Jerkwater Freight: A Collection of Poems, Essays, and Short Stories
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Jerkwater Freight is the realization of nearly a decade of writing. This debut collection of poems, essays, and short stories formally draws together the bulk of my creative writing efforts. While a majority of the work comes from the years 1995-1999, I have included some poems and essays that go back as far as 1990. Other significant sources of material are the two creative writing courses I took at Illinois State University with Jim Elledge, to whom this book is dedicated. Without his encouragement at a time when my confidence in writing was ebbing, very little of the material in Jerkwater Freight would have been written. Jerkwater Freight is in such a format that it is not designed to be read from cover to cover because it has not been written in that manner. It is a journey through the mind where the destination is not one to be reached quickly. Along the way there are pauses to reflect on the route taken and to pick up boxcars left on sidings up and down the line.
Jeff M. Pregmon
Jeff Pregmon was born in 1972 in Scranton, Pennsylvania. He was raised and has lived most of his live in Illinois. While in the process of earning his degree in geography from Illinois State University, his interest in creative writing was reawakened, sending him down this new road. Jerkwater Freight is his first collection. Jeff currently lives in Gilman, Illinois.
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Jerkwater Freight - Jeff M. Pregmon
Copyright ©1999 by Jeff Pregmon.
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Contents
FOREWORD
JERKWATER FREIGHT
MAPMAKER
PURPLE
EASE THE PAIN
BADGE
NOT UNNOTICED
JANUARY SECOND
LACK OF EVIDENCE
DISTRESS CALL
I SHOULD’VE PLAYED NINE
SIX YEARS OLD
THE PARTNERSHIP
THORNS
KILLING TIME
PLAYING WITH FIRE
IN THE COLD
THE BAND
CHRISTMAS
ONE AFTERNOON
ABOVE AND BEYOND
PRELUDE
SUBSEQUENT SUMMERS
THE ECHO OF THE DOGS
MR. MACINTYRE
DECEMBER
THUNDER
ROSE
THIS SIDE OF THE FAÇADE
AFTER THIS
A NOVEL IDEA
IF SHE ONLY KNEW
UPSTAIRS DOWNSTAIRS
KISSING
INTEREST OF CLARITY
OLD FIRES
SILENCE
AND CHRIST WAS LEFT SPEECHLESS.
WEST WALWORTH
DINNERTIME
WE TRADED POEMS
BEFORE THE RAIN
SATURDAY NIGHT
SUNDAY MORNING
SUNDAY AFTERNOON
HIGHLAND ROAD
YESTERDAY’S NEWS
IN THE LANE
BACK STREET
PROCYON RISING
FRIDAY NIGHT RELIGION
LAST SUMMER DAY
SHOP RITE
RHYMES WITH
DREAMS
TRUTH AND WISHES
CASTLES, DRAGONS, AND FAIRY TALES
TWO DAYS IN MAY
BRIANNA
PRIVATDOCENT
ELMWOOD
SUICIDE NOTES
JENNY AND ERICA
DARK CIRCLES
ONE GIRL’S WORLD
DRIFTLESS
LINGERING MEMORY
GIVE UP THE GHOST
THE MEANING OF LIFE
CABOOSE
TO JIM ELLEDGE, WHO MADE WRITING FUN AGAIN.
FOREWORD
A jerkwater is a train not running on the main line. For those who know me, it’s quite an accurate description of how I’ve tended to approach life. Either that or they just like using the word jerk. In any case, I feel a few words of explanation are necessary to help in negotiating the track ahead.
From my earliest memories, I’ve always been fascinated with geography and maps. I couldn’t conceive of doing anything with my life that wasn’t in some way connected with it. Large quantities of time and vast sums of money were spent earning a degree in the subject. Thing is, all the education failed to satisfy an inner desire to explore and draw maps of where I had been. The real world is mapped with exacting boundaries with not much use for imagination. I always remember looking at antique maps of the world where segments along the edges were labeled as unknown. Cartographers of the time would draw ornate graphics of mythical creatures residing at the edges of the known world to provide dramatic explanations of what lay beyond. While the physical realm has very little left that can be considered unexplored, there are still vast stretches of uncharted real estate which exist in the minds of everyone.
Most of these places remain eternally foreign.
What keeps many people from going down these unexplored ways is the fear of the unfamiliar. While some thrive on the adventure of new places, others remain content with the comfortable routines of everyday life. And while maps are helpful in knowing where one is going, the individual journey becomes as unique as the traveler who takes it. Different places along the way take on meanings which cannot be applied to others following behind.
The true adventure lies on the back roads or the slice of local color becoming more noteworthy than the original destination. It is impossible to ever map all the possible points of interest. Some just aren’t interesting to others while some just disappear without a trace into the backdrop. I like to think that there is still a part of me looking at the world much like I did when I was five years old; wondering at every turn where that road went to, and what did things look like from there.
Jerkwater Freight is a journey through the mind. The destination is not one reached quickly. Along the way there are pauses to reflect on the route taken and to pick-up boxcars left on sidings up and down the line.
I’ve gone down these roads before. Let me tell you where I’ve been…
JERKWATER FREIGHT
Do not lament the journeyman
traveling place to place
witnessing each sunrise over
a different horizon. But mourn
the lemmings idling on familiar
freeways aside static monuments
to mark their passage of time.
I spend my days on the jerkwater
freight between idleness and
self-absorption. Looking back
through a window but seeing
the reflection of a mirror instead.
Dreams and aspirations connect
like boxcars pushed and pulled
by red and green lights down
dimly lit tracks under the highway
into the night. Familiar figures
climb aboard expecting nothing
but seeing daylight someplace else.
MAPMAKER
My little girl walks into my office
holding in her hands a small present
for me. The fire on her head comes
from the spark in her eye. She taps
on the floor in her pajamas with feet.
I send her away with a smile and
some change that I dug from the bottom
of a pocket. Watching her scuff out
of the room, I don’t realize that the love
I gave her will only end up in the
belly of her pink ceramic pig.
My worn leather wallet falls out
as I recline in the chair at my desk. Picking
it up, I look at the stuff that I value: pieces
of plastic, the crisp paper cash, and the
picture of my wife when she was young.
I stare at the slightly faded image, bent
in the shape of the cartographer’s
derrière. This little girl is a face of two
dimensions. I have a copy that begs
for my attention. Daddy, I love you.
It never sounded quite as loud as it did
when she said it again. I looked up from
my wife as a five year old girl, and I saw
her eyes back in my doorway. The
mapmaker knows which way he should go.
PURPLE
The computer turned purple the other
day. No one knows why
it happened. They just stand by the water
cooler and wonder
out loud. The plastic cover came off
for the mustached man
who came to fix it. A crowd of workers
moved like curious
children and stood around the sick machine in silence. Inside
the computer, things looked the same. Wires attached and crossing each other like a delicate pattern in some expensive
fabric. The mustached man poked and prodded with a fancy tool
that looked like a Phillips screwdriver on
steroids. The machine
with its innards exposed sat lifeless on
Johnson’s desk. With one
flip of a switch, the electric blood flowed
back into the cold
metal mess. The faces of co-workers
peered anxiously at
the glow on the screen. Some excellent shades of purple appeared.
EASE THE PAIN
Night. The cover of darkness is the best disguise for a criminal. I hold a hate inside. It is a loathing that I have never felt before, nor do I wish to feel again. Intense, driving, gripping, anger. The darkness has a tendency to soothe the emotion. I pull the wiry black headphones to my ears and drown out the noise. The blues. Sometimes I wish I had more control. The night used to be my friend. I’ve had the best times of my life after the sun has set. I held a power over the night. It was mine to do with as I pleased. Now the night has the power over me. I can’t avoid the words. I hear them every night.
The towers. I call the towers home. One hundred and seventy nine apartments surround my own. I’m not a poor man. These are expensive residences. I’ve furnished my home with all of my treasures. I can see the river from my bedroom window. These apartments offer everything that a former major league pitcher needs to get on with his life. I’m a writer now. I did a little sports journalism after recovering from the injury, but that didn’t work out. So I just free-lance. But I’m not doing too well at that. There are only so many ways a pitcher can write about his craft. Maybe I need something else.
I used to control. I chose what happened. I was clever. I could have made a terrific catburglar. The night was my ally. Nobody was safe from me. They all knew. Every last one of them who wore the other colors. I couldn’t befriend them. I had to hate them. It was what made my night. It made the night mine. I made the papers. I was the news. Gold and silver, and leather, and wood…my treasures. My possessions.
I played for six years. The books say seven, but I don’t believe the books. Atlanta in 1977 and ‘78. Texas in 1979. Chicago in 1980 and ‘81. Cleveland in 1982. In the winter of 1982, December 13th to be precise, I was traded from Cleveland to Philadelphia. I wasn’t very happy in Cleveland. I won eight games. Eight lousy games. The whole team won only sixty-five. That stadium was something I can’t even begin to describe. The cold air rushing in off of Lake Erie. Ten thousand people in an eighty thousand seat stadium not giving a damn