Mine Mind

By Ivory

My book is an auto-biography of myself except it is written through poems

and writings, etc. It is written through very in-depth and detailed feelings,

not through a story. Through the chapters and the dates, in it’s entirety, it is

a story. My book consists of poetry and writings that I have kept my whole

life. Mainly of things that I have been through with writing as my only

release.

 

The central topic of my book is:

 

Love, Hurt, and everything in between.

The ideas of religion.

 

Real life experiences from innocence and purity to reality and truth.

my diary

my soul

my outlook

my feelings

my release

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Apr 30, 2011
• ISBN: 9781456855307

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Copyright © 2011 by Ivory.

Library of Congress Control Number:       2011901640

ISBN:         Hardcover                               978-1-4568-5529-1

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This book is a work of fiction and non-fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events or locales or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental. True or not, some things I have to declare as fictional in order to protect my own life from the law, psychiatrists, religious or just any people in general.

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My book is an auto-biography of myself except it is written through poems and writings, etc. It is written through very in-depth and detailed feelings, not through a story. Through the chapters and the dates, in it’s entirety, it is a story. My book consists of poetry and writings that I have kept my whole life. Mainly of things that I have been through with writing as my only release.

The central topic of my book is:

Love, Hurt, and everything in between.

The ideas of religion.

Real life experiences from innocence and purity to reality and truth.

my diary

my soul

my outlook

my feelings

my release

CHAPTERS

• Love

• Crazy

• Religion

• ART

• Writings

• Just Poems

• Nothing

Contents

THE LOVE CHAPTER

THE CRAZY CHAPTER

THE RELIGIOUS CHAPTER

THE ART CHAPTER

THE WRITINGS, ESSAYS, & STUFF CHAPTER

THE JUST POEMS CHAPTER

THE NOTHING CHAPTER

Written

18       12th grade      =                       1995/1996

17       11th grade       =                       1994/1995

16       10th grade       =                       1993/1994

15       9th grade         =                       1992/1993

14       8th grade         =                       1991/1992

13       7th grade         =                       1990/1991

12       6th grade         =                       1989/1990

11       5th grade         =                       1988/1989

10       4th grade         =                       1987/1988

09       3rd grade         =                       1986/1987

08       2nd grade         =                       1985/1986

Miracles & Standard Medical Problems

throughout my life:

FACTS:

1. In 1977, my mother got pregnant with me. She had some x-rays done on her before she knew she was pregnant with me. She had several doctors tell her to get an abortion when abortion was illegal. She was told that I would be born dead or retarded. She is a good Christian woman and there was no way ever that she would have an abortion. I was her 3rd and last child. She had me. 9lbs. 2 oz. on December 24, 1977. God saved me.

2. When I was 3 yrs. Old, I was climbing a tree and a snake bit me. A copperhead. Back then, in 1981, the only medication they had for snake venom was horse serum. Lo’ & Behold, that is the only medication that I am allergic to. The poison was racing up my leg turning it rotten and black heading towards my heart and brain, thus killing me. The doctors were going to have to cut my leg off in order to save my life. The doctors had me in surgery, the first time, and I woke up! My blessed family are all Pentecostal and strongly believe in miracles and that God, in His Amazing Might, could surely do anything. They all prayed, begged, and pleaded for me. The doctors had me in surgery for the second time. They had my left leg all beta dined up, the saw was ready, then all of a sudden, the doctors came out to my family in shock! They said that a wind just came through the operating room, all the rotten poison just drained right out of my leg. They were mind-blown. No scientific explanation. God saved my leg. Just like that. I became a pretty good basketball player. I started every game from the 4th grade to the 12th. I love my God. God saved me again.

3. When I was 5 years. Old, I was coming out of my piano teacher’s store to go up to the parking lot to get into my mother’s car. Her car wasn’t there, so I was heading back down to wait on her. A semi-truck, some sort of a moving business truck, with a red-headed man with a red beard yelled at me that my mom sent him to come and get me and take me right up the road about a quarter of a mile to a local grocery store. I screamed, cried, and ran my little legs off back down to my piano teacher’s store. We called the cops and reported it. Nothing was ever done. No one was ever caught. God saved me again.

4. I have had numerous sprained ankles. Once, my ankle sprang so bad that I even had to wear a cast for six weeks. I have had chicken pox three times.

5. I got shot in my right hand with a air pistol pellet gun. The pellet had to be surgically removed. That really freaken’ hurt.

6. When I was 14 yrs. Old I found out that I do have a heart condition called mitrovalveprolapse which is the tightening of my arteries due from stress, nicotine, and caffeine.

7. When I was 16 yrs. Old, my right ear starting growing out more and more. The doctors found that I had a tumor growing behind the top of my right ear. No! It’s not a tuma! says Arnold Schwarzenegger. So I had to have a surgical procedure to have it removed because number one, it was a tumor, and number two, it was making my ear grow out farther and farther from my head. I was curious to what a tumor might look like so I asked the doctor if they could just barely put me out and wake me up when they had finished so I could see what a tumor looked like. It actually looked like a jumbo brown shrimp. They sent it off to a lab and found that it was benign. Thank God! God saved me again.

8. When I was 19 yrs. Old, I was in a very bad drunk driving accident with me drunk and me driving. It was the first and only time that I have ever drove drunk. It was a horrible accident. I was doing 80 miles an hour on a dirt road. I had to be air-lifted by helicopter to the nearest hospital acquitted with the right machines to try and keep me alive. I did not break anything. Head Trauma. 2 collapsed lungs. My left lung collapsed again while in the hospital totaling 3 collapsed lungs. I was in the hospital for 2 weeks. Still to this day I do not remember a thing for those whole 2 weeks. God saved me again.

9. I lived in Las Vegas for 3 years from when I was 19 yrs. Old until I was 22 yrs. Old. Well, I went out there strictly, straight-up in church. About the last 6 months or so that I was out there, I fell. I got really mixed up bad with the wrong people doing the wrong things. Free-spirited hippy my butt! A murderer of over 2000 people for the mob choked me to death, but I woke up! Through all the wrong choices and very bad people that I was around, God saved me again.

10. Many, many road-trips all by my little ole’ self, well God was right there by my side at all times. Footprints in the Sand is for real. God saved me again and again and again.

11. Beaten, Tortured, raped, and sexually assaulted way more than a few times. Once I got ‘slipped a rufie’and got raped by three men and even one woman. They fractured three of my vertebrae, bruises galore; I had cigarette burns from my head to my toe. I had to tell the emergency room that I had fallen off of a cliff. La, la, la… no more details on this one.

12. When I was 29 yrs. Old, exactly 10 years after my first drunk driving accident, I was in another drunk driving accident. I actually wasn’t driving this time. It was my third trip back to the beer store. A 30-pack of beer, a gallon of whiskey, and I wanted to go back for more. I was really on one. Well, I’m a stubborn and hard-headed person and I really needed the crap slapped out of me for the way I was throwing myself down the drain again. This wreck should have killed me. There was three of us in the car. A friend of mine, my husband, and me. We were driving to the beer store going really fast. I don’t remember much, but I do remember some very few important details. There was a full-size truck with a trailer in front of us. We went to pass them, and they decided to turn left. We were passing. We got to where about the trailer and the truck were hooked to each other. We were going about 80mph. I do remember the sound. Wow! What a BOOM!!! I flew out the front passenger window, got hit by the car as it flipped in the air, and got thrown about 20ft having the pavement catch me. I do remember, after I hit the ground, thinking to myself, Whoa! That was an incredible wreck! Just like anyone else would want to look at something so incredible, I really wanted to look back and see what all had happened. I remember ever so slowly, just barely able to, but I did lift myself with my arms up off the pavement and I heard my dear husband yelling my name over and over again. I remember thinking, He does love me! He sees me. I’ll be O.K. He’ll make sure of it. I fell back down on the ground. I was really hurt. It was amazingly brutal. After it all, I was talking to my husband about this and he had told me, Honey, you never moved. So that right there proved to me that I did die as soon as I had hit the pavement. Me pushing up off the pavement was my soul lifting up out of my body, but I heard my husband’s scared voice calling my name with pure concern and knew that he must love me. The reason I was drinking again anyway was because me and him, this marriage was horribly failing. So I was again drowning myself with boos so I couldn’t feel my reality of drowning in failed-love misery. Anyway, I had to be air-lifted again to the same hospital. That was the second time I got to ride on a helicopter, and I don’t remember either time. I had to have a complete blood transfusion. I do remember the paramedics, just like the first wreck, when they literally slice a cut between your ribs and ‘tube you’, meaning they have to jam a rubber hose through the cut all they way into your lungs. Both lungs were collapsed again. I had to be on that ‘iron-lung’ respirator life or death breathing machine… ventilator. The first wreck was compression collapsed lungs. This wreck was punctured collapsed lungs. This is a total of five collapsed lungs. The punctures were from seven of my ribs that had gotten broke and punctured my lungs and also lacerated my liver. My left shoulder blade broke completely in half right in the middle with the bottom part of my shoulder blade way down on the bottom of my back, by my butt. The doctors could not do surgery to fix me. They couldn’t do anything really. I got more head-trauma. This time taking away my short term memory. This really gets on my nerves sometimes. I get up from the couch to go to the kitchen to get something, and by the time I get in there, I’m just standing in there wandering what I went in there for. Really aggravating! I broke my neck. I broke my c-4 vertebrae in my neck. The doctors could not explain why I was not paralyzed. I had to wear a neck brace for four months. I mean wear it all of the time… 24/7, even in the shower. I lost quite a bit of my hair on the back of my head. I was in a coma for three days. My husband turned himself into an alcohol detox rehab three days after the wreck and that’s when I finally opened my eyes. Just like Jesus in the tomb… He was in there for three days and resurrected. Oh my God I was so hurt. I thought the aliens had gotten me for sure. I thought the nurses were aliens and were going to eat me, but it was just the morphine. The doctors explained to me after I awoke that the only way that I could get those tubes out of my body was to try my best and cough up all that I could. There was so much blood and crap in my flat, collapsed lungs. I remember trying for hours at a time to cough up one little puddle of spit. I was so, so very weak. I couldn’t even spit it out of my mouth. I would have to hit the nurse’s button every time I got some coughed up and they literally had to use one of those dentist’s sucking tube things to suck the spit-up out of my mouth. They would leave me at it again for a few more hours of trying. A couple of weeks went by, and they started me in some very easy therapy to try and prepare me to get ready to go home. I had to re-learn even how to take a shower. That was really brutal. I hurt bad, but I was alive! I hurt everyday, but I know with karma and everything, I can’t complain a whole lot because at least I am not paralyzed or dead. God saved me again! He really is my best friend forever.

I thought the nurses were aliens and were going to eat me. I thought the aliens had gotten me for sure! A couple of years later, like right now, February 09, 2011, a realization of an un-imaginary truth came to me. After hearing a testimonial of a man that had died and came back to life with a dedicated and detailed memory of his experience of the after-life. His experience of his ‘brief’ journey to Hell and back soulee to testify to anyone and everyone that would listen. Take my word for it, this testimony was not uplifting and joyful, but quite the opposite… A SERIOUS AND FEARFUL WARNING!!! This is when my realization of the nurse’s being aliens was only my own justifiable reckoning of trying to understand my detailed memories of what I know I saw. I was truly on the edge of existence. The realm , if you will, the realm between life and death; between flesh and spirit. This truth is way more scarier than me thinking the nurses were aliens going to eat me; the truth is: They were REAL DEMONS awaiting my arrival. Oh my Dear Lord God in Heaven! Days went by with me in a coma. I awoke ever so often to only see what was waiting for me as soon as I passed on. Oh, I was so, so close! Finally, once after a few days of fading and dying off and on, I awoke and finally saw a crucifix on the wall directly in the front of my bed. As soon as I saw that, tears of joy and tears of agonizing pleas of mercy and forgiveness came pouring out of the inside of my mind. My actual body had not near enough strength or energy to really cry or to really speak or even mourn. My Holy Merciful Wonderful Dear God heard my cries inside my mind. HE delivered me from Hell and death! He forgave me of my sins! He saved me! He healed me! I love you Jesus, my Holy God forever and ever, AMEN!

13. I was searching for anything at this one time in my life when I was 22yrs. Old. I found all of my writings such is in this book. I found writings from the second grade even. I came up with the bright idea to write a book. Seven years later, after the wreck, I started to really publish this book since I didn’t die in the car wreck. So here it is. Also, another wonderful thing… I had to wear my neck brace for four months. After I got to take it off, I had the little voice in my heart and soul tell me that I should start playing the piano again. It was the same little voice that would tell me to get up and testify at church or what have ya’. Well, my mom took my sister and I to piano lessons once a week and an hour each every day of practice from the time that I was 5yrs. Old until I was 16yrs. Old. I hadn’t touched the piano since she let me stop. Now, after the wreck, I was 29 yrs. Old, thirteen years later, and I minded the voice and started playing again. I am in one of the best bands that I have ever heard. I’m not just saying that because I am in the band either. I hung out with this band and went to every band practice every Sunday for 6 years before the wreck just supporting them. I love Metal. I know good music. I feel great music. This is great music and now I am in the band also. I believe we are about to get signed on a label. I am keeping my fingers crossed anyway. My life has turned into amazing days with amazing reasons for living everyday. FAITH

14. I have two beautiful boys. This is the biggest miracle of them all. Finally unleashing my pure love.

Divine Retribution? . . . ! . . . ? . . .

Divine Retribution? . . . ! . . . ? . . .

Divine Retribution? . . . .

Divine Retribution? . . . ! . . . ? . . .

DIVINE RETRIBUTION

You know, my LIFE will be pretty much screwed after the publication of this book. I love all of you, but those of you whom judge this book or me, well, kick rox.

Ivory’s Stuff.

All of my writings were written Alone & Private in my bedroom; never once thinking about actually publishing My Stuff.

The poems and stuff that don’t have a title—well they just don’t.

*** They are: Just Thoughts. ***

The poems that don’t have ‘titles’ possibly could, except for one. The title of it is * Untitled *.

None of this stuff was ever written or drawn while I was messed up off of drugs or whatever except for one . . . Shaded Lamp*.

Anything after the year 2001 . . . maybe or maybe not messed up . . .

ME Now

Let mE bloom full

Housewife and mother.

Life-long and answered prayers,

I would not expect much of any other.

As the pieces are laid

To put this puzzle together

Much to my surprise,

I am so much other.

A Writer of a book.

A Song-Writer of beautiful music.

These are all my extra trophies.

That just seemed to be ‘my kick’.

I stay buried far down deep

Allowing no one to sense my beauty.

Seemed safer to be Nothing and ugly

Than to shine and be wanted as a ‘Q.T.’

People go crazy

When they want something or someone so bad that they can’t have.

They will and they do take

No matter my suffering for their sake.

Alive and Breathing

Going on in, Brave and Head-Strong

I have my ‘own’ army to protect mE

Flowing, Climbing, and Falling into where I belong.

No where to run.

No where to hide.

So I might as well just be mE

And Shine! Shine! Shine!!!

Written July 13, 2010

ANGRABODA—SHE WHO OFFERS SORROW

ANGRABODA—SHE WHO OFFERS SORROW

DO NOT DO AS I DO,

YOU HAVE NOT BEEN THROUGH

WHAT I’VE BEEN THROUGH.

THE

LOVE CHAPTER

image1.jpg OVE IS

WONDERFUL

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I’m sure you’re getting tired

of waiting, hoping, and looking.

Our anxiety attacks the time,

and soon you’ll get some nooky!

Our story

is a beautiful Love Story

Written September 2002

I CORINTHIANS

Love is Patient

Love is Kind

Love is Not Jealous; It does not Brag

It is not Proud

Love is not Rude; It is not Selfish

It does not get upset with others

Love does not get upset with others

Love does not count up wrongs that have Been Done

Love is not Happy with a lie, but is Happy with the truth

Love patiently Accepts all things

He Always Trusts, always Hopes & always Remains Strong

Love Never Ends

I Love You always Truly FOREVER!! MSRH

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1. Don’t spell Love as L O V E

You spell Love as H U R T P A I N T E A R

2. Don’t spell Hurt as H U R T

You spell Hurt as L O V E

3. Don’t spell pain as P A I N

You spell pain as L O V E

4. Don’t spell tear as T E A R

You spell tear as L O V E

Breathe in…

Breathe out…

3(x’s)

Now breathe

Plush and Performed

I keep it on a shelf.

It’s sweetness and love are passed from it

I keep all of it to myself.

Strong, Stern, and Protective

I Love my sons.

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If I ever catch you with

Another woman, you had bettered’

Give your heart to God

Because your ass will be mine!!!!!

Written 7th grade

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I love him so much

That I melt at his every touch.

Written 8th grade

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You worked your way into my heart,

You did it because I was not smart.

I should’ve known better than to full with you,

Because you’re one of those guys that just come up out of the blue

Written 8th grade

Hurt

Hurt is something

That you feel.

When someone

Breaks that golden seal.

That golden seal

Is the love between two.

The hurt is unbearable

Because the love is so true.

Hurt shatters your heart.

Hurt takes over your feelings and soul.

It makes you think

That his heart is as black as coal.

It takes time

To learn how to cope.

You need love in your heart,

But all you have is hope.

—either—or—

—(So you fill it with dope).

You had a lot of love;

Now all you have is memories.

These memories put you

Through so much misery.

There is so much hurt.

There is so much pain.

Next time you’ll know

To not love in vain.

Love as we knew it

Was a beautiful feeling.

But after we separated,

The pain was too revealing.

You know it hurts.

It hurts as a whole.

When he has shattered your heart

And stolen your soul.

You’re falling apart.

You think that this is forever.

You have to be strong

To keep your life together.

You’ve got to be brave.

Go get love on a lease.

Somehow, or in someway,

You will find peace.

Written 8th grade

Someone Special

You came into my life

As a source of ‘fun’.

You gave me inspiration

After I thought my life was done.

You loved me so dearly;

You loved me so sweet.

I Love You with all of my heart,

And with every heartbeat.

We had our Good times,

And we had our Bad times.

But in my heart I knew

You would always be mine.

But something happened,

Not very long ago

That caused us to grow apart.

What it was? I do know…

This thing was called Time

Which caused our Love to Fail.

It was one big test in our relationship,

And there’s still so much I need to tell.

I Love You

And that’s no doubt.

What do these words mean to you?

I really haven’t figured them out.

The last time I talked to you,

My heart broke and shattered in two.

I hung up the phone,

And I knew that we were really through.

Baby, Just Remember,

I Love You

And

I Always Will…

Written 8th grade

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The Future is there for both of us, just not with each other.

Written 8th grade

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I’m just letting you know that

I’m here whenever you want to

Try us again. That should be

after you get over your asshole

stage. I love you with all of

my heart, but you are an asshole

and I can’t love assholes, so

fuck you… .

Written 9th grade

What a man!

There’s this guy I met

Not very long ago.

He has already completely taken over

My feelings, my heart, and my soul.

I’m glad that he did

Because I really needed him at this time.

I know that he’s always there for me,

And I’m just so glad that he’s mine.

He’s just so sweet

And so very, very handsome.

When I’m not around him,

I get so sad and so lonesome.

He loves me so dearly;

He loves me so sweet.

I love him with all of my heart,

And with every heartbeat.

I don’t think I will get hurt

Because he is so sweet and so nice.

But Love is like a game,

If you want to play, you have to roll the dice.

My dice is rolling,

But it takes two to be together.

And Baby I’m going to win this game

So we will always be together forever.

In other words,

Just right up out of the blue,

Somehow—someway,

Baby I Love You…

Written 9th grade

Missing Your Love

In a daze I set here,

All dreamy and warm.

The days go by without you

And it causes me so much harm.

Being with you again,

For me, is just a dream.

I didn’t mean to hurt you.

Things I said, I really didn’t mean.

The things we always did together,

Oh, they meant so much to me.

Now all they are—are memories.

Thinking of them, even though they’ll never be.

Your love changed my life.

Now your love is gone.

Even though I’ll never have your love again,

I know I can’t go on.

When we were together,

Was it not a great romance?

All I’m wanting

Is just for one more chance.

Written 9th grade

Confused

I am so confused;

I don’t know what to do.

I am so sad,

And I am feeling so blue.

I fell deeply in love with this guy,

But he hurt me so bad.

Our relationship was true love;

It was the best I’d ever had.

But he broke me

From getting close to any other guy.

I am just too scared,

So I let them all fly by.

I really need to ‘grow-up’ and get braver,

And to not think of hardships.

Because right now all I do is runaway

From what could have been some really great relationships.

Great relationships are going by vastly.

Somehow—someday, maybe I will see.

But right now, I just can’t.

My heart and my mind just won’t let me.

Written 9th grade

Wrongs:

All of my hurt, shame, loneliness, and discouragement just goes away. What’s bad about our relationship, this is the only thing bad about it is that I don’t get to see him that much. And when I’m away from him, all of my wrongs come back into my heart, especially loneliness. I just miss him so much. But when I’m around him, all of my wrongs go out of my heart and my feelings and love takes the place of my wrongs in my heart and my feelings, love for him.

P.S. Isn’t Love Grand?

I really don’t know…

Written 9th grade

A Crush

You are so beautiful;

You are so kind.

You are so welcome in my heart,

And you are always on my mind.

Friendship is a good thing.

But we could have a lot more.

Our love could be so strong,

That like the eagles, we could soar.

Love is something very special.

Love is something nobody can control.

It comes from your heart

And deep down in your soul.

For you to love me

Would be a dream come true.

It would spruce up my life

Because right now I’m blue.

This is true love.

If it’s true, it’s meant to be.

You are the only person

Which holds my key.

Come on Sweetie,

Give me a chance

To show you a new love

And a great romance

Written 9th grade

Waiting for my Dream…

Sitting here, waiting here

For the days to go by.

Waiting for the months to come and go.

It’s all so slow—I feel like I might die.

I want you in my arms at night

And when I awaken in the morning hour.

Just you being with me makes me realize

That our Love is our power.

And our power is what makes our Love grow.

It makes our Love grow so mighty and strong.

Our Love will last forever and always,

Oh baby, it won’t be long.

It won’t be long before I will be my own responsibility.

Finally, when that day comes for me to be your wife,

I will completely turn over to you

My heart and soul, my life.

I will be all yours baby,

And you will be all mine.

It will be so great.

I can’t wait until it’s that time.

Written 10th grade

Love is something very special.

Love is something nobody can control.

It comes from your heart,

And deep down in your soul.

There is Puppy Love,

But that’s just an adolescent stage.

Don’t try to control it

Because it will put you in a cage.

Then there is always True Love.

If it’s true, it’s meant to be.

There will only be one person

Which holds your key.

P.S. Who knows—

It could be the same person

As one

On both tries…

Written 10th grade

Baby it’s what we need,

And I know it’s what you want.

So please come to me,

And give me all of your heart.

Pride and Fear may have you now,

But in a while all you’ll need is love.

I’m the one that can give you that,

With just a little help from above.

You need to quit being so stubborn,

And to give us a chance.

It would begin a new relationship,

And start a great romance.

All I want is your Love.

All I need is You.

I want to give you all of my loven’,

And I want you to give me yours too.

Written 10th grade

I Love You

With all of my heart.

It ain’t sour,

But it’s like a sweetart!!!

I love kissing you,

All of the time.

Because then,

I know that you’re truly mine.

I want you to know

That I need you.

And in my heart,

I really love you.

I need you,

I want you,

I love you.

Do you understand?

I know you do,

And you are soon going to be my man.

Written 10th grade

Prison… Locked Up

Freedom is the key word in my life.

I love to be single.

I like to party and

I really like to mingle.

Every once in a while,

I’ll just jump right into a great big relationship.

It’s cool for a little while,

Then down goes my ship.

Oh, I throw away some really great guys.

Some made me though, but others, I really hated to do it.

Singleness is for me.

Call me mean, I don’t give a shit.

Nobody can hurt me,

Or tell me what I can or cannot do.

Nobody can love me,

Baby—not even you.

Love is really silly.

Love sucks because it hurts.

Who wants pain and tears all of the time?

In relationships, just stay alert.

Freedom is awesome.

It gives you the right to talk to other guys,

To hug and kiss them if you want

Without having to wear a disguise.

Freedom of Love allows you

To not get Hurt or Scarred.

It allows you to chill and be happy

Without being a Lesbian retard.

Relationships, you jump into them

And you want right back out.

That’s all right for you, but the guy

Is probably still in doubt.

Oh! Well, he should try freedom.

He would probably love it more than being loved.

He’s missing it right now,

Freedom is being ‘unloved’.

The guy who takes my taste

And my love away from freedom and singleness,

He will definitely be very special,

I’ll be moved by every touch of his tenderness.

Right now—Freedom is my Love.

Breaking hearts are accidents along the way.

I can’t live in the past or the future,

That’s why freedom ness carries me from day to day.

The End

Written 10th grade

Never Know

Understand is an extremely hard goal in life.

You’ll never be able to understand.

You think you do, but then

You come to a problem and reality lands.

For example:—Love—

Well, that’s a much stronger word.

You say, I Love You,

But you really feel absurd.

How do you know you love them?

What is Love?

Nobody understands it

Except for the great man up above.

If you care—Hey, that’s cool,

But love—you don’t really know.

So say it all you want,

The wind will still blow.

Written 12th grade

Love & Happiness

My love of my life

Has finally come to me.

He is the one

Which holds my golden key.

It is the key that unlocks

The door to my heart.

He will be trapped there forever

Because there is no key that will let him depart.

My love for him

Is so much more than words could ever say.

My life-long dream

Is to have a family with him someday.

Married with children to him

Would be so wonderful.

We would be so overwhelmed with joy and love

That our lives would be so full.

My love of my life sweetie,

Well it is you.

I love you so much baby,

And I know you love me too.

It will be so great

Sharing our lives together.

Going through all the years

Loving one another.

Don’t you ever forget,

I’ll love you until the end of time.

I am yours baby,

And you are mine.

I love you so much sweetie.

My love for you will not ever end.

We will always be together

Forever and ever, Amen.

I Love You Baby.

Written 11th grade

I Finally See

I remember when you asked me out,

And we went on our first date.

You were such a gentleman to me,

You made me feel so great.

It’s been such a long, long time

Since I have been treated so well.

It means so much to me,

Can’t you tell?

You have lifted my spirits,

You have made me seize every day.

You must be really special,

Because I’ve never felt this way.

When I feel your gentle feel your kisses,

And your way that you touch,

I just melt all over,

And realize that I love you so much.

Written 11th grade

Sweetie, I give myself to you,

And I want you in return.

To love and cherish me forever,

And together we will turn.

We will turn into parents,

Having precious girls and boys.

We will turn into grandparents,

Always having a house full of joys.

Your love is more precious to me

Than the biggest diamond on the earth.

I’d kiss the ground you walk on,

Even if it meant eating a little dirt.

I believe God sent you to me

From that great Heaven up above.

I know you’re the right one for me;

For all eternity we will share our Love.

Written 11th grade

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Songbirds & Sunsets,

Blossoms with Dew…

I learned how to Love,

Dear Mother, from you.

{A Mother’s Day Gift for Mom.}

Written 11th grade

Mother

There is a very special lady in my life. She is my happiness and sadness. She is my joy and my depression. She is my tears and my fears. She is a strong woman with a heart of gold.

She is my dear mother.

Have you ever smelled pink roses that have a fresh and lovely smell? That’s the feeling that I have when I’m with her. The love and the bond between her and me are so real and so strong. A great force from outer space could not break it. You cannot break something that was, is, and always will be. God blessed me with this very special woman. Thank you God for my dear mother.

Now don’t get me wrong. She is my discipline. Her punishments are never very harsh and that always end with an I Love You statement from her. She taught me right from wrong. She is my judge; she is my dear mother.

I owe my mother everything I have. She gave life to me with her heart and soul. She made me the person I am today. I have never met a woman that could be a better mom to me than my own dear mother.

The feeling of purity and love is so great to feel. She taught me how to love and how to feel loved. I don’t know what I would do without my dear mother.

I Love My Dear Mother.

Written 12th grade

*** 1, 2, 3, NO: 4 ***

4 letter words

#1.} Don’t spell Love as

L O V E

You spell Love as

H U R T P A I N T E A R.

#2.} Don’t spell Hurt as

H U R T

You spell Hurt as

L O V E.

#3.} Don’t spell Pain as

P A I N

You spell Pain as

L O V E.

#4.} Don’t spell Tear as

T E A R

You spell Tear as

L O V E.

Written 11th grade

The Beauty of it All

The sweet smell of a rose

Seems like it can’t be replaced.

I love to feel it’s soft petals

Touching my face.

The sun rising up over the ocean

Seems like the most beautiful sight.

The sound of the waves rippling upon the beach

Is as peaceful as the night.

The sweet taste of honey

Seems like no other.

But just a kiss from you

Always makes me want another.

Our love is so precious.

In your eyes I can see

That we love each other,

And we are meant to be together for all eternity.

God has many beautiful things,

But the most beautiful thing I see now and that I’ll ever see

Is the love that God made

Between you and me.

Written 12th grade

Life—Love

To live is to love.

Life is hollow without love.

Your hopes and dreams are fake.

The future is an endless time without joy from above.

Everyday you wake up

And ask the question… Why?.

You’ll work and you’ll play,

But you’ll be forgotten when you die.

A world with no love

Would be a piece of land with no purpose.

No memories—No pride.

It would be sickening knowing what was.

A word to the wise:—

Find Love And Happiness.

No life needs to be hollow.

Fill it with what’s best.

Is life and love the same?

Was love meant to make life whole?—

OR life—to—love?

Take a chance, gratify your heart and soul.

Written 12th grade

Never Know

Understand is an extremely hard goal in life.

You’ll never be able to understand.

You think you do, but then,

You come to a problem and reality lands.

For example—Love-

Well, that’s a much stronger word.

You say I Love You

but you really feel ackward.

How do you know you love them?

What is Love?

Nobody understands it

except for the Great Man up above.

If you care—Hey that’s cool,

but love—you don’t really know.

So say it all you want,

the wind will still blow.

Written 12th grade

No Holding Back

Love is in the air,

No room for despair,

Keep away from me.

Talk and love through the night.

See each other through a new light.

Happiness is there with you.

You can keep it with you

Only if you are together.

Apart is no good for a heart.

Stay together, be with,

Cuddle…

Love with NOTHING holding.

Let go and escape into Love.

Written 12th grade

I Finally See II

I was so very ready

For a new relationship with you.

But you screwed it up,

And now I’m feeling so blue.

We would have been

So good together.

I know I could have loved you

At least until the end of forever.

When I started falling in love with you,

Your priorities were all messed up.

By the way you act and the way you walk,

You remind me of a little lost pup.

You are so insecure about the people in your life.

So you stay one step above.

And that’s the reason

You wouldn’t give me the chance to prove my love.

You really disappointed me,

You really did hurt me.

I guess I was right.

I finally see.

Written December 1996

What Happened?

One more time just out of hope

That happiness would find me

Smiley eyes and tender kisses

Through powerful Love I would always see.

Hope, pray, wish, gripe, want, need, etc.

It doesn’t matter

These actions are good enough to get Love—You’re Not

Things couldn’t get any sadder.

You love so freely and purely

As you fall in love so heavily

Excitement overwhelms you

Finally a future waits so lovely.

Smile, laugh, hug, kiss, and rub,

Caress, comfort, fulfill, and make love,

Tenderize, specialize, improvise,

Feel, make your love feel, feel it back,

Trust freely, no questions, what matters first

To your love, talk, tell, being and making proud of,

Giving, receiving, living, growing, dying.

Not a big deal

Mistakes happen, but forgiven

Selfish acts cause a lot of pain

Those affected may not ever live again.

True happiness of being together

Does not come from your self.

Each one should willingly give

So