Tales of Reflection: An Autobiography of Sorts
By Doug Hodges
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Unlike my previous ten books, Tales of Reflection is about myself, pure and simple. It travels from the 1950s through the present, chronicling my times, my events, and their relationship to the times and the events about me. It is a book no one else could write, full of pathos and full of humor, full of fear, and I hope, full of love. It is my life, spread out like a blanket for a picnic. You are all invited.
Doug Hodges
I have been writing since I was old enough to hold a pencil, with my first poem written in the fifth grade. This led to a career in Colorado newspapers, which lasted more than twenty years, though in a variety of capacities. I once wrote an historical column, titled The Trail’s End. This tied my love of words in with my love of history, a deep-seated yearning flowing throughout my life. A need to blend the humanity and emotion of raw life with the cold stone of fact, the idealism of win and loss with the blood and bone reality of violence being a lose-lose proposition, trying to find that spiritual truth among the physical fact. In 2014, a good friend invited me to share a trip to Gettysburg, which reawakened a long-dormant civil war seed. From this journey came our collaborated book, Bob’s Gettysburg Saga & Poetry. Upon its successful publication, we decided that Bob should visit other historical sites and chose the Alamo for his next venture. Unfortunately, my friend was not able to participate in this endeavor. So I continued, trusting that the spirit of Bob’s creator would find its way between the lines. Following Bob’s section are a couple of obituaries I penned some time ago. Completing the volume are a couple of Western tales. I hope the reader may enjoy this collection of historical reminiscence as much as I enjoyed writing it. Now, on the backside of sixty, I reside in the Rio Grande Valley with my wife, who is also my personal editorial department (all errors are still mine, she will be quick to note), three dogs, and a parrot. My wife taught high school English and communication (speech) for over thirty years. When not writing or visiting family, we like to sit around and discuss words and language.
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Tales of Reflection - Doug Hodges
Contents
I TALES OF REFLECTION
2 THE BEGINNING
3 BEFORE THE BEGINNING
4 THE SECOND FAMILY
5 CANADA
6 A FEW WORDS ABOUT THE CHURCH
7 MAGIC BUS
8 SCHOOL
9 IN THE LAND OF THE BLIND
10 A HARD LESSON
11 JOBS
12 THE CAB, THE COTTON CLUB, AND FAIRYLAND
13 TRAINING: POINT A TO POINT B
14 SILVER WINGS UPON THEIR CHESTS
15 THE CAVE
16 … A WITCH’S TIT
17 TRAINING: EVENING
18 NOTES ON FT. JACKSON
19 CALIFORNIA
20 A FEW WORDS ON THE NATIONAL GUARD
21 THE UNDERGROUND
22 DAILY GRIND
23 … AND A GAY TIME WAS HAD BY ALL
24 THE STORY OF JOAN
25 A NOTE ON BRENDA
26 BLUE MEADOW
27 KING OF THE WORLD
28 THE NEWSPAPER
29 CHOICES
30 THE QUEEN OF THE SILVER DOLLAR
31 BARRIERS
32 THE SUN
33 GHOSTS AND HALLOWEEN AS WELL
34 TWO GIRLS AND THE INDIANS
35 THE PEOPLE’S REPUBLIC OF BOULDER
36 DEBBIE DUZ DONUTS
37 THE INCIDENT OF ’93
38 GILPIN COUNTY, COLORADO
39 THERAPY
40 MY QUEST, RAVEN & COYOTE A STORY OFTEN TOLD
41 SOLOSPEAK
42 NAVIGATOR
43 LIFE CHANGES AS WE AGE
44 NOTE
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
for Mom and Dad
long overdue
To Linda
cover photo - the author
Fredericksburg, Texas
title page photo - Fisherman’s Wharf
San Francisco
all images herein have either been taken by myself
or are taken from my family collection
(1)
TALES OF REFLECTION
an autobiography of sorts
I do not live in the past
yet flashes of the past seem to haunt me -
a scent, a touch, a timely deja vu
conjures up old memories
like reflections in fun-house mirrors,
remembered correctly or not,
named or unnamed.
some are pleasant,
some not so much;
these semi-conscious visions
become almost as real in the reliving …
perhaps more so.
there is a reason, I am sure
these nooks and crannies of my mind
reveal themselves;
something about being connected with
who I am or where I come from
or how all the threads of myriad
strands of various stories
have brought me to the point of today,
maybe a lesson to help me through some present
dilemma or a guide, a warning;
or merely an electrical synapse of connection.
in any event, these moments can disturb me
they can also fill me with moments of warmth
or with an ironic sense of loss.
they are touchings
they are reflections
for which I am grateful.
as siblings may grow up in the same house
and have different memories
or even different takes on the same memory,
so the winds of time,
the turbulence of physical mind,
will have struck me,
I am sure.
whereas I have tried to be as accurate as possible
these recordings, I hope, have captured the essence
if not the exact detail of the moment.
if there are any errors,
and I am sure there are,
I leave it to those others
who would chronicle their own adventures
to set the record straight.
DH
(2)
THE BEGINNING
like most stories
mine had a beginning,
which was in a small town,
perhaps a village,
in Bavaria,
called Herrsching-Am-Ammersee,
in essence the town
of Herrsching on the Ammer sea,
these seas are what we call lakes.
it is situated west of Munich in the country of Germany,
in what was then called the American Zone.
my father had been a Polish fisherman
my mother a German maid;
I don’t believe they ever married,
something about a previous marriage
and them both being Roman Catholic.
however, they had two children that I know of,
a sister two years older than I
and myself, named at the time Joseph Freyer.
1949 was still post-war Germany
and times were difficult.
Germany had been divided into four parts
by the victors and jobs were scarce,
trust was even scarcer,
on both sides.
one thing, however, remained constant,
parents love for their children.
knowing there was no way
they could support two children,
I, the youngest, was placed in an orphanage.
my sister and mother occasionally visited.
the nuns apparently adored me
and I was called Seppi
.
unlike today, where nationalism
almost demands that children remain in
the country of their birth,
at that time the German people wanted something
better for their children
which they knew would be a long time coming
in Germany.
so, the adoption of orphans by
United States military personnel
was actively sought and encouraged.
Dean Hodges, my dad to be,
had been a bomber pilot during the war,
my mom, his wife Lorna Marjorie,
Lorna to everyone except my dad
who called her Marge,
had both come from a small town in Iowa,
called Greenfield.
they and another military couple,
decided to adopt two boys from the St. Alban’s orphanage.
their son and myself could have easily been interchanged,
my new name was to become Douglas,
his became Rick.
we were issued new Birth Certificates,
in both German and English to prove it.
I was two years old.
it was said I spoke fluent German.
what two year old speaks fluent anything?
however, it was also said that I loved to use
the word, Actung!
meaning, attention or attend to me.
the nuns said that I was afraid of nothing
and guarded and inhaled my food and drink
as if it would be taken away;
I still tend to eat fast.
I was sickly, with bad nasal congestion,
remnants of which last to this day,
mom said they would pull long streamers
of mucus out of my nose and throat.
my mom, their Boxer dog, Butch,
and myself sailed back to America
on an ocean liner,
converted to troop carrier during the war,
afterward converted back to a semi-liner
carrying military personnel and their families,
the U.S.S. Washington.
the seas were rough and everyone
was said to be seasick,
except me.
I ate like a horse.
mom would lead me around the deck
with a harness leash
lest I fall into the sea.
1949-1951
R3.jpgmy parents’ German maid, Isolde,
a nun, the orphanage St. Albans
myself, & my mom, Lorna
(3)
BEFORE THE BEGINNING
my grandfather, Bernard Heifner, was a salesman.
not in the typical way,
he sold himself
and thereby, whatever
he happened to be dealing in at the time.
he was born a farmer
on a small farm in Adair County, Iowa
as a matter of fact
he died within twenty miles
of the house in which he was born
and only left Iowa twice during his eighty-eight years.
the first time was to help my parents
move a house trailer from Florida to California
reminiscent of the Lucille Ball - Desi Arnez, movie
The Long Trailer
.
he did not particularly like farming,
early on, he dealt in mules,
a used mule salesman.
he was also,
I was later to learn,
very charismatic
and a charmer with the ladies.
about the time of World War II
he and my grandma, Zoe, owned
a small store just outside of Greenfield.
by the time I came on the scene
the two were running a ten-room motel in Des Moines
called the Trail’s End.
enough room to hold
my parents and I,
my aunt and uncle and their two sons,
our great-grandmother,
and my other grandfather
for Christmas gatherings.
it was here, through various
vacations that my cousins and I grew up.
Ampa
, as I called him,
he always called me and my cousins,
Dougie, Andrewie, Gary,
emphasis on the ee
sound.
he was a life-long hunter
and raised bird and coon dogs.
hunting coon was his love.
I have a Coon magazine with a photograph
of him on the cover along with one of his dogs
and her thirteen puppies.
later in life, when he was too old to get around
he would lease out his dogs
and sit in his old car,
a 1949 red and rusted Studebaker,
while the other fellows hunted.
this beat-up old bullet-nosed vehicle
was the car with which I grew up.
later, in its life, the trunk would be cut out
and replaced with crates for the dogs.
my grandmother had two miniature schnauzers,
these were not real dogs to my grandfather
and he never understood why they had to live inside
while his dogs had pens outside where dogs belonged.
Grandpa had bought my grandma a huge
orange Oldsmobilly
automobile
emphasis on the ee
.
back behind the Trail’s End
were sandy cliffs
dotted with wind blown caves.
we, my two cousins and I,
were strictly forbidden to play there;
we didn’t.
when I was a young adult,
three kids were caught in a cave-in
and my grandpa was in the news;
he had heard their cries
climbed up with a shovel and dug them out.
my grandmother, Zoe, was short and plump
when she was driving down the road
you were lucky to be able to even see
the top of her head through the windshield
of her orange tank.
she sat on cushions and there was a
suicide knob on the steering wheel …
for younger readers,
before the advent of power steering
and automatic transmission
this knob, also called a brody, necker,
wheel spinner and granny knob,
swiveled and made steering with one hand
incredibly easier …
which would then slam her in the belly
every time the steering wheel revolved,
like whenever she turned a corner.
unlike Ampa
, grandma
liked to travel and often flew to visit us
whenever she could.
these were my mom’s parents.
R4.jpgmy grandfather, Bernard T. Heifner
(4)
THE SECOND FAMILY
my mom’s brother, Gene, was a jeweler.
like my dad,
he had grown up with an innate love
of taking things apart
and putting them back together,
usually better than they had been.
Gene and his wife, Pat,
had two sons.
Andrew was about my age
and the somewhat younger brother, Gary,
later to be called Mark,
was the hanger-on
which we two older
boys
constantly tried to avoid.
Mark would grow up to become a doctor
with a very nice family of his own.
possibly because I was an only child,
Andrew seemed more like a brother to me,
albeit a part-time one.
though we only met on vacations
we shared wonderful growing up experiences.
to avoid any appearance of favoritism
grandma and grandpa would almost always
buy the three of us
the same thing
so we all wore the same clothes,
received the same hair cuts,
and had more or less the same toys
once Andrew and I were sitting in
grandpa’s old Studebaker,
we were