Eros

By Steph Foster

NEVER BEFORE HAVE TWO SOULS SO DIFFERENT FALLEN IN LOVE
Seventeen-year-old Arial Cole is a foster child with few friends and no family. A near death experience brings her face-to-face with the one who knows her better than anyone else. Despite coming from different worlds, their spiritual connection cannot be denied. She will open his world to love. He will help her find God’s purpose for her life. Romantic and hopeful, this is a story about using the dark circumstances of your past to become a hero.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Lulu Publishing Services
• Release date: Aug 30, 2018
• ISBN: 9781483489834

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Chapter 1

I f I had known I would come face to face with death that morning, I would have stayed home and it would have been the worst decision of my life. Fortunately, I couldn’t see the future. What I would see that day would be nothing less than supernatural.

More tired than usual, I stood at the yellow safety line on the underground train platform, waiting for my morning commute to school. Perhaps that explained why I took so long to hear the yelling coming from my right. The commotion interrupted my daydreams.

Two men ran in my direction, one chasing the other. Before I had a chance to react, the first man was already running past me so close that the rush of wind blew my long hair around my face. He nearly completed his pass when his arm reached out to shove me.

I hadn’t been directly in his path and the push seemed more forceful than an accidental swinging arm. Maybe he shoved me in an attempt to distract his pursuer. Whatever his reason, I hadn’t expected it so it threw me off balance and I stumbled past the yellow line. I teetered for a moment, leaning toward the edge of the platform.

The second man ran past before I regained my balance. His body bumped my backpack, and that was all it took for me to lose my balance again. I realized with horror I was falling off the platform. My arms flailed, desperate for something to grab ahold of. Time slowed. My arms continued to flap as if I could fly myself out of this predicament. At that moment, I realized an express train was coming down the tracks.

My body had twisted backward as much as possible in mid-air to no avail. There was nothing more I could do. I wasn’t sure if the train would arrive before I completed my fall or after. Either way, I knew we would collide.

I squeezed my eyes shut, unwilling to watch the horror film before me. Death was coming for me and I was too afraid to face it. I would die a coward.

In the back of my mind, I registered that something touched my hand, but not until the wind of the train breezed past my face did I realize that something or someone yanked me backward. I turned my head away from the train before opening my eyes. While staring at the large hand that gripped mine, I froze. I wish I could say that I panicked from the near death experience but I couldn’t bring myself to focus on the danger I had just escaped. Instead, my eyes remained glued to the hand. I recognized it.

I didn’t realize it yet, but this hand holding mine on the train platform had just changed everything I understood about my past. About myself. About God.

My gaze trailed up his arm to his face. A face that remained unchanged since the last time I had seen it. But when, I couldn’t say. I stared at his eyes so pale blue and almost as clear as water. I searched my memory, trying to determine where I recognized him from. He stood statuesque. From the look on his face, he also recognized me.

He looked down at our clasped hands and back up to my face. I realized I should have let go of his hand by now. I gripped tighter, hoping to keep him here. A flicker of a smile crossed his face before he shook his head. He took a step backward, and I understood he was leaving. I had to stop him. I needed to know why he seemed so familiar but my brain failed to form a question.

Are you all right, dear? An older woman stood at my side. She stroked my arm as if calming a feral cat. I noticed my hand was empty. I had been squeezing his hand so hard and yet I didn’t feel him pull it free. His hand was gone and so was he.

Seeing my hand still in the air where my rescuer held it, I put my arms at my sides and scanned the crowd looking for him. Everyone stared at me, fear and shock on their faces. In my surprise at seeing the familiar man, I forgot I almost slammed face first into a train a few seconds ago. I gave myself a moment to take it all in. I was very fortunate that my brains were still in my head and not splattered on the side of the train.

That was a close call! You were so lucky that man got to you in time! Do you need to sit down? The woman herded me through the crowd to find a bench.

No, I’m okay, I found my voice. I need to go.

I gave her a small smile and ran up the stairs two at a time. On the sidewalk, I glanced around hoping to see him but he wasn’t there. It was as if he disappeared.

I walked a block until I found a bench. If I didn’t run back to the train, I would be late to school, but I didn’t care. On the bench, I pulled a notebook and pencil from my bag, and started sketching. Images of his face played in my mind while my pencil flew across the page. I wanted to make sure I had every detail on paper before I had time to question my memory.

Within minutes, the drawing resembled his bright eyes, perfect nose, strong jaw, and blond hair that was not too long but not too short. I was so glad that my years of drawing practice gave me the ability to capture my memory of his face so well. And yet, my skills could never do justice to the beauty and perfection that beamed from him. His image appeared beyond words so that even this crude pencil sketch of him gave me pause.

It felt like looking at a picture of a good friend. Someone I knew well and who cared for me. Someone I could trust. How did I know him?

I needed to see him again.

Chapter 2

L ater, I walked back to the underground train station, my sparse wardrobe not much protection from the unusually arctic fall day in Atlanta. I didn’t have enough money for gas, let alone a car, so I took the train to school and work.

I didn’t mind walking in the cold, taking the train, or even having to work after school. It was a small price to pay to be free from traditional foster care. When I turned seventeen, they gave me the opportunity to move out of my last foster home through the Independent Living Program. I shared an apartment with a roommate and received a board payment from the state to help me with living expenses. Because of this program, I made most of my own decisions, like how I spent my free time, what clothes I wore, and what food I ate. I understood that these were the kinds of decisions most teenagers fought with their parents about making for themselves. After years of being told what to do by judges, caseworkers, and foster parents who didn’t know me, I treasured the right to make these choices for myself.

My train ride to school wasn’t long, but it gave me enough time to think over all I needed to do this week, including paying my rent. The responsibility was often stressful, but I reminded myself that by my age my mother was taking care of herself and raising me. My mother fell victim to a sex trafficking organization. They lured her in as a teenager and she soon realized she was trapped. During her first six months, she became pregnant and somehow escaped. She was barely seventeen when she gave birth to Arial Charlotte Cole.

As a child I assumed my mother named me after the cartoon mermaid until my grandfather, Charlie, told me otherwise. He raised me after my mother was killed and told me she chose my name for the Hebrew meaning: strength, courage, lion of God. My middle name was a tribute to him. Unfortunately, he died of cancer when I was ten. With no known living relatives, I moved into my first foster home.

I glanced around the train car observing the different people who shared this space with me. I wondered how different their lives were from mine. To the average person, my childhood may have appeared tragic, but to the other foster children I spent the last seven years sharing homes with, I was very lucky. Most of my foster siblings experienced more trauma than most adults ever would. They carried horrific memories of abuse, neglect, and abandonment by their biological parents, or bios as we called them.

I had few negative memories of my years with my mother. In fact, only one tragic experience stood out: a night I hid in a dark closet listening to my mother’s cries. It was that flashback alone that haunted my dreams.

That one memory took up so much space in my mind I couldn’t imagine how other children who had many more traumatic memories coped. When I listened to the other stories post-trauma, I recognized how powerless I was. I often wished it was possible to fix the problems in this world but there was nothing I could do as just one small girl.

I left the train station and arrived just in time for my second class of the day. My high school was not the closest to my apartment but after years of revolving homes, parents, siblings, and schools, I didn’t want another school change. I made the commute when I moved. My address changed, but my teachers and school friends stayed consistent for three years.

My best friend, Darcy, sat next to me in the back of our second period writing a note on her notebook. She leaned it in my direction for me to read.

The new guy is HOT! You should talk to him.

I frowned and shook my head. She rolled her eyes at me. She had dated five different guys since our sophomore year and didn’t understand why I hadn’t been on a single date. I couldn’t explain why either. It’s not that no one had asked me out. I guess I was holding out for the perfect guy and I thought I’d recognize him as ‘the one’ the moment I saw him. As I sketched a pair of eyes in the margin of my paper, I wondered if I should give up on the fairytale before I ended up bitter and alone.

At lunch, I grabbed a bag of chips from a vending machine. Hailey, who I remembered from middle school, asked me to join her and her group of friends.

No thanks. I have a ton of homework. Maybe another time. I tried to be polite. She nodded and followed her friends to a table.

Darcy had a different lunch period, so I ate alone. I left the cafeteria and sat on a bench in the courtyard. The surrounding buildings protected me from the wind while the sun overhead kept me warm. I nibbled on my chips while I tried to read a chapter of my biology textbook. My mind kept returning to the train platform and the man. There was something about him I couldn’t put my finger on. It wasn’t a normal feeling of having seen him somewhere. Deep down I had an instinct that I really knew him.

The rest of my day breezed by and the homework assignments accumulated. I estimated the time each assignment would take, certain that after work, my commute, and my homework, I’d have no time left for sleep. I refused to ask my teachers for a free pass out of sympathy but I also needed to keep my hours at work to afford my bills. Perhaps doing homework on the train would help.

My bag always felt heavier as the day progressed even though I had added nothing. I stuffed it behind the counter at the coffee shop and put on my apron. I refilled cups and cleaned tables, keeping myself busy to pass the time quicker.

A few regulars came in including George, a college freshman studying law. He stopped by a few times every week. As always, he invited me to sit with him and, as always, I declined. He reminded me of a boy I shared a foster home with a few years ago. Even though the boy hadn’t been nice, I can’t say for sure that the resemblance was the only reason I avoided George. He smiled at me while he sipped his coffee and I wondered if he only came to the shop to see me. He must be interested in me but had been polite enough not to ask me out after I had declined his invitation to sit with him. Yet I hesitated to make friends with him.

Love at first sight was only fiction, so I understood I shouldn’t be waiting to experience a sudden spark when I met someone worth dating. I made a promise to myself that the next time George invited me to sit with him, I would accept. It was time to stop being such a loner.

While procrastinating on my plan to become more social, I spent my break in the back room rushing through my homework. I still had plenty left to do as I walked through the darkness to the train station.

My feet and back ached as I stepped into my apartment. The front door opened into the living room. To the left was a dated kitchen and undersized dining area separated by a bar. Opposite the front door was a hallway to a pair of bedrooms and bathrooms. I loved every inch of this space that belonged to me—even the stained carpet and leaky faucets.