Rejecting My Lycan Mate: Rejecting Your Rejection

By Tessa Lilly

"I, Madeline Clark, rejec..." I started speaking, but Alpha Dimitri stopped me by placing his hand over my mouth. He pulled me closer to him and growled.

"I'm not accepting your rejection, Madeline," he growled. "You are my mate. You are the greatest gift that the Goddess has ever given me. I am not letting you go."

My heart was hammering against my rib cage. His scent overwhelmed my senses. He leaned in and rubbed his nose up and down my jaw. My skin was on fire. Every part of my body desired to be touched by him.

"I can't let you go, my love," he mumbled. "I've waited for you my whole life."

His lips brushed against the marking spot on my neck, and I almost burst into flames. Convincing him to accept my rejection would be the hardest thing I ever had to do.

Madeline is a 17-year-old girl who still hasn't shifted into her wolf. Her father abandoned her mother when she was very young. She has been bullied and laughed at all the time. After she lost her mom, the person who loved her the most, Madeline is completely distraught and broken. Her father comes back to take her back to his pack. Madeline is against it, but her financial situation forces her to go with him.

Dimitri is a Lycan wolf, the Alpha of his very successful pack. He is 22 years old, and he still hasn't found his mate. When Madeline arrives at his pack, he is very surprised to discover that she is his mate. He is also frustrated because she is his stepsister who hasn't shifted yet. She can't recognize him as her mate.

Madeline struggles in the new pack. She doesn't have the best relationship with her stepmother. She can't wait to turn 18 and leave.

What will happen when Madeline finds out who her mate is? What will Dimitri do after she rejects him? Will he be able to convince her to stay?This is book 1 of the story

• Language: English
• Publisher: supernovel
• Release date: May 30, 2023

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CHAPTER TWO - Sick

Madeline’s POV

Mom, please, you have to take the pills, I sighed, trying to get her to open her mouth.

We’ve been at this for almost an hour now. I was trying to convince her that she needed her pills, and she was pushing them away and screaming at me that she didn’t want them.

She slapped my hand away, and a handful of pills scattered all over the floor.

I sighed and got down on my knees to pick them up.

Don’t bother, Madeline, my mom said. I’m not taking them.

I looked up at her. I wanted to scream. She didn’t have to be in pain!

She was lying in her bed, clutching her stomach, and sobbing quietly. She was covered in sweat. Her white nightgown was wet, and it was sticking to her body. She was pale and so fucking thin. I could barely get her to eat anything.

She lost all of her hair months ago. It was really hard for me to see her without her hair, her eyebrows, and her eyelashes. It was the first time I realized that my mom was really sick.

I knew that she had cancer. I knew that she was really sick. But it wasn’t until she lost all of her hair that I actually realized that my mom was sick. Her cancer was invisible to me before. It was invisible to the naked eye. Her bald head wasn’t.

When our pack doctor told us that she had cancer, I couldn’t believe it. She was a wolf! She was stronger than a mere human. She couldn’t have gotten cancer. As it turned out, I was wrong. It was rare for a werewolf to get cancer, but my mom somehow got it. It progressed fast, and it was killing her. It’s been only six months since she found out her diagnosis, and she was already lying in bed, waiting for death.

I knew that my mom was going to die. But, just as I didn't realize she was sick until she lost all of her hair, I wouldn't realize she was gone until I woke up one day in an empty house.

I picked up every pill on the floor. I didn’t want her to slip on one of them in case she managed to stand up somehow.

I stood back up and threw the pills in the trash can next to my mom’s bed.

Mom, please, I said as I sat down on the bed next to her. I have to go to work. I won’t be able to focus if I know that you are in pain.

My mom looked up at me.

Due to the constant vomiting, the veins in her eyes ruptured. I couldn’t even see the whites of her eyes anymore. Everything was red.

Don’t worry about me, Madeline, my mom said, taking my hand in hers. Go to work.

She tried to squeeze my hand, but it was useless. She didn’t have the strength to do it.

Of course I’m going to worry, mom, I sighed as I reached into the bowl on her nightstand.

I picked up the towel, squeezed out the excess water, and gently wiped her forehead with it.

I love you so much, Maddie, my mom said as tears fell down the side of her face. I’m sorry for screaming at you.

I stopped wiping her forehead and looked into her bloody eyes. I had to gulp down the lump in my throat. I always tried so hard not to cry in front of my mom. I needed to be strong for her. I couldn’t let her see my pain. It would be harder for her to go peacefully.

It’s okay, mom, I said softly. I understand. You don’t have to apologize.

My mom sobbed.

Yes, I do, she said as she tried to lift her head. You don’t deserve it.

She was too weak to lift her hand on her own, so I took it and placed it against my face. She rubbed my cheek with her thumb.

I love you, Maddie, she said quietly.

I placed my hand over hers and gave her a small smile. It was hard for me to speak. The lump in my throat was huge.

I love you too, mom, I managed to say.

She gave me a small smile and removed her hand from my cheek. Holding her hand up was tiring for her.

Will you please take your pills now, mom? I asked, taking the pill bottle from her nightstand.

She frowned at me. I don’t want them!

I took a deep breath and placed the bottle on my lap.

Why, mom? I asked. You won’t be in so much pain.

She turned her head away and sobbed. My heart broke for her. I placed my hand on her head and caressed it gently.

They numb me, Maddie, she mumbled. I can’t feel anything. I don’t know where I am. I can’t feel my wolf. I don’t know where you are. I don’t want them, Maddie.

A tear fell on my cheek, and I wiped it away quickly.

Okay, mom, I said as I bent down and kissed her temple. You don’t have to take them.

I didn’t want her to be in pain. I really didn’t. But I wasn’t going to force her to take something that would make her feel so helpless.

My mom looked back at me and gave me a small smile.

Thank you, my Flower, she said, making my heart clench.

She hadn’t called me Flower in months.

I smiled and caressed her cheek.

I have to go now, mom, I said. I will see you later, okay?

Okay, Maddie, she said, turning to her side.

Call me if you need anything, I said as I covered her up.

I wished that we could mind-link. It would be so much easier for her to reach me. But I still didn’t have my wolf, so we had to rely on phones.

She gave me a small nod.

I stood up, walked toward the door, and opened it. I glanced at her one more time before I closed her bedroom door behind me and quietly walked away.

I walked to the kitchen, hoping to find something to eat before my shift at the diner.

Ever since my mom got sick, I have had to work multiple jobs just so we could afford to pay for her medicine. Our pack doctor helped us as much as he could, but the treatment was expensive and he couldn’t do much. Nevertheless, I was thankful for any help we could get.

I opened the fridge and sighed. The only food I had left I had to save for my mother. She definitely needed it more than I did. I grabbed a bottle of water, closed the fridge, and walked to our living room.

I glanced toward my mom’s bedroom one more time. I wanted to go check on her just one more time before I left, but I didn’t have time.

I sighed, put my jacket on, and left the house.

CHAPTER THREE – I’m leaving

Madeline’s POV

Fuck, I mumbled as I bent down to pick up a broken piece of plate from the floor.

That was the second thing I broke today. Mrs. Rose will kill me.

What’s wrong with you, Mads? my best friend Alison asked me. You are so clumsy today.

I ignored her question and walked to the storage closet to grab a broom and a dustpan.

Madeline? Alison called my name.

I glanced up at her as I started sweeping.

My mom isn’t feeling well today, I mumbled as I looked back at the mess I had made.

She is still refusing to take her pills? Alison asked worriedly.

I nodded, crouching down and swiping the broken pieces into a dustpan.

Did she tell you why? Alison asked.

I stood back up and walked to the trash can. I emptied the dustpan and looked at Alison.

She said that the pills made her numb, I said.

I picked the broom back up and put it back into the storage closet along with the dustpan.

Isn’t being numb better than being in pain? I heard Alison ask as I walked back.

Apparently not, I sighed, leaning on the counter. She said that she doesn’t know where she is after she takes the pills. She said that she couldn’t feel her wolf.

Alison bit her lower lip and furrowed her eyebrows. She looked me up and down and took a deep breath.

You need a night out, she said, crossing her arms over her chest.

I shook my head immediately.

That’s the last thing I need, Ali, I said. I can’t leave my mom. It’s bad enough that I have to leave her to go to work. I can’t leave her to go to a party.

I worked at the diner and the library. I took as many shifts as I could. I needed money. We were in debt, and I had to find a way to pay it or we would lose our house.

It’s not a party, Mads, Alison said. It’s just you and me hanging out. You need to relax a little.

I sighed and picked up a dishtowel. I started wiping the glasses.

Besides, we need to hang out as much as we can before we turn 18, Alison added. I’m sure that I won’t get to see you after you find your mate.

I snorted and looked up at her.

I don’t have time for a mate, I said.

Alison gasped dramatically. You don’t want a mate?!

I looked up at her and frowned. Could she have been louder? Luckily, we were alone in the diner. It was almost closing time.

Be quiet, I whispered. I want a mate, but I’m not sure that I want to find him right after I turn 18. I have to take care of my mom. I have bills to pay. What if my mate didn’t understand that?

A mate loves you unconditionally, Mads, Alison said softly. He would understand.

My father didn’t love my mom unconditionally. He left her. He left me.

I can’t be sure of that, Ali, I mumbled as I started wiping the counters. It’s better if I don’t find him immediately.

I kept my eyes down, but I could feel Alison’s burning gaze on me.

Have you ever even liked someone? she asked me. I’ve known you my entire life, and I’ve never seen you interested in a boy.

I felt heat rush to my cheeks.

The only boy I’ve ever liked was my savior.

Being a fatherless pup wasn’t a good thing. I was bullied at school a lot. Kids would laugh at me, call me a bastard, pull my hair, and sometimes even punch me.

One day, I was leaving school when one of my classmates tripped me. He pulled my hair and started to call me names. The other kids were laughing and pointing at me. I was embarrassed because I started crying. I’ve always tried so hard not to cry. I didn’t want to give them the pleasure of seeing me cry. But something about that day was just so overwhelming that I couldn’t control my tears. Alison was nowhere in sight, but someone else came to save me.

He pushed the bullies away, kneeled next to me, and wiped my cheeks. He told me that I was safe and that they wouldn’t hurt me anymore.

He said some other things as well, but I didn’t hear him. I couldn’t look away from his beautiful blue eyes. I got lost in them. He had slightly curly black hair, and he was so tall.

He left after he saved me, and I never saw him again. I didn’t even know his name.

But every time someone mentioned having a crush, he came to mind.

Maybe when I was a kid, I shrugged.

Who? Alison gasped.

I stopped wiping the counters and looked up at her.

I don’t remember, I said. He was just a boy.

Well, that wasn’t really the truth. He wasn’t just a boy. He was my savior.

I can’t believe that you never told me about him, Alison said.

It wasn’t that serious, Ali, I sighed, putting the dishtowel down. I was 12.

I don’t care, Alison said. I’m your best friend. I should have known about it.

I wanted to repeat that it was just a silly crush on a boy, but my phone started ringing. I pulled it out of my pocket and looked at the caller ID. It was my mom.

Is everything okay, mom? I asked her as soon as I answered the call.

Flower? she called me by my nickname.

Her voice was quiet and raspy. She sounded like she was out of breath. Did she try to get up on her own again?

Yes, mom? I said as I gripped the edge of the counter.

I love you, my baby, she said quietly. Always remember that.

My heart stopped beating. Why was she telling me that?

I love you too, mom, I said, looking at Alison. What’s wrong, mom?

I’m leaving, Flower, my mom said quietly. I love you.

I froze. I was completely frozen. I couldn’t move. I wanted to run home, but I couldn’t move. I didn’t feel my legs. I didn’t feel my body.

No.

Please, Goddess, no.

Don’t take my mom away from me! Not yet!

CHAPTER FOUR – The funeral

Mike’s POV

I was holding Janet’s hand in a tight grip.

I needed her support. I would see my daughter for the first time in 15 years. I would see my true mate’s body being burned. I would need to talk to my daughter and ask her to come with me.

To say that I was nervous would be an understatement. I was freaking out.

Mike? I heard my name being called.

I turned around and saw my old best friend.

Jack, I mumbled his name.

He sighed and approached me and Janet. He continued walking toward the funeral site along with us.

It’s Alpha Jack to you, but I will let it go this time, he said, glancing at me from the corner of his eye.

He was still angry at me. He never used to insist I call him Alpha.

This is my mate, Janet, I said, looking at her and giving her a small smile.

It’s nice to meet you, Alpha Jack, Janet said politely.

Jack looked at her and gave her a small nod. He looked back at me and narrowed his eyes.

Why are you here? he asked.

I gulped and took a deep breath.

Leah called me, I said. She asked me to take care of Madeline. I am here to take her home with me.

Jack tightened his jaw and looked away from me.

Maddie won’t be happy, he mumbled. She will refuse to go with you.

I could tell that he wanted to say something else. He started fidgeting with his fingers. I knew that he did that when he was nervous. He was my best friend for years. I knew him.

But? I asked, making him glance at me again.

But she will have to go, he mumbled. Her financial situation isn’t good and there isn’t much I can do to help.

Shit. The cancer treatment probably cost a fortune.

She is poor? Janet asked, making Jack look at her wide-eyed.

That wasn’t very nice, Janet. I mind-linked her.

I just want to know what we are dealing with. She answered. We need to know how much it will cost us to take care of her.

She is in a little bit of trouble, Jack mumbled, narrowing his eyes at my mate.

I could tell that Jack was pissed at my mate for asking that.

I sighed and looked around.

So many people were going to the funeral. Most of them were crying and comforting each other. It was obvious that Leah was very loved.

I could see the burial site up ahead. I could already see Leah’s body. It was completely wrapped in a white sheet. It was tradition. Her body was laid on a structure made of wood. It would soon be burned. The tradition was for the funeral to be held at night. The bodies were burned because it was believed that the fire in the night will show the deceased the way to the Moon Goddess.

My heart clenched. I loved Leah. I loved her so much. I just wished that my love for her had been enough to keep me here.

My wolf retreated completely. He wasn’t able to witness his fated mate’s funeral.

He never completely forgave me for leaving. He understood why I left, but he always missed his pup. I knew that he would come back when I approached Madeline. He would want to see her.

I could feel people’s eyes on me. I could hear them whispering. I didn’t even need to hear what they were saying. I knew exactly what they thought of me. The warriors at the border almost didn’t let me in. One of them recognized me and I was sure that he was going to attack me. Thankfully, the other warrior mind-linked

Reviews for Rejecting My Lycan Mate

[blckrose books · Rating: 4 out of 5 stars]

Soy fan de las historias sobre hombres lobo y su amor destinado por la luna, así que no soy neutral para calificar este libro. Lo amo ?

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The ml's mother is annoying, I'm here to see finally accept the reality that she can't go against the mate bond and the goddess

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I loved the writing style, and the story is great too.

[Mysty Schallock · Rating: 3 out of 5 stars]

It was a good book but it ended on a cliff hanger because it is book 1 in a trilogy. And the others aren't written yet! Don't read it until they are you will be mad at where it leaves off.

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A really good book. Couldn’t wait to read it, but it’s not finished!

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I love it but wish it was finished anyways it was good

[Grace Gonido · Rating: 5 out of 5 stars]

I like the flow of the story, it's not being rush. Just feel sorry for Maddie thinking so low of herself because of the people that made her feel that way. she thought she's not worthy to be Dimitri's mate. Luckily, he loves her dearly. Any updates for the next chapter? Can't wait for it.

[Demetria Davis · Rating: 4 out of 5 stars]

Good story!! Will enjoy next part I hope i really enjoyed it

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Brilliantly story, Can’t wait for the next instalment . Just hope it won’t take too long.