Messages in December to Sailor

By L.R. Cangers

Two women, one from Sweden and the other from America, exchange messages on a kinky, fetish website.  They discuss a wide range of topics from politics to religion, from sex to sexuality and so on. Over time, their online friendship begins to impact their off line feelings for one another. How will the two handle these influxes of emotions especially when both are currently seeking outside relationships?

• Language: English
• Publisher: L.R. Cangers
• Release date: Dec 7, 2019
• ISBN: 9781393838944

L.R. Cangers

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Messages in December to Sailor

L.R. Cangers

Published by L.R. Cangers, 2019.

This is a work of fiction. Similarities to real people, places, or events are entirely coincidental.

MESSAGES IN DECEMBER TO SAILOR

First edition. December 7, 2019.

Copyright © 2019 L.R. Cangers.

Written by L.R. Cangers.

Table of Contents

Title Page

Copyright Page

Dedication

Messages in December to Sailor

About the Author

To the woman I fell for and whom I'll never see again. 

This book is mature due to themes not suited for anyone under 18 year of age. This book also contains strong languages and discussions some readers may find offensive. Reader discretion is advised!

The book, Messages in December to Sailor, was actually written two years ago. It is completely different than the norm regarding the genre I prefer to write for; in other words, this book has a focus on friendship and romance between the two and only characters within the book.

Messages in December to Sailor is written in a format simulating two people exchanging messages between one another online. So there are grammar mistakes, spelling mistakes, and syntax mistakes to make the characters more 'realistic'.

Enjoy!

Sailorsheart 28F slave 2y

Hi IamDecemberofUranus,

If you decide to visit Sweden and want some more specific info about the lesbian scene in Sweden and in particularly Stockholm, just ask and I will answer the best I can. If you go and want a guide or just meet up, no strings kind of thing, I’d be more than happy to do either or both - always fun to meet new people, if only for a moment or two.

Hopefully you are having a wonderful weekend.

Best regards,

Orgona

IamDecemberofUranus 30F Domme 2y

OMG that’s so cool. I plan to go to Sweden and Demark although I don’t know when just yet. If it weren’t for me talking to this one Swedish girl on here for almost two years, I would just be going to Denmark, but she opened me up to Sweden. I even can say Hur ma du? So Hur ma du? Although I’m sure I’ll survive with speaking Engish. =0

I never really had an desire to go to Europe besides for Denmark and now Sweden. I think I’ll make an trip there sometime next year once my Asia trip is over. I’d also like to make an movie while over there. Although I don’t know anything about the film industry except for Let the Right One In, and The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo. Do you know who Greta Garbo is? If not, you ought to look her up =)

I’d love to have an guide while there. Although I’ll have my other Swedish friend, she’s a little lost and she’s older than you. 32, I think. She ain’t got her shit together so although she’s an cool cat, it would be nice to be with someone a little more...mature lol You seem mature for your age but maybe the cats are giving off that impression. Cats will do that you know. ;)

Thank you, thank you, thank you for offering since I really like to travel but if I don’t have connections in an particular country then I won’t go visit.

I’m having an good weekend so far, and I hope you are too. =D

Sailorsheart 28F slave 2y

Jag mår bra, tack, hur mår du själv? Which, translated to English would be: I’m good, thank you, and how are you? The only thing to remark on is that you missed the R in mar/mår. Still understood what you meant however (would be hard not to understand though).

What is it that draws you to Denmark so much, if you do not mind me asking? Personally I think that there are a lot of things to do and places to visit in Europe, it is highly diverse when you look at it as a whole - but sadly, Europe has become Western Europe in most people’s minds (mine too), but central and eastern Europe has just as much to offer. Traveling within Europe is fairly cheap too. But I get that not everyone is interested in the same things. English only works perfectly well in both Denmark and Sweden. Summer is definitely the time to visit because people tend to be more friendly and easy to talk with then.

I don’t want to take up your time here if you had already decided to spend it with your friend. Although that is for you to decide, so the offer is still standing, I’d still be happy to give some recommendations of places to visit or things to see. Whenever someone calls me mature I think that I must be quite boring, but I get that fairly often so I suppose that I appear older than I am. Where in Asia are you going, if you do not mind me asking? (contemporary) Swedish cinema is fairly boring truth to be told. There are a couple of exceptions, Show me Love is a great movie in my opinion, it is sort of a coming to age movie so it might not be that appealing. Lilya 4-ever, is also great but not really a movie that makes you feel good or particularly cheerful afterwards - as it is about human trafficking and prostitution. Kiss Me is fairly good for a romantic-drama. Bron/broen a Danish-Swedish television show is great though. Danish movies are generally better than Swedish ones in my opinion. Sadly it seems that the only movies that received funding here was poorly written police/criminal movies. There are a couple of exceptions though. I do know who Greta Garbo was and I must say that I love her. Her and Ingrid Bergman I wish I could have seen their theatrical plays, but I am a little bit too young for that. I like older movies. But I am more into theatre than movies, which is probably why I enjoy older movies more than new ones - dialogue seemed to be more prevalent then. Do you have any favourite movie or play?

The first weekend in a while that I have actually managed to relax, so I have had a great weekend doing as little as possible, thank you for asking.

IamDecemberofUranus 30F Domme 2y

Oh wait I can also say ameriska-something ska; I ought to brush up on it. Although when I was looking over it, I was only able to read and write a bit so I know speaking would be horrible. I dread it. That’s why I don’t like speaking French. They made fun of me when I was little. I no longer like that country.

I don’t want to be closed off, and I want to have an open mind. Same with South America; I don’t fancy going there but I’d still like to visit Brazil some time.

The reason I want to visit Denmark is because of my favorite book called Number the Stars. I first read it when I was 11 in an accelerated reader program. I read that book so many times; it has to do with the WW2. Denmark is an small country and during that time they had an prince, and though they didn’t agree with Hitler, there was no way they would survive an war, so they didn’t fight.

What they did though, is they built an resistance. (My cheeks are getting cozy thinking about it. It makes me excited to speak about this book) This resistance helped saved thousands of Jews by transporting them to Sweden, an neutral country.

I became obsessed with all things Jewish and the Holocaust. I read as much as I could about the Jews and the Holocaust. The book also made me realized my sexuality. I really wanted the main character Annemarie to end up with Ellen, the Jew. They were both 12 at the time. I remember talking to an friend, saying I thought they were going to kiss at an time in the book. Of course there is no lesbianism in the book. I just got finished ordering some books from Amazon that I’m excited to read =) Nonetheless, Denmark is the location of my favorite book written by Lois Lowry. She also wrote The Giver which is an triology. But I only read the first book.

I saw Kiss Me and I didn’t know it was an Swedish movie lol and I watched it in Swedish; there were no subtitles. =/ It was okay...I never understood movies about girls who leave their men for an one time fling. How can one fall in love with someone so fast? =/ Makes no sense to me.

No, you’re very pretty in your picture; it’s those cats. They look like divas. You know how cats are though-that’s how they are. They’re big and fat and cute-I’m writing a lot.

I’ll say this. I’m glad you’re enjoying your weekend and doing nothing. Was it you love about Sweden, have you been to the US? Would you like to; we are an awesome country =p I’m not voting for anyone this year.

Have you seen the Danish movie that has that famous strap on scene? I forgot what its called but an woman is fucking her while the other is staring blankly in the TV screen. I wondered why they were doing that, and the woman fucking her-just stopped. I didn’t know if she cummed or not. I don’t know

Also that’s awesome you love theatre. So do I!! And more than movies too. I’ve seen and worked on numerous plays but I don’t want to take up your time. And don’t worry; I can totally have more than one Swedish friend and I can totally hang out with each of you =)

Sailorsheart 28F slave 2y

Good morning,

Although I suppose it is more like night in Austin right about now (unless you’re elsewhere right now).

Most Swedish people know English, if not all, some have some issues about just switching from Swedish to English though if they’re used to just talking in Swedish but you’ll do fine. If I don’t use Swedish for a while I tend to get stuck in English, usually happens when I have visits from abroad.

Maybe you should take a visit to Poland as well, see Auschwitz-Brikenau? I think that there are quite a few movies about the danish resistance, I know I’ve seen two at least but I only remember the name of one of them: Flame & Citron in English. Another movie you should see is Aimée & Jaguar. I love the fact that you read, so few people seems to do that now a-days, and it saddens me greatly. Are you still obsessed with all things Jewish and the holocaust? I’m part Jewish (well according to determination of it, I’m not part Jewish, I’m a Jew), on my mother’s lineage. It’s not really part of my identity though, not my mother’s either, more for my grandmother and her family though.

What I love about Sweden? Wow, that was a difficult question really, first of all it’s my home so I guess that is one reason. But there are a lot of things that I love with Sweden really. Nature is one thing, free education is another, state subsidised health care, the country is fairly accepting and progressive (on a sidenote though, right-wing racism has become increasingly worse the last couple of years - but that seems to be a global problem, unpleasant none the less and I shudder to think about the future in that regard). Strawberries too, of all the strawberries I’ve tasted I like swedish ones the best. What do you love about the USA?

I couldn’t tell why you anyone would leave someone else after the first romantic same sex notion, I’ve never had that dilemma as I’ve never had a boyfriend, but I guess it can be several reasons, either it’s because she was unfaithful, either it is because she realised she wasn’t heterosexual and not even bisexual (I don’t remember the figure at hand what the estimated number of homosexuals living as heterosexuals are, but they exist), just an overwhelming experience and now needs to process it but can’t if she’s in a relationship. There could probably be many more reasons for that I suppose. On the other hand, I don’t think I’ve ever seen a proper depiction of love in a movie, not entirely sure that it is possible.

Yes, they’re quite the divas actually. But adorable (all cats are adorable). At most I had 8 cats, but that was when I was acting as a sort of... surrogate home for some cats that didn’t have anywhere else to go so until they found new homes they stayed with me. Two is a lot easier. Do you have any cats yourself?

Truthfully, there is not that much that draws me to USA, the nature in certain places and MOMA in New York, but that is about it. That’s not to say that I wouldn’t go there if I had friends I wanted to visit there, but the country in itself doesn’t do all that much for me... could be that I’d change my mind if I had been there, like take London for instance, if it hadn’t been for the theatre scene there I would probably only have visited one time instead of going there almost every year (well that was before my grandmother died, we used to go there to see a play every year). I would have voted for Jill Stein if I could vote and I hope that Kshama Sawant will someday be running for president there. While not as bad over here as there, because truthfully our political leader does not go around causing global mayhem, but politics is as nonsensical here as it seems to be there. If you want to change something, grass roots movements is where the changes will be done. In my opinion, voting and electing candidates never gave us anything of value - labour movements, civil right’s movements, unions, strikes, that’s what brought about 8 hour working days, voting rights, equality, and so on and so forth. I don’t disregard politics at all, I think it has a place - but to vote for change? Maybe it is not possible to have organised movements anymore though, because compared to before - it seems so much more splintered now. I’m sorry, I tend to avoid politics because most people are not interested and I can go on rambling for ages about it.

I must have missed that movie actually, but maybe it was Nymphomaniac? Antichrist? Those are the only two Danish movies I know of that has some graphic sex in them. But I haven’t seen either of them so I don’t know at all. Do you like horror? If so, you should see Riget, also called The Kingdom in English. I think Stephen King made a continuation of it (Kingdom Hospital), haven’t seen that one though. It is a bizarre story that takes place at the main hospital in Copenhagen. It’s a tv-mini series.

I’ve been into theatre since I was a kid really, started in elementary school like the 4th grade, unfortunately I haven’t been able to perform much lately due to school, work and the union taking up quite a lot of my time. Did apply to a drama school here in Stockholm, three years in a row but I didn’t get accepted - got further every single time though, so I might do that in two years time as well. From what I’ve heard, no one got in their first times of applying, most get in their 3rd to 6th time, but now I’m only two years away from my master’s degree so I might as well do that and keep applying once I’m done and if I don’t get accepted at least I have a different foundation to stand on.

This feels a little bit scattered and I’m sorry about that, was just a little bit stressed when I wrote it.

IamDecemberofUranus 30F Domme 2y

I’m actually in China right now and won’t be back until the 17th this week. Do you prefer to talk in English or Swedish? And yes, I saw the movie Amee and Juagur-I don’t know if I spelled it right lol nonetheless, I did see it and it was okay...most lesbian movies are ’meh’. Most movies in general to me are pretty ’meh’ unless its an animation. There was one French lesbian movie I was thinking of seeing called Isabelle and Thesmine-based off the book. i probably spelled that wrong too. The book was written in the 1930’s, I think. It was really good. Extremely sexual though, but extremely good too. The movie was made in the 1960’s but I don’t know..I used to know how to say I don’t know in Swedish. Jag nu-nah, I forgot. I got all kinds of other languages going on as I think it. Je ne sais pas, yo no se. Jag....jag...jag....

I’m not so much obsessed with all things Jewish but I am obsessed with circumcision. When I learned about it in middle school through all those books I was reading, I realized that that is true servitude. To cut off an part of the body as an covenant-God nearly killed Moses and his son for still having their foreskin. A slave...an slave of God, to have that much power over someone even as an infant, with the circumcision that boy is automatically a slave to God. An French man on here told me some slaves do that for their mistresses including him; he got it done last year. I was amazed, impressed, and envious that she had such an dedicated slave. Sub-regardless, I don’t know what would be the equivalent of that of an female. When I was young circumcision was the image of servitude and it stuck with me. I was so dedicated to finding an Jewish boy in middle school. I had my friends ask around because I wanted that slave...of course I didn’t call them that then but to be owned-....

Are Syrian boys really committing that many rapes in Sweden? I asked my Swedish friend if she’s been raped by an Muslim girl yet and she says ’no, sadly not yet’. lol

The USA, I love it! It has so many cultures, and colors, and ethnic groups. We have problems, I know, but I can’t but think this will always be my home. Of course I will travel and live outside of the country when ever I choose for certain periods of time, but I must come back to the USA because it is my home. Texas most definitely is my home. I can imagine living outside the country and I have a few times but I can’t see myself living in any other state besides Texas. We have so much culture; like if you go to the back fields of Louisiana, you’ll meet black people who ONLY speak French. If you go to the back woods of north east Texas, you’ll meet people who ONLY speak German. Spanish, is an easy language to learn and almost everyone speaks it or can get by with it in Texas at least. Although its very diverse in the south, it’s pretty not diverse in the north ironically.

I’m aware of social issues but I’m not that aware of political issues unless its the economic aspect of it. So I wouldn’t mind you going on and on about politics at all; I’d love to learn something I don’t know. =D

I didn’t know Sweden also had crazy cat ladies =p. The most my family had was five dogs and three cats. Dogs: Blue who was black lab and German shepard. Sierra a mutt. Castle an terrior mix. Sydney, an shepard mix. And Tarus an pit bull; she was my favorite. She was the last one to pass away in 2012. I cried a lot. She died of heart warms; she was the only one who didn’t pass away naturally.

The cats were Serena, Sunshine, and Sailor-an tuxedo. She was the youngest and died the youngest too. She died at the age of eight last year. I had so much cat food left over from when I worked at Petco. I recently before I left sat out three unopened bags of cat food. Cat Chow, Merrick, and Nurto Max. Does Sweden not vote for anyone?

Horror....it depends...sometimes-sometimes not. I don’t watch a lot of live-action shows because I prefer cartoons or anime but I am excited for the new seasons of American Horror Story although last season was horrible but there was one scene I really enjoyed, but I won’t say it because it was quite graphic.

That’s awesome you love theatre so much! WIsh you the best of luck when applying. I feel like theatre is so popular everywhere but the USA except for Broadway of course. Do tell me of all the productions you go on to and work on. OOoooo I’d love to hear about them. I have yet to go to an theatre play where people have their phones out yet in movie theatres, it happens quite often that’s why I stopped going to movies in high school. What’s your favorite play? Also why are you so stressed? Well I hope you feel better. And if there are any grammar mistakes in this message, I apologize.

IamDecemberofUranus 30F Domme 2y http://xhamster.com/movies/629974/daisy_diamond_strap_on_scene.html

I found it in Danish first and then tried to find an English translation but nope-this was the best I could do. sigh

Sailorsheart 28F slave 2y

I don’t think I have a preference when it comes to language, but it would feel awkward to speak English if it was just me and a friend whom I know speaks Swedish, but it wouldn’t be a particularly good way of communicating if I were to speak Swedish infront of someone who doesn’t know Swedish, I might be ever so slightly better in Swedish than English but all in all I think it is pretty even between the two.

The female equivalent to that is Female Genital Mutilation/Cutting - where they completely remove the clitoris and/or clitoral prepuce, removing the labia minora and/or labia majora, or narrowing the orifice by sewing it together.

Not sure that I can answer that because, one I don’t know if they’re syrians or not and two, statistics revolving rape doesn’t really say that much. In 2005 we had almost twice the amount of rapes per 100.000 citizens than we did 2004 but that is because we lowered the requirements for what rape is, so more people commited actions that were never considered rape before, but after the laws changed they were now committing rape. But considering the fact that crime is generally higher amongst immigration due to living conditions and poverty, so chances are that there are more rapes. There has been an increase in sexual assault (which in this context would be things like groping and the like) in public baths most of which has been carried out by people of foreign descent and most likely asylum seekers. However, I don’t have a factual number. But if you consider the fact that there are nearly 200.000 asylum seekers you’re bound to get some idiots. Take 200.000 random people of any country and you’re bound to get some idiots and my guess is that they’d be around the same percentage of idiots.

Well, yes of course we vote - I meant that if I could vote in the US election I would have voted for Jill Stein. Jill Stein and Kshama Sawant are the only two american politicians that I can stand. There are a few Swedish politicians I can’t stand either so. There are about 8 different parties you can vote for - well that’s a lie cause there are many many more, but there are 8 that usually or always gets elected into the parliament. You need at least 5% of the votes to get into the parliament. There are usually two or three different parties that make up the government, because one party never gets enough votes to make up the government themselves. It’s the party with the most percentage of votes + other parties that makes up the government. The other parties gets mandates depending on how many votes they recieved, higher percentage of the overall votes the more mandates they get in the parliament.

Going to have to continue this some other time, cause I’ve got to head for my lectures. Reason I’m stressed is because I have a lot to do with full time lectures, part time work and the union.

IamDecemberofUranus 30F Domme 2y

I totally disagree; I don’t think female genital mutilation is the equivalent of male circumcision. The equivalent of an male being mutilated would be if his foreskin and head of his penis were cut off. An true female circumcision would be just the removal of the clitoral hood which in fact some women actually get done so as to improve their sex life. I don’t see FGM an as an equal to an male circumcision.

As for Sweden voting, I honestly hadn’t a clue.

IamDecemberofUranus 30F Domme 2y

Wait a minute, I just contradicted myself. There is an equivalent but I don’t consider it the FGM one.

IamDecemberofUranus 30F Domme 2y

I’m gonna tell you this because I don’t really know you and its easier to open up to people one doesn’t know too well but I understand your stress and your life burdens, although they may be different than mine. But I feel like I’m not black enough for a lot of the girls on here. And its an self conscious thought, and I don’t think I fit that image the girls seek on here. That’s fine; I don’t mind being outside the box and different, I’ve always been...different from the group. But it does get lonely.

Sailorsheart 28F slave 2y

I know I have a few things to reply to and hopefully I can do that tonight. Just wanted to reply briefly, partly because