Ring Envy

By Margaret Buapim

Karen Jenkins appears to have her life perfectly set before her as she prepares to embark on the most important role of her life – that as a wife. Her dreams are shattered, however, when she is betrayed and she is forced to re-focus her life. Is it worth it to wait on God for love and how do you recover after disappointment? Those are the themes grappled with in this book which is something that all people can relate to.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Jul 11, 2006
• ISBN: 9781984545916

Margaret Buapim

Margaret Buapim is an emerging writer who has been "a long time in the making." Recognized and awarded the Greater Los Angeles Mensa Society in 1990 for essay writing at the age of 18. She continued her focus and love of literature by obtaining a degree in English at Oakwood University. A poem featured in the 1994 River of Dreams Anthology entitled Children of the Night was recognized and published and a short story was included in Guide Magazine. It was not until finding faith in the true God, Jehovah, that the creative juices began to bubble up again. Ring Envy finally came to fruition in 2006 and another poem entitled Childhood was recognized by Blue Mountain Press. Ms. Buapim intends to continue to write including writing for the screen, stage and television audiences. She can be reached for appearances and book signings at [e-mail]

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Copyright © 2006 by Margaret Buapim.

Library of Congress Control Number:   2006901275

ISBN:    Hardcover     978-1-4257-0965-5

              Softcover       978-1-4257-0964-8

            Ebook             978-1-9845-4591-6

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This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to any actual persons, living or dead, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.

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Contents

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

Chapter 11

Chapter 12

Chapter 13

Chapter 14

Chapter 15

Chapter 16

Chapter 17

This book is dedicated to my mother, Elena,

for all of her love and support throughout the years.

Chapter 1

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It was between the heavy breathing that I knew I was throwing the love of my life away. The woman beside me was not my bride to be and I was to be married in a few days. This was not the first time and I don’t know why I am doing this. Lust is too simple of an answer. I fell into sin and I can’t turn back the clock nor can I undo my actions. Three days was too soon for a complete undoing of betrayal but I was determined to keep my promise. When I proposed, I did so in purity and faith with a promise of commitment and to that I wanted to remain true despite my indiscretion. Do you come clean when you’ve committed such a great wrong or do you hope that the years can silence the conscience? I needed an answer and a way out but I had fallen.

The true love of my life could not be anymore different than the woman beside me at this moment; however, they were best friends. I met her in the church when I was 8 years old. She was a chocolate drop as my mother liked to playfully call her on account of her complexion. I was a kid not interested in girls yet, but I was taught to respect all people. That was my faith as a servant of Jehovah. Looking at what I am doing now, I hope it is not lost. I was raised to believe in the sanctity of marriage and the marriage bed.

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It wasn’t my intention to betray my best friend. I was supposed to help her in planning the wedding but things happened so fast. She threw herself into planning and I threw myself into his arms. He was perfect and her lack of attention to both of us drew us together. I was no stranger to men, but he was different in his adoration of her. I never believed I was good enough for something like that, but if I could have a piece of it, even if it was artificial. I know I am dreaming because he hasn’t said a word about breaking it off with her although I am still dreaming. Three days to go and I am playing with my heart. I am taking a gamble that this means something. We were not kids anymore and that’s what he was when he met her. We are now adults and this can’t be a game. He made the decision to be with me in a way he had not done with her and actions speak louder than words and professed loyalty. I know it is wrong but the heart is treacherous and although I love her, I am not as self sacrificing. I want the ring and the wedding too and I can’t leave it to chance to make it happen. Feelings are involved now otherwise he could have stopped it before it started. He would have wouldn’t he?

Chapter 2

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I noticed a change in his attitude towards me when I was 16. We grew from a casual friendship to romantic interest over eight years. Eight years of my getting to know his family and him getting to know mine. We had the blessing of both when we started dating and its only natural that we are taking this step. It would have happened sooner but I had academic goals. I now wonder if we waited too long. Angela, that’s my sister, she hints that he has not been the same since he asked me six months ago to be his wife.