Struck Down But Not Destroyed - The Spiritual Biography of Clive Jackson
By Diane Morrison and Clive Jackson
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The harrowing story of a man brought to rock bottom again and again by abuse, mental illness, spiritual attack and his own wilful nature. A story of loss and alienation, of loved ones driven away and of chances squandered. Ultimately, however, a story of hope and grace, of dreams and visions; a testament to the unshakeable faithfulness of Jesus Christ and a witness to the fact that there is no pit so deep that He cannot reach into it and rescue.
The story of Clive Jackson - a man with an extraordinary God.
Diane Morrison
DIANE MORRISON has published and taught thirty graduate courses in the last twenty-oneyears. "Seven Lives: A Diva’s Story" is the author’s debut memoir. She is the founder of Diane Morrison Consulting and is a speaker, professor, life coach, and online gallery owner. An expert on the Enneagram, a personality study, she types herself as a positive, adventurous, risk-taker who has survived many difficult experiences in her lifetime. Diane and her husband Alex, both avid art collectors, live in a 100-year-old house in Colorado.
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Struck Down But Not Destroyed - The Spiritual Biography of Clive Jackson - Diane Morrison
Struck down but NOT Destroyed –
The Spiritual Biography of Clive Jackson
(as told to Diane Morrison)
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...persecuted but not forsaken; struck down but not destroyed; always carrying in the body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may be made visible...
(2 Corinthians 4:9-10 NRSV)
The Scripture quotations contained herein are from The New Revised Standard Version of the Bible, Anglicised Edition, copyright ©1989, 1995 by the Division of Christian Education of the National Council of the Churches of Christ in the United States of America, and are used by permission. All rights reserved
ISBN 978-1-326-88804-6
Original Design, Layout and Graphics by
Roger Hayman
© Clive D Jackson & Diane J Morrison
First Printed 2013
This edition distributed 2016
All rights reserved. This book or any portion thereof may not be reproduced or used in any manner whatsoever without the express written permission of the publisher except for the use of brief quotations.
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Contents
One: War Baby
Two: Counterattack
Three: Battlefield
Four: Ambush
Five: Captive in the Darkness
Six: Survival Rations
Seven: Peacekeeping
Eight: Epilogue
Nine: Combat Stress
One:
War Baby
It is night. Along a dark road in East Dulwich a man is walking, his stride purposeful. A small boy trails behind him. This place is strange to the boy; the two of them have come what seems to be a very long way and he is tired and hungry, but there’s nothing unusual in that – grubby as a street urchin, his bony limbs protrude from ill-fitting clothes, and his face is pinched and pale beneath his cap.
Despite the fact that the wartime blackout ended a year ago only a single streetlight glows, illuminating, as they pass beneath it, the bars of the dismantled cot the man carries under his arm. The boy’s eyesight is marred by a squint, and he sees the cot as floating strangely in mid-air, but nothing that has happened to him in the three years of his life has made much sense and very little of it has brought him any joy, so he walks on, head down, unquestioning and unexpectant.
Round the next corner, he is suddenly halted by a hand on the shoulder and a garden gate creaks as he is pushed through. Ahead, a door opens at once, as if those inside have been watching and listening, and the boy is ushered into the house and through a hallway, the sound of tense adult voices above his head.
In the kitchen, all he sees at first is a central table taller than he is, and then a man and a lady whose faces he knows smiling broadly at him – but what makes the biggest impression on him is the electric light, shining more brilliantly than any light he has ever known. The light that says ‘welcome home.’
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The young, Welsh girl called Joyce Hughes was not the first to succumb to the wartime charms of a US serviceman; not the first to find herself pregnant, nor the first to believe his promises that he would come back and take both her and their baby to make a life with him in America. This man, though, had a better excuse than many for not returning – his ship hit a mine and, along with everyone else on board, he was killed. Clive was born in St Giles Hospital, Camberwell, on the fourth of June 1946, and soon afterwards Joyce was living with another man called Tim in Somerleyton Road, Peckham. It is this house that her son remembers as his first home.
Clive has an unusually acute and accurate recollection of his childhood – perhaps in compensation for the dyslexia that makes it difficult for him to record or read anything – but his recollections of this very early time are understandably few and hazy. It seems likely, however, that Joyce was already suffering from the same bipolar disorder that has dogged Clive throughout his life. Caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain, the condition runs in families, and can be triggered by traumatic events, such as the death of someone close, or by physical, emotional or sexual abuse. Joyce was subject to most, perhaps all of these. After the awful loss of the father of her son, she had made an unfortunate choice of replacement partner in Tim.
Clive’s earliest memory is of crawling around in the back of the lorry that Tim drove. He also remembers his favourite toy – a squeaky barrel out of which the figure of a little man popped when it was squeezed – and trips to the park with Tim’s Alsatian dog, Rex, of whom he was very fond. Mostly, though, his impressions of life at Somerleyton Road are dark and unpleasant. Joyce simply could not understand figures and money, and often made mistakes with prices and change. When this happened, Tim would beat her. She had very little idea of how to care for a child, no one to turn to for help and was in all probability suffering from depression, a common adjunct of bipolar disorder and similarly misunderstood in the forties. The young Clive was frequently left caged in his cot in soiled clothes for long periods and rarely had enough to eat.
Somewhere towards the end of his third year, something so awful happened that he has blanked it from his mind ever since. He knows he was in his cot and dirty, he knows it involved a man – presumably Tim. Whether it involved assault, abuse or both he cannot say, but for the story of the rest of his time in that house he has to rely on second-hand tales told to him by his adoptive mother: there is a black hole in his own memory.
While all this was going on, George and Margaret Jackson were living in nearby East Dulwich, happily married for ten years but unable to have children of their own – a matter of great unhappiness for them. Margaret first met Joyce walking in the park with Clive and Rex, and the two women got into the habit of sitting on a bench and talking together. From the first it was very obvious to Margaret that all was far from well. Clive was lethargic, appallingly skinny and evidently much neglected and her heart, full with frustrated motherhood, ached to do something about it. As she saw Joyce’s own condition deteriorate, Margaret desperately wanted to rescue Clive and talked her husband into applying for an adoption.
Margaret and George Kitchener-Jackson, Clive’s adopted parents
Events were precipitated when something happened at Somerleyton Road that caused the authorities to intervene. Clive has never been able find out what – maybe it was the incident in his cot