Oozing with Oodles of Positive Schizophrenia

By Eric Eliason

I have had a great many severe schizophrenic experiences over 20 years. It's interesting because I'm smart which goes along with it, I remember them well when you are supposed to remember them, and it's like having more than two brains because you've got your consciousness, your made up one, and the union of the two.

This book marks a compact description of such experiences that I believe any audience can enjoy. However schizophrenia is decidedly an adult thing for me.

• Language: English
• Publisher: BookBaby
• Release date: Jul 3, 2019
• ISBN: 9781543978469

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ISBN: 9781543978469

For classification purposes I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints which I will call LDS from this point on.

The purpose of the book is to help hard core schizophrenics like I have been identify their schizophrenia and to make sure that schizophrenics never get left to die by the hand of fascists or anyone.  I also want to encourage other people to remember their life to help everyone.

It has lasted from 1999 to this day and I am at least smartest in 200 which makes it interesting.  My working memory IQ is top in 2000; this book is full.

A further purpose is to describe great detail quickly.

I often describe events the way they were perceived.

I have tried to make it something that children can get into as well as adults, but schizophrenia is an adult thing.

The following is my history, and it really gets going at the Colony.

Table of Contents

General Intro

Preteen 79-92

High School 92-95

BYU 95-99

UCLA 99-00

First time in Mental Ward 99

Continuing UCLA until BYU 00

The Colony 00-01

Westwood 01

University Villa 01

Campus Plaza?

SLC 01-02

General Undergraduate 96-02

Meru and Raϵlian 02

Graduate 02-06

Mental Health System 07-12

Mission 04-05

Parents home 07

Long Mental Ward Situation 07-12

Raϵlian 05-15

Alpine House 12-15

Current Living Situation 15-19

Jobs

Politics

Don’t Remember When

Other Symptoms

General Epilogue

General Intro

I grew up in California, went to New Mexico one Summer for an internship at Los Alamos National Laboratory and spent the second half of my life in Utah.  I was born in the summer of 1979.  As a youth, my sisters would play tricks on me and for a while I was the only boy.  I liked the color yellow because light in my house looked yellow.  I almost died a lot.  I got great grades and wanted to do something great but schizophrenia and only being so smart got in the way.  I am still very limited to this day and will tell you how hard it is.  I got a Bachelor’s and a Master’s degree in Math from BYU and was in pre-cybernetics at UCLA.  I spent most of my life as an LDS but played around with a lot of religions and was Raϵlian for quite a while.  I am 39 years old and have had paranoid schizophrenia for 20 years, along with other symptoms I list in the back of this book.

Preteen 79-92

In Kindergarten I made up M’joure from misspelling pi from the phonetical alphabet and I would later think that some such mix ups were part of national or family power.  I imagined a land of the very small and everything was interesting.

I wasn’t liked socially and I had trouble doing things like whistling or blowing up balloons.  I never had much knowledge of everyday skills, even to this day.  I wouldn’t say my thoughts were disorganized although they were simple because nobody provided me complexity enough for me to care.  Sometimes I made up stupid names for things.  From a young age, I thought that if I’d bend every joint of my body, I could control someone to make them try hard.  When I did it watching Jeopardy™ the person almost always seemed to get the question right.  I got great grades and was happy that I was smart.

Two times I had double vision and both times I had a priesthood blessing from the LDS Church and it was cured in a week.  I had to say I believed in Jesus Christ which I did.

One time I was dribbling a basketball on a brick wall and I fell off on my back.

I would say that I have a schizotypal personality where I don’t connect things right, but for the most part I am very smart in daily life anyhow.  Part of my brain doesn’t seem to communicate with another part right.

High School 92-95

In the phonetical alphabet, which I learned in 6th grade, my name Eric is 47.  I loved that number and saw it all the time, in addition to 53 which I thought was Eliason although it was actually 502.  I thought the great US pioneer migration was in 1847 and WWII ended in 1947.  I had Old Navy shoes which had 47 on them because they were founded in 1947.  I didn’t like 46.  Sometimes later I would think it was me vs. God.  I would also later think that Eric was the root of many other names that I controlled.

From a young age I tried to switch between an odd number and even number of conditions for each space I walked over with each step and tried to walk very straight anyway.  Later, on my mission, I was advised to add sound.  To this day, I pace back and forth all over the place but ignore the parity of conditions.

I had friends from many religions, Hindu, Buddhist, Muslim, Jewish, and they laughed at me when I told them I knew the LDS Church was true because of the Holy Ghost.  I would not go on a mission until I was 26 and try to leave BYU twice because of it.  They just said it was indigestion, which I later learned was stupid.

I liked the book, Godel, Escher, Bach: An eternal golden braid and when they mentioned the Ricecar at the end I thought it was me since it comes from Eric.

Despite education, I would sometimes think people could theoretically pregnant kissing and there was a seed.

BYU 95-99

I was tired of High School, didn’t want to die in an Earthquake and I was accepted a year early to BYU, so I went.

I saw a building in California where there was a lawyer and a Tarot reader office.  I assumed they worked together to