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Bad Intentions
Bad Intentions
Bad Intentions
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Bad Intentions

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“[A] penetrating tale of a falling-out among conspirators” from the author of The Water’s Edge and winner of the Los Angeles Times Book Prize (Kirkus Reviews).

In the wake of Stieg Larsson’s bestselling novels, readers are discovering the rich trove of modern Scandinavian crime fiction. If you’ve devoured the Millennium trilogy and are looking for your next read, Karin Fossum and her bone-chillingly bleak psychological thrillers have won the admiration of the likes of Ruth Rendell and Colin Dexter (of Inspector Morse fame). 

In Bad Intentions, Konrad Sejer must face down his memories and fears as he struggles to determine why the corpses of troubled young men keep surfacing in local lakes. 

The first victim, Jon Moreno, was getting better. His psychiatrist said so, and so did his new friend at the hospital, Molly Gram, with her little-girl-lost looks. He was racked by a mysterious guilt that had driven him to a nervous breakdown one year earlier. But when he drowns in Dead Water Lake, Sejer hesitates to call it a suicide. 

Then another corpse is found in a lake, a Vietnamese immigrant. And Sejer begins to feel his age weigh on him. Does he still have the strength to pursue the elusive explanations for human evil?

This e-book includes a sample chapter of The Murder of Harriet Krohn.

“An intimate study of broken lives that showcases Fossum’s poet past.” —Bloomberg

“Fascinatingly readable and very cleverly done.” —Colin Dexter, author of the Inspector Morse series

“A bracingly pleasurable experience . . . [Fossum] keeps her cut-to-the-bone mystery moving briskly.” —Independent

“A gem.” —The Guardian
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Release dateAug 9, 2011
ISBN9780547519425
Bad Intentions
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Karin Fossum

KARIN FOSSUM is the author of the internationally successful Inspector Konrad Sejer crime series. Her recent honors include a Gumshoe Award and the Los Angeles Times Book Prize for mystery/thriller. She lives in Norway.

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  • Rating: 2 out of 5 stars
    2/5
    What the … ? This was a very disappointing entry in the Inspector Sejer series. Three young men are spending the weekend in a lake cabin, and one dies. The other two come up with a version of events that points to suicide. About halfway through the book, the young men are linked to another crime. The details unfold in a very predictable way. There’s no drama, no twist, just one long reveal.I had several problems with this book. There really wasn’t a mystery; it’s apparent from the beginning that the young men are trouble. Inspector Sejer and his partner are peripheral characters and don’t even solve the crime. I guess this was intended to be more of a psychological thriller, but it failed in that regard as well. The young men were one-dimensional characters who did not earn any sympathy. The translation of these novels can be clunky at times, so I can only hope this book is better in the original Norwegian.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    The question in this excellent thriller by Karen Fossum isn't who, but what, and the suspense is gripping. The first act puts us at woodland cabin next to a lake, where three young men venture out onto the water in a small boat. One falls, or jumps, in: the others do not attempt to save him, but go back to shore and "discover" in the morning that their comrade is missing. The dead young man was under intense psychological pressure related to a recent unspecified incident involving all three. Did it drive him to suicide, and what was it? That's the question that the book explores, with the relentless Inspector Sejer becoming more and more convinced that the two men who survive are guilty of a crime. It is fascinating and compelling to follow the gradual peeling back of the facts in the case, and of the personalities and pasts of people in the case. Very low key, but a powerful read nonetheless.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Three friends go away for a weekend, but when one of them takes his life in front of his friends, a hidden and terrible past is forced to the surface. Very different mystery that at the same time does and does not have any guilty characters. The mental processes of the characters are at the forefront in this one, and, as usual, Fossum is very clever at making her characters real and relatable, even if the mystery itself isn't exactly flummoxing. Especially the mothers' connection made this a rewarding read - nice to come away from a mystery with some slight sense of "feel-good."
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    A very good read. Karin Fossum is one of the most well known Scandinavian writers of mystery. Bad Intentions is a tale of 'why' a crime was committed rather than a 'who.' The story's focus is a psychopathic charmer who inveigles two friends into his heinous deeds and to the disastrous consequences for all three.The book is one a series with Inspector Sejer as the leading Investigator.
    Recommended to all who enjoy mysteries.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Things are not always what they seem. This is a lesson that can be learned in this psychological mystery. Although it is listed as part of the Inspector Sejer series, it is not a police procedural and moves along almost without the intervention of the police.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    Just okay. We had no electricity, hotter than hell and it gave me something to doBook DescriptionRelease date: August 14, 2012 | Series: Inspector Sejer (Book 8)"An intimate study of broken lives that showcases Fossum’s poet past." —BloombergIn this chilling addition to the internationally best-selling Inspector Konrad Sejer series, the detective must face down his memories and fears as he investigates the deaths of two troubled young men. The first victim, Jon Moreno, was getting better after a mysterious guilt had driven him to a nervous breakdown one year earlier. His psychiatrist said so, as did his new friend at the hospital, Molly Gram, with her little-girl-lost looks. So when he drowns in Dead Water Lake, Sejer hesitates to call it a suicide.Then the corpse of another young man is found, a Vietnamese immigrant. And Sejer begins to feel his age weigh on him. Does he still have the strength to pursue the elusive explanations for human evil? A harrowing, masterfully wrought mystery from the celebrated Karin Fossum.“Fascinatingly readable and very cleverly done.” —Colin Dexter, author of the Inspector Morse series Show less
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Detectives Sejer and Skarra take a back seat psychologically in this riveting novel of three friends. Jon is severely depressed and Alex and Reilly decide to sign him out of the mental hospital for a trip to their cabin in the woods near Dead Water Lake. Jon takes anti-anxiety pills every hour and suffers from paranoia, but what does he have to fear from his friends? They decide to go out in the boat at night during a full moon and suddenly Jon stands and falls overboard. Neither Alex nor Reilly do anything, knowing that in his heavy boots and coat, and being unable to swim there is little they could accomplish anyway. Rather than have to answer a lot of questions, Alex decides it would be best if they simply said he wondered off in the morning and they have no idea where he might be. So they call for help the following morning. But why, wonders Detective Sajer, since Jon cold not swim, would his body wind up 100 meters from the shore?

    When another body is discovered in a different lake nearby, Sajer and Skarra know there must be a connection but ultimately the dots are connected by the boys themselves. Not really a police procedural since Sejer and Skarra spend most of their time musing rather than investigating. The relationship between the mothers of the two boys seemed almost irrelevant to the story, but it remains an excellent examination of evil, conscience, and charisma.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    When an institutionalized young man, suffering from a nervous condition, is found at the bottom of Dead Water lake after a night camping out with 2 of his friends, a verdict of suicide, is released. However, Inspector Sejer is not convinced that foul play didn't have a hand in his death, despite evidence to the contrary. There's just something about the way he died, and the statements made by the man's therapist and girlfriend, which didn't seem to indicate he was in the frame of mind to do away with his own life. But when the body of a Vietnamese man surfaces, a very tenuous link emerges and the pressure Inspector Sejer puts on 2 individuals brings out cracks in stories and accelerating panic which culminates in a surprising end. This is a much leaner book in the Inspector Sejer series, but no less complex and enjoyable. In this, the author focuses on 3 main characters, and identifies the culprits from the start. But what she keeps from us, is the mystery behind the roles they play in each others' lives and the secret they share which needs to be kept at all costs. The psychological anguish a heavy guilt lays on a couple of the characters and the escapism they adopt to cope is well analyzed in this story.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    My first of this series (Konrad Sejer)but he didn't have a very big role in the story. It didn't need him - the story grabbed my attention quickly and never let go. The very creepy events begin in Norway at a place called Dead Water Lake where three friends have gone for a weekend retreat. When there is an unexpected accident, more secrets about the friends' past are revealed. Inspector Sejer investigates the incident, but has a limited part. Some of his past is hinted at, making me wish I could read the previous books in the series. Really enjoyed this, even though it's dark and depressing. The characters were interesting and realistic.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    Axel is a sociopath and pathological lier–incidentally also in advertising–who causes the death of a young Vietnamese boy because he doesn't want him to mess up his car if he vomits from being drunk. He convinces his 2 friends to cover it up. This leaves Jon with intractable guilt leading to his suicide and Reilly finally confessing. The novel is spare and bleak but effective.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Karin Fossum is new to me author and another Nordic author who has made her name known in North America. Bad Intentions is the ninth offering in her Inspector Konrad Sejer series. The book opens with three friends spending a weekend at a cabin. Their interactions seem odd and tainted by an alluded to event in the past. The weekend ends with one of them dead. Inspector Sejer and his partner Inspector Jakob Skarre are called in. The victim Jon Moreno had been hospitalized for depression and was out on a weekend pass with his friends. The friends insist he must have been suicidal, but Jon's new girlfriend doesn't agree.I found Fossum's writing to be very stark, spare and almost bleak. Not in a bad way though. It was just a very different take on a crime novel. There weren't long graphic descriptions of the crime. Instead Fossum focuses on the characters, their inner thoughts and psyches, and she does it very, very well. The thought processes of the two friends left alive are the quite frightening part of this book. The event in the past that has affected the lives of these three young men is slowly revealed - I was eager to see what it was.I appreciated the banter between Sejer and Skarre, but felt I didn't really come to know them in this slim novel. They are protagonists I would like to know better - I would pick up another book by Karin Fossum without hesitation
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Fossum manages to cover alot of ground in a short amount of pages. Intersting psychological story about three frieds who make a serious mistake which haunts them in varying degrees. Love these nordic mysteries.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Axel Frimann, Philip Reilly og Jon Moreno er på weekend-tur i en fjeldhytte for at muntre Jon lidt op. De ror ud på søen, Dødvandet. Og Jon begår selvmord ved at kaste sig over bord. Jon har haft et sammenbrud og er på udgang fra en psykiatrisk afdeling.Kriminalkommisær Konrad Sejer synes at der må ligge mere bag. Jacob Skare checker registrene og finder de tre i en forsvindingssag fra i fjor. Jon har ført dagbog. Hans mor læser den og ser at Jon havde meget dårlig samvittighed over et eller andet, men Axel spiller uvidende på en overbevisende måde.Senere finder man i Glittertjern liget af en vietnameser, Kim Van Chau. Han kom ved et tilfælde med til en fest, hvor de tre var med. De er de sidste, der har set ham.Jons veninde fra hospitalet siger at Axel minder hende om en slange, og Reilly om en øgle. Axel arbejder på et reklamebureau og er vældig god til at manipulere med andre.Jon og Kims mor finder sammen og presser Reilly. Han og Axel tager op til Dødvandet og ved en fejl drikker Axel noget af Reilly's flydende narko - kaldet jib - og dør.Reilly fortæller hvad der virkelig skete. Kim var med til festen ved et tilfælde og han tålte ikke alkohol, så han blev vældig fuld. Reilly, Jon og Axel tog ham med i bilen for at køre ham hjem, men puttede ham i bagagerummet for at han ikke skulle brække sig inde i bilen. Da de nåede frem, var han død og de skjulte dødsfaldet ved at putte ham i søen.Reilly kommer i fængsel og har det egentlig godt med at sone sine synder.Bogen er en vældig godt skrevet psykologisk gyser om en dårlig dominoeffekt, der endte med at koste tre mennesker livet.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    "Bad Intentions" is the seventh crime novel in Karin Fossum's Inspector Sejer series. I cannot claim to have read all seven of the novels, but the three I have read so far certainly encourage me to seek out the rest of the series. The books, all of which are set in Norway, are psychological crime novels in which character development and motivation are every bit as important as plot and action. Those enjoying this type of crime fiction will do well to seek out the work of Karin Fossum. Alex, Reilly and Jon have been a trio since they were youngsters. Now that they are young men, Jon is so troubled that he has been confined to a mental health facility for treatment. Alex and Reilly, hoping to ease their friend's mind, get permission to bring him with them for a weekend's outing on remote Dead Water Lake. When tragedy strikes in the middle of the night, and one of the boys drowns in the lake, the other two wait until morning to report the accident. Inspector Sejer, filtering the story about their friend's supposed suicide through his years of experience, senses that something is wrong. Things do not quite add up, but there is little he can do to disprove what Alex and Reilly insist happened that night - until the body of another teen associated with Alex, Reilly and Jon floats to the surface. As Sejer and his assistant, Jacob Skarre, begin to tighten the screws on Alex and Reilly, their best hope is that one of the two will crack long enough to reveal what really happened to the two dead men. Meanwhile, Fossum carries the reader deep into the minds of several secondary characters that have an interest in the outcome of Sejer's investigation. The mothers of the two victims form an unlikely friendship, based at first on nothing but their shared mourning, that surprises both of them with its intensity. The women see their sons as innocent victims of a world gone mad - but only one of them is right about the innocent part. Both of them, however, are determined to learn the truth about their sons' last hours. At the heart of the story is the relationship of Alex and Reilly, a relationship poisoned forever by the loss of Jon. Alex has always called the shots with Reilly and Jon, and he will tolerate no resistance from Reilly now, just when the wrong move can send both of them to prison for the rest of their lives. What really happened on the most important two nights in the lives of four young men is slowly revealed as Fossum allows Alex and Reilly to reveal themselves. Karin Fossum writes rather sparingly (the book is less than 200 pages in length) but she creates such memorable characters, on both sides of the crime equation, that her novels remain with the reader long after the last page is turned.Rated at: 4.0
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    Bad Intentions by Karin Fossum The latest Sejer and Skarre novel by Karin Fossum begins with the death of a troubled young man out with his friends, but soon becomes more complicated as the Swedish detectives unravel the details of the young man’s last remaining months and the shame and guilt that forced him to spiral downward to depression and self destruction. Like other Scandinavian novelists, Fossum takes full advantage of the bleak winter landscape to add to the atmosphere of her novels. Sejer and Skarre are however, fully realized characters whose meticulous investigations compare with the best and most detailed police procedurals. The novel attempts to be more psychological than purely detective and compared to masters like Ruth Rendell and Minette Walters, the third person narrative felt more anecdotal than fully developed. Fossum is the author of the brilliant Indian Bride, which better showcases her talents for character depth and detective fiction
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Another good story with plenty of atmosphere from Karin Fossum.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    Once they were just little kids with skinny legs and pointy knees. How did they become so evil? Any second now Axel’s green Mercedes will appear around the bend. While he waits, he chews his nails. He has bitten them right down. The tips of his fingers are red and sore. He thinks about everything that has happened and about how he is going to move on. He knows he has to make a choice…. But sometimes we need to face reality. And perhaps that is not fair, but nothing about this situation is fair. It’s best to keep my mouth shut, he thinks, I’m protecting Axel and Reilly. They are my friends, and we’re in this together for ever.Despite the fact that it is #7 in Fossum's Inspector Sejer series this is not a police procedural. It is rather a melancholic exploration of the way guilt can tunnel its way through the minds of those who feel it. Jon is the first to break and from then on the slippery slide is inevitable for the others. Who will crack next? And did they actually commit a crime?Sejer and his colleague Skarre seem almost to take a backseat in this novel, observers and prompters to the final undoing: He sat listening to the hum of the police station. He liked being a part of a big engine. He liked interrogating people, he liked spotting the lie when it came. A lie had its own pitch, and over many years he had learned to recognize it. He liked the moment when the confession finally spilled out, when all the cards were on the table and the course of events could be mapped and filed. The story is an exploration too of how sometimes the victims of crime can unexpectedly become allies who force the truth to come out.There is so much to think about in BAD INTENTIONS and it really came up to my expectations.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    Sejer is investigating a missing persons report which turns pretty quickly to a suicide. The person in question is a psychiatric patient found at the bottom of a lake. The rest of the story reveals the cause of death, the events that surround it and the effect on everyone involved. This is my first Sejer mystery. A quick read, it was a little dark for my taste and just seemed to be lacking something.

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First Mariner Books edition 2012

Copyright © 2008 by Karin Fossum

English translation copyright © 2010 by Charlotte Barslund

ALL RIGHTS RESERVED

First published with the title Den onde viljen in 2008 by J. W. Cappelens Forlag AS, Oslo

First published in Great Britain in 2010 by Harvill Secker

For information about permission to reproduce selections from this book, write to Permissions, Houghton Mifflin Harcourt Publishing Company, 215 Park Avenue South, New York, New York 10003.

www.hmhco.com

The Library of Congress has cataloged the print edition as follows:

Fossum, Karin, date.

[Den onde viljen. English]

Bad intentions / Karin Fossum ; translated from the Norwegian

by Charlotte Barslund.—1st U.S. ed.

p. cm.

ISBN 978-0-547-48334-4

ISBN 978-0-547-73741-6 (pbk.)

1. Sejer, Konrad (Fictitious character)—Fiction. 2. Murder—Investigation—Fiction.

3. Problem youth—Fiction. 4. Police—Norway—Fiction. I. Barslund, Charlotte.

II. Title.

PT8951.16.O735D4413 2011

839.8'238—dc22 2010049773

eISBN 978-0-547-51942-5

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THE LAKE, WHICH WAS commonly known as Dead Water, lay like a well between steep mountains, and anyone who tried to wade into it would sink up to their knees in its soft mud. On the shore, partially hidden by spruce trees, sat a small log cabin. Axel Frimann was looking out of the window. It was almost midnight on September 13 and the moon cast a pale blue light across the water. There was something magical about it all. At any moment, Axel imagined, a water sprite might rise from the depths. Just as the image came to him, he thought he saw a ripple in the water as though something was about to surface. But nothing happened and a smile, which no one noticed, crossed his face.

He turned to the other two and suggested that they should go rowing. Have you seen the light, he said, it’s really cool.

Philip Reilly was reading. He tossed his long hair.

Yes, why not? he said. A trip on the lake. What do you say, Jon?

Jon Moreno was lost in the flames of the fireplace. The fire made him feel warm and dizzy. In his hand he held a blister pack of anti-anxiety pills and every four hours he pressed one through the foil and put it in his mouth.

Did he want to go out on the lake?

He looked at Axel and Reilly. There is something about their eyes, something evasive, he thought, but then again, I’m not quite myself, I’m ill, I’m taking medication, calm down, they’re my friends, they just want what’s best for me. But he did not want to go out on the lake, not in the middle of the night in the cold moonlight. He did not trust himself completely. In here by the fire he felt safe, in here between the timber walls, in the company of his friends, because they were his friends, weren’t they? He tried to catch Reilly’s eye, but Reilly had got up and was fumbling with something on a shelf.

It’s important that you get some exercise, Axel said. Sitting still only makes your anxiety worse. You need to get your blood circulating, get it delivering oxygen to your cells. So come on.

Jon did not want to let them down. They were doing this for him, they wanted him to have some fun and he did not have much of that at the hospital. Only endless days where nothing ever happened, spent wandering up and down the corridors. They were smiling at him, encouraging him now, Axel with his dark eyes, Reilly with his gray ones. So he got up from the chair and put the blister pack in his pocket. He never went anywhere without it. He reached out for his cell phone which lay on the table, but changed his mind. His anxiety hummed through his body like an electric current. Somewhere a demon is flicking a switch, on and off, on and off, he thought, and I can’t breathe.

Put your jacket on, Axel said. It’s chilly.

Jon looked around for his jacket. He could not remember where he had put it, but Axel found it and brought it over. Reilly blew out the paraffin lamp and a sudden darkness descended upon them. Jon knelt down to lace up his boots. A knot and a bow followed by another knot. Axel and Reilly waited.

What about the fire? Jon asked.

We won’t be gone long, there’s no danger, Axel said. Come on.

Shouldn’t we put the fireguard in front of it?

Axel shrugged. All right.

He disappeared into the kitchen and they heard him scrabbling. Then he returned with the fireguard and placed it in front of the fire. The cast-iron fireguard was decorated with two wolves baring their teeth.

Jon looked at the wolves and at his two friends.

We ready to go then? Axel said.

Reilly nodded. Jon stuck his hands in his pockets. Axel patted him on the shoulder. His hand was warm and comforting. Trust us, the hand said, we only want what’s best for you, you’re among friends.

It was Friday, September 13. They went out into the dark night and fetched the oars from the shed.

A narrow path led down to the shore of Dead Water.

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THE BOAT LAY bottom up among the reeds, green and swollen like a pea pod. Axel and Reilly took hold of it and turned it over. It was filthy and slimy on the inside and by the light of the moon they saw a reptile scurry over the side and disappear.

A lizard, Axel remarked.

Jon stood with his hands in his jacket pockets. He stared at the boat with apprehension. He did not want to sit down on the dirty thwarts. Axel read his mind and wiped them with the sleeve of his jacket.

Sit down at the stern, he ordered him.

Obediently Jon stepped into the boat. He looked down at the black water. Perhaps there was no bottom, only mud that went on forever. It might be good to let yourself sink, he thought, stop the fear flowing through your body for good. An explosion in his head, a burning sensation in his lungs and it would be all over. Axel and Reilly pushed off and the boat glided smoothly through the reeds. Jon felt it rock from side to side. He sat very still on the thwart, a skinny lad with small hands. His gaze wandered across the landscape, the steep mountains which surrounded the lake. Axel and Reilly each took an oar, fumbling at first until they found their rhythm. The boat gained speed.

Look at the light, Axel said.

The moonlight was cold and pale. Everything around them had acquired a metallic sheen. Reilly concentrated on rowing. The boat moved steadily across the lake, the water dripped like silver from the oars. Jon gripped the thwart with both hands. He was surrounded by darkness and black water. His fear gnawed at him like a sharp tooth.

Axel broke the silence.

And what about your psychologist, Jon? Can you talk to him?

Her, Jon corrected him. Her name’s Hanna Wigert. Yes, I can talk to her.

How old is she? Axel wanted to know.

Forty, I think, Jon said. Besides, she’s a psychiatrist.

Same thing, isn’t it? Axel declared.

No, Jon said. It’s not the same thing.

The men rowed with long, steady strokes.

And you talk about whatever you like? Axel probed.

Jon looked the other way. I suppose so. Mostly about when I was little, he said. But it wasn’t when I was little that things went wrong.

He felt disoriented. In the moonlight Axel’s face was blue and white, and his eyes were black hollows.

But your dad left you, Axel said. That couldn’t have been easy?

Jon curled up on the thwart.

People lose each other all the time, he said, and they carry on anyway. As I did. It was fine, we managed fine.

Axel’s oar sliced like a knife through the water.

Well, he said, this is fun. But we all know what this is really about. Don’t we, Jon?

Everyone in the boat fell completely silent.

Jon’s head slumped, he was having trouble breathing. Hanna had told him what to do when this happened. Stand up, she had said, so that your lungs have room to expand. But he was scared of standing up in the boat so he stayed huddled up, struggling to breathe.

Reilly mumbled a verse he had learned by heart.

‘If God were to punish men according to what they deserve, He would not leave on the back of the earth a single living creature: but He gives them respite for a stated Term: when their Term expires, verily God has in His sight all His Servants.’

Jesus, Axel said, I’m impressed. You know your Bible.

Koran, Axel, Koran.

Same thing, isn’t it?

No, Reilly said. It’s not the same thing.

Axel stuck his hand in his pocket and came up with a pack of Marlboros. The flame from the lighter made his face glow.

Why are we stopping? Jon asked.

Just felt like a cigarette, Axel replied.

Jon stared at his feet, he was feeling nauseous. He was far away from the cabin and even farther away from the hospital. I’m in their way, he thought, I’m the weak link. I can’t do what they can. Axel’s eyes glow like his cigarette, those eyes will never leave me in peace.

Reilly stared at the bottom of the boat. He also seemed to be uncomfortable. He was too big overall, his arms and legs too long. His large hands rested on his knees. From the shore they heard a rustling sound, probably a bird taking off, Jon thought. Axel inhaled. Jon watched the repetitive movements. He followed the tip of Axel’s cigarette with his eyes. It had an almost hypnotic effect on him. Why aren’t they talking, he wondered, what are they waiting for? Are they trying to get rid of me, is that why they came to pick me up from the hospital, is that why they wanted to get me out here on the water, in the darkness? The fear crept up on him, but it was a ridiculous notion; they are my friends, he rebuked himself, sitting here worrying like a little kid, what am I thinking? Pull yourself together, Jon Moreno.

But he was incapable of pulling himself together. If only he could take off like the bird and fly away from everything, away from anxiety and guilt. Like a sleepwalker he got up from the thwart. Then he fell over the side of the boat.

Everything happened softly and quietly. There were only a few splashes which swiftly turned into ripples. Then he was gone.

Reilly leapt up, the boat rocked. He went to jump in after him, but Axel pulled him back down.

Don’t! he shouted. You won’t make it. You won’t get him back into the boat, your clothes will get waterlogged and you’ll both drown. Don’t do it!

Jon can’t swim, Reilly screamed.

Axel held him tight. The boat settled down.

The water lay shiny and still.

They dragged the boat ashore.

Everything had happened so fast that Reilly had barely had time to think, but he was thinking now. And Jon must have thought, too, as he swallowed the cold, muddy water. While he sank to the bottom he must have been thinking that it was all over now. It was all over. But I’m still here, Reilly thought, and I wake up every day struggling to breathe. They were back inside the cabin. Axel lit the paraffin lamp. The fire had nearly gone out, only a few embers remained. He removed the fireguard with the two wolves and threw on a new log. It soon flared up. Reilly sat down on a chair. He slumped, his big hands resting on his thighs. It was not long before he rummaged around his inside pocket for a small bottle. It looked like the miniature shampoo bottles you find in hotels and it was filled with a clear liquid. He poured a little into the cap and swallowed it.

What’s that you’re taking? Axel wanted to know.

An upper.

And what’s an upper?

Reilly closed his eyes.

Don’t worry about it. It’s a substance which naturally occurs in your brain. I’m merely raising the level.

He sat still, waiting for the rush which was about to hit his head and body. Soon he would feel as light as a feather. A wave would lift him upward and onward, and the pain which was always with him would melt away like snow.

What are we going to do? Reilly asked.

Axel waited a long time before he replied.

I’ve got an idea, he said. We do nothing right now. We wait until the morning, then we call. We say that Jon must have gone out while we were sleeping. That we woke up and found his room empty. It’s simpler like that. It’s the middle of the night and it would take them several hours to drive here. They can’t start looking for him now, anyway. What do you think, Reilly?

Reilly shook his head. We have to call, he said. Who do we call, who will come?

Divers, Axel said. Police officers and people from the rescue services. And they might bring dogs. It’ll be teeming with people here. Also, I’ve been thinking about something, he added. I don’t fancy telling Ingerid that we watched Jon drown. I don’t want to be a bigger part of this than I have to. It was Jon’s choice.

But he didn’t have a choice, Reilly objected.

He was ill, Axel said.

Again there was silence in front of the fire. The rush carried Reilly off.

Besides, it suited him fine that Axel made the decision.

We need to agree on some key points, Axel said. I’m the first to wake up. I see that Jon has gone. I go straight to your room to tell you. I run around the forest calling out for him, but after one hour we give up and phone for help.

They’ll want to know how Jon was, Reilly said. If we noticed anything.

We didn’t notice anything in particular. Jon was just as he always was. And we haven’t found any letters. We need to roll out his sleeping bag, he didn’t unpack it. We’ll say that we went to bed at midnight and that we haven’t seen him since.

They went to the smallest bedroom, where Jon normally slept. Reilly rolled out the sleeping bag and arranged it on the bed. He pulled down the zipper and rumpled it up a bit. Axel put his hand on Reilly’s shoulder.

Let’s go and sit down, have a beer.

He went straight down, Reilly said.

I know, Axel replied.

They were back in front of the fire. Reilly met Axel’s eyes in the flickering glow.

You’re finding this all very convenient, aren’t you? That he’s gone.

Axel clenched his teeth. I think you should watch your mouth, he hissed.

I’ve noticed how you look at him sometimes, Reilly said. I think Jon found you intimidating. I think he felt you were always judging him.

Your imagination is playing tricks on you, Axel said. No more drugs now, they mess with your mind. You need to have a clear head tomorrow when the police turn up.

They sat in silence for a while.

Why don’t we make the call now? Reilly said. Why don’t we call for help right away?

Axel got up and started wandering around the room. Taking your own life is a choice you make alone, he said, and I do not want to be literally a spectator of it.

But we were spectators. And we’ll have to talk to his mom. She’ll ask all sorts of questions. She’ll blame us for not taking better care of him.

That’s why I want to tell the police another version, Axel explained. He went out on his own. Everything was beyond our control, we were asleep. But we’re obviously devastated. Do you think you can manage that?

Reilly sent him a dark look.

Yes, he said. I can do devastated.

Chapter

3

REILLY WOKE UP EARLY.

The light cut through a gap in the curtains and he shuddered as he recalled the night just past. He believed that Jon had died for him and Axel, that he had assumed the blame because he was the weakest, because he was the link that might break. But surely none of us deserves to die, he thought, we aren’t bad people.

The day was coming through the window like a beam of light and it pinned him to the mattress. His first thought was to huddle against the wall, close his eyes and never get up, never deal with any of it. Instead he wiggled out of his sleeping bag, put on his old corduroy trousers and went into the living room. Axel Frimann was standing there staring out of the window.

I went down to the lake, he said.

Why?

Just wanted to check that everything was all right.

Reilly gave him a baffled look. His long hair was a tangled mess after the hours spent in bed. With his protruding chin and pointed nose he looked like a troll from a fairy tale.

Nothing is all right.

Don’t talk like that, Axel said.

But it’s the truth.

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