Invisible Wounds of War: My Redemption
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Going to war is a life-changing experience. COL Smith-Tillery takes you on her journey through war, her battle with Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder and her final redemption through poetry and narrative. You are left with a feeling of hope, that for service members and veterans, there can be a life of joy after coming home.
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Invisible Wounds of War - COL(Ret.) Beverly Smith-Tillery
The Invisible Wounds of War
My Redemption
COL(Ret.) Beverly Smith-Tillery
St. Petersburg Press
All attempts have been made to preserve the stories of the events, locales and conversations contained in this collection as the author remembers them. The author reserves the right to have changed the names of individuals and places if necessary and may have changed some identifying characteristics and details such as physical properties, occupations and places of residence in order to maintain their anonymity.
Published by St. Petersburg Press
St. Petersburg, FL
www.stpetersburgpress.com
Copyright ©2020
All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, distributed, or transmitted in any form or by any means, including photocopying, recording or other electronic or mechanical methods, without the prior written permission of the publisher, except in the case of brief quotations embodied in critical reviews and certain other noncommercial uses permitted by copyright law. For permission requests contact St. Petersburg Press at www.stpetersburgpress.com.
Design and composition by St. Petersburg Press
Cover design by St. Petersburg Press and Pablo Guidi
Cover Photo Shame [Image 5 of 5], U.S. Army Reserve Photo by Sgt. Audrey Hayes
Print ISBN: 978-1-940300-15-3
eBook ISBN: 978-1-940300-16-0
First Edition
War may sometimes be a necessary evil. But no matter how necessary, it is always an evil, never a good. We will not learn how to live together in peace by killing each other’s children.
Jimmy Carter
Seeking to forget makes exile all the longer. The secret of redemption lies in remembrance.
Richard von Weizsacher
To the soldiers with whom I served.
To the soldiers who gave their lives to keep our country safe.
To the soldiers who came home but who fight the Invisible Wounds of War
.
To my sister Barbara who read every poem and made no judgements.
To my husband Mark who has been a pillar of support in my battle with PTSD.
Acknowledgments
This project could not have been completed without the help of many people. I will do my best to not slight anyone. If by chance, I miss a fellow traveler in my long journey with PTSD and in compiling this book, please know that I am eternally grateful for all the help I received. First, I would like to thank my wonderful friend, Mr. Robert Driver. We have become confidants over the last two years. His encouragement kept me going on many long days. Our lively phone conversations broke up the monotony of hours of writing. My deepest appreciation is offered to my team of Beta Readers. They include: my sister Barbara Gray, who used her years of experience writing technical manuals to correct my punctuation, grammar and run on sentences; my special friend Tracy Solomon, who by her encouragement and praise made me feel that I could indeed finish this task; and my strong and steady friend Don Jensen, who made me know that God truly wanted this book finished. I would also like to thank my nephew Jamie Gray for the third and final title for my book. The path to completion of this book has been stressful and exhausting, but I have had a special person leading me along the way. That person is Amy J. Cianci, my Project Manager, at The St. Petersburg Press. Thank you, Amy, for believing in this work and for all your hours of patient listening. Lastly, I would like to thank my husband Mark Tillery, who went to war with me, understood the mental anguish of my PTSD and stood by me through the roughest times. During the writing of this book, he ate a lot of canned soup and brought me cups of coffee so I could keep going. He is the reason I get up every morning and walk the long road of living with PTSD.
Contents
Abbreviations
Photo note
Introduction
Articles by Robert Driver
Journey to War
Poem - Journey to War
No Battle Line
Poem - No Battle Line
A Day in the Anesthesia Department at LRMC
Poem - A Day in the Anesthesia Department at LRMC
Dreams of LRMC
Poem - Dreams of LRMC
The Gaelic Soldier
Poem - The Gaelic Soldier
War in the Desert
Poem - War in the Desert
IED Blast in Iraq
Poem - I.E.D. Blast in Iraq
My Husband, My Hero
Poem - My Husband, My Hero
The Guilt of War
Poem - The Guilt of War
Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
Poem - Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
The Good Times to Remember
Poem - The Good Times to Remember
The Soldier's Wife
Poem - The Soldier’s Wife
Another Day at LRMC
Poem - Another Day at LRMC
The Puerto Rican Captain
Poem - The Puerto Rican Captain
A Single Combat Boot
Poem - A Single Combat Boot
The Life-Changing Toll of War
Poem - The Life-Changing Toll of War
The Taliban Sniper in Afghanistan
Poem - The Taliban Sniper in Afghanistan
A Veteran's Thoughts
Poem - A Veteran’s Thoughts
The Guilt of Promotion
Poem - The Guilt of Promotion
Christmas at LRMC
Poem - Christmas at LRMC
The Last Photo
Poem - The Last Photo
My Friend Laura, Nurse Anesthetist
Poem - My Friend Laura, Nurse Anesthetist
Nighttime and PTSD
Poem - Nighttime and PTSD
My Aussie Girl Soldier
Poem - My Aussie Girl Soldier
Living with PTSD and The Long, Long Road
Poem - Living with PTSD
Poem - The Long Long Road
National Veterans Creative Arts Festival
Veteran PTSD and Suicide
Resources for PTSD Treatment
Donation of Profits
About the Author
Abbreviations
(In order of appearance)
LRMC - Landstuhl Regional Medical Center is the largest US military hospital outside the continental United States. Located near Landstuhl, Germany, it serves as the nearest treatment