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lying-to amid enormous ice fields. The one which stretches away to
the north of us, and to which our ice-anchor is attached, cannot be
smaller than an English county. To the right and left unbroken
sheets extend to the horizon. This morning the mate reported that
there were signs of pack ice to the southward. Should this form of
sufficient thickness to bar our return, we shall be in a position
of danger, as the food, I hear, is already running somewhat short.
It is late in the season, and the nights are beginning to reappear.
Arthur Conan Doyle
Arthur Conan Doyle was a British writer and physician. He is the creator of the Sherlock Holmes character, writing his debut appearance in A Study in Scarlet. Doyle wrote notable books in the fantasy and science fiction genres, as well as plays, romances, poetry, non-fiction, and historical novels.
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The Captain of the Polestar and Other Tales - Arthur Conan Doyle
THE
CAPTAINOFTHEPOLESTAR
ANDOTHERTALES.
SIRARTHURCONANDOYLE
PREFACE
FortheuseofsomeofthefollowingTalesIam indebtedtothecourtesyof"London
A.CONANDOYLE,M.D.
CONTENTS.
THECAPTAINOFTHEPOLE-STAR
J.HABAKUKJEPHSON'SSTATEMENT
THEGREATKEINPLATZEXPERIMENT
THEMANFROMARCHANGEL
THATLITTLESQUAREBOX
JOHNHUXFORD'SHIATUS
ALITERARYMOSAIC
JOHNBARRINGTONCOWLES
THEPARSONOFJACKMAN'SGULCH
THERINGOFTHOTH
THECAPTAINOFTHEPOLE-STAR.
[BeinganextractfromthesingularjournalofJOHNM`ALISTERRAY, studentofmedicine.]
September11th.--Lat.81degrees40'N.;long.2degreesE.Still lying-toamidenormousicefields.Theonewhichstretchesawayto thenorthofus,andtowhichourice-anchorisattached,cannotbe smallerthananEnglishcounty.Totherightandleftunbroken sheetsextendtothehorizon.Thismorningthematereportedthat thereweresignsofpackicetothesouthward.Shouldthisformof sufficientthicknesstobarourreturn,weshallbeinaposition ofdanger,asthefood,Ihear,isalreadyrunningsomewhatshort.
Itislateintheseason,andthenightsarebeginningtoreappear.
ThismorningIsawastartwinklingjustoverthefore-yard,the firstsincethebeginningofMay.Thereisconsiderablediscontent amongthecrew,manyofwhomareanxioustogetbackhometobein
timefortheherringseason,whenlabouralwayscommandsahigh priceupontheScotchcoast.Asyettheirdispleasureisonly signifiedbysullencountenancesandblacklooks,butIheardfrom thesecondmatethisafternoonthattheycontemplatedsendinga deputationtotheCaptaintoexplaintheirgrievance.Imuchdoubt howhewillreceiveit,asheisamanoffiercetemper,andvery sensitiveaboutanythingapproachingtoaninfringementofhis rights.Ishallventureafterdinnertosayafewwordstohim uponthesubject.Ihavealwaysfoundthathewilltoleratefrom mewhathewouldresentfromanyothermemberofthecrew.
AmsterdamIsland,atthenorth-westcornerofSpitzbergen,is visibleuponourstarboardquarter--aruggedlineofvolcanic rocks,intersectedbywhiteseams,whichrepresentglaciers.Itis curioustothinkthatatthepresentmomentthereisprobablyno humanbeingnearertousthantheDanishsettlementsinthesouth ofGreenland--agoodninehundredmilesasthecrowflies.A captaintakesagreatresponsibilityuponhimselfwhenheriskshis vesselundersuchcircumstances.Nowhalerhaseverremainedin theselatitudestillsoadvancedaperiodoftheyear.
9P.M,--IhavespokentoCaptainCraigie,andthoughtheresulthas beenhardlysatisfactory,Iamboundtosaythathelistenedto whatIhadtosayveryquietlyandevendeferentially.WhenIhad finishedheputonthatairofirondeterminationwhichIhave frequentlyobserveduponhisface,andpacedrapidlybackwardsand forwardsacrossthenarrowcabinforsomeminutes.AtfirstI fearedthatIhadseriouslyoffendedhim,buthedispelledtheidea bysittingdownagain,andputtinghishanduponmyarmwitha gesturewhichalmostamountedtoacaress.Therewasadepthof tendernesstooinhiswilddarkeyeswhichsurprisedme considerably.Lookhere,Doctor,
hesaid,I'msorryIevertook you--Iamindeed--andIwouldgivefiftypoundsthisminutetosee youstandingsafeupontheDundeequay.It'shitormisswithme thistime.Therearefishtothenorthofus.Howdareyoushake yourhead,sir,whenItellyouIsawthemblowingfromthe masthead?
--thisinasuddenburstoffury,thoughIwasnot consciousofhavingshownanysignsofdoubt."Two-and-twentyfish inasmanyminutesasIamalivingman,andnotoneunderten foot.[1]Now,Doctor,doyouthinkIcanleavethecountrywhen thereisonlyoneinfernalstripoficebetweenmeandmyfortune?
Ifitcameontoblowfromthenorthto-morrowwecouldfillthe shipandbeawaybeforethefrostcouldcatchus.Ifitcameonto blowfromthesouth--well,Isupposethemenarepaidforrisking theirlives,andasformyselfitmattersbutlittletome,forI havemoretobindmetotheotherworldthantothisone.I confessthatIamsorryforyou,though.IwishIhadoldAngus
Taitwhowaswithmelastvoyage,forhewasamanthatwouldnever bemissed,andyou--yousaidoncethatyouwereengaged,didyou not?"
[1]Awhaleismeasuredamongwhalersnotbythelengthofits body,butbythelengthofitswhalebone.
Yes,
Ianswered,snappingthespringofthelocketwhichhung frommywatch-chain,andholdingupthelittlevignetteofFlora.
Curseyou!
heyelled,springingoutofhisseat,withhisvery beardbristlingwithpassion.Whatisyourhappinesstome?What haveItodowithherthatyoumustdangleherphotographbeforemy eyes?
Ialmostthoughtthathewasabouttostrikemeinthe frenzyofhisrage,butwithanotherimprecationhedashedopenthe doorofthecabinandrushedoutupondeck,leavingmeconsiderably astonishedathisextraordinaryviolence.Itisthefirsttime thathehasevershownmeanythingbutcourtesyandkindness.I canhearhimpacingexcitedlyupanddownoverheadasIwritethese lines.
Ishouldliketogiveasketchofthecharacterofthisman,butit seemspresumptuoustoattemptsuchathinguponpaper,whenthe ideainmyownmindisatbestavagueanduncertainone.Several timesIhavethoughtthatIgraspedthecluewhichmightexplain it,butonlytobedisappointedbyhispresentinghimselfinsome newlightwhichwouldupsetallmyconclusions.Itmaybethatno humaneyebutmyownshalleverrestupontheselines,yetasa psychologicalstudyIshallattempttoleavesomerecordofCaptain
NicholasCraigie.
Aman'soutercasegenerallygivessomeindicationofthesoul within.TheCaptainistallandwell-formed,withdark,handsome face,andacuriouswayoftwitchinghislimbs,whichmayarise fromnervousness,orbesimplyanoutcomeofhisexcessiveenergy.
Hisjawandwholecastofcountenanceismanlyandresolute,but theeyesarethedistinctivefeatureofhisface.Theyareofthe verydarkesthazel,brightandeager,withasingularmixtureof recklessnessintheirexpression,andofsomethingelsewhichI havesometimesthoughtwasmorealliedwithhorrorthananyother emotion.Generallytheformerpredominated,butonoccasions,and moreparticularlywhenhewasthoughtfullyinclined,thelookof fearwouldspreadanddeepenuntilitimpartedanewcharacterto hiswholecountenance.Itisatthesetimesthatheismost subjecttotempestuousfitsofanger,andheseemstobeawareof it,forIhaveknownhimlockhimselfupsothatnoonemight approachhimuntilhisdarkhourwaspassed.Hesleepsbadly,and
Ihaveheardhimshoutingduringthenight,buthiscabinissome littledistancefrommine,andIcouldneverdistinguishthewords whichhesaid.
Thisisonephaseofhischaracter,andthemostdisagreeableone.
Itisonlythroughmycloseassociationwithhim,throwntogether aswearedayafterday,thatIhaveobservedit.Otherwiseheis
anagreeablecompanion,well-readandentertaining,andasgallant aseamanasevertrodadeck.Ishallnoteasilyforgetthewayin whichhehandledtheshipwhenwewerecaughtbyagaleamongthe looseiceatthebeginningofApril.Ihaveneverseenhimso cheerful,andevenhilarious,ashewasthatnight,ashepaced backwardsandforwardsuponthebridgeamidtheflashingofthe lightningandthehowlingofthewind.Hehastoldmeseveral timesthatthethoughtofdeathwasapleasantonetohim,whichis asadthingforayoungmantosay;hecannotbemuchmorethan thirty,thoughhishairandmoustachearealreadyslightly grizzled.Somegreatsorrowmusthaveovertakenhimandblighted hiswholelife.PerhapsIshouldbethesameifIlostmyFlora--
Godknows!IthinkifitwerenotforherthatIshouldcarevery littlewhetherthewindblewfromthenorthorthesouthto-morrow.
There,Ihearhimcomedownthecompanion,andhehaslocked himselfupinhisroom,whichshowsthatheisstillinan unamiablemood.Andsotobed,asoldPepyswouldsay,forthe candleisburningdown(wehavetousethemnowsincethenights areclosingin),andthestewardhasturnedin,sothereareno hopesofanotherone.
September12th.--Calm,clearday,andstilllyinginthesame position.Whatwindthereiscomesfromthesouth-east,butitis veryslight.Captainisinabetterhumour,andapologisedtome atbreakfastforhisrudeness.Hestilllookssomewhatdistrait, however,andretainsthatwildlookinhiseyeswhichina
Highlanderwouldmeanthathewasfey
--atleastsoourchief engineerremarkedtome,andhehassomereputationamongthe
Celticportionofourcrewasaseerandexpounderofomens.
Itisstrangethatsuperstitionshouldhaveobtainedsuchmastery overthishard-headedandpracticalrace.Icouldnothave believedtowhatanextentitiscarriedhadInotobserveditfor myself.Wehavehadaperfectepidemicofitthisvoyage,untilI havefeltinclinedtoserveoutrationsofsedativesandnerve- tonicswiththeSaturdayallowanceofgrog.Thefirstsymptom ofitwasthatshortlyafterleavingShetlandthemenatthewheel usedtocomplainthattheyheardplaintivecriesandscreamsinthe wakeoftheship,asifsomethingwerefollowingitandwereunable toovertakeit.Thisfictionhasbeenkeptupduringthewhole voyage,andondarknightsatthebeginningoftheseal-fishingit wasonlywithgreatdifficultythatmencouldbeinducedtodo theirspell.Nodoubtwhattheyheardwaseitherthecreakingof therudder-chains,orthecryofsomepassingsea-bird.Ihave beenfetchedoutofbedseveraltimestolistentoit,butIneed hardlysaythatIwasneverabletodistinguishanythingunnatural.
Themen,however,aresoabsurdlypositiveuponthesubjectthatit ishopelesstoarguewiththem.Imentionedthemattertothe
Captainonce,buttomysurprisehetookitverygravely,and
indeedappearedtobeconsiderablydisturbedbywhatItoldhim.
Ishouldhavethoughtthatheatleastwouldhavebeenabovesuch vulgardelusions.
Allthisdisquisitionuponsuperstitionleadsmeuptothefact thatMr.Manson,oursecondmate,sawaghostlastnight--or,at least,saysthathedid,whichofcourseisthesamething.Itis quiterefreshingtohavesomenewtopicofconversationafterthe eternalroutineofbearsandwhaleswhichhasservedusforsomany months.Mansonswearstheshipishaunted,andthathewouldnot stayinheradayifhehadanyotherplacetogoto.Indeedthe fellowishonestlyfrightened,andIhadtogivehimsome chloralandbromideofpotassiumthismorningtosteadyhim down.HeseemedquiteindignantwhenIsuggestedthathehadbeen havinganextraglassthenightbefore,andIwasobligedtopacify himbykeepingasgraveacountenanceaspossibleduringhisstory, whichhecertainlynarratedinaverystraight-forwardandmatter- of-factway.
Iwasonthebridge,
hesaid,"aboutfourbellsinthemiddle watch,justwhenthenightwasatitsdarkest.Therewasabitof amoon,butthecloudswereblowingacrossitsothatyoucouldn't seefarfromtheship.JohnM`Leod,theharpooner,cameaftfrom thefoc'sle-headandreportedastrangenoiseonthestarboardbow.
Iwentforrardandwebothheardit,sometimeslikeabairncrying andsometimeslikeawenchinpain.I'vebeenseventeenyearsto thecountryandIneverheardseal,oldoryoung,makeasoundlike that.Aswewerestandingthereonthefoc'sle-headthemooncame outfrombehindacloud,andwebothsawasortofwhitefigure movingacrosstheicefieldinthesamedirectionthatwehadheard thecries.Welostsightofitforawhile,butitcamebackon theportbow,andwecouldjustmakeitoutlikeashadowonthe ice.Isentahandaftfortherifles,andM`LeodandIwentdown ontothepack,thinkingthatmaybeitmightbeabear.Whenwe gotontheiceIlostsightofM`Leod,butIpushedoninthe directionwhereIcouldstillhearthecries.Ifollowedthemfor amileormaybemore,andthenrunningroundahummockIcameright ontothetopofitstandingandwaitingformeseemingly.I don'tknowwhatitwas.Itwasn'tabearanyway.Itwastalland whiteandstraight,andifitwasn'tamannorawoman,I'llstake mydavyitwassomethingworse.ImadefortheshipashardasI couldrun,andpreciousgladIwastofindmyselfaboard.Isigned articlestodomydutybytheship,andontheshipI'llstay,but youdon'tcatchmeontheiceagainaftersundown."
Thatishisstory,givenasfarasIcaninhisownwords.Ifancy whathesawmust,inspiteofhisdenial,havebeenayoungbear erectuponitshindlegs,anattitudewhichtheyoftenassumewhen alarmed.Intheuncertainlightthiswouldbeararesemblanceto ahumanfigure,especiallytoamanwhosenerveswerealready
somewhatshaken.Whateveritmayhavebeen,theoccurrenceis unfortunate,forithasproducedamostunpleasanteffectuponthe crew.Theirlooksaremoresullenthanbefore,andtheir discontentmoreopen.Thedoublegrievanceofbeingdebarredfrom theherringfishingandofbeingdetainedinwhattheychooseto callahauntedvessel,mayleadthemtodosomethingrash.Even theharpooners,whoaretheoldestandsteadiestamongthem,are joininginthegeneralagitation.
Apartfromthisabsurdoutbreakofsuperstition,thingsarelooking rathermorecheerful.Thepackwhichwasformingtothesouthof ushaspartlyclearedaway,andthewaterissowarmastoleadme tobelievethatwearelyinginoneofthosebranchesofthegulf- streamwhichrunupbetweenGreenlandandSpitzbergen.There arenumeroussmallMedusseandsealemonsabouttheship,with abundanceofshrimps,sothatthereiseverypossibilityoffish
beingsighted.Indeedonewasseenblowingaboutdinner-time,but insuchapositionthatitwasimpossiblefortheboatstofollow it.
September13th.--Hadaninterestingconversationwiththechief mate,Mr.Milne,uponthebridge.ItseemsthatourCaptainisas greatanenigmatotheseamen,andeventotheownersofthe vessel,ashehasbeentome.Mr.Milnetellsmethatwhenthe shipispaidoff,uponreturningfromavoyage,CaptainCraigie disappears,andisnotseenagainuntiltheapproachofanother season,whenhewalksquietlyintotheofficeofthecompany,and askswhetherhisserviceswillberequired.Hehasnofriendin
Dundee,nordoesanyonepretendtobeacquaintedwithhisearly history.Hispositiondependsentirelyuponhisskillasaseaman, andthenameforcourageandcoolnesswhichhehadearnedinthe capacityofmate,beforebeingentrustedwithaseparatecommand.
TheunanimousopinionseemstobethatheisnotaScotchman,and thathisnameisanassumedone.Mr.Milnethinksthathehas devotedhimselftowhalingsimplyforthereasonthatitisthe mostdangerousoccupationwhichhecouldselect,andthathecourts deathineverypossiblemanner.Hementionedseveralinstancesof this,oneofwhichisrathercurious,iftrue.Itseemsthaton oneoccasionhedidnotputinanappearanceattheoffice,and asubstitutehadtobeselectedinhisplace.Thatwasatthetime ofthelastRussianandTurkishwar.Whenheturnedupagainnext springhehadapuckeredwoundinthesideofhisneckwhichhe usedtoendeavourtoconcealwithhiscravat.Whetherthemate's inferencethathehadbeenengagedinthewaristrueornotI cannotsay.Itwascertainlyastrangecoincidence.
Thewindisveeringroundinaneasterlydirection,butisstill veryslight.Ithinktheiceislyingcloserthanitdid yesterday.Asfarastheeyecanreachoneverysidethereisone wideexpanseofspotlesswhite,onlybrokenbyanoccasionalrift orthedarkshadowofahummock.Tothesouththereisthenarrow
laneofbluewaterwhichisoursolemeansofescape,andwhichis closingupeveryday.TheCaptainistakingaheavyresponsibility uponhimself.Ihearthatthetankofpotatoeshasbeenfinished, andeventhebiscuitsarerunningshort,buthepreservesthesame impassiblecountenance,andspendsthegreaterpartofthedayat thecrow'snest,sweepingthehorizonwithhisglass.Hismanner isveryvariable,andheseemstoavoidmysociety,buttherehas beennorepetitionoftheviolencewhichheshowedtheothernight.
7.30P.M.--Mydeliberateopinionisthatwearecommandedbya madman.Nothingelsecanaccountfortheextraordinaryvagariesof
CaptainCraigie.ItisfortunatethatIhavekeptthisjournalof ourvoyage,asitwillservetojustifyusincasewehavetoput himunderanysortofrestraint,astepwhichIshouldonly consenttoasalastresource.Curiouslyenoughitwashehimself whosuggestedlunacyandnotmereeccentricityasthesecretofhis strangeconduct.Hewasstandinguponthebridgeaboutanhour ago,peeringasusualthroughhisglass,whileIwaswalkingupand downthequarterdeck.Themajorityofthemenwerebelowattheir tea,forthewatcheshavenotbeenregularlykeptoflate.Tired ofwalking,Ileanedagainstthebulwarks,andadmiredthemellow glowcastbythesinkingsunuponthegreaticefieldswhich surroundus.IwassuddenlyarousedfromthereverieintowhichI hadfallenbyahoarsevoiceatmyelbow,andstartingroundI foundthattheCaptainhaddescendedandwasstandingbymyside.
Hewasstaringoutovertheicewithanexpressioninwhichhorror, surprise,andsomethingapproachingtojoywerecontendingforthe mastery.Inspiteofthecold,greatdropsofperspirationwere coursingdownhisforehead,andhewasevidentlyfearfullyexcited.
Hislimbstwitchedlikethoseofamanuponthevergeofan epilepticfit,andthelinesabouthismouthweredrawnandhard.
Look!
hegasped,seizingmebythewrist,butstillkeepinghis eyesuponthedistantice,andmovinghisheadslowlyina horizontaldirection,asiffollowingsomeobjectwhichwasmoving acrossthefieldofvision."Look!There,man,there!Between thehummocks!Nowcomingoutfrombehindthefarone!Yousee her--youMUSTseeher!Therestill!Flyingfromme,by
God,flyingfromme--andgone!"
Heutteredthelasttwowordsinawhisperofconcentratedagony whichshallneverfadefrommyremembrance.Clingingtothe ratlinesheendeavouredtoclimbupuponthetopofthebulwarksas ifinthehopeofobtainingalastglanceatthedepartingobject.
Hisstrengthwasnotequaltotheattempt,however,andhe staggeredbackagainstthesaloonskylights,whereheleaned pantingandexhausted.HisfacewassolividthatIexpectedhim tobecomeunconscious,solostnotimeinleadinghimdownthe companion,andstretchinghimupononeofthesofasinthecabin.
Ithenpouredhimoutsomebrandy,whichIheldtohislips,and
whichhadawonderfuleffectuponhim,bringingthebloodbackinto hiswhitefaceandsteadyinghispoorshakinglimbs.Heraised himselfupuponhiselbow,andlookingroundtoseethatwewere alone,hebeckonedtometocomeandsitbesidehim.
Yousawit,didn'tyou?
heasked,stillinthesamesubdued awesometonesoforeigntothenatureoftheman.
No,Isawnothing.
Hisheadsankbackagainuponthecushions.No,hewouldn't withouttheglass,
hemurmured."Hecouldn't.Itwastheglass thatshowedhertome,andthentheeyesoflove--theeyesoflove.
Isay,Doc,don'tletthestewardin!He'llthinkI'mmad.Just boltthedoor,willyou!"
Iroseanddidwhathehadcommanded.
Helayquietforawhile,lostinthoughtapparently,andthen raisedhimselfupuponhiselbowagain,andaskedforsomemore brandy.
Youdon'tthinkIam,doyou,Doc?
heasked,asIwasputtingthe bottlebackintotheafter-locker.Tellmenow,asmantoman,do youthinkthatIammad?
Ithinkyouhavesomethingonyourmind,
Ianswered,whichis excitingyouanddoingyouagooddealofharm.
Rightthere,lad!
hecried,hiseyessparklingfromtheeffects ofthebrandy.Plentyonmymind--plenty!ButIcanworkoutthe latitudeandthelongitude,andIcanhandlemysextantandmanage mylogarithms.Youcouldn'tprovememadinacourtoflaw,could you,now?
Itwascurioustohearthemanlyingbackandcoolly arguingoutthequestionofhisownsanity.
Perhapsnot,
Isaid;butstillIthinkyouwouldbewisetoget homeassoonasyoucan,andsettledowntoaquietlifefora while.
Gethome,eh?
hemuttered,withasneeruponhisface.Oneword formeandtwoforyourself,lad.SettledownwithFlora--pretty littleFlora.Arebaddreamssignsofmadness?
Sometimes,
Ianswered.
Whatelse?Whatwouldbethefirstsymptoms?
Painsinthehead,noisesintheearsflashesbeforetheeyes, delusions
----
Ah!whataboutthem?
heinterrupted.Whatwouldyoucalla delusion?
Seeingathingwhichisnotthereisadelusion.
ButsheWASthere!
hegroanedtohimself.SheWASthere!
andrising,heunboltedthedoorandwalkedwithslowanduncertain stepstohisowncabin,whereIhavenodoubtthathewillremain untilto-morrowmorning.Hissystemseemstohavereceiveda terribleshock,whateveritmayhavebeenthatheimaginedhimself tohaveseen.Themanbecomesagreatermysteryeveryday,though
Ifearthatthesolutionwhichhehashimselfsuggestedisthe correctone,andthathisreasonisaffected.Idonotthinkthat aguiltyconsciencehasanythingtodowithhisbehaviour.The ideaisapopularoneamongtheofficers,and,Ibelieve,thecrew; butIhaveseennothingtosupportit.Hehasnottheairofa