Does God Hear Your Cries

By Malaysia Sinclair

I wrote this book because I feel that it is about time to write my life story and to give hope to the downcast, the brokenhearted, and the wounded souls. My hope in writing this book is to touch the hearts of those who feel they have no hope left in their weary souls. I’m now in a place where I’m able to share the most embarrassing and horrendous assaults that were meant to destroy me. I now walk in freedom because the Lord came into my life and straightened every crooked place in my life.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Aug 16, 2019
• ISBN: 9781796043907

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ORCHESTRATED MOVE TO HOUSTON

There are times in our lives, where we have no control over the circumstances that bombards us at unexpected times. Therefore, we are forced to ride with the tides of disappointments, regrets, and failure. As I turned thirty years old, I began to go through many life-changing events that challenged me to the very core. At that time, I was separated from my former husband and had to move back to Texas. I had been living in Anchorage, Alaska, but had to return to Texas to start my divorce proceedings. That’s one of those circumstances no one wants to face, but it was inevitable. While I was anticipating the outcome of my divorce things were very uncertain for me at that time. During that time my aunt invited me to move to Houston with her until I could get on my feet. While staying there in Houston I landed a great job in the medical center. I eventually found a dynamic church to attend. Yes, I did say I found a great church; but we all know we are led by the Spirit of the Lord to where He wants us to be. As I attended the church, the service kept me on the edge of my seat, because I had never seen the power of God in operation like I was seeing in that church. I had never attended a non-denominational church before. On my first visit to the church, the Pastor was calling out different diseases he received from word of knowledge. When he spoke of a disease I had been dealing with, I wanted to jump out of my seat in excitement. I felt he was reading my life and that was my first time there. But check this out, I knew something was wrong with me, but I had no idea of what was wrong with me. Whatever it was I had, it made me feel like I was dying every day. But when he called out a disease, I knew without a shadow of doubt he was speaking to me. I hadn’t gone to the doctor to see what was wrong with me and I don’t know why. It was the Holy Spirit that revealed to me I was suffering with that specific disease, which was more shocking to me. The supernatural power is so amazing where it leaves you wondering how that Pastor knew that, how did that disease disappear, where did that angel come from, how did that extra money get into my account, and many more unexplainable miracles. On top of that, I was in a church where no one knew me. But God did. He knew everything concerning my life. The Pastor called up everyone who had one of the diseases he had called out earlier to pray for us. I was instantly healed. I didn’t tell anyone in Houston what I was dealing with, because I didn’t know myself. I looked at that experience as God wanting to show me firsthand that this healing stuff is real. He knew I was very skeptical of that healing business, after watching it on television many times. That’s not all. I felt healed for an entire week and then the symptoms returned. I didn’t know anything about the healing power of God. I went back to that church the following Sunday. I went up to the healing line again. I don’t remember if I was called up there or I voluntarily went up there. I didn’t tell the Pastor what I was up there for. But this is what he whispered in my ear without asking me what I was up there for; you are healed, just raise your hands toward heaven every day and thank God for your healing. I did that and those symptoms said bye bye forever. We serve an amazing God, who loves us so much. God knew I didn’t know how that healing process worked. While in Houston, there were several things I had become skeptical of while living there. One of those things was living in a very vast and fast-paced city. I felt I was treading in unknown territories; while going through so many life-changing transitions. All at the same time, I was coping with relocating to a large city, going through a divorce, adjusting to the single lifestyle, at a new job, dealing with fluctuating emotions, not knowing anyone in Houston but my aunt, and attending a new church. A month after arriving in Houston my new trans-am was stolen, parts taken out of it and it was found on the other side of town. I became very overwhelmed at times during that period of my life. I just threw myself into my new job and church to keep my mind off my problems. While working at the job, I made many acquaintances with individuals throughout the hospital. They began to share with me the anguish and despair they had been dealing with in their relationships. Their pain tugged at my heart and soul for a long time. That tugging in my soul still pulls at my heart strings today, concerning people’s troubled relationships. It really bothered me to see so many young people being seduced and enticed into situations they believed were innocent in the beginning. As they came to me with their problems the Spirit would always give me what to say to them. They would come to me at work asking me to pray for them and their family members.

I realized years later; I was led to move to Houston for a greater purpose which was bigger than I could imagine. Not knowing any better, many times we think we’re making spontaneous decisions and plans on our own; but most of the time our plans and decisions were orchestrated by God. Read Psalms 37:23. In the beginning I couldn’t see it that way, until later when I looked back at certain things that happened. While getting involved in people’s lives many of them got saved, healed, and delivered from the hands of the enemy. Houston was the place where God had planned beforehand, to restore me of my brokenness and feelings of rejection. The Lord used that opportunity to heal me of my disillusionment, broken heart, rejection, insecurities, distrust of others, and emotional pain. In the mist of me being restored, God allowed me to cross paths with a rich woman who husband had AIDS, the gay guy who taunted me daily, the co-worker who said she wanted what I had, (salvation) the sister in-law who was in a coma, the friend who helped turn our neighborhood around through the power of the living God, many who accepted Jesus Christ in their hearts, the gay guy who told his boyfriend’s little son to call him mom, and the friend who attempted suicide. The Lord sabotaged her plans before the devil could persuade her to end her own life. Wow….what an awesome array of assignments. Those were just a few of the orchestrated moves God had planned out for me, probably before I arrived in Houston. I don’t know. I do know one thing that we serve a faithful and loving God, who will go to any height or any length to save His children’s lives from destruction. Those miracles assured me His power is greater than any power in this world; don’t be fearful of anything when you got King Jesus on your side! After living in Houston for years, I realized that move was orchestrated by God. At first, I simply saw it as my aunt inviting me to move there. God sent me to Houston to work at a specific hospital, where most of those incidences occurred. He also led me to join a god-ordained church full of the Holy Ghost. That church taught me how to strategically apply the word to everyday situations; to counteract the attacks of the devil. The church also taught me about God’s anointing, walking in power and authority, intercessory prayer, helped me discover my gifts and talents, the five-fold ministry, how to be accountable, transparent to others, and about the gift of tongues. Living in Houston was the most awesome time of my life, because I wouldn’t have experienced all those miracles; nor would I have gained so much spiritual wisdom and knowledge in no other place. God allowed me to operate in the miraculous in other places after leaving Houston. When I arrived in Houston God had my life already planned out; as to how He was going to use me so others could be blessed. All those miraculous experiences began to happen after I learned about and began to speak in tongues. The supernatural power of God increased mightily in my life, once I began to speak in tongues. I didn’t know the plans God had for me concerning my new adventures, until He gave me the assignments piece by piece step by step. Isaiah 55:8-9 says, This plan of mine is not what you would work out, neither are my thoughts the same as yours! v9 For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than yours, and my thoughts than yours. If I had known the plans God had for me beforehand; I probably would have quickly bowed out, because of my insecurities and fears that would have hindered me from completing such great feats. Knowing how I was I would have quickly told the Lord, I can’t do that. There were times when I was a bit fearful of where God was leading me and how He was using me. But I started praying for courage and boldness, to help me stay on board to complete the tasks given to me. I just surrendered my will unto Him and followed His will wherever He led me. When you get to that place in your life where you just do what the Lord says; He’ll take you to heights you’ve never experienced before, nor will you ever forget them. You will begin to hear His voice more clearly as if He’s standing right there beside you. I experienced so many awesome encounters that left me in awe, even unto this day. As He led me through those assignments, I would feel His presence all around me. Afterwards, I would be in such awe knowing that I had participated in the miraculous things of God; clearly seeing how He turned people messed up situations into great testimonies. That’s why you can’t give up on life so quickly; you’ll never know the great plans God has for you, if you opt out too soon. Just when you are about to give up, is when He’s about to open the windows of heaven to pour you out blessings. So, don’t give up now…be patient and embrace perseverance. Never let the devil convince you to give up, short of your miracles and all the blessings God has in store for you. In heaven, God has all the miracles and blessings stored up for you with your name on it. It’s up to you to figure out how to bring those blessings down into your lives. Read Jeremiah 29:11 where the Lord tells us what He has for you and me: For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Our lives go through so many phases where we sometimes need to go through the mud, in order to see that supernatural power of God working for us and through us. How else will we know the depth of God’s love, mercy, and His grace? If you’re in a place where things aren’t happening the way you would like them to happen; dig deeper into the word, get more specific with your prayers, give of your time and money ungrudgingly, and continue to worship and praise Him more than ever. As your praises go up blessings will come down. I wish people would truly believe there’s nothing too evil they could have done, that God wouldn’t forgive them of. I’ve met so many individuals who lived foul and ruthless lives and now they have such a great anointing on their lives. They are now in a position where they have opportunities to set others free from all types of oppressions, curses, and strongholds. If your life is a total mess now, don’t stress, just cry out to the Lord and get blessed. He promised that He will answer you when you call. Call to me and I will answer you, and I will tell you great and hidden things that you have not known. (Jeremiah 33:3) God has put greatness in each one of us, but the only way your greatness can come forth that glorifies Him is: If you remain in Me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. (John 15:7) For those who don’t know the Lord or His laws; the bible says My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge; because you have rejected knowledge, I also will reject you from being priest for Me; because you have forgotten the law of your God, I also will forget your children. (Hosea 4:6) Therefore, if you refuse to accept Jesus Christ into your hearts and refuse to honor God through your lifestyles; God will also forget your children. Why would people purposely allow their kids to suffer and go through unnecessary trials and tribulations they could have prevented them from; except they themselves were rebellious, stubborn, uninformed, foolish, or deceived. The Lord has an open invitation to all who wants to receive Him into their hearts. He wants to forgive you for ALL your sins and past mistakes, to start you out with a clean slate. Never allow the devil to influence you into aborting your God-given dreams, goals, future endeavors, or your life. Ask God to empower you to continue fighting and running this race to the end! He has great plans for your life, if you would only let Him in.

One night I had a dream that woke me up and as I was waking up, I heard a voice saying to me, you need to write a book. That dream stayed with me for a long time, but it puzzled me. It puzzled me because I didn’t know the first thing about writing a book, what to write about, or how to begin. At the time I had the dream, I was too busy struggling everyday with all the new issues I was facing. After a while I literally forgot about that assignment of writing a book. My personal struggles got me off track from what the Spirit had deposited in my heart. Many years later, I realized the devil will always try to steal your God-ordained assignments, gifts, anointings, blessings, and try to diminish your faith: when we lose sight of the vision. That’s what happening to many of our use to be God-fearing men and women of God. Many have fallen away because of the lust of the eyes, lust of the flesh, and the pride of life. Many have fallen in love with money, fame, greed, and competing with those in Hollywood. But I have always believed in that saying, what God has for me is for me. No one can take away what God places inside your hearts. Isaiah 55:11 confirms what I believe which says, so is my word that goes out from my mouth; it will not return to me empty but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it. That’s why it’s so vitally important to fill your hearts with His powerful and life-giving words. When I had that dream, I knew nothing about writing a book, nor did I know what to write about. But the awesome thing about God is…if He appoints you to carry out an assignment, He will bring it to pass in His timing, as the word states above. He will also make all the provisions for it to be fulfilled. He will take you step by step through the course He has planned for you. There will be many struggles of every kind; but disregard them because the struggles are meant to teach you how to perseverance, develop faith, give you a greater tenacity as of a lion, how to rejoice in the mist of adversity, and will build your confidence. So, if God has placed an assignment in your hands, don’t let anyone or anything derail you from accomplishing it. There will always be a greater purpose in what God has called you to do, regardless of how unimportant it may sound to you. The completion of any assignment that has been entrusted in your hands will end with many great rewards, blessings, and victories bestowed upon you and others. He places assignments in your hands to fulfill a greater purpose in the earth and in people’s lives. The main essence of true love is; when you persevere through many hard times and face many obstacles that was meant to stop you from blessing others!

Many years later, in 2008 hurricane IKE occurred in Galveston, Texas where I resided. That was when I lost my mother, father, and my best friend shortly afterwards. My house got flooded where I lost everything. Right after all those things happened, the assignment of writing the book was ignited in my heart by a prophet. A prophet I didn’t personally know sent me a prophecy that reminded me of the book I was informed to write long ago. Can you believe that, I’ve just lost everyone who was dear to me, all my possessions, and now I’m prompted to write a book? What timing! I had that dream in the late eighties, at a time I had no clue of how to express what was in my heart. I realized when God deposits something in your spirit, it doesn’t always mean it will manifest immediately. Some promises are meant to materialize years later; even into the next generation in your children’s lives. Now I understand why I had to go through so much before this book could come forth. There were many lessons I still needed to ascertain and challenges I had to overcome. After some thought, I accepted the assignment by faith as if I knew how to write a book. I felt God had purpose in the timing of when I was reminded to start on the book. I began to pray for wisdom, creativity, and instructions to help guide me as to what I was to write about. Before starting the project, I made the decision to write about things that were relevant and true. In rewriting the hardships from my past accurately; I had to revisit moments of ill-feelings I had not anticipated. As I began to start my rough draft of what I was to write about; God turned on the faucet of my past experiences and hardships, where stories began to flow constantly. I was reminded of things and events I had forgotten about. I had to stop writing at times to reassess my emotions, after revisiting those dark moments of my past. Several times I had finished writing the book and pulled it up the next day to see it was all messed up. I had to start all over again five or six times rewriting this book. On about the fifth time, I was overwhelmed by then. I almost gave up at that time because someone didn’t want to see me succeed; they kept sabotaging my progress by going into my computer messing my work up. What was so surprising to me was, everything I had written earlier was still fresh in my heart. I didn’t skip a beat when I had to rewrite the stories again and again; they began to flow as they were imprinted upon my heart. God is so faithful. No one can steal what God has put in your hands; no matter how hard they try. I remembered God promised to bring this assignment to pass, because it was Him who put the dream in my heart. No matter what others may try to do to hinder you, they can only delay you. They can’t stop you! The Lord assured me it is destined to come to pass no matter how many times I had to rewrite this book. The Lord will deal with those who attempt to sabotage your success. He left us a promise that says, I will contend with those who contend with you. When you have been given an awesome dream that need to come to pass or a vision; be very careful who you ask for help. There were so-called individuals I thought I could trust; but they underhandedly copied my entire book without my authorization. A so-called friend copied my book when I asked to use her computer. Then, I was reminded of what the scriptures says, Put no trust in man. Please don’t ask to use someone’s computer because they can pull out their tablet while you’re on their computer and copy everything you’re doing. I’ve gone through so many hurtful moments while trying to complete this book; so be very careful who you share your dreams and visions with. You remember what happened to Joseph in the bible? If God has placed an assignment in your hands; trust Him to the end in carrying it out. All the struggles I had to go through, I learned that the perceived death of a dream or vision is just waiting for its divine time to burst forth. I had to put feet to my faith and let go of everything I didn’t have control over; so, I could fulfill the dream that was put before me.

Many years later after leaving Houston, I was inspired to write the book right after a horrendous hurricane wiped out Galveston Texas. Since then, my life has been a roller coaster ride along with many awe-inspiring moments. I had so many technical problems happening with my computers, I ended up having to buy four new computers just to complete this project. I had all types of attacks while writing this book, that were meant to discourage me from completing this assignment. The last time I had an attack to keep me from finishing this book, it came from a malicious person. Praise be to God! I’ve been praying for her every day; despite what happened. There were times I felt doubtful while writing this book, because I was still grieving the deaths of my family members and friend. What kept me going was that still small voice that kept resonating in my spirit. The voice would repeatedly say to me, this is a new beginning. So, every time I thought about how can I make it after the storm; I would hear that statement ringing in my spirit over and over, this is a new beginning…trust Me! I learned that when you obey that still small voice, it will always connect you to miracles. I was in a place mentally where I had never been in before. I no longer had a mother, father, about to lose my job; because I wasn’t available during the storm and didn’t have a place to live, which was a very surreal moment for me. Those horrible events should have warranted me to be doubtful, depressed, fearful, and very discouraged. I didn’t experience any of those emotions, because I was taught long ago how to encourage myself when life lets you down. Some days I felt a little down and would listen to gospel music that lifted my spirit. I bypassed those horrible moments by encouraging myself. When I couldn’t get encouragement from anyone else, I was taught to start thanking God for all the things I did have and what He’s done for me throughout my life. When I began to do that…it would always usher in His divine Presence that would hover over me. In the mist of praising and worshipping God; the tears would fall releasing all the heaviness in my heart. When the crying stopped, I would be filled with peace and contentment. The Lord always restored me with peace, joy, and laughter every time. So, when you feel down and out or feel helpless; get into His presence with thanksgiving and go into His courts with praise for all He’s done for you. Get into practice of thanking God for what He has done for you and you will discover that’s how to get rid of a weary soul. Start with thanking Him for waking you up daily, protecting you, for having a sound mind, your provisions being met, and so on. I noticed after I would do that, favor began to follow me everywhere I went. I had favor with co-workers and strangers everywhere I went. I went to a new restaurant in Webster and ordered some food. When I went to pay for my meal the cashier said that the meal was free, because I was the hundredth customer to order food. There were only about three customers there. Every furniture place I went to purchase furniture, I got them to give me a discount of at least two hundred dollars off my stuff. I got one place to give me new mattresses free, because I spent so much money on the bedroom suit. My job gave us two-hundred and fifty dollars to help those who lost everything. My job also brought in an eighteen-wheeler full of furniture for us to pick out what we needed. Many other miracles happened for me during that time. All those things happened right after the storm IKE. Of course, I was hurting by losing my loved ones. Every time I felt down thinking about my parents and was having problems sleeping; the Lord would step in and rock me in His bosom until I fell asleep like a baby. Anytime it got a little rough for me I would ask the Lord to rock me in His bosom. When He does that, I felt the comfort, love, and serenity; you would normally feel when your mom is rocking you in her lap. God began to replace everything I had lost in the hurricane and more. What a reward for trusting in Him as my Jehovah - Jireh…my Provider; rather than trusting in people. As you make your request known unto Him; the Lord will touch people’s heart to bless you. Favor! Favor! Favor! I had to move to another city where I joined Heritage Baptist Church. I was a member there with Pastor Trent Henderson, when I lost both of my parents nine months apart. Pastor Trent told me when I am going through a rough time to come to him and the church. He told me the church is my family now, letting me know I didn’t have to go through any hard times alone. I never had a Pastor show so much compassion and concern, when going through hard times. Pastor Trent is a Pastor who is very approachable, loving, and full of compassion for those in the church and around him. The first person in that church who came up to me to greet me every Sunday and made me feel welcome was an astronaut who attended the church. He traveled to the moon in 2010. When he returned from space Webster threw several parties for all the astronauts, who made it back home. He offered to give me some furniture because I had lost everything in the storm. The Lord had already supplied my needs. Another member offered to pay for my certification to get back into medical coding, which I declined. There were other members who were such a blessing to me by paying for things I could have paid for. I became acquainted with a woman in the church and we became the best of friends, like sisters. Her name is Vicki Nolton. We became so close sharing everything with each other. We bore each other’s burdens just like the Lord did for all of us. A leader in the church offered me a Christian website. I asked him why he was offering it to me, because the congregation was quite large. He told me he prayed about it and the Lord told him to give it to me. At the time the website was offered to me; I declined it because I didn’t know what I would use it for. I hadn’t been reminded of writing the book at that time. Shortly after that, was when I realized the Lord was trying to set me up with a web page I didn’t have to pay for. When we lose sight of our vision, we miss out on a lot of things God has prepared for us. Wow! God placed me in that predominantly white church, where they made me feel loved and accepted. They made me feel like I wasn’t alone, and someone cared about me. Another member who didn’t know me painted an awesome picture for me, because I had encouraged her in a situation. That touched my heart so much. She shared with me she didn’t like people; yet she was coming to church regularly. She would always sit on the wall where they put out extra chairs. I encouraged her a couple of time to come and sit amongst everyone on the benches. After giving me the portrait, she told me I was the fifth person she had given a painting to in the church. That let me know I was special to her, which made me feel special. Shortly after encouraging her, I looked around for her on the wall and saw her sitting with everyone else. There were many more individuals, who did awesome things for me to make my life easy. I look back now and think: what a gracious welcome from the body of Christ, of people who didn’t know me at first. I believe if more churches made people feel welcome and accepted them the way they are; many more people would be in churches today. I thank God for leading me there because of all the things I was going through. The church ended up being my oasis during the low times of my life. I ended up at that church because I would pass by it daily, which was a few minutes away from my house. I had relocated to a new city after hurricane IKE and didn’t have a church home. As I passed it every day, I kept thinking, I’m going to visit that church one day, because it was so close to where I lived. That one day came when I felt I should visit that church since it was 2-3 minutes away from my place. I got there a bit early when everyone was still in Sunday school classes. I sat down in an almost empty sanctuary and listened to the band members practicing. As I listened to them practicing, something came over me that made me feel at home. God orchestrated that move to that new church, because He knew what I needed…love! That’s who you run to when you’re depleted of joy, love, strength, peace, and comfort. What you need is a church where God is demonstrating His power in people’s lives and a good word church to help you keep your mind on kingdom business.

This is another life-changing event I went through that taught me a life-long lesson I’ll never forget. There are times when we all go through experiences, that are parallel to the stories written in the bible. When you read the stories in the bible, they always tell you how and what to do to get you through the tough times. The bible is a blue print of the ways we should be fashioning our lives to; having good moral standards that promotes peace, contentment, redeeming power, discernment, loving kindness, holiness, and prosperity. Everyone will experience or have experienced a Jonah moment in their lifetime. A Jonah experience can be so humbling and worthy of its existence. A Jonah experience will teach you many lessons if you seize those moments of discipline. It will leave you with life-long lessons you will never forget or repeat. So, this is how my Jonah moment went: When I moved away from my hometown in the early eighties, I told myself I would never move back there again. I had been residing in Houston, Texas for about thirteen years, when I started feeling a strong urgency to move back to my hometown. For two weeks, I had this resonating thought I couldn’t shake that kept telling me I should move back home. It bothered me because I didn’t understand where that thought (unction) was coming from. I began to wonder if something bad was going to happen to my parents. I called them to see how they were doing, and everything was fine with them. I kept trying to figure out why I needed to move back home. It felt like a premonition that was warning me of something up ahead, not necessarily bad. Despite what I kept hearing in my spirit, I still didn’t want to move back to my hometown. Months before I had that premonition, my sister had been trying to get me to move to Dallas where she lived. I wasn’t quite sure that feeling was coming from the Lord at first, so I moved to Dallas instead. When I moved to Dallas, I was working at a new job within three days after arriving there. While in Dallas things just didn’t connect or feel right. I felt uneasiness as if I shouldn’t be in Dallas the entire time I was there. So, after being there a while, circumstances came about that persuaded me to move back to my hometown. I decided to be obedient to the premonition by moving back home. Later I realized sometimes we get in the way of God’s plans when He’s trying to bless us. That’s what I was doing when I decided to move in the opposite direction of where I was instructed to go. I finally concluded; I must move back to my hometown for whatever reason. That night as I was driving to my hometown, I was overcome with an immeasurable amount of peace. I didn’t understand why at first or that it was from the Lord. As I was driving, I was asking myself, why I’m feeling so much peace. I didn’t connect it to maybe God is trying to tell me something. Sometimes when we have certain feelings like that our understanding of them comes later, when we’re reflecting on things later down the line. I realized later, why I was feeling so much peace. I had finally obeyed what the Lord had told me to do months before. After moving back to my hometown, I became angry and had a bad attitude about the move along with other issues. Moving back to my hometown reminded me of the disappointments from my past. I was mad because I really didn’t want to be there; which led me into a state of depression that turned into bitterness. I just couldn’t move forward emotionally, because of the depression, anger, and bitterness I was holding onto. I was so miserable. After a while, I began to cry out to the Lord to take away my anger, bitterness, and depression. As I began to pray and talk to the Lord about being delivered from those ill-feelings, a thought came to mind I should visit a church that was half a block away. That following Sunday I went to that church. I was so surprised because the Pastor there use to be a deacon at the last church I attended, before I moved to Alaska in the eighties. He was now a Pastor someone I briefly knew from years ago. He gave me an encouraging word at the old church where I met him years previously. I was new in the church and didn’t know many of the members. As I continued to attend the church regularly, I noticed how the Lord began to obliterate those strongholds of depression, anger, resentment, and bitterness in my heart. I saw that church as my garden of Eden, that protected me from all the negative voices and whispers I had been listening to when I was dealing with bitterness. When I got to the church, Ms. Dorothy would sing songs that truly melted my heart and refreshed my soul. It was like the Lord sending me messages from Him through her songs. I was in awe with the songs she chose to sing, which was setting me free from the ill-feelings I had been dealing with. Ms. Dorothy has a beautiful blues sounding voice. As my attitude changed for the better, the Lord began to give me favor everywhere I went. I was blessed with a good job shortly after arriving in Galveston. I ran into an old classmate who I hadn’t seen for over twenty years and she recommended me for an opening at the company she worked for. I was hired as an intake clerk working with welfare recipients. Then I found this brand-new spacious apartment I wanted so bad. The realtor told me they previously incurred problems when they didn’t request a large deposit and a month’s rent in advance for that apartment. She told me that I had to come up with about a thousand dollars to move in, which I didn’t have. I had been in town for only a month and had only two-hundred dollars in my account. So, I went to the Lord in prayer telling Him how bad I wanted that apartment. The apartment was built three months earlier, which made it a new apartment to me. All the rooms were spacious as I like them to be. A few days after talking to the Lord, the realtor called me on my job unexpectedly. She told me if I had two hundred dollars, I could come and pick the key up that day. She never mentioned anything about paying on the remaining 800.00 dollars. That woman didn’t know me, nor had she ever met me before. That blew my mind how quickly the Lord answered my prayers and gave me favor with that realtor. It’s funny how I changed my pessimistic attitude and doors began to open for me. On my lunch break, I rushed to the bank to get my last two-hundred dollars to give to the realtor. Tell me how many people can move into a new spacious two-bedroom apartment for two hundred dollars and on their job for only a month? Only God could have orchestrated a miracle like that. He’s our master Orchestrator! Many months later, the Lord revealed to me why He wanted me to move back home…to bless me. After living in Houston for thirteen years; my assignments were up to doing newer things. After getting settled in my apartment and working, the Lord began to use me in different ministries at the small church I had joined. At the same time, the Lord was straightening out those crooked places in my life. In Matthews 6:33-34 it says But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. V34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. That’s what the Lord wants to do for all of us who’ll allow Him to order their steps. The Lord tried to get me to move South, but I decided to move North instead. After going through all that I had gone through; I saw that as my JONAH moment, and I experienced a JONAH chastisement. I went through those same emotional lows and fears Jonah had gone through. Remember the story in the bible about Jonah the Prophet who disobeyed the Lord. The Lord told him to go in one direction to Nineveh, but he decided to go in the opposite direction. His chastisement for being disobedient was getting swallowed up by a huge fish. Can you imagine a punishment of being in the belly of huge fish: rolling around in rotten food fermentations and acids, foul odors, being uncertain of your future, not knowing if you’d survive that situation, frightened, everything around you looking bad, and wondering where was God. That’s enough to make you want to give up or give in to humility. I thought about my struggles with bitterness, depression, and anger; and realized if I had stayed in that rotten and painful place, I wouldn’t have been where I am today. In that place of wilderness, I was forced into deciding of which way was I going to go. I asked myself if I was going to stay in a place where I would wither, humble myself, or ask God for help. That bitterness and anger was putting some harsh pressure on me. It hurt so much I finally cried out to the Lord to help me, by refreshing my weary soul. Some people go to therapists for help in situations dealing with depression, anger, and bitterness. Therapy is fine for our physical ailments, but I was dealing with a spiritual problem of being disobedient. I believe both spiritual and psychiatric therapy is beneficial in those types of situations. In my experiences, the spiritual approach works faster and more thoroughly for me. I was in pain, depressed, angry, discouraged, stressed out, and hated my state of mind. In fact, I was being disobedient, unforgiving, and wanted to hold onto my ooh poor me pity- party. I was dealing with something I didn’t want to do, because I didn’t know why I had to do it. I was also dealing with other issues that angered me at that same time. I have seen many others walk around in disobedience for years, who chose to go to a psychiatrist for their depression, anger, or bitterness. They went home with all kinds of pills for depression, anxieties, sleeping pills, and blood pressure medicine. When I gave my burdens to the Lord, I left with peace, clarity, joy, favor, heaviness lifted off me, and no medications. When you’re going through a situation like that; all you need to do is ask the Lord what the last thing He told you to do and do it. Maybe you needed to forgive someone or repent of something. That’s why people are having so many problems in their lives, they want to do what they want to do. Some want to hold onto their grudge against someone thinking it will hurt the other person. No baby it only hurts you. It stops your blessings from flowing and hinders your prayers from being answered. Whenever the Lord is trying to lead us into a land of miracles and blessings, but we refuse to go; we’ll continually walk around the same old mountain of frustration and despair over and over. When we finally humble ourselves and do what the Lord told us to do, is when He’ll release us from going around that same old mountain. Since that incident, when I have a life-changing decision to make I don’t move until I’ve heard from the Lord first. One of my friends in Alaska has been trying to get me to move back there for years. I won’t because the last thing the Lord told me to do, was move back to my hometown. I’m not feeling that move to Alaska in my spirit anyway, so I will stay where I am. In order to avoid a lot of stress, disappointments, and unfulfilled expectations; go before the Lord before making life-changing decisions. You can’t build or establish anything if you’re always moving from place to place or ending up in the wrong places at the wrong times. We need to be anchored somewhere for a while to establish stability on our jobs, in our church, in wholesome relationships, and to finish the assignments that are placed in our hands. God wants us to be established where He need us to be; so, we can reach out to those the Lord wants to bless. When we allow Him to be our spiritual rudder, we’ll never end up going in the wrong direction. During that time of my rebelliousness, I overlooked the fact that the Lord is my Jehovah-Shamah, which means The Lord Is There! Keep in mind that God is our El-Shaddai, which means The All Sufficient One!

SET OUR KIDS FREE

The prisons and jailhouses are showing us every day that we are dealing with so many angry and violent children. Why is that? Is it because rage, violence, and being disrespectful are being spawned in many of our homes? We, as a society, must take responsibility in addressing those serious issues; by figuring out what our kids are being exposed to. Our bad attitudes, disrespectfulness, anger, addictive dispositions, and other negative characteristics usually develops when we are young. Children usually conform to the things they listen to and see in their homes and environment. We, as adults, need to take an inventory of our bad behavior and be honest enough to admit to ourselves that we are guilty of those things. Once we do that we need to confront and correct those nasty traits that’s pouring into our kid’s lives. Until we do those things, we will continue to have angry and violent kids; who has been harboring those destructive traits going on in their homes. We need to close certain doors in their lives that is exposing their kids to those issues of rage, violence, addictions, sexual immorality, and severe dysfunctional behaviors. All families have some sort of dysfunction in their homes; but there are other families who have extreme dysfunctional behaviors going on. There are too many parents harming, abusing, and killing their helpless children, because they may be dealing with rage, depression, or some mental illness. We have been misbehaving and disrespecting people too long and it’s time to make a change for the betterment of our family members. Our toxic behavior has caused so much damage to our family members, friends, and others. All of us need to do an inventory of our own lives to figure out what nasty traits we may be harboring in our hearts and correct them. That’s the only way people can stop those bad behaviors from passing on to their children. It’s hard to teach your kids not to do certain things when they are watching you getting high, drunk around them, cursing and fighting in the home, bringing multiple partners in the home, dressing provocatively that embarrasses the children, being disrespectful to your spouses, children, and family members. There are those who become enraged at the snap of a finger in front of their children which frightens them. All those examples are teaching our kids that is how people behave. Being young they don’t understand that all families don’t live the way other families live. Even though other families may have worse family dynamics going on in their homes. There are many parents who have put their foot down to stomp out all that misbehaving and put them in check right away when they are being disrespectfulness, drinking or doing drugs in the home, acting violent, dressing provocatively, or displaying other dysfunctional activities. Parents are the ones who sets the guidelines in their homes; thus, training their children with positive behavior. The bad behavior of parents many times causes their kids to be angry and frustrated. Children end up holding onto all that built-up anger and frustration, because they don’t know how to manage their pint-up emotions. Therefore, your kids are going to act out in the home and in the schools, because they need to release their frustrations just like adults. Parents should keep reminding their kids of the fundamentals of good morals, respecting people, avoiding violence, the dangers of drugs/alcohol use, and being responsible for their own actions. Parents should be their positive role models in how to treat others and talk to others. Being a good role model for your kids is the best teacher for all ages. How can a parent teach their child good and proper behavior; if the parents aren’t displaying that same behavior in the home? Parents can no longer expect the schools or churches to teach their children those fundamentals, even though many teachers and church members have stepped up to the plate to help some kids get through certain issues. Those are personal matters that should have been initiated in their homes first. When kids are lacking that sort of training many of them become very disruptive and out of control outside the home. The government has passed certain laws that dictates how the parents should raise and discipline their own children. I do agree there are some young parents who need to be given well-defined instructions on how to manage and discipline their kids; because they are kids themselves trying to raise kids. But many of the parents are operating out of fear and abiding by those man-made rules. I do understand their dilemma of not wanting to get involved with CPS and the authorities. But there comes a time when parents should take a stand and utilize their good judgment on how to raise their own children; regardless of what the government says. It’s obvious that those laws that have been passed are meant to be subversive, compared to the instructions given to us in the bible on how to train up your children. Since the government have gotten so involved in how we should raise our kids; have you noticed the increase of rebellion, disrespectfulness, violence, and lack of respect kids have for those in authority? In all reality, it’s the politicians, judges, law-makers, and the secret societies; that are really pulling the strings to get those new laws and regulations passed. We must all be prayerful always because more and more unjust, immoral, and divisive laws are still being passed. Those high officials are subject to the laws of God, as is everyone else; but as we can see they are disregarding those laws. Their power, wealth, arrogance, biased control, and corruption are their reigning gods. The bible says, You shall have no other god before Me. When those high officials refuse to obey the laws of God, they also will pay consequences just like everybody else. In Proverbs 29:2 it says, When the godly are in authority, the people rejoice; when the wicked are in power, they groan. The bible was written to help us prosper in all our ways, if we would only obey what it says and not what man says. In almost every aspect of our lives, the government is attempting to diminish our moral values that were established for us long ago. Addition to that, they have banned prayer from the schools where our children spend a lot of their time. Since that has happened there has been an explosion of violence, bullying, sexting, molestations, date-raping, suicides, murdering, and homicides in the schools since then. A seed of impiety was put in place where prayer was taken out of the schools and public places. Right after the government voted for abortions to be legalized, murders and violence increased significantly. Legalized abortions planted the seed of murder and death in the minds of our young people, who were doing grown-up things before their time. Of course, there are many mature individuals who are for abortions. Casual and unprotected sex has increased significantly, because people were given the right to kill their own seed; when they ended up with an unwanted pregnancy. The laws have made it possible for our teenagers to get abortions and free condoms without their parent’s approval. Those laws and regulations left many parents unaware that their child was sexually-active. Some states required a court order for young girls to get an abortion, even if their parents were against the abortion. Young girls were permitted to have an abortion without their parent’s consent, if they were involved in any neglect, incest, abuse, or an assault. Many of the abortions were done for other reasons that could have been avoided; if only individuals would have protected themselves before having casual sex. You do the math with the millions of abortions being committed every month. Tax-payer’s dollars is spent on those businesses, clinics, medical supplies, and the material distributed; at the rate of about a million and a half dollars daily. No matter how people view abortions, they are still considered murder in the eyes of God. God is our Creator and the only Person who can decide when someone’s life should end. There are other avenues individuals could take to keep from aborting the precious seeds of a living fetus. The government has slowly taken away people’s parental rights; by establishing their control in people’s homes. Many of their laws and regulations the government have come up with; is part of that diabolical one world order that’s in developmental stages right now as I speak. The laws that are being passed are part of Satan’s attempt to subvert our children; mentally, physically, socially, and spiritually from living the life God designed for them to live. Satan’s desire for all our children is to keep them addicted to drugs and alcohol, food, participating in murders (abortions, genocide, killing each other, suicide), being rebellious against all authorities, intoxicated with sexual exploitations and greed, and in and out of prisons or jails. He wants to keep them addicted to the violent videos, music, movies, and games; that distorts their perceptions of reality, fills their thoughts with negligent behavior; as they waste their precious time on unproductive and destructive activities. Many of those activities are subsequently subliminally corrupting people’s perceptions and moral values, robbing us of our insightful rationalization of the things that are divine, holy, and eternal. Many are being seduced deeper into the world system of deadly vices, the occult, convincing individuals to advertise their bodies and souls for a price; that’s leaving people feeling worthless with no self-esteem. Young people see so many others involved in different vices, which makes them believe there’s nothing wrong with doing those things. While our young children are constantly being distracted and seduced into those desensitizing vices; it robs them of making wise choices, when they try to utilize their god given gifts and talents. The intentions of the devil are to get our kids to grow up despising things that are good, holy, and eternal; when we need to step in to teach our kids the importance of following rules, having good morals, and living a disciplined life. The devil is real, and he wants to destroy your children’s minds, anointing, talents, dreams, gifts, their faith, and lives; by derailing them before they have the opportunity to find out who God is and what great things God has in store for them. The devil is defeated and he’s trying to convince our kids to believe they also are defeated. But the devil is a LIAR!!! Now, the most recent law passed in many states is legalizing marijuana. They legalized marijuana but is trying to up the age limit for kids who want to smoke cigarettes. What sense does that make, except to prevent them from damaging their lungs, but not their mental health. My question now is what’s next? Our society is being led into a cesspool of sexual immorality, addictions, corruption, and wickedness. As people participate in those debaucheries, they end up with mind-sets believing they can do whatever makes them feel good. Some people aren’t concerned with the shame, guilt, the people they harm, what laws they break, or the consequences they’ll pay; because just about everybody is doing those things. That’s what’s going on with people of all ages today, until they hit rock bottom like most of us did. Hitting rock-bottom for most of us was the best thing that could have happened to us. Sounds crazy? That’s usually when the Lord will step in to lift you from the bottom of the barrel to the top of mount Zion. (His holy place) When most of us hit rock bottom, we were depleted of all other resources that was helping us stay in the games of sin. Satan gave them a pink slip like he gave me, stating he’s through with using them. But God…can reach down to the lowest valley to pull you out…if you would only call on Him! The only thing that’s keeping many of us above the rim of that cesspool is; God has an army of prayer-warriors, intercessors, Evangelists, Prophets, and people called by His name demonstrating power, authority, and dominion in the land. They are the ones who’s keeping the lamps burning bright in this dark world; showing the devil that God has all power on earth and in heaven - that’s working through His people’s lives. The things that will keep people spiritually strong is maintaining a strong prayer life, trusting God with their whole heart, clothed in that spiritual armor, relying on His mercy and His grace, and knowing we will overcome every attack of the devil. Yet, people still question why we are having so many problems with our youth. Check out all the laws being passed of things that use to be taboo, condemned, out-lawed, or simply immoral. Prostitution is legalized in one state, but it’s been around for centuries in every state and continent. Since that has been discussed in many states and legalized in one state, we’ve had a huge problem with sex-trafficking, child prostitution, wild sexual networking and partner-shipping, total fixation on pornography, and every licentious act our evil imaginations can come up with. Sexual perverts are found in every social class, race, age group, both genders, and many religious organizations. They are people walking around possessed by the devil and having no remorse for ruining the lives of our young children. The main reason our kids are out of control and acting out violently, is because their hearts are far from God. Many don’t even know God, who Jesus is, or what to do to be saved. Why is that? The devil knows our kids possess a very powerful gift inside of them, that God puts in all of us. But many of our youth haven’t been enlightened to the revelations of Jesus Christ; that will ignite the power, authority, gifting, and talents within them that can destroy the plans of the devil. Our kids have been so preoccupied by the things of this world; they don’t know what they possess. Their parents didn’t inform them of their Creator, for some. The only way they can accomplish those great victories; is when your kids come into the knowledge of Christ and accept Him as their Lord and Savior. Our youth need to be informed of that power, authority, wisdom, and knowledge of God; which is the power they are really searching for. But instead, they are looking for power in all the wrong places; by joining gangs, selling drugs or weapons, getting involved in witchcraft, intimidating people with fear, being the slickest thief or con artist out there. We all know what the end results of those types of activities lead to defilement, prison terms, or death. Fathers need to rise in power and dominion to embrace their children with love; while teaching them the