A Homosexual Struggle: Testimonial Reading from a Christian Man

By Johnathan Spirit

This story is about a young man who was sexually abused as a young boy. Over the years, he lived a secret homosexual life. By him living as a homosexual, he had to struggle with this lifestyle based on his religious Christian beliefs. While living this life, he encountered the spirit of homosexuality, lust, and perversion. He later tells on how the Lord Jesus has saved and delivered him from these evil spirits and the homosexual lifestyle.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Nov 13, 2014
• ISBN: 9781503513075

Johnathan Spirit

Johnathan Spirit is very enthusiastic, loves to make other laugh, and can put a smile on your face. He was born and raised in Florida, by his loving mother. He was brought up in church where he got his start. Now, he is an ordained minister and a mighty prophet of God. He’s now continuing to pursue his writing career. Look forward to more books from this author!

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Copyright © 2014 by Johnathan Spirit.

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Scripture quotations marked KJV are from the Holy Bible, King James Version (Authorized Version). First published in 1611. Quoted from the KJV Classic Reference Bible, Copyright © 1983 by The Zondervan Corporation.

All of the characters, names, incidents, organizations, and dialogue in this novel have been changed due to the people that are involved which the author’s used fictitiously and will remain confidential.

Rev. date: 11/10/2014

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CONTENTS

Acknowledgment

Introduction

Beginning Of My Struggle

How It All Started

Entering High School

Living The Secret Life

A Road To Deliverance

Strongholds Of The Flesh

Homosexuality In The Church

Does God Hate Homosexual People?

Why Did I Start To Write About My Life’s Struggles?

Questions And Answers

Shared Stories From People

A Note From The Author

Prayer

DEDICATION

I would like to dedicate this book to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ for his saving and deliverance power.

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This book is for all of those who will read this book that are going through homosexuality or any kinds of struggles.

The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he hath anointed me to preach the gospel to the poor; he hath sent me to heal the brokenhearted, to preach deliverance to the captives, and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty them that are bruised, to preach the acceptable year of the Lord. (Luke 4:18–19)

If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed. (Luke 8: 36)

ACKNOWLEDGMENT

To my loving family mom, step father, brothers and sisters who loved me for who I was and always stood by my side

INTRODUCTION

Have you ever wondered why people keep things in their hearts without telling others?

Have you wondered why it is so hard to get people to talk about their past?

Well, how can you share what is really in your heart without being talked about, despised, embarrassed, shamed, hurt, or even feel guilty?

If you know someone or if you are that person, then you need to let it out or forever suffer from the emotional pain and stress. I was like this for a time in my life, so I know how it feels.

In life, we all have our very own personal problems of some kind that we deal or have dealt with, whether it’s a struggle, addiction, or stronghold. Every struggle we had to face or might encounter might not be the same as others’. But no matter what the problem, for sure someone has been in that situation or is going through that same situation.

There are some that struggle with homosexuality, lesbianism, depression, drug abuse, sexual molestation, prostitution, alcoholism, or even pornography. Theses struggles we go through can last for days, and then move to weeks, months, and even years.

There are a few questions I want to ask:

• Do we really want to come out of the struggle?

• Do we know how to come out of the struggle that we are in and battle with each day?

• Do we know why we are in that struggle?

There are some that have been in a struggle so long that they don’t realize how it started or even why they’re in the situation they are in. All they know is that they are in a struggle of some kind. The struggles have become a part of our daily lives. Some might have given up hope and start believing there is no way out because they have searched and tried everything, but it appears as if nothing works.

But I have good news for you, in all struggles, problems, or situations, there is a way out, thanks to our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. In John 8:36 if the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed.

If you have never experienced being bound or under any type of Satan’s control, then you might not understand a person who has been. You may not understand where they have been, their pain, or even the hurt they have experienced.

I am writing this book on behalf of my struggle of homosexuality. Well, this is my story about what I have experienced as a homosexual. I can’t speak for no one else but on my behalf.

Yes, I was a homosexual and I have participated in homosexual things and activities. I had to struggle with who I was and what I had become. I had to struggle with Christian lifestyle and trying to leave this lifestyle.

There’re spirits I had to battle with as well, which are lust, perversion, and homosexual spirits. I have played, fought, and wrestled with this sprit for many years. The homosexual, lust, or perversion spirit doesn’t care who its victims are, whether it comes after a man, woman, boy, or girl. It will pursue you until it has control over you and will try to destroy your life. I will share some personal things in my life and how the Lord Jesus freed me from this lifestyle.

Homosexuality is one of the biggest things you see and that is going on in today’s time. If you look at today’s news or society, you will see it all over. As you can see it’s in all races, cultures, and religion, whether there are people for it or against homosexuality.

People have their opinion about if it is right or whether it is wrong. I can say in God’s eyes, it is wrong. In this book, you will see if God does hate gay people, whether God doesn’t like the sin of homosexuality and more.

There are people that are bound by this spirit. This is one spirit that is very hard to get rid of. There are people that are still struggling with this spirit, especially in the church. So I believe this would be a great help to those who have lived this life, have struggled, and that are struggling with this spirit and lifestyle of homosexuality and want to be free!

BEGINNING OF MY STRUGGLE

In my heart there was something inside of me. I knew that I wanted to tell someone all about it, but I didn’t. I was hiding something, but it bothered me for years. I knew it had to come out soon or I would keep feeling this load that was in me. I just couldn’t say a word. I didn’t know how to open up and share it with another person.

In the first place, well, I had a collection of questions for myself. The first question was to whom can I tell? The second