to get this place cleaned up.

Sorry, Geoff. Lenny said. Let me just grab my stuff and we will get going.

No problem, Lenny girl.

Lenny ran into the locker room.

Geoff turned to me. Take care of that girl. She’s as sweet as they come.

She’s just my friend. I smiled at the spot where Lenny had disappeared. My best friend.

She’s always kind to me. Geoff said. Many people aren’t so kind to the cleaning crew. But she always makes sure to say hello and thank you when she sees me. It’s a special person that does that.

She is special like that.

Lenny came bouncing out of the locker room a moment later. Thanks, Geoff. Sorry if we kept you.

It’s okay. Looked like you were giving this boy a run for his money.

A few more minutes and I would’ve had him!

I scoffed as I went and retrieved my backpack from the bleachers. Not even close! I was annihilating you!

Shaking her head, Lenny started walking towards the door. Not how I saw it. I was completely beating you!

We opened the door and began walking home together. Small snowflakes started falling from the sky like twinkling glitter.

Do you feel better? Lenny asked.

About?

Playing basketball.

I stopped for a moment and she stopped with me, waiting for my response. I stared at her. The snow was landing in her dark hair causing it to sparkle. Her cheeks were flushed a slight pink from the cold. She looked cute actually.

I must’ve paused too long because her face turned uncertain. I’m sorry. I should not have pushed you.

No. I quickly reassured her. I’m glad you did. You were right. Dad would want me to continue on. He’d be pushing me to play and have fun, not be so sad. Thank you.

A full smile crossed her features and brightened her face giving me a sudden desire to kiss her.

Where did that come from?

I cleared my throat and started walking again. I’m really sorry again for what I said.

She shrugged.

Do you still miss your mom?

Yes.

Do you ever hear from her?

Lenny bit her lip. The letters stopped last year. We don’t know why. Julia keeps thinking she’s dead.

We reached her house, the snow falling harder now. Don’t let Julia’s negativity and bitterness get to you. Maybe something happened and she just can’t reach out.

Maybe.

Lenny! Meena stood at the doorway. Where have you been?

I’m sorry, Meena. I said before Lenny could say anything. It’s my fault. We were playing basketball at the school gym and lost track of time.

Meena looked at me and nodded. I’m just glad you both are safe. Alex, you better get home. I know your mother was looking for you.

I nodded. See you later, Lenny. I ducked through their backyard to my own and then went past to the front door. Pounding my snow filled boots in the entryway, I heard my mother come running in from the kitchen.

Alex! Where have you been?

Sorry, Mom. I was playing basketball with Lenny at the school gym and lost track of time.

You were playing basketball?

Yes.

Mom smiled at me. Well, come get some dinner and warm up. But next time, let me know what’s going on. I don’t want to be worried about you like that.

I nodded at her as I walked into the kitchen to the smell of bigos, my favorite stew, invading my nostrils. It was weird living in a house where I was the only man. I felt the weight of that as I sat with my grandmother, who was now a permanent fixture in the house, and my mother. I needed to be able to protect them. Which meant I needed to not wallow any longer. I needed to do as Lenny said, keep moving forward.

Thank you. I said.

The women looked at me.

I’m going to do better to not be so sad and angry. To keep moving forward, like Dad would’ve wanted.

Mom gave me a sad smile and took my hand. What brought this on?

Lenny was talking to me about it and reminding me that Dad wouldn’t want me to be sad all the time, but to live life.

Smart girl. Grandma said.

Yeah. I took a spoonful of stew and shoved it in my mouth. She is.

The next couple of years were growth and hormones. Julia grew into a beautiful woman and at 14 her long blonde hair had every guy in our freshman class and even some of the upper class turn their heads. Even I noticed the shapely curves and figure that she was getting, though it didn’t affect me like it did some of the other guys in our friend group.

Man, Filip came and leaned against my locker. He ran is fingers through his red hair and gave a large sigh. Julia is looking so fine.

Why don’t you just ask her out already?

Why don’t you?

I slammed my locker shut and looked at him. Why would I?

Don’t you two have a thing?

My look turned confused. Who said that?

She’s been hanging around you since the beginning of the year.

We’re friends and we live next door to each other.

Filip gave me an elbow nudge. Girl next door, eh?

Not like that.

So, her little sister then?

I rolled my eyes, not willing to admit I was struggling with how I felt where Lenny was concerned. They’re both like my sisters.

But they’re not. Filip reasoned. And if I were you, I would go for the blonde.

Good thing I’m not you. I said, giving him a playful shove.

Here she comes. Filip whispered with a wink and then looked behind me. Hey, Julia.

She sighed at Filip, oblivious to his obvious affection. Hey.

What are you up to? He leaned towards her and gave her what he thought was a sexy look. I suppressed a laugh at his attempts.

Her eyebrow rose. I need to talk to Alex. Do you mind?

Not at all. Filip said with a grin, not moving.

Alone.

Filip held his hands up, the grin never leaving his face as he backed away slowly.

What’s up? I asked.

I need a favor. She bit her polished lip.

Yeah?

I need you to go to Lenny’s basketball game with me.

Why?

There’s a guy that's stalking me and as my honorary brother you need to protect me.

He’s going to your sister's game?

Yes. Stalker. Like I said. She put a perfectly manicured finger on my sleeve. Please?

I was planning on going anyway so sure.

You were?

Yeah. Lenny told me about it, and as her honorary brother I was going to support her.

Fine. Let’s go. She looped her arm through mine and led me out of the high school. Julia grinned as we walked out and headed to the middle school gym. As we sat down on the bleachers, she glanced at me.

You really didn’t notice, did you?

Notice what?

The way all the girls looked at you on the way out and then again when we walked here.

I was confused. How did they look at me?

Come on, Alex! You’re hot and they get excited to see you.

Okay….

What do you think about me?

My head swiveled so fast I got a neck cramp. What?

Julia smiled brightly, dimples deepening in her cheeks. She nervously tucked a strand of hair behind her ear and then reached over and stroked my cheek. All these years, have you ever thought about me and you?

I choked. Ummmm. What had gotten into her?

Julia laughed and leaned against me. Don’t think anything of it, Alex.

So, where’s this stalker of yours?

Julia looked around. Oh…well. I don’t see him.

Right.

The game started and I watched as Lenny expertly handled the ball and led her team with agility and authority. I was vaguely aware that Julia was still leaning against me, though my eyes were focused on her sister.

At one point, Lenny took an elbow to the nose and I found myself up on my feet making sure she was okay. Lenny furiously wiped her nose before clapping her hands to cheer her team on.

I sat back down once I knew she was fine.

Julia looked at me, a sly grin crossing her face. "What was that? Were you going to