Still Waters: Peter's Story: The Levander Brothers, #2
By Amanda Lewis
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They say still waters run deep...
...and there's certainly more to tall, blonde and dangerously handsome Peter Levander than meets the eye.
After a series of personal setbacks, Peter finds himself going through a midlife crisis.
For the entire 45 years of his existence, he's meticulously planned everything, only to watch it all fall apart right in front of him.
He's heartbroken, self-destructive, and on the verge of losing his job.
Nothing a few weeks of therapy and a feisty chef can't fix, right?
A follow-up novella to The Weight of Birds, Still Waters is the emotional continuation of the story readers everywhere fell in love with!
PLEASE NOTE: This novella is a direct sequel to The Weight of Birds and should be read in order. If not, certain parts of it won't make sense.
The Levander Brothers trilogy:
The Weight of Birds
Still Waters: Peter's Story
The Memory of Tears
Amanda Lewis
Amanda Lewis is an award-winning book editor and a perfectly adequate big-tree tracker. Born in Dublin, Ireland, she now divides her time between the internet and a small island in British Columbia, Canada. Tracking Giants is her first book. Visit her at amandalewis.org.
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Still Waters - Amanda Lewis
Chapter One
about two years later …
I knew the day I’d lost her. No, the moment. I can pinpoint exactly when the shift happened. In Berlin, in the airport. It was subtle, but I could feel the shift in the atmosphere around me. That little voice in the back of my head said, You need to seriously consider the consequences of your next words, or you might regret them forever.
She hadn’t even known what was about to happen. But I knew. I knew I was about to change her. She was eating apple strudel, lost in her food coma bliss. She was so cute when she got excited about whatever she was eating. Her nose was wrinkled up like a bunny’s, and her eyes sparkled before they rolled back in sheer delight. Why had I never told her that? How beautiful she was, how precious she was to me? The most mundane, ordinary things were so much better when she was involved in them.
I had to break the news to her while she was mesmerized by the warm, flaky pastry. I’d been called away for work, to Copenhagen. Not Gothenburg, like we’d planned. She’d be alone with my brother for a week. A week with a stranger in a strange land. If the roles were reversed, I would’ve probably had a panic attack. I can’t live a life unplanned.
A whole week with Mattias could only result in disaster for me. Mattias was the fun one, the charming one. He’d never met a stranger, or an adversary, that he couldn’t win over in a matter of minutes. I was the serious one, the professional one, the one who’d always been unable to bend and flow with change.
The last thing I wanted to do was leave her alone with Mattias, leave her alone at all. She’d already lost so much when her life had derailed, experienced pain far beyond what I’d imagined. I’d never leave her on purpose, yet I did, for work of all things. Idiot.
She’d bloomed right before my eyes, the most sacred of treasures and beautiful sights to see. The way she’d found herself, grown to stand on her own two feet. I tried to assist her from a distance, getting a steady stream of professionals into her gallery to get her noticed and retain her independence. I’d given her space to find her footing while assuring her I was there for her. Too much space? Not enough? It hadn’t been enough. At the end, I hadn’t been enough.
I made it through the wedding, just barely. After Cecelia and Mattias left to do what married couples do, I had eaten twelve hot dogs from Roger’s vendor friends to drown my sorrows, complete with all the toppings. I puked out every single one within a few hours. But I was there for her. I was determined to be there for her. It wasn’t about me, or Mattias at that point. It was all for her. He was the better man. He won her fair and square. I lost.
He was there for her, complimenting her in ways I never thought possible. I knew it the moment I picked her up at his house, after the week was over. They were melded together, even on opposite sides of the room. I tried to ignore it, pretend I hadn’t watched my little brother’s reactions for years, but I knew. I saw him trying to stifle the delight in his eyes when he looked at her. He wouldn’t have betrayed me on purpose, but he was changed. So was she. It was over for us, but still I kept on.
I lost the love of my life. And then there was Gregory Charles. He should’ve been mine. I should’ve talked about God more. I knew faith was important to her, and I knew we had similar beliefs. Why didn’t I just tell her? Something that could’ve bonded us closer? Why had I been so stupid for so long?
Then she was pregnant again, with Ellison Jayne, Ellie for short. A bright and happy girl, with golden curls just like Cecelia’s. She’s only a year old now but she always looks at me like I’m her favorite person in the whole world.
It still didn’t feel real until last month, and then I lost it. She showed up at my apartment, toddler Charlie clinging to her leg, Ellie slung onto her opposite hip. She wanted to tell me the happy news in person; she was three months pregnant with her third baby. Three children, none of which were mine. My brother is the father of the family I wanted, because I wasn’t man enough … Enough … I wasn’t …
The bottle rolled from Peter’s grasp, shattering upon contact with the floor. He was temporarily jarred from his drunken stupor by the sound, long enough to pull the comforter over his head to block out the blinding light of the morning sun.
What seemed like seconds later, but which was actually the next day, he was awakened by the ringing of his cellphone.
Helllllllooo,
he faintly growled, unaware if he’d actually hit the answer button or not.
Peter? Peter, are you there? It’s Mark from Contemporary.
Whaaaa … aaaaywant?
You’ve got everyone at work talking. Look, I don’t know what you’ve gotten yourself into, but you’ve got exactly today to wrap it up and get back to work before you’re fired. Do you hear me? If you’d just come down here and talk to Petrov instead of ghosting the whole museum, I’m sure she’d be willing to work with you through whatever’s going on.
Whaaat day …
"What day is it? Peter, good grief. It’s Sunday morning. I’m trying to do you a professional courtesy, friend to friend. You’d better be at work tomorrow and you’d better have a great excuse for your behavior this past month. You’ve missed two weeks and called out sick the other two weeks. If you weren’t previously so upstanding and outstanding at your job, you’d have been fired by now. They’ve written you off as needing personal time but you’ve got to yank a