Apex Magazine Issue 116: Apex Magazine, #116
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Apex Magazine is a science fiction, fantasy, and horror magazine featuring original, mind-bending short fiction.
EDITORIAL
Words from the Editor-in-Chief — Jason Sizemore
FICTION
The Pulse of Memory — Beth Dawkins
The Great Train Robbery — Lavie Tidhar
The Small White — Marian Coman
Bone Song — Aja McCullough
With These Hands — LH Moore
NONFICTION
Interview with Author Beth Dawkins — Andrea Johnson
Interview with Cover Artist Tangmo Cecchini — Russell Dickerson
Writing Wrongly — Daniel M. Bensen
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Apex Magazine Issue 116 - Apex Magazine
Apex Magazine
Issue 116, January 2019
Beth Dawkins Lavie Tidhar Marian Coman Aja McCullough L.H. Moore Daniel M. Bensen
Edited by
Jason Sizemore
Apex PublicationsContents
Words from the Editor-in-Chief by Jason Sizemore
The Pulse of Memory by Beth Dawkins
Interview with Author Beth Dawkins by Andrea Johnson
(Sponsor) The Firebird
The Great Train Robbery by Lavie Tidhar
(Apex) World SF Vol. 5
The Small White by Marian Coman
Writing Wrongly by Daniel M. Bensen
(Apex) Do Not Go Quietly
Bone Song by Aja McCullough
With These Hands by LH Moore
Interview with Cover Artist Tangmo Cecchini by Russell Dickerson
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Jason SizemoreWords from the Editor-in-Chief by Jason Sizemore
If you haven’t done so, toss that old calendar into the recycle bin and pin your new 2019 Kittens Being Bratty edition to the wall. The ball has dropped in Times Square. Resolutions have been made (and already broken?). And the first issue of 2019 is ready for your consumption.
2018 isn’t the only thing that came to an end. In early December I made the difficult choice to retire the print edition. It was a year-long experiment, and after twelve months of heavy promotion, lots of love for the cover art, and praise for the fiction, we had 80 subscribers. While we appreciate each and every one of those 80 subscribers, it is obvious that the audience simply does not exist for a paper edition of Apex Magazine to exist long term. I want to thank the readers who subscribed and provided a large enough base of support to make the print magazine viable during its run.
Due to the largess of our Patreon backers, we are bringing you a new novelette titled The Great Train Robbery
from acclaimed author Lavie Tidhar. It’s a change of pace from the last few noir-Hitler pieces of his that we’ve published. The Great Train Robbery
is a fun science fiction train heist tale with memorable characters and some fantastic imagery.
Bone Song
by Aja McCullough is another in a run of outstanding dark flash pieces we’ve published over the last couple of years. We have a translated piece by Romanian author Marian Coman titled The Small White
(translation by Sebastian Simion) that dips its toes into eastern European magical realism. Finally, we have a strange generation ship story (The Pulse of Memory
) involving goldfish and memories by newcomer Beth Dawkins. Beth’s story will certainly add color to the saying memory like a goldfish.
We’re delighted to have LH Moore back in our pages as the author of our reprinted story With These Hands: An Account of Uncommon Labour.
Andrea Johnson interviews Beth Dawkins about The Pulse of Memory.
Russell Dickerson talks with cover artist Tangmo Cecchini.
Cancer is an asshole. But Daniel M. Bensen survived his battle and succeeded in finishing and, ultimately, publishing his novel Junction. In his essay Writing Wrongly
Daniel gives an intensely personal look into how he managed being a father, a writer, and cancer patient. His resilience is an inspiration to everyone. It’s one of the best process
essays I’ve ever read.
See you in February!
Jason
Beth DawkinsThe Pulse of Memory by Beth Dawkins
5,100 words
The first thing I fell in love with, other than my family, was the fish in tank two.
My grandmother, a programmer for the Seasonal Conditions Department or SCD, held my hand as she led me off the stone path and away from the mossy green pond. We stepped up to an oak tree whose limbs touched our digital sky.
Feel this.
My grandmother placed my hand against the trunk.
The bark was slippery and hard, plastic. Artificial.
My grandmother’s smile showed off the ancient lines around her eyes. It’s a door, little lamb,
she explained, stepping to the side of the trunk. She touched the surface and I heard a soft click.
Seamless bark opened. I jumped back and giggled. Electric bulbs flickered on, filling the dark hole with light.
Where are we going?
I asked, following her down the stairs. I didn’t want to go, not at first.
To show you the fish. You want to see them, don’t you?
The red robes of my grandmother’s station, a comfortable reminder of her importance, whispered over her steps. She took my hand as a door slid open at the end of the stairs. The hallway lacked trees and sky, and the air smelled sanitized, like a medical floor. We weren’t alone. Adults in important robes of red, blue, and green walked the silver and gray hallway. Translucent holos, like those I played learning games on, hovered in front of their faces.
The hallway curved. Circular windows dotted one side of the wall, providing a view of hundreds and thousands of twinkling stars.
It’s daytime,
I said, astonished.
Yes, but we’re in space. Haven’t you learned that yet?
I tried to understand what she meant. Space was empty air and space was outside, filled with darkness and stars.
The tank on the other side of the hallway shimmered under the slanted light from above. Hidden in cloudy aquamarine, dayglow flutters of fluorescents flickered, like starlight. I pressed my hand against the Plexiglas and they moved, danced. Some blinked to an inaudible rhythm and some pulsed.
What are they?
I whispered.
Fish,
she answered in a matter-of-fact way.
Cal, has your mother explained death?
I shook my head, unable to look away.
My grandmother leaned down to my height. I examined the fine lines that creased her neck. Before we die, we are put in a tank, not this tank, but a smaller one. The fish take us, our memories, what we’ve learned and live on until someone eats them. Or they die, consumed by the computers.
How come?
So that nothing is ever lost, lamb.
She then pulled me into her arms. I’ll pulse my light for you, forever.
I closed my eyes, breathing in the scent of cooked sugar and earthy dirt. It was the smell of home, the smell of comfort, and love.
Everyone dies at sixty-five. If a soul lives longer their memories risk corruption and are rendered unusable.
History says we lived for much longer until a coming-of-age rite where a boy once ate a bad fish.
The boy was placed in maintenance, on a heating unit. His mistakes caused five deaths and an explosion that fractured society for the next decade. His evaluation proved he had confused the past with the present, due to eroded memories.
The next time I saw the fish was my grandmother’s sixty-fifth birthday. Her funeral took place in the glass dome, beside the park. Crowds filled the stands with our family, co-workers in her unit, and old friends. Their heads bowed as they clasped my grandmother’s hand. They called her brave as tears fell down their cheeks.
I’ve heard stories of other grandparents running away from the tank, of being dragged back to the platform, but not my grandmother. She stood tall and erect, calm in her red robes. Music started to play, one of her favorite songs.
Mother gripped my hand. Tears glistened on her cheeks like the stars outside the ship.
Grandmother swayed against the guardrail. Her eyes closed, her head tilted back, and her lips spread up in a smile. The song was old, slow, with lyrics that I couldn’t make out. The beat picked up with crashing cymbals and a woman’s deep soprano, pouring out one long note of lost romance.
The pressure of my mother’s grip increased as the song came to an end. I squeaked in protest, shaking my hand out of hers.
The people in the stands murmured as my grandmother stepped away from the tank. And I, like the rest of the gathering, wondered if she might run.
She picked up something too small to see and