If God Is Love, Why Do I Feel so Bad?: Considering Our Images of God
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Rev. Marcia Cope Fleischman
Finding God, opening to the mystical life and moving others into the mystical life have been hergreatess inspiration. During the pandemic quarantine, Marcia painted pictures of people with their angels as gifts. The pictures express the presence of mystical beings that surround us all. Marcia’s husband of 44 years passed away. Her two daughters, Lucia and Sarah are grown with babes of their own. Watching their lives, Marcia sees God at work.
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If God Is Love, Why Do I Feel so Bad? - Rev. Marcia Cope Fleischman
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9903.pngCONTENTS
9873.pngDedication
Introduction We All Have to Start Somewhere
Section I: Urban Legends of God
Chapter 1 The One We Talk To
Chapter 2 The Old Man in the Sky
Chapter 3 The Angry God in the Sky
Chapter 4 God as Santa Claus
Chapter 5 The God of Don’ts
Chapter 6 The Puppet Master
Chapter 7 The Judge
Chapter 8 Watcher
Chapter 9 Hell No!
Chapter 10 The God Who Isn’t There
Section II: Old Testament Images of God
Chapter 11 Wrestle Mania
Chapter 12 Wildfire: The Burning Bush
Chapter 13 Lost at Sea
Section III: New Testament Images of God
Chapter 14 The Lost Coin
Chapter 15 Hen and Chicks
Chapter 16 The Lost Child
Chapter 17 The Daddy
Chapter 18 Jesus the Feminist
Chapter 19 Word Image
Section IV: The Forgotten Image
Chapter 20 You Look Just Like Her
Chapter 21 Breakfast God
Chapter 22 Clair of Assisi
Chapter 23 Mary, Mother of God
Chapter 24 Dreamer Creator
Chapter 25 God Created Woman
Section V: New Images of Jesus and God
Chapter 26 What Would Jesus Do?
Chapter 27 Jesus, the Energy Healer
Chapter 28 God as Light
Chapter 29 God as Energy
Section VI: New Images of The Trinity
Chapter 30 God Beyond Us
Chapter 31 God Beside Us
Chapter 32 God Being Us
Section VII: New Mission
Chapter 33 Jesus Raises our Consciousness
Conclusion
Acknowledgements
DEDICATION
9873.pngThis Book is Dedicated to
Paul Smith
My visionary teacher
Mentor
Co-Pastor
Partner in Ministry
And
Friend
INTRODUCTION
9873.pngWe All Have to Start Somewhere
In our journey with God, we all have to start somewhere.
It is said that God is love. So, do you feel loved by God?
Do you feel that you are a loving gift from God to the world or do you feel bad, sinful, unworthy?
Piglet and Pooh were talking one day. Pooh asked Piglet, "Piglet, how do you spell ‘love’?
Piglet responded, Oh, Pooh, you don’t spell love, you feel it!
For me God is like that. God is to be felt, not spelled, not just talked about, not just sung about.
Do you feel loved by God? Do you feel it; do you know it in your soul. Or are you asking yourself, If God is love and loves me, how come I feel so bad?
Did you grow up in a Christian community that followed the I am a worm
theology? Were you taught to feel bad about yourself? Did you tell yourself "I’m not worthy to be loved by God?
I was picking up a soda at McDonald’s the other day. As I reached for my ice-cold drink, the woman in the window, when I asked her how she was said, I am blessed!
I agreed. I am too. Then she said, We’re not worthy to be blessed.
I objected and said, Yes we are because God loves us.
Right then, right there she was espousing the I am a worm theology…I’m not worthy to be loved by God.
How sad this is for someone to carry such a huge burden of self-doubt and shame around in her heart. How did we learn to feel this way about ourselves? How did we learn to think this badly of ourselves? Part of the reason, I’ve come to believe is that we imagine and/or have been taught that God doesn’t like us. We have been taught that we are sinful and unworthy. The Christian theology has endorsed the concept of original sin
and helped us develop an image of God that reinforces this belief.
In the movie Wayne’s World, the main characters, Wayne and Garth, meet the famous rock star, Alice Cooper. They get down on their knees and bow to him chanting We’re not worthy! We’re not worthy!
Many people enter church or quiet time or prayer time feeling deeply in their hearts… I’m not worthy! I’m really not worthy!
Is this you?
If so, it’s time to investigate what is behind that belief about yourself. It could be that it is partly because you have been taught or have come to believe on your own that God is more ogre than kind, more monster than mothering, more shaming than healing, more sinister than saving.
One of the first times I was given an opportunity to question what God was actually like was in the class I took, almost every Saturday for a year, to prepare to join my church, the Communicants Class.
It was in this class that I caught a glimpse of something else, a different way of seeing God and our connection with God. We were studying the Westminster Catechism, a teaching tool to help students understand the general beliefs of the church. The format was that there was a question presented and the answer
. Each of us had to memorize one of the questions and the answer. The day we joined the church (which was a Palm Sunday) we had to state the question and answer in front of the congregation. I clearly remember my question:
"What is the chief end of man {supposedly a gender-inclusive term at the time}?
Answer: The chief end of man is to glorify God and enjoy God forever.
I had taken this answer to heart and spent years trying to answer this question, to make this answer my own, to make this answer alive in my life. But how do we actually glorify and enjoy God?
I started pursuing God at that point. The pursuit has been the journey of my life. The biggest part of the journey was to discover what God looked like and felt like to me. I learned as I went along that we each carry images of God within us and that image creates our spiritual journey.
So, come on a journey with me. It is an inner journey through myths and monsters, images and imaginings, musings and mysteries, through joys and sorrows. We will follow a path of different images of God, illustrations that I have created over years of studying what people think God looks like. They are images taken from Scriptures, people’s imaginations, from urban legend, books and podcasts. And some images that I made up myself. I ask you to get in touch with your image, or images of God.
We need to climb the mountains of disbelief and swim the murky waters of fear-engendering images of a manipulating, punishing, angry God. We will open our hearts to a kind, loving and nurturing God. The destination is to find and enjoy God and for God to enjoy us. The ultimate goal is for each or us, and, yes, you, gentle reader, to feel loved by God.
For that journey to happen we need to dig deep, be honest about how we think and feel about God and to stretch, stretch, stretch ourselves to grow and change. This is a chance to find how your personal image of God influences your life and impacts your participation in the world.
The book that spoke to me most and inspired my looking for images of God was Good Goats, Bad Goats by Denis, Mathew and Sheila Linn. Denis tells of a turning point in his journey with and understanding of God:
As God became more loving to me, I became more loving.
Denis’s realization was what we call a spiritual awakening. His realization was that he reflected into the world what his inner image of God was. If he saw God as judgmental and condemning, he was judgmental and condemning. As his healing journey progressed, he experienced the love of God. His image of God changed to becoming a more loving God. When he saw God as loving, he became more loving. His reflection of God