The Guilty Wife: A gripping addictive psychological suspense thriller with a twist you won’t see coming

By Nina Manning

'Heart-stopping, pacy and tension filled. Highly recommended.' Claire Allan, USA Today Bestseller 'A must read! My mind is blown.' 5* Reader Review
One woman's past could cost her everything...

Frankie Keegan is struggling.While she tries to make strides in her career, life at home is slowly unravelling as she is haunted by the secrets of her past.

Someone else remembers...
As the dark nights draw in, the anniversary of the loss of her brother looms and Frankie is drawn back to the memories of that fateful night 20 years previously. As she descends into a guilt-ridden state, she begins to suspect that someone else is also remembering that night and they are determined to terrify her...

Can she confront her past before it's too late?

From the international bestselling author of The Daughter In Law, a gripping psychological thriller about family, secrecy and grief - with a twist you won't see coming. Perfect for fans of K L Slater, Shalini Boland and Lisa Jewell.

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'A dark and twisty thriller that does not disappoint'

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Highly recommended for dark psychological thriller fans'

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'I really enjoyed this story! This is a first for me by this author but, definitely worth a read!'

'I was sucked in and my heart was in my throat about 70% into the book then BAM! That twist! I never saw it coming and it veered into a whole different direction than I thought it would! Definitely recommend and I'm definitely going to check out more from this author!'

'Her Darkest Fear tricked me. It has some fantastic red herrings and you’re going to be left thinking you’ve figured it all out but I can promise...you haven’t!'

Praise for Nina Manning:

'Compelling and claustrophobic, Nina is an exciting new voice and definitely one to watch' Phoebe Morgan, author of The Girl Next Door

'Chilling and creepy. An atmospheric and addictive debut.' Diane Jeffrey, author of The Guilty Mother

'Totally addictive. I couldn't put it down!' Darren O'Sullivan, author of Closer Than You Think

'A claustrophobic, nail-biting thriller that draws you in and doesn't let go.' Naomi Joy, author of The Liars

‘Clever, emotionally draining and totally gripping. I absolutely loved this book!’ D E White, author of The Forgotten Child

• Language: English
• Publisher: Boldwood Books
• Release date: Mar 26, 2020
• ISBN: 9781838891923

Nina Manning

Nina Manning studied psychology and was a restaurant-owner and private chef (including to members of the royal family). She is the founder and co-host of Sniffing The Pages, a book review podcast. Her debut psychological thriller, The Daughter in Law, was a bestseller in the UK, US, Australia and Canada. She lives in Scotland

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PROLOGUE

I stood at the top of the stairs and held my breath as my anxiety spiked and my heart pounded in my throat. But I could no longer hear the noise that had drawn me there. As I stood, my foot perched ready to take the first step, I wondered if perhaps my mind was playing tricks on me. Maybe the events of the last few days had finally caught up with me. But faces were hovering in front of me. Those people I had trusted. And those who I had hurt.

All those years ago I was trying so hard to make a difference in any way I could. But I was young. And I was foolish. I knew the past would never be able to bury itself, and I had not been able to rest for twenty years because the horrors of that day would stay with me until I took my final breath.

But now it was time to face the past head on. I tightened my grip on my weapon and began the descent to the kitchen. I knew I was now in grave danger. I knew that I had to protect my children and face the person who had found their way into my home.

1

JULY 1998

I slumped in the corner of the pub as the Barenaked Ladies’ ‘One Week’ pounded out of the speaker right above me. I leaned my head against the wall. The landlord had rung for last orders twenty minutes ago and had cruelly put the house lights on. The pub was still rammed full of punters, all soaking up the last precious minutes of the atmosphere, knowing there was nowhere better to be than here, right now.

I looked round at the motley crew of faces that surrounded me; friends I had known for a few years and who were my whole world. We were an odd bunch, brought together by the same sense of humour and the same hopeful outlook on life. The local pub, the Chambers, was where we all began to frequent when the park just didn’t offer the same appeal anymore. The landlord and bouncer turned a blind eye to our age and we became part of the furniture. But we weren’t lager louts. On the whole, we had always behaved ourselves.

I was just sixteen. I was liked by everyone, especially by all the lads – Minty, Dave, and of course my brother, Kiefer, who always had one eye on me, always checking. He was nearly four years older than me, just passed his driving test that summer. His responsibility for me was by choice; the lack of interest our parents paid to us created some innate paternal protection on his part, meaning I was always in the back of his mind. Is Frankie okay? Who’s with Frankie? Is Frankie getting home okay? I always felt an aura of protection around me that I took for granted; my brother, the protector.

I had nudged myself right up against the corner of the booth, ready to fall asleep but too tired to make a move to walk the ten minutes home by myself, knowing Kiefer would be spending the night at Reese’s folks’ place.

‘Alright, Francesca’ came a voice. There was only one person who had taken to calling me by my full name recently. I looked up and suddenly the room, which had been stark and bright, became rosier and hazier round the edges. A smile exploded across my face and I felt every part inside my body light up as well. I sat up and focused on the familiar sight of Todd in front of me. He had been on the other side of the pub most of the night. He was older than me, like most of the crew here. He was even older than Kiefer by a couple of years and I really liked the feeling that a bloke who wasn’t my brother took an interest in me. I knew him as Martha’s older brother, a girl I knew from the pub, and he had always known me as Kiefer’s little sister. But since I had turned sixteen, I had been placed in a different light as the lads had started looking at me with a glint in their eye. As if only now I had something extra to offer.

Todd pulled out a bag of tobacco and rizla papers.

I knew he would roll one for me.

Todd had long messy straw-like hair, and a fuzzy beard. It suited him, and I liked it. He wore green army combat trousers and Timberland boots. His skin was permanently tanned from the snowboarding trips his parents took him on over the winter. Last year me and my best mate, Nancy, were really into making friendship bracelets and I noticed how he still wore the three, which were now grubby and frayed, that I had given him, making my heart swell every time I saw them.

I knew that Todd had just got back from Glastonbury, where they had managed to jump the gates. I was quietly envious as I had listened to him at the bar casually boasting about seeing the Chemical Brothers and Blur and how he bumped into Robbie Williams. He had turned to me and quietly said: ‘He was dressed like a chav and was acting like a right wanker.’ And I had smiled, privileged to be the only receiver of that information.

‘You’ll have to come with me next year to a few big festivals, reckon you’re old enough,’ he said now with a small smile as his tongue slipped out under his hairy top lip and licked the top of the rizla paper.

I nodded in agreement, even though I wasn’t sure how I felt about being alone with Todd away from the others. How would he feel if he just saw the rawness of me away from the safety net of our group?

The barmaid came over and collected the empty glasses from the table, clinking four in one hand at once.

‘One more for the road!’ shouted Martha, who had just arrived and had somehow sneaked herself in past last orders and was now chucking money at the juke box. She chose Mousse T., ‘Horny’, and the song blared through the speakers. Martha started dropping some choice moves and I watched with amusement as she moved around the pool table, causing a ripple of interest from the lads. I looked across the pub and saw that the bar staff had started dancing as they cleared and washed glasses. I even noticed Todd’s foot tapping under the table and I felt a wave of affection for him.

I could see Kiefer stood on the corner of the bar with Reese and her friends; every now and then he would shoot me a glance. Dave, Minty, Nancy and a lad I didn’t know were deep into a game of doubles at the pool table. Occasionally I would hear Nancy whoop with joy as she or Minty hit a pocket.

Even with the stark lights of the pub revealing the cracks in the walls and those punters who had had one too many and were looking the worse for wear, it was the only place I wanted to be. Our group was the best. The peak of Cool Britannia, Labour in power, everything felt right and good.

But little did I know that I should have appreciated those times more because in just a few months’ time our lives would be completely altered forever.

2

NOW

I could feel a dull buzz in my head, and my mouth was a little dry. I had been feeling a bit stressed about the interview last night, so at least I had that excuse, this time, for another night of drinking alone. I didn’t let on to Damian in the morning, though. He had gone to bed early, having fallen asleep reading to Pixie.

The last bottle of wine kept creeping into my mind and threatening to ruin the morning. But I wasn’t going to let it. I was made of sterner stuff and I had been through worse.

I had entered the office suite on the fifth floor where Bliss was situated. It was an opulent building in the city centre and I entered with the firm intention of getting the job I was about to be interviewed for. But I had arrived feeling jittery and I was struggling to shake off the sensation. I could have put it down to nervous energy, because I was about to meet Mason Valentine, one of the most renowned businessmen in town. But it felt like more than that. I kept thinking about the corner of Bridgewater Way which I passed to get here. I had tried not to look but I had rubber-necked the whole way and I couldn’t deny I was hoping to see a glimpse of the person from my past. The memories were flooding in fast and I needed to focus on my interview.

I looked out of the window and saw the sun was already falling low in the sky. It was only just after 3 p.m. and in a few weeks’ time it would be starting to get dark at this time. Then the hardest day of the year would be upon me once more. Only this year it would be even worse, signifying twenty years of loss. He would have been forty this year. I blinked back the tears that seemed to appear from nowhere and distracted myself by wandering over to the water cooler and filling up a plastic cup. I took a long drink and sat back down.

Thoughts of the journey here filtered through my mind and I tried to push them away. I needed to focus on the impending interview. But flashes of a sturdy figure kept entering my mind’s eye. The face of the person I had never been able to truly forget about. He was a part of my past. Yet here he was, in my present, hiding in the shadows; pulling me back to that fateful night. I had known he was residing close to the Bliss offices. I had always avoided the area when I could. Until now. I wanted this job more than anything, but to take the job would mean facing the past. And maybe facing him.

I stole a glance at the receptionist. She was typing at a steady pace and every time the phone rang, with a tone that was set to an almost inaudible level, she answered in a low monotone voice.

I had checked in with her fifteen minutes ago and now I tried to catch her eye to gauge if I might be going in soon. As she finished the last call she looked up and gave me a sympathetic smile. I wondered what she thought of me. Did she see a woman in her late thirties trying hard to hold it together? I played with a stray piece of cotton on the edge of my suit jacket; already I was regretting wearing something that now seemed more fitting for a funeral as I looked at the receptionist in her tiny Zara jumpsuit and gold stage jewellery. She looked every inch the twenty-two year old woman I would love to model myself on for a Saturday night out in town. If I ever went out on a Saturday night. I couldn’t remember the last time I had a good night out, the sort of night where I wanted to cry with happiness because I was purely living in the moment. Instead, I just let the alcohol find its way into the home and I would often find myself drinking alone long after Damian had gone to bed.

There was a time when I loved my life. When I felt untouchable, invincible. I didn’t care about what I did. I would get drunk, pass out somewhere and not care about my safety. Now I was scared of everything; of buses coming too close to the path where I walked with my kids, scared of the amount of unreadable ingredients in a shop-bought loaf of bread, scared of using deodorant for fear of inviting cancer into my pores. But most of all I feared losing touch with who I was. Which was why I was here today and allowing myself to feel judged by a receptionist who was born when I was nursing my first hangover.

I took a subtle look in my compact mirror. I had tied my dark brown hair back into a severe ponytail, and now, as the time was ticking on, I regretted doing it. I wanted to let it down, to feel the protection of it round my face.

I threw the compact back into my bag and began to play with my wedding ring, a rose gold band with sapphire green stones. It never seemed to sit straight, it always slid off to the left. As I sat, anxiously waiting, I twisted it back to the middle of my finger and wondered if the ring that never did quite fit was a representation of what Damian and I had become. I thought again about the person in the shadows and how they had once fitted so perfectly into my life.

‘Mrs Keegan, you can go in now. It’s Room Three, just round to the left there,’ the receptionist said and I smoothed down my suit and threw my bag over my shoulder.

‘Thanks.’ I glided past the oversized desk she was cocooned in and where an elaborate display of white and pink lilies was situated just to her right. They were usually my favourite flower but suddenly the scent of them in my nostrils was too overpowering and I felt my gut tighten with nerves.

I walked around the corner, stood outside the boardroom, and gave a firm knock on the heavy wooden door.

‘Come in.’

And I heard for the first time that deep modulated disembodied voice.

Him. The man who would change everything from that moment on.

28 October 1998

You didn’t cry out; it was so sudden. That I must be thankful for, they say.

It would have been quick, they say. But all I have thought about, since it happened, is those last moments we spent together. How as I lay trapped, we were so close, close enough that we could have been tiny foetuses encased inside a womb. Safe and warm. Close enough that I could feel your breath on my face as your body emptied itself of oxygen. I lay there. I held your hand as you took your last breath.

I hope you know that I held your hand.

3

NOW

After finding out there and then that I had been offered the job I went straight out into town and bought myself a whole new work wardrobe. To hell with the cost. I had just received a huge pay rise so I would give myself the dignity of looking decent when I turned up for my first day. I bypassed my usual favoured clothes shop and stepped into a boutique store just off the high street. I had walked past it a thousand times or more, always curious to know what it felt like to walk out with a bag full of clothes.

Half an hour later, as I strode out of the store laden with three square paper bags, I knew what that feeling was. Guilt. Peppered with a tiny amount of excitement to have new smart dresses, skirts and shirts hanging in my wardrobe.

I can’t say if it was him, Mason Valentine, who had spurred me on to want to dress differently. Perhaps it was the modern offices with relaxation pods in the common area or the subsidised lunches of organic quinoa and bang bang chicken. I can’t imagine that it would have anything to do with the ocean-blue eyes or that olive skin with just enough wrinkles to suggest he’d lived an interesting and fulfilling life so far. An older man? And one fifteen years my senior. That sort of thing had never done it for me.

This was my third job in as many years. I had stumbled into marketing a while ago and spent the past few years hopping from one job to another between having the children, always looking for that perfect opportunity. My last job allowed zero flexibility for things such as watching the kids in a nativity or seeing them off on their first school trip, so I had taken up the job hunting again.

I knew who Mason Valentine was, of course. I knew he was fifty-two and that he had singlehandedly built his own empire of several successful businesses and social enterprises. He was the sort of person people always knew, even if they hadn’t met him. I found it all extremely inspiring and a few months ago I had, without realising it, begun to align myself with him. I started by following his Instagram and Twitter accounts. I had no idea if he ran them personally or someone managed them for him. Then I began researching Bliss and the several charities he was a patron of. So it didn’t come as a surprise when the job spec for a New Product Developer came to me via an email from a local recruitment company.

I knew I didn’t have the exact experience, but it turns out Mason Valentine saw plenty of potential in me.

I shocked myself at how much I was taken aback when I first laid eyes on him in the flesh. I had seen him so many times posing next to other businesspeople on the back of a local magazine or on a social media site, or even sitting on his boat on his Instagram account, that it almost felt like meeting a celebrity.

I had entered the large conference-style office upon his command and was welcomed by the warmest of smiles as he sat at the head of the table.

If he knew that he had gained substantial status in this town, he neglected to show it. Instead he was charming and unaware, it seemed, of his own mystique and striking features. He was tall and slim, immaculately dressed in a grey suit that looked so soft that I felt an overwhelming desire to reach out and stroke it. Underneath he wore a white shirt with the collar unbuttoned. He had a smattering of salt and pepper stubble. His eyebrows cast down towards the middle and his forehead wrinkled; he rubbed his hand across his cheek as he looked down at my CV. It was a completely unconscious act that felt more intimate than it should have done under the circumstances. Then he looked up and shot me a smile that seem to come more through those ocean-blue eyes than anywhere else.

‘You’ve some great experience, Frankie.’

He ran his finger across the stubble on his top lip, leant his chin in his hand and looked at me; his head was tilted and a small smile crept across his lips. I felt an exquisite rush of excitement shoot through my belly.

But the most unexpected element of the interview was when I told Mason about losing my brother. I barely even spoke of it to my own husband. No one had been able to extract that sort of private information from me so quickly. Mason looked at me and said, ‘I can sense you have lost someone special.’ I felt my arms and shoulders erupt into goose bumps. I had unconsciously allowed more of myself to come out than I had intended. But I felt perfectly calm. Mason knew I had lost Kiefer and that was okay. What I didn’t tell him was that it was more complicated than that. That more lives had been taken and ruined that night, and it was all because of me.

4

NOW

I dumped the heavy shopping bags on the floor. Within seconds my arms were full again with a little body, his limbs wrapped round my waist and draping off my neck as my knees hit the floor.

‘Mummy.’ Maddox snuffled into my neck and then untangled himself from the grip that I hadn’t even realised I’d enforced upon him. ‘Come. And. See. What. I. Have. Built,’ Maddox said with the intensity of a wild-eyed three year old. I picked up the supermarket carrier bags and followed my son through into the kitchen.

Before I had even entered the room, I could sense what was seconds away, the dreaded after school chaos. My eyes fell upon the usual scene. Damian sat at the table with his iPad open and scrolling; toys, jumpers and school bags were strewn around the kitchen.

Pixie sat on the stool at the kitchen island, furiously writing on a large piece of card. Pens, coloured pencils and shavings adorned the space around her.

‘Mummy, I’m going to do a concert, I mean, um, I have been practicing with my guitar for weeks now and Daddy said I could, so can we do it?’

I shook my head with bewilderment, my mind suddenly in disarray as I took in the mess and tried to listen to Pixie at the same time. I placed the carrier bags down in the middle of the island. The sound brought Damian to and back into the room.

‘Hey.’ He gave me a tired smile that suggested he had found the last few hours of the day pretty hard. The familiar edgy feeling was creeping its way back into my system. The feeling that had been absent for the past few hours when I had been away from the house and from Damian. How, after so many years together, had I forgotten how to be around him?

‘A concert?’ I raised my eyes at my husband. He laid the iPad flat and clicked the screen to blank.

‘Apparently,’ he said, standing up, scraping the chair hard against the floor. I winced at the sound. Without noticing, he walked over to the kettle.

‘Tea?’

‘I bought this,’ I said, as I retrieved an expensive bottle of red wine from the top of the carrier bag.

‘Ah, celebrating or commiserating?’ he said flatly, pausing with one hand on the tap.

‘Depends how you look at it,’ I felt a wave of apprehension fall over me.

I knew either way it was never going to be great news for Damian. He was officially a computer technician but hadn’t worked for an actual company for years. He had managed to slowly retreat from the workforce, so subtly at first I barely noticed he had stopped taking on as much freelance work. Now he was the stay at home parent and had been since Pixie was little.

‘I got the job.’ I rushed out the words without any hint of emotion. It was the first time I had been offered a job on the spot.

I was constantly torn between the need and desire to be at home with my kids and my career. But I had got used to being away from them, and now the latter felt more natural. I knew feeling this way was wrong. But to be offered a new job with a bigger pay packet, more responsibilities and another step on the career ladder gave me the opportunity to smash through that glass ceiling, which most women at thirty-seven would kill for.

‘Wow.’ Damian looked at me, his eyes wide.

Was that excitement he was feigning? For the kids’ sake?

‘That’s great,’ he added.

I ignored his awkwardness at congratulating me. We both knew it was the most practical option while Damian decided what it was he needed to be doing, and the longer I stayed out of the house and at work, the better it was for all of us. In so many ways.

‘Better open the wine, then.’ Damian took the bottle and lifted two glasses out from the cupboard.

‘Did you get the job, Mummy?’ Pixie said with the high-pitched enthusiasm she had for most things in life.

‘Yes, darling, I did.’

Pixie jumped down from the stool and wrapped her arms around my waist. ‘That’s great, Mummy, well done. Let’s have a toast.’ She laughed at her own attempt to sound grown up and took a wine glass and filled it with apple juice from the fridge. Damian handed me a glass filled with the wine that I had deliberated over for twenty minutes in the supermarket.

‘Cheers.’ Pixie led the toast and Damian and I followed suit, allowing our eight year old daughter to smooth over one of the many cracks within our relationship.

‘Well done, Mummy,’ Damian chanted.

I waited to see if he would address me, give me that look that he charmed me with fifteen years ago; call me Frankie instead of Mummy. I gave it a few extra seconds before raising my own glass and extracted my best smile, mainly at Pixie who stood so eagerly with her glass poised.

‘Thank you, darling,’ I said, clinking her glass, and she giggled in that endearing awkward way before sipping her juice like she thought a proper grown up lady might. I looked over to Damian, my glass still raised, but his iPad was already on and his head was bent. The familiar look of intent back on his face. I looked around the kitchen with a heavy heart and took a large gulp of wine.

5

NOW

I played that memory of Mason over and over as I sat in the kitchen with just Maddox on a bleak Saturday afternoon, ready to start my new job on the Monday morning. It had been over two weeks since I had last seen him, and I was feeling that familiar fizzing in my stomach at the prospect of a new beginning. I needed it now more than anything. The darkness had already begun to seep into the shorter autumnal days. I could feel the weight of its presence growing closer every day. As the clocks would make their way back an hour, so would the darkness coat the afternoons an inky black. Then I would be thrust back to that time when I lost Kiefer.

The prospect of a new job was a welcome distraction. I had just over a week’s holiday left at my old job, so the manager had agreed on me finishing before the full month was out. I figured they were as keen to get rid of me as I was to leave.

But now I was trying to decide how to entertain a hyperactive three year old boy on a Saturday afternoon. Pixie was on a playdate down the road with her friend and Damian had ‘popped out’. One of his many talents, to disappear at the weekend when there was family life to deal with. He dropped Pixie at

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