Alpha Yin And Yang

By SJ Wilke

Catty knows she is a werewolf that transforms during a full moon. However, because of a talisman, she can transform at will and keep some of her human senses. This talisman gives her other powers, and she must always keep it with her. She is a lone white wolf in a big city. But there are others. She sees them, but avoids them. Her mother had prophesied her destiny, but before she could tell her, vanished. It's been seven years since her mother disappeared. Catty doesn't see much of a future until a big black wolf finds her and follows her. Now the only future she sees is fear and a life of running. She has to figure out what is bad and what is good in a world where bad and good can be one and the same. Catty has to figure out what she can and can't do. Her talisman didn't come with an instruction manual.

• Language: English
• Publisher: SJ Wilke
• Release date: Jan 26, 2022
• ISBN: 9798201237127

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Chapter 1

Catty squatted and peed in the dust at her usual spot in the park. The horizon hinted at the glow of a full moon, but the moon wasn’t visible yet. She knew her transformation wouldn’t occur until it fully breached the horizon, but she didn’t dally. With the mud puddle forming from her pee, she touched the chain that was fastened around her neck. It would transform into a dog collar when she transformed into a wolf. Her touch caused the two dog tags that had been invisible to appear. One tag was the rabies tag. Most people ignored loose dogs when they wore collars with that tag. The other had her home address on it and a phone number to call, just in case someone was crafty enough to catch her. Nestled between the two tags was the gem she always wore that was her talisman. The spirit trapped within guided her and provided her with a few powers she hoped gave her an advantage over any others. She knew there were others out there.

She felt the stretching and tingling that marked the beginning of her transformation. While her clothing dissolved into thick fur as white as her white blonde hair, she placed her hands on the ground, preparing to turn quadrupedal. Her eyes tingled, and she knew they were changing to yellow. She wiggled her jaw, feeling the canine teeth grow.

Her sense of smell heightened and she could smell her pee, and all the hormones she was secreting. She knew the smell would make her roll in it, which would dull down her brilliant white coat. A white wolf in Lincoln Park at night would stand out. She preferred to remain hidden.

Her nose also picked up the scent of deer just as the last of her human logic dissipated and the intense instinct to hunt and survive kicked in. However, the cautioned remained with her that with high hormones, she might attract the interest of the other wolves.

The sound of padded feet drew her immediate attention. She moved only her eyes toward the sound. A late night jogger passed her with a dog on a leash. The dog didn’t even register her presence since she had tucked herself well into the shadows. A faint breeze blew toward her, allowing her to smell the dog and jogger. The man was sweating and breathing hard. She sniffed again to catch the scent of fear, but it wasn’t coming from him.

Hurry up. We gotta be out of the park.

Two more men walked by fast. She had heard them coming, but hadn’t felt concerned.

You ain’t superstitious, are you? Werewolves and vampires? Hee hee.

I don’t care what they are. There were four murders during the last full moon. All of them in this park.

Both men broke into a jog.

Catty caught the scent of wolves. Her eyes focused on two gray wolves that were discreetly following the men on silent paws. She knew they were hardly visible to the human eye since they kept to the shadows.

Too late, she thought. You two didn’t get out of the park soon enough.

She felt disconcerted that wolves were already out hunting. The moon was hardly up. She knew they must have scoped out the park and found a target before they transformed, which must have been recent.

Now fully transformed herself, she slunk out of the shadows to the path to catch the wolves’ trail. Like a bloodhound on a scent, she followed it back. She learned long ago that when most werewolves transformed, their clothing shed off, which meant when they returned to being human, they were naked. This knowledge often resulted in a wallet or two if she could find where they shed their clothes.

She easily located the clothing in some heavy bushes. Unfortunately, these were experienced wolves. She found only shoes, shorts, and t-shirts. Her mind put together the thought that they were probably acting like joggers before they transformed.

Her canine sense of survival directed her away from pee marking the clothing. She needed to remain undetected. Without a pack of her own, she had no protection.

She padded out of the brush to head deeper into the park. If she was lucky, the other wolves would stay near the lake, hunting deer, rabbits, and unlucky joggers. Although wolves didn’t use to hunt humans. It was only this year that she had seen people become the target of wolves.

A hundred feet off the last paved path, she hit the dark woods. She sensed a rabbit, but passed it by. Musty earthy smells swelled around her. The city lights disappeared the deeper she went. When she reached the clearing in the center, she could see stars overhead.

No, please.

Catty stopped at the sound of the whimper.

Kneel. Pray for me, you bitch.

The first had been a female voice. The second a male.

Damn rapist, Catty thought, deciding to break it up. They were interloping on her night.

She approached the two people as if she was on a hunt, staying down wind. Only the sounds and scents of the two people hit her senses. She couldn’t see them yet.

She froze.

Two shadowy figures moved swiftly through the trees to the right of her. They weren’t human. Two more passed her on the other side. She couldn’t tell if they hadn’t seen or smelled her or if they were just ignoring her in order to get to the people first.

That didn’t matter to her. She backed up and went the other way and skirted around the clearing until she reached the south end, where she paused.

Screams filled the air.

Catty knew neither person would survive. The wolves would kill the man outright. The woman might become the object of lust for one or all of the wolves before they opened her throat.

She changed directions again and skirted around the woods. Fairy lights appeared around the trees in the form of glowing mushrooms. She ignored them.

Four deer almost cut her off, causing her to halt abruptly and drop to the ground. She knew something was chasing them. A moment later, three shadows flashed past. As soon as they were out of sight, she rose and ran.

The trees thickened into closely growing saplings as she neared the river. Closer to the bank, the reed beds started. She cautiously stepped into them. However, the sound of movement caused her to freeze again. She sniffed the air to determine what it was, but it was downwind from her. The sound didn’t register as another wolf. To her, it sounded like a deer.

She stalked closer.

A deer blew.

Catty kept going. The breeze shifted, and she smelled fear. A few steps further, and she could see it was a yearling doe, separated from the herd. The doe stamped down the reeds in a panicked show of defiance to frighten everything else away. She spun in a slow circle. Catty could see the doe had learned to hide in the reeds and thought it was safest. Not tonight, Catty thought. She took two more steps and lunged.

She landed hard on the doe’s back. The doe’s legs buckled, sending them both to the ground. Catty rolled with the deer and her teeth found its throat. Blood flooded her mouth, enhancing the adrenaline flowing through her body.

As soon as the deer breathed its last, she released its neck to tear into the belly. Her goal was the heart. If that was the only piece she could get, she would be happy. She knew she wouldn’t have the kill to herself for long.

Her entire head was inside the deer when she reached the heart. She savagely tore it out before pulling her head out of the body cavity. Between chews, she listened hard. She knew blood covered her entire head and shoulders, which muted her sense of smell.

She swallowed a large chunk, but caught the sounds of movement coming her way. Grabbing up the remaining chunk of heart, she bolted.

Catty ran hard until she was some distance away. She only paused a moment to catch her breath before she snarfed down the rest of her treat. While it was only a pound of meat, it was enough to satisfy her craving.

Her nose caught a scent beneath the odor of blood. She looked up to see two red, glowing eyes. That was all she could see. The body behind the eyes was as black as the shadows.

The eyes approached enough that Catty could see this was a huge black wolf. She backed a step, showing submission and tucking her tail between her legs. The last thing she wanted was a confrontation.

More red eyes appeared behind the black wolf. Catty backed up another step, calculating her next move. She needed a sound, a distraction. All she got was intense silence and more eyes. She bolted.

She knew heading back into the city was the safest, and she increased her stride. A short distance before she hit the first street, something came up alongside her. The black wolf had caught up with her.

Stride for stride, he matched her pace. Catty called on her talisman for help. Her paws hit the pavement. Sparks flew from her claws. Slowly, she pulled away from him. Traffic became her savior. She dodged around cars and lost him, but she didn’t slow. Instead, she called for more and more speed. Behind her, a howling wail rose. More than one wolf answered the call. The sounds echoed off the buildings, telling Catty one thing. She was now the hunted.

She knew she had only one option. Her scent was strong since she rolled in her own pee. She had to get rid of it. But what dog or wolf wanted a bath? She skidded around a corner with sparks flying as she headed for the one place that would help her: the car wash.

Usually on the weekend evenings, guys wet down their hot rods to make them shine under the streetlights in order to attract the girls. Thus, the car wash was always busy. However, this was Wednesday, and her hope to find at least one car using the car wash was low.

She continued to run between the cars on the street and those parked on the curb. Few people spied her. If anyone did, most would ignore her. This evening, even though it was an unusually warm October night, few people were out walking. People were traveling tonight in their cars. The surge of murders during the full moon was keeping everyone in.

Even Catty felt surprised by the number of wolves out. Usually, she could make her kill, gulp down a few pounds of meat, and get home with only a handful of wolf sightings.

She passed a dark alley. Blood curdling growls and the scent of blood flowed out. She avoided it. Turf wars between the packs were increasing. That made things very dangerous for her. She could only run. If caught, she could get raped and/or killed. She had no intentions of ever being caught.

Catty dodged through an intersection, almost getting clipped by a car. It tapped her tail. She flew down the next block and took a right turn. Half way down this block, she skidded to a stop within the confine of some shrubbery. Lights flooded the pavement around the car wash. Her heart sunk. There weren’t any cars in the lot or lined up to get washed.

She panted hard to catch her breath. Her mind raced to find another option. She couldn’t go home smelling like this. The word was already out. The wolves would easily smell and intercept her.

Her eyes followed two cars that pulled in. A man from one car spent some time vacuuming his car and chatting to the man from the second.

Catty impatiently waited, hoping no wolves showed up.

Finally, the man in the first car drove up to the car wash, making his selection. She wanted to go bite him to get him to hurry. He was taking forever. Finally, he pulled in.

Catty chose that moment to race into the car wash before the door closed. She knew where to stand from previous baths. Pipes weren’t the best and many leaked. She only had to stand by the worst one to get drenched. She couldn’t resist the urge to shake off the water. Mud and red water flew from her.

Even though this was an automated car wash, there was one attendant on duty. She could see him watching her through a glass observation window. He looked concern. She felt annoyed.

The soap phase started. Once she was coated, she rolled on the ground to work it in. She enjoyed the roll because the matting beneath her was knobby, so it felt like getting a body massage.

She had to wait for the rinse stage while the brushes worked around the car. However, the pipe still leaked. She enjoyed the warm drizzle of water. Then it gushed, drenching her. She shook, only to be drenched again. Two more times, she shook after being drenched to get the last of the soap out.

She moved toward the door, expecting the wash to end. Unfortunately, the man had opted for a wax finish. A faint mist of the wax reached her, which annoyed her, but the wax was to her advantage. The wax had a scent to it. She wasn’t going to smell like a wolf anymore.

She shook one more time while she waited for the door to open. When it did, she bolted out, almost running over the attendant who was looking for her.

Hardly half a block away, she heard the howl. They were on her trail, but she hoped it would end at the car wash. That didn’t stop her from running hard. She had to get home.

Too late, she passed a wolf she hadn’t detected until he veered into the street to take chase. She called for speed and again, sparks flew from her claws when they met the asphalt. The wolf chasing her fell back, but suddenly another came out from the sidewalk.

The howl traveled faster than she could and all the wolves were on alert. She could no longer travel as a wolf, but changing back took time.

Talisman, she thought, how quickly can I change back?

Of course, she received no answer. It was something she would have to do in order to find out. That was the way it has been with learning what her talisman did for her. At least when she transformed back, her fur would change back to her clothes.

She changed her course for a restaurant district. There would be more people there, so she could blend in. That district was busy any day of the week.

Catty caught sight of more wolves. She had the faint feeling they were directing her course. When she tried to make a turn, there were too many wolves to get around, confirming her suspicions. However, she circled back and surprised them, slipping through.

They started chasing her like a deer, in stages, swapping out those who were running after her, but she wasn’t going to get tired like a deer and give up.

She made one last turn down a street, knowing that she had to be human when she reached the end. The cross street already contained a steady steam of people who were heading toward the parking garage to get to their cars or heading toward the restaurants for a late dinner.

Now.

She thought of being human and gaped open her jaw to signal the change. The pain was immense, but she worked through it, stretching her body. She rose onto her hind legs, still running, and almost slid into a group of people.

Sorry. Excuse me.

She jogged off without having to worry, since she was back to being human. Because she had been running, she had dried some. Her clothes were only damp. She reached up to find her hair mussed, but she slicked it back and redid her ponytail.

She hurried along the sidewalk, thinking of her route home. Since she had to go out of her way to the restaurant district, she was further from home than she wanted to be. She knew she had over a mile walk to get there.

She broke into a jog when she left the restaurant district, wishing she could catch sight of a cab, but there were none. Her attire wasn’t that of a jogger. She was wearing a dress and sandals, but she wore nothing under the dress. Her attire would garner some attention if she kept jogging.

At least this wasn’t a bad area to walk, if it hadn’t been a full moon, she thought. This was the worse night to walk alone, especially being female.

At least the rapist is no more.

She had heard about the praying rapist for months. It was time the wolves got him. He had been lucky by not doing his rapes on moonlit nights, but chose the new moon times. His luck had run out.

She contemplated transforming back into a wolf so she could travel faster. The shadows that were appearing and disappearing concerned her. She strained her ears, listening hard. Even as a human, her hearing was acute.

A gang of young men on a stoop far ahead caused her to cross the street. She felt a tingle around her neck and took the warning from her talisman by stepping into a deep shadow. From her hiding place, she watched the four men coming down the sidewalk. They were clearly searching for something. One sniffed the air.

A wolf passed, trotting down the middle of the street. It growled at the men. The men broken into a jog, then seemed to fall to the ground. She knew they were transforming.

The breeze was in her favor. As soon as she could see the last of them trot off as a wolf, she hurried down the street, going the other way. She sniffed the breeze. All she could smell was a dryer sheet from someone who was drying their clothes. She felt the way was clear, so she broke into a jog again to hurry along her way.

A streetlight blinked out. Then another. The area suddenly became very dark. She stopped dead.

This way, said a voice.

A man stepped out of the shadows, pointing her way toward an alley. She heard more footsteps behind her.

Chapter 2

Hi.

An arm reached out to grab her and pull her into the alley.

She felt as if she had passed through a door. Lights lined the sky above her, making her feel she was inside. The hand that firmly gripped her arm pulled her to the end of the alley, where it opened up to a fantasy-like light display and decorations. She felt she was at a party. The murmur of voices and laughter surrounded her.

The hand slid down her arm to take her hand. She could feel the heat of him like an electric jolt up her arm.

I’m Gunther. The voice was gravelly and deep.

She sized him up.

His eyes now shown green, but she already knew this was the black wolf. It wasn’t his black hair that keyed her in. She now knew his scent. His attire was business casual, with a green collared shirt and khaki slacks. She caught her own pee scent on his black shoes. That told her he had walked through her puddle or had crossed her path after she had transformed.

Catty could also see his talisman. While he wore two silver chains around his neck, he wore his talisman on an earring in his left ear. The silver metal shone brightly, and the gem was a diamond, but she knew it dulled or disappeared at his will, like hers.

I’m happy I finally caught up with you.

Catty remained silent, not knowing how to gauge the situation.

Two men came in behind them.

She’s a fast one, one said, while he buttoned up a shirt.

The other nodded.

Then both men disappeared into the party.

I would like to know your name, he said in almost a whisper.

Catty took in the rest of the room. A woman was holding court in one area, showing she was an alpha. Women and men surround her as if trying to gain her favor. She was pregnant. Their eyes met. The woman gave her a disapproving glare.

Gunther gently pulled her in the opposite direction. I can give you a name if you like. Snowdrop. Snowflake. Lightening. Which do you favor?

He was behaving like an alpha wolf, but she knew he couldn’t be the mate to the alpha woman she had seen. An alpha wolf’s mate wouldn’t like him showing favor to another woman.

Catty, she said.

Catty. Not expected from the likes of you.

It’s a nickname. Catrina, if you like that better.

She wondered how two different alphas could be in the same area.

You know her? Catty gestured toward the other alpha.

She won’t hurt you... for now.

Not reassuring.

My sister, he said. She’s uncomfortable and growls at everyone.

That explained to her why he could behave like an alpha while he wasn’t. He was a high-ranking family member to the alpha female.

Gunther led her over to a bar constructed out of ornate wood. Would you like a drink, Catty? Blood wine is best after a raw meat meal.

No, thank you. She didn’t like his attention.

She hoped her talisman would direct her, but for now, it gave her no hints of what to do.

Where are you from?

I’ve been around.

Yes, I’ve glimpsed you. Smelled you. He smiled and took a deep breath. You smell very nice, despite the car wash wax.

She knew what was on his mind.

The heart is also my favorite, he said. It’s also good sauteed in butter. He grinned. When one is human.

The bartender put up two thin and tall glasses of red liquid. Gunther took a glass and offered it to her.

No, thanks. I don’t drink, she said.

Perhaps you should try it first before you refuse it.

She shook her head.

No one is going to hurt you while I’m getting to know you, he said in a low voice. We don’t know your pack. You’re a curiosity, because we thought we knew all the packs.

He put the glass back on the bar.

She wasn’t about to tell him she had no pack.

We don’t want to assume which pack you’re with and offend anyone. It’s a dangerous time to do so.

A group of people joined the party. Catty turned toward them, feeling two balls materialize in her hand.

Really? Did her talisman think throwing a ball would distract them? Like pointing out a squirrel to a dog?

She felt some disappointment, but that was all she had to work with. For a moment, the balls in her hand felt familiar. Since she felt two, she guessed how she was to use them. The first one, she casually tossed to the ground, where it rolled toward the female alpha. The other, she released in the opposite direction. No one reacted to the balls, except everything and everyone seemed to stop, except for her. Like lightening she slid her hand from his and moved to the alley before anyone even blinked an eye. She flashed down it and out into the street.

With hardly a thought, she turned into a wolf, glad to feel less pain than the last quick transformation. She galloped as fast as she could down the street. The surrounding buildings became a blur. She felt like she reached her block after only a few strides, even though she knew it was farther than that.

In a snap, she transformed back.

Ow. Yeah, this is getting better each time. I wish you’d tell me what I can do and can’t instead of letting me figure it out. She felt new discoveries came during times of need.

Blue mist swarmed near a streetlight. She aimed for it and walked through. The mist smelled pleasantly of lemons. She knew this would hide her scent as a human and she could go to her apartment without fear of being followed. It was a scent she hated when she was a wolf.

The first time she had seen the blue mist, it had frightened her, and she avoided it, but it had followed her and enveloped her. Moments after that, a wolf passed her without being aware of her. She learned quickly. She had to learn quickly.

Catty reached her fourth-floor apartment. She shut and locked the door behind her, letting loose a huge sigh of relief.

Damn.

This wasn’t a good night.

I’m hungry, and I can’t go out again.

Her venison dinner hadn’t lasted long with all the running and use of magic energy. She opened and searched her freezer, finally pulling out a t-bone steak. A few moments in the microwave at the right setting defrosted most of it. She carefully arranged a fuzzy blanket on the ground in front of her couch and placed the steak on it. From a container, she took one chewable deworming tablet and placed it on top of the steak, which was to take care of anything she might have picked up from the deer.

At least I don’t have to take a shower tonight.

While the steak warmed to room temperature, she changed her dress for some silk pajamas, then returned to the blanket on the floor.

Practice makes perfect.

She transformed as fast as she could, pleased with the decreasing pain. It was like stretching. The more one stretched, the less tight and painful it felt.

Feeling better, she curled up around the steak on the blanket and picked out the meat to swallow, looking forward to chewing the bone until gone. She saved the tablet for last, treating it like dessert. The beef flavor was her favorite.

In the morning, she found herself in her human form on her bed, curled up in a fetal position. She stretched herself out and felt surprised to find herself stiff and sore.

I guess there are consequences to fast changing. I hope this goes away with practice.

She flossed bone slivers and meat from her teeth, but marveled at how white they were. A shower washed away all the wax smell and the little bits of blood from last night’s snack.

She checked her electric calendar on the wall.

Thursday.

She had a lot of meetings scheduled at work, but knew she didn’t have to wear a suit to impress anyone. Black leggings and a silvery tunic were her choices. A red scarf wrapped around her head hid and contained her hair. She kept her makeup to a minimum.

For breakfast, she scrambled a raw egg in a cup of milk. She drank it down with a couple of vitamins. She didn’t know why she kept to one egg. With all the running she was doing lately as a wolf, she had no problem keeping her figure slender. In fact, her clothing was feeling a little loose.

She grabbed her electronic tablet, which acted as her purse, wallet, watch, and everything else she needed to go through her day, and left. Her apartment door locked behind her. She joined the people heading for the aerial tram platform on the fourth-floor.

In her building, there was one on the eighth floor as well. She thought she struck it lucky getting the fourth-floor apartment. Her commute to catch the tram was hardly a hundred feet. With the aerial trams, it was getting so a person never had to touch the ground.

A tram arrived just as she stepped onto the platform. Being agile, she