it was never going to be okay
By Jaye Simpson
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it was never going to be okay is a collection of poetry and prose exploring the intimacies of understanding intergenerational trauma, Indigeneity and queerness, while addressing urban Indigenous diaspora and breaking down the limitations of sexual understanding as a trans woman. As a way to move from the linear timeline of healing and coming to terms with how trauma does not exist in subsequent happenings, it was never going to be okay tries to break down years of silence in simpson’s debut collection of poetry:
i am five
my sisters are saying boy
i do not know what the word means but—
i am bruised into knowing it: the blunt b,
the hollowness of the o, the blade of y
Jaye Simpson
jaye simpson is a Two-Spirit Oji-Cree person of the Buffalo Clan with roots in Sapotaweyak and Skownan Cree Nation who often writes about being queer in the child welfare system, as well as being queer and Indigenous. simpson’s work has been performed at the Canadian Festival of Spoken Word (2017) in Peterborough, and in Guelph with the Vancouver Slam Poetry 2018 Team. simpson has recently been named the Vancouver Champion for the Women of the World Poetry Slam and their work has been featured in Poetry Is Dead, This Magazine, PRISM international, SAD Mag, GUTS Magazine and Room. simpson resides on the unceded and ancestral territories of the xwməθkwəy̓əm (Musqueam), səlilwəta’Ɂɬ (Tsleil-Waututh) and Sḵwx̱wú7mesh (Squamish) First Nations peoples, currently and colonially known as Vancouver, BC.
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it was never going to be okay - Jaye Simpson
it was never going to be okay
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Title: It was never going to be okay / by jaye simpson.
Names: simpson, jaye, author.
Description: Poems.
Identifiers: Canadiana (print) 20200213679 | Canadiana (ebook) 20200213687 | ISBN 9780889713826 (softcover) | ISBN 9780889713833 (ebook)
Classification: LCC PS8637.I4863 I89 2020 | DDC C811/.6—dc23
For all the queer NDN foster kids out there.
Contents
One
sea glass 11
teeth & sharp bones (a dialogue) 14
boy 17
haunting (a poem in six parts) 20
00088614 26
her. (i.) 28
her. (ii.) 29
metal // biting down // i 30
Two
nogojiwanong // peterborough 33
the end of a friendship 36
inheritance 38
// 40
this woman//nookum 41
urban NDNs in the DTES 44
it is too late: 46
flinch 48
loving in the dark 49
head & heart & hands & health (a poem in four parts) 52
Three
fever 57
norman fucking rockwell! is lana del rey’s greatest album 58
bedroom hymns 60
in a city without seasons… 63
beast 66
decolonial pu$y 68
godzilla 70
r e d 72
beautiful monsters in uncanny valley 74
perennial love poem 76
ζήλια // jealousy 78
monstrous bodies 80
Four
the seven sacred ways of healing 83
o r a l i t y 86
healing//sacrifice//necessity 88
w a t e r w a y s 90
q u e e r / / r i t i o n 95
raven 98
about the ones i want to love 101
notes 106
acknowledgements 107
about the author 111
let me be clear: any love I find will be treason
– Hieu Minh Nguyen
I’ll sing to you until you sing back
– Leanne Betasamosake Simpson
One
sea glass
call me sea glass:
found after a dreamy hot day,
beachside stomach full of fruit,
skin kissed by the sun.
call me sea glass:
smooth around the edges
just the right amount of
opaque, clear & cloudy.
call me sea glass:
auntie loved it,
had me framed in mosaic
above her fireplace,
wind chimes
of me singing
through coastal wind.
call me sea glass:
because i once was sharp
broken tossed in
tumultuous tides
thrashed on barnacle- & coral-clad rock,
pitched on log after drunken sunset
witnessed by shifting bonfire light.
they hardly ever remember
i used to cut.
they forget
that in order to love me:
i had to break,
smashed apart.
i held poison,
dripped venom on flesh,
kissed on the lips
straight