Maddison – a Close Change

By Bernadette M. Winslow

The following story is a true one. All real names have been reserved for privacy. It all took place on the East Coast of Australia. It is a story of self discovery that would bring about a whole pile of circumstances that were to become so amazing, just because she kept believing in what was written in her heart. The most important point I need to validate before you continue reading this book is that this is not a partaker in the battle of the sexes, it is a story of sciences of the body, soul and mind and it is here to share how Maddison saw things, from a set of circumstances that no-body knew the real story of because they were not willing to listen or talk about. It is her story of what took for her and how I affected her.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris AU
• Release date: Oct 30, 2015
• ISBN: 9781503504578

Bernadette M. Winslow

Bernadette Winslow is a long standing female yogic….she lives on a 5 acre Wildlife Sanctuary where she cares for a wide variety of birds and other natural habitat wild life such as wallaby’s, goannas, snakes and special lizards. Bernadette writes in the effort to help preserve the natural beauty of the eco balance of earth and humanity. Be Well. Bernadette M. Winslow…..pen name Sr. Crow….. soul name Bernie Mac…..nick name

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MADDISON

A Close Change

Bernadette M. Winslow

Copyright © 2015 by Bernadette M. Winslow.

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CONTENTS

Introduction

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2

3

4

5

6

7

8

9

10

The Poem

Dedication

I dedicate this book to my children especially my

son over which most of this book is written.

Love Always.

INTRODUCTION

The following story is a true one. All real names have been reserved for privacy. It all took place on the East Coast of Australia. It is a story of self discovery that would bring about a whole pile of circumstances that were to become so amazing, just because she kept believing in what was written in her heart. The most important point I need to validate before you continue reading this book is that this is not a partaker in the battle of the sexes, it is a story of sciences of the body, soul and mind and it is here to share how Maddison saw things, from a set of circumstances that no-body ever knew the real truth of, because for some reason they were not able to listen to me adequately or talk about where the real problems were or be willing do something realistic about it. It is Maddison’s story of what took place in her life and where she was placed in society as a result of it.

It is the story of a woman that grew up in changing times in Australia during the 60’s, 70’s, 80’ and into the new millennium. It was a time of the Vietnam War, Clockwork Orange. Everything that took place around the war itself and the helter skelter that came after it, including all the rock n roll and the scandal the world could ever deal with whilst the new breed on earth was developing. It was the conception of the electric guitar rock n roll music. High fashion and Hollywood. War and Revolution, were the flavor of the time. While America went to Woodstock and Yoga - Peace Flowers Freedom and Happiness, Britain had the Velvet Underground and Australia had Toorak St. in Melbourne and the Hordern Pavilion in Sydney.

It was the beginning of a great time on earth. We required advancement and we were deemed to get it. The Mayan Factor was brining in new technology and said there was far more beyond that, but it seemed to be only in a material manner while spiritually churches were loosing the people and mother earth and her true sciences were emerging. People were needing to be respected and Maddison even so much more.

Maddison was 10 years old, while the world was being distracted by the Beatles, brainwashed by the Rolling Stones and all sorts of music coming from the Velvet Underground, Star after star was being born just because Jimi Hendrix had sung Electric Ladyland. The world was being led in and out of every outrageous concert experience along with every other rock band and revolutionist that was emerging…….the Soldiers were at Vietnam the biggest war since Germany but it was a war of a different kind. Car’s and Motorcycles were evolving and Easy Rider was pretty much the favorite movie as it projected a form of freedom as people were seeking escapism. No-one that was real wanted war and the soldiers and politicians were like a bad fairytale that existed whether the peace lovers wanted it or not. To be honest they were necessary they were there to set boundaries for the nations in trade practices and resources and respect across the globe.

Maddison never had much time to give it a thought. She was only 10 years old and had her own life to get on with. It was all taking place on the television, which had brought the world into the family home. She had her own world to live in, her own set of circumstances to be involved in. She was a child…..It was never anything to be emotionally affected by, it was more a game to imitate in the backyard where she could play soldiers and push around matchbox cars.

At that stage even though she found the whole thing rather intriguing, enthralling even and rather spectacular to tell the truth, we lived inside our own homes our own family nucleus and got on with our own lives.

It was all just another social effect, that was to leave the world in a Status Quo, that no-one at the time was willing to push. Nuclear power had been harnessed, as the French Testing at Muaroa Attol had left it’s mark on civilization. This was to bring about new religions new churches and new ideals. In the small picture the churches were there to help raise us to be good to believe in peace and love, yet the same God required men to go to war to help keep that peace. Everything was a paradox. We are raised to behave ourselves and be good……but in the big picture they are fighting all the time. If we get angry and fight it is abuse or a mental health issue but if a soldier goes to war it is called what?

It questions human values and moralities…….but the big picture is supposed to be protecting all the small ones. One way or another it was bringing change and we were all left with the inevitable clause that we can master our own destiny if we can control ourselves.

Maddison A Close Change is a story of how one girl coped with the whole deal as she grew up to well educated by what she saw of life as a result of it all. No matter what was going on around her and no matter what socially bizarre situations she was to experience…….she did not have to tolerate just anything in a world that expected her to go along with what it was deeming as fit, but would not give her what she needed to make it work well and yet that very world would say that it was her inadequacy for not keeping up whilst they were not giving her the avenues to do so. Some people seemed to think they were the only way to be and personal power and freedom were being desired so that the consciousness could expand into safe worlds and justice. She was not alone. Maddison was a keen learner for personal development and the following story shows how she utilized her faith, spirituality and knowledge to make her own life work. People just wanted to have charge of their own lives and to be able to co-habituate in peace……and make their own lives work……just to pull themselves out of alcohol and drug abuse and being socially abused for doing it whilst at he same time it was all up for sale.

My books are not here to criticize they are merely her to inform. They will touch on some very controversial issue over lifestyles and relationships and will sometimes arouse a number of feelings. Be aroused, you will find there is more to you then you think. This will bring about desired change to enhance your life and expect more out of it. Please do not fear your feelings or react upon them, but channel them into energy of resolve and find satisfaction instead of suppressing them, only to blow up out of proportion in some other area that only brings around more regret. Talking to someone else may or may not work, you really need to hear what is going on inside your own head to work out who you are and what you need. Feelings are fact, they create energies and reactions if they are not acknowledged into a resolve to bring about you personal happiness they will turn into stress of different kinds and make you sick.

Mastering the self was Maddison’s high ideal and only then could she bring about her desired affect and in this day and age she was finally free to bring it all about. Experience your feelings right to the core and know yourself before everyone else starts telling you what you are. Not every human is here to respond in the same way. The fact that these books are a true story is the basis or their authenticity and the value you will gain from reading these books is unsurpassed.

This book is the beginning of a Trilogy that will define itself clearly after reading the 3 to their entirety. The first story is incomplete without the follow up Tuscany’s Boulevarde and Upon The Streets of Blue Ribbon. Tuscany’s Boulevarde deals with other problems and personal growth issues and realizations in relation to Maddison’s story and goes into to some of the experiences in a much more detailed level and brings up other circumstances in her life that are closely related. The story is not complete without the three. A fourth book Shadow’s In The Dusk to Mists In The Morning - Liola is about what she witnessed, experienced and needed to change within her own self-respect of being a woman and how and why she had good reason to value herself, and therefore to be respected, and treated appropriately by men.

These books are written on the subject of understanding and managing life and human nature………the battle to live between the realms of freedom and the constrictions of where life was at on a daily basis in the common entity of life. Do not fear it…..but dwell amongst it and be true. Change is necessary to make things work. It was far greater for me to embrace change and open my mind to the things I want than listen to the old patterns from the people who are not seeking what I need.

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Maddison, the girl most likely to be misunderstood was going to wind up being the most very clearly understood in the end, whether she or anybody else realized it or not, she had been born with an important purpose in life although she was not quite sure what it was when she was young, every day no matter where she was she was part of a big plan. Sit on the right side of it and it will work, she was to live to fulfill her dreams in the end. Too many people had interfered along the way, but in the end she was to fulfill it in the right way. It was her life, no one elses……..it was to be full of mysteries and secrets and understandings that were hers whether people believed in her or not. There were things that needed to be accepted and things