My Confessional Letters
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From self-discovery, to self-denial; bonds of procrastination to freedom of thought; to rediscovery. We all have doubts, as Christians, or otherwise, and what we most seek is clarity. What's most important is to never give up. My Confessional Letters is a collection of poems written over different periods of time, over a number of years, to date. The first of the My Confessional Letters poem, 'The First Letter: Dear Namakau' was penned in 2014, a confession of Smiley's feelings for this girl, which he never got to deliver. "The book is full of the confessions of what I should've done but never did, what I did but should never have, decisions and indecisions, experiences and what impact they've had on my life. Through this," Smiley says, "the aim is to draw lessons that incite change, in the reader, and me, because ministers not only speak to other people; to have a winning spirit, grow to trust the Lord God to overcome procrastination, that can greatly hinder one's progress in life. Mindset matters, happiness is an attitude, so is winning."
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My Confessional Letters - Smiley NTK Thefir5t
I. KALATA WANU AMBUYE
CHILUNGAMO
(Candid)
In all honesty
I haven't been that honest
And life took
its toll.
This is not about
trying to be modest
Though pride rides -
here is a drumroll.
2015 I debarked
on an adventure
From the embankment
of a fast-flowing river;
Journalizing it
in poetic letters
On sailing as the pages
of my book of revelations;
Filled up with untold
Truths of my untruthful behavior.
What I on this sea saw
Not with the vision of a believer.
I once stood before
a whole congregation
Ready to take that oath;
Hand raised for proclamation
Be Christ-like
from this day forth.
But just as I took that leap
To take my place he hollered;
Yo! You need to take a peep
At today's special.
Be our guest -
you're honored.
You wanna try
something new
I know,
so give it a shot.
In time you will
meet your boo
Don't you wanna know
the taste of the fruit?
My curiosity;
it overpowered me
And I realized, too late
I'd stood over a chasm,
As I plunged into
the abyss drawing onto me
With its beautiful tentacles
in spasm.
The sea had been pulled
from under me
I felt,
so was my barque
When once foreseen
freedom of a refugee
Went down
the throat of Jonah's shark,
Not Noah's ark
to redemption.
It is funny,..
I tried to muster my art
Forgetting my prayer session
Before I let
the master inside
of my heart.
And I could hide the truth
so well I became a mastur-bator
Excelled through
it with no calculator.
Yeah. Sometimes it was hands-free
with no tissue paper;
Pausing but never
really stopping;
That I was growing sexually
but not mentally
My mind was still a foolery
thinking Daddy will take care of everything
But my body –
My body was like Twenty three;
No job, no college and daddy's late;
And really I couldn't see
My life was all but a hazy slate.
I didn't understand
what it meant
To really,
truly grow up
Yet still that is
how my life was spent
In much disgust
you would wanna throw up.
And I honed that skill in tow
'Till I became a pro-crastinator
'Cause I spent every meager second
of my days plotting my next get off
Would you believe
if I said I'm no different
from my drunken neighbor?
I realized something
in that situation
Those who choose to follow Christ
Incur the most temptation.
I imagined we would sit
in a circle of trust
And I wouldn't be
afraid to truly open up,
As is scribbling these
words on these pages
what will matter most is
neither your clap nor your snap;
But as tales of old
I'll speak words that last ages;
From here where I stand
To whichever mount I will tell
My story 'till
the last of my sand
Even if at the top of my lungs
I'd've to yell!
I don't want this
to just end up on a shelf;
For how would you know if
I do not tell?
So unlike Pompi
allow me to apologize
and reintroduce myself;
Hi. My name is Smiley Thefir5t
And I'm a sinner
I've lied,
I've stolen;
I'm fallen
into misdemeanor.
I could say I haven't but
I have killed . . .
Chicken, roaches, flies and mosquitoes
No people; no
I've lived mostly
in