Thoughts I Never Had the Courage to Tell You
By Ella Hyland and Jordyn Hulsey
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i hear the same song every time,
and there is always a perfect
burnt-orange sunset,
yet there is something missing;
i am always alone.
Ella Hyland knows firsthand that life can be a challenging journey that includes many diverse emotions.
In her debut collection of poetry, she explores a variety of topics that include love, heartbreak, sadness, false hope, mental illness, and dark thoughts. While providing others with a safe place to reflect on their own challenges, Ella shares poems that address real-life issues like the kind of love that hurts so badly you feel you’ll never love again, the dark thoughts that keep you awake at night you’re too afraid to tell anyone about, the periods of elation and depression that accompany mental illness, and all the what-ifs and what-could-have-beens that suck the life out of hope and leave despair in its place.
Thoughts I Never Had the Courage to Tell You is a compilation of free verse that offers a glimpse into a teenager’s journey through life as she courageously faces the reality of love, heartache, and everything in between.
Ella Hyland
Ella Hyland copes with her emotions by writing, and listening to sad songs in the dark. She relies on her friends for everything, including help with her first book. Ella, who loves easily, is grateful to share her story.
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Thoughts I Never Had the Courage to Tell You - Ella Hyland
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Not all topics discussed in these poems are based on true events, as they discuss very dark issues.
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for trip: fly high, little man. we love you always.
for dad: i’m always thinking of you. i love you always.
for j and q: my forever friends. i love you always.
for tp and morg: for never leaving my side. i love you always.
contents
love
mental illness
thoughts in the dark
thoughts for you
love
sometimes i think it’s funny
how none of my poems are about true love.
the kind of love
that hurts so badly
you want to rip your heart
out of your chest.
i assume this is because
i’ve never been in love before
at least not like in the movies,
and sometimes i crave it.
other times i consider myself lucky
for never having that exact
heart-wrenching feeling
of missing someone.
now i’m writing this,
wanting to know exactly how i should feel:
grateful or excluded?
part of me wants to know what it’s like
to fall in and out of love,
but the other part of me
doesn’t want to feel absolutely anything else.
so for now, my poems will stay
around the topics i’m familiar with,
because as of now,
i’m too afraid to fall in love.
welcome to thoughts i never had the courage to tell you
the toxicity arises each morning
with your horrid breath
tracing the outlines of my stomach,
all the way down,
every
fucking
morning.
you watch me intently
as i get out of bed
and dress for the day,
but somehow your gaze drops
until the clothes come off again
later that night.
i don’t recall the last time
you called me beautiful,
but sexy is an everyday occurrence.
i always tell you
how much