To Paint the Wind
()
About this ebook
Hannah is an art teacher who has fled from a horrendous confrontation with the death of a colleague. She flees from Houndstooth Academy, taking her savage creativity with her.
Both women would agree that 'art is the soul made public' yet hide their truths from each other.
Read more from Patricia Young
Dreamcatchers Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsFrom the Book of Dogs Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsConversations with Samantha: Love Your Skin Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsThe Raj, the Rolls, and the Remorse: A Blighted Life, How Chance Turned It Around, yet Remorse Haunted Her All Her Life Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsConversations with Samantha: My Heart Matches Your Heart Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsIncubus Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratings
Related to To Paint the Wind
Related ebooks
Travelers: Nel Bently Books, #1 Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsCharlie, Forever and Ever Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsSecret Passages Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Beneath The Third Waterfall: A Novel Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsMagic Time Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsAll the White Spaces: A Novel Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5Blackmail Earth Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5A Midwinter's Masquerade Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsThat's Why The Lady is a Vamp and Other Quirky Comedy Tales: Quintessentially Quirky Tales, #3 Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsAll That Is Solid Melts Into Air Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsSecret Bread Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsWhite Fire Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsTwillyweed Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Girl who was me is Gone Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5The League of the Scarlet Pimpernel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Drago Tree Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsThe Proof of the Pudding Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsDreams and Shadows: A Novel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5A Modern Chronicle — Volume 03 Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsAway from Hannah's Castle Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsThe League of the Scarlet Pimpernel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Nipped in the Bud Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Venetian Blood: Murder in a Sensuous City Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsHomo Novus Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsThe League of the Scarlet Pimpernel Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsOdyssey of an Octopus Junkie: A Dysfunctional Love Story Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsSunrise with Sea Monster Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5Plan B: Volume III Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsEMPTY TREASURES Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsAmerican Cream: A Novel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5
General Fiction For You
A Man Called Ove: A Novel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Cloud Cuckoo Land: A Novel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Priory of the Orange Tree Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Covenant of Water (Oprah's Book Club) Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Life of Pi: A Novel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Fellowship Of The Ring: Being the First Part of The Lord of the Rings Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Silmarillion Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The City of Dreaming Books Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5The Lost Flowers of Alice Hart Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Dark Tower I: The Gunslinger Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Dante's Divine Comedy: Inferno Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Shantaram: A Novel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Ulysses: With linked Table of Contents Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Unhoneymooners Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Beartown: A Novel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Babel: Or the Necessity of Violence: An Arcane History of the Oxford Translators' Revolution Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Meditations: Complete and Unabridged Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Labyrinth of Dreaming Books: A Novel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Ocean at the End of the Lane: A Novel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Alchemist: A Graphic Novel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Jackal, Jackal: Tales of the Dark and Fantastic Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5The Second Life of Mirielle West: A Haunting Historical Novel Perfect for Book Clubs Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Recital of the Dark Verses Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Cabin at the End of the World: A Novel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Candy House: A Novel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5My Sister's Keeper: A Novel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5It Ends with Us: A Novel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Everything's Fine Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Terminal List: A Thriller Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Other Black Girl: A Novel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5
Related categories
Reviews for To Paint the Wind
0 ratings0 reviews
Book preview
To Paint the Wind - Patricia Young
© 2019 Patricia Young
Patricia Young has asserted her rights in accordance with the Copyright, Designs and Patents Act 1988 to be identified as the author of this work.
Published by patriciayoungbooks
First published and printed in 2019
First published in eBook format in 2019
ISBN: 9781912924714
(Printed edition: 9781090198372)
All rights reserved under International and Pan-American Copyright Conventions. By payment of the required fees, you have been granted the non-exclusive, non-transferable right to access and read the text of this e-book on-screen. No part of this text may be reproduced, transmitted, downloaded, decompiled, reverse-engineered, or stored in or introduced into any information storage and retrieval system, in any form or by any means, whether electronic or mechanical, now known or hereinafter invented, without the express written permission of the Publisher.
All names, characters, places, organisations, businesses and events are either the product of the author's imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental.
Injustice dogged her sleep with the surreal presence of vivid nightmares. It was no good engaging the quasi-reality of reason, it just entered like a bossy mentor with plenty of advice and no solutions. After three hours of meagre sleep, an intense beam of summer sun jolted her into preparation for the forthcoming discussion in the gymnasium between herself, Head of Arts at Houndstooth Academy, and Nick Hankin, Head of Sports. Hannah marched towards the gymnasium wearing a well-rehearsed expression of confidence, hoping to entice Nick from the dark corner into which he had been driven.
Hannah expected to find him at the desk, ready with his notes, instead he’d left a large sheet of white paper on which he’d scrawled ‘cancelled’ in thick black lettering. Close by, Nick hung from the wall bars with his neck broken and a pool of urine on the floor beneath. Stress and depression had finally bullied the life out of him and left his corpse suspended above it all.
Nick, Nick,
Hannah whispered in the brutal silence, but Nick was dead, beyond recall. There was nothing that could be done. Soon paramedics would cut him down and despatch him on a stretcher with his face covered by a blanket. The only discernible movement beneath it being his head, wobbling, detached at the end of a short column of fractured vertebrae.
She slowly took her evidence for Nick’s innocence and laid it on the desk like a bizarre eulogy. Overwhelmed, horror and nausea sent her fleeing through the swing doors into the corridor where she stood with her arms out, as if crucified, not to protect any entrants from the ghastly sight but to protect it from further degradation.
Out of the silence in the corridor came Francis Carey, like a clown bursting from a paper drum. The sly triumph of the ‘good morning’ smirk caused Hannah’s hand to shoot out, grab the girl’s hair and send her face first through the swing doors, circling across the gymnasium to land on her knees under Nicks corpse.
Who’s that?
Hannah demanded. Francis struggled to her feet, but her distress only served to make Hannah more disgusted so she raised her foot and kicked her. I said, who’s that?
The vulnerable torso of the fifteen-year-old did nothing to evoke pity so she shouted at the top of her voice and kicked her again. I said, who’s that?!
Mr Hankin,
Francis managed to gasp as she struggled to her feet again. Since she looked about to flee from the grim sight, Hannah grabbed her top by the neck and took to shaking her.
That’s right, it’s Mr Hankin. Say good morning, Mr Hankin. How are you today?
Hannah’s knee rose and the pupil groaned with pain as it thumped the base of her spine. Go on, say Good morning Mr Hankin.
Hannah tightened her grip on the neckline of Francis’s top and twisted it until she was barely able to breathe. You certainly succeeded in getting Mr Hankin suspended, didn’t you?
Hannah knew that something insidious was taking over her common sense. If she gave the fabric another twist she would never return from the inevitable course she was taking towards the murder of a child. She gave Francis one last thrust towards the hanged man and sent her flat to the floor, where she lay with her face in his urine, sobbing as if in painful supplication.
Hannah burst through the swing doors and bolted along the corridor pursued by a girl’s shrill screams and the fixed image of Nick Hankins suspended body. Soon there would be a collision with the Head, his hands out, running towards the gymnasium, as if to catch whatever catastrophe might lie ahead. For Hannah, gruelling police interviews lay ahead, charges of assault on a minor, the disgrace of a custodial sentence and the end of her career. The future echoed a fearful nothingness, whilst the present boomed ‘flee, run, go, go, go.’
*****
Six black plastic bags, randomly stuffed with clothes, bedding and art materials, bumped down the steps from Hannah’s flat to the yawning boot of her car. Thereafter, the bricks and mortar of suburban streets and passers-by congealed into one entity. Nothing seemed to come into focus other than the need to keep going. But where? It couldn’t be an advance into the future, so it had to be a retreat into the past. The future was vacuous, but the past was full of memories, islands of experience, stop off points where she could land and take off again. She had a bank account and a credit card, she would keep going indefinitely until the money ran out, or when the police caught up with her. At that point the past and present would collide and her future would be in the hands of others, police officers, court dignitaries, prison wardens. Her inner self would disintegrate under a hail of charges and her persona reassembled as ‘the accused.’ The one person who could speak in mitigation was hanging from a wall bar with his neck broken. Poor Nick, poor, poor, dear Nick.
She clenched the steering wheel, tears blurring the way ahead. Somebody overtaking her thumped the horn and shook his fist. If grief and shock reconfigured itself as a deity that grasped the steering wheel to send her crashing into oblivion, she wouldn’t have given a damn. The instinct to live nagged like a terrier at her heels. Keep going, keep going, island hop, land, take off, land, take off. ‘I’m going to St Benault to paint the wind, so fuck off,’ she mouthed at the fist shaker in the lane next to her, whose fists would have been better employed on the steering wheel.
Hannah was taking off for a Normandy beach, where a mum and a dad and two children ran over the sand as if to entreat the tide not to go out. The wind emerged like a spirit, a huge rainbow beach ball took off, kites fluttered, dipped and dived, sun sparkled in sandy rivulets. The eight-year-old flung out her arms to embrace the joy of it all and shouted, I’m going to paint the wind.
That must have been the day when the embryonic artist recognized that art was the soul made public.
*****
Heavy goods vehicles were the first to come bumping over the ferry’s ramp, lowered like a drawbridge, to discharge the titanic emissaries of free trade. Their drivers sat in pristine cabs delivering their global cargoes to the courts of imperious consumerism. They were followed by lesser vehicles, in size order, to escort them along Britain’s crisscrossing tarmac routes like a flotilla of tugs. At least that’s the way a child might perceive it.
The loading began into the huge self-contained world of the ferry, its agile staff securing vehicles with heavy chains. Hannah ascended the steep steps from the lower car deck to higher levels, escorted by safety precautions in French and English.
Above the digital commotion of gaming machines, she found a quiet lounge offering recliners and the comforting sensations of a pleasant journey. How bitter-sweet were these reminders of childhood holidays, haunted by the possibility that she would never see her family again. She would not, could not expect them to stand by her, not after the disgrace of what she’d done that morning. A teenage girl lay screaming, her blood streaming on the floor where she’d self-righteously thrown her, the victim of a major assault. She’d simply turned her back and flown from the scene. How could she expect anybody to excuse her? Teachers were supposed to be exemplars. But something conceived from flames and fury had flared up and consumed everything she was supposed to be. She looked back to the eight-year-old on a Normandy beach, as if at ashes, and knew she had killed the child within.
Hannah left the shores of her native land listening to details of weather and sea conditions ahead, the location of muster points and life jackets in the unlikely event of an emergency. Although the vessel rolled gently on the calm water of the harbour, the smell of fresh coffee and croissants made her feel nauseous. Anxious that she might vomit, she left the lounge for fresh air on deck. Looking back as the ferry left the port, the white cliffs of Dover impressed their chalky grandeur as if for the last time. How happily the child she’d once been had looked at them moving away thinking, ‘we’re off to France.’ It was more than likely that the next time she saw them