Driving Reigns: Velocity Book 4

By Bella Jeanisse

Leo Danger has never conformed to the norm and never plans to start.

Velocity’s drummer feels the pressure to settle down. But first, Leo needs to deal with a painful past and his undisclosed bisexuality. His vulnerability and mixed emotions are hidden behind a crude exterior. He’s allowed a rare few to see his true self. Then along comes Gabriela St Clair, who brings balance to Leo’s world.

Meanwhile, Victor Valentino hides his escalating feelings to protect Leo. His rock star lover treats him well, but no one outside their intimate circle knows the true nature of their fiery relationship. Now, Victor needs more. However, he refuses to risk ruining Leo’s career. When he meets Gabriela, he fears the worst.

Leo says he's only having fun, but does Victor want to share his man and give up the chance of love? Can Leo let go of the past for a happy future? Will Leo let himself fall for one of his lovers? Or will he accept that monogamy isn’t for everyone?

Warning: For those 18 and over only. May not be suitable for all readers. Be prepared to laugh, cry, scream and squirm in your chair.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Bella Jeanisse
• Release date: Apr 30, 2019
• ISBN: 9780463555446

Bella Jeanisse

Server tech by day, author by night, mom and grandma all the time. I'm always striving for something more.

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BELLA’S BOOKS

Velocity Series:

Rockin’ Rhythm – Ash’s book

Shredding Dreams – Ian’s book

Silver Strings – Bryce’s book

Driving Reigns – Leo’s book

COMPLETE

Triple Threat:

Reckless

Tragic Soul

Triple Threat

Triple Time

Rubbed Raw

Raw Reunion

Chasing Chad

Dual Desires

Desires Delivered

COMPLETE

Wicked End:

Wicked End

Passionate Needs

Sinful Needs

Fulfilling Needs

Prelude to a Wicked Wedding

Gasoline:

Gasoline

Persistent Urges

Evolving Urges

Forever Urges

Final Urges

COMPLETE

Silverblade:

Silverblade

Accidental Romance

In the works:

Forbidden Romance (Silverblade 3)

Hands of Fate

Mark of the Devil

Winter Winds

Wounded Hearts

Brass Monkey

Eternal Needs (Wicked End 6)

Erotic Tales:

Double Dominance

Insatiable Appetites Vol 1

PREFACE

Leo’s book is longer than the others in the series for several reasons: He wouldn’t shut up. His story could never be simple like anyone else’s. He refused to tell me for a long time if he preferred a male or female love interest. I had to wrap up the series since this is the last book. Oh, and Leo wouldn’t shut up! Yes, he got his way, but I forced him to compromise.

The story begins in the middle of the tour you read about in Bryce’s book. Some scenes take place within the same timeline, but you’ll see Leo’s actions instead. He began to question his life when his bandmates settled down one at a time. The first few chapters will tell you just how confused he is.

Leo has good reason for being the crude comedian of the group. His childhood could have ended much worse. Although his bandmates have hinted at his tragic past, he must be the one to explain it. Will he be able to get past it and find what he needs to truly satisfy him?

DEDICATION

During the writing of this book, a drumming legend was lost. Vinnie Paul was one of those musicians who everyone knew and loved. It freaked me out some since Chester Bennington died while writing Bryce’s book, and I mentioned Jimmy The Rev Sullivan (the A7X drummer we lost 10 years ago) in chapter six. For a while, I wondered if we’d lose someone every time I wrote a book. It’s an odd coincidence to say the least. Yes, it’s irrational, but many fears are.

My musical influences shifted some for this book, since Leo marches to the beat of a different drummer. Here’s some of them: I Prevail, Papa Roach, Nothing More, Linkin Park, Nickelback, Dragonforce, The Offspring, A Day to Remember, Blink 182, Green Day, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Through Fire and of course Avenged Sevenfold!

As you may already know, I have an incredible team of beta readers, pimpers, inspirationalists, artists, proofreaders and more. These ladies and sometimes gentlemen have gotten me through some serious shit! I couldn’t publish my books without you. Many of you have been with me for years. I appreciate you sticking by me. I love you all! Kathy, Sandy, Traci, Patricia, Donna, Sonia, LaDonna, Sarah, Stephanie, Doris, Stephanie, Lisa, Anita, Billy, Vincent, Amy, Ruby, Camillie, Frances, and Coralee.

Leo deals with heavy issues in his book, for example: abuse and his own sexuality. Some things are too big to handle on your own. That is not something to be ashamed of! Reach out to someone to talk to or even just lean on. Our past does not have to control us, no matter how much we change because of it.

MEET THE BAND

VELOCITY

Ash Taylor - Bass

Ian Tate - Lead Guitar

Bryce Cooper - Vocals/Rhythm Guitar

Leo Danger - Drums

CHAPTER ONE

What the fuck?

Leo Danger, drummer for Velocity, stared at the sleeping woman curled up at his front door. He rolled his eyes as he shook his head. Angel was a wreck. They’d connected years ago in group therapy because of their similar pasts. At that point, they had little in common.

The last time he’d brought her to a high-profile party, she humiliated him. To say the least, he wasn’t happy to see her. Without another word, he opened his front door and stepped over her.

When the door moved, Angel’s body fell inside, and it woke her instantly. Leo? You’re finally home?

Yeah, what’re you doing here?

As graceful as possible, she rose to her feet and followed him. I’ve been waiting for you. I heard you flew home, so I wanted to surprise you.

You surprised me. Now leave!

He wasn’t sure where home was for her that week. She couldn’t hold down a job, and she always had her hand out. Her sob stories usually got to him. They’d both struggled much of their teen years. He understood why it was hard for her to deal with life sober.

Do you have any coke? Angel opened the refrigerator and grabbed a beer.

Leo swiped the alcohol away and switched it to water. No I don’t, and that’s the last thing you need. Did I just say that? It was odd for him to be the responsible one.

"What I need is you." She fisted the front of his jeans and pulled his body to hers.

Startled, he only gaped at her while she undressed him. As always, she fell to her knees and sucked most of his long length down her throat. His eyes stayed on her head as it bobbed up and down. The pleasure was nice but as not intense as usual.

You’re too fucked up. He pushed her back by her forehead and walked to his bedroom, still naked. When she didn’t follow, he shouted, Get in here so I can get this over with! He stood next to the bed as he rolled a condom over his hard length.

She scrambled down the hallway, bumping into the wall several times, then fell onto the bed. I started birth control. You don’t need a condom.

Fuck no! No way in hell would he get stuck with her for a baby mama. Her expression said she was up to something. Fuck this. I can’t trust you.

He grabbed her by the arm and practically dragged her to the front door. Go home and sober up. He left her on the porch and turned the deadbolt. Fuckin’ crazy bitch.

When alone, Leo glanced around the room. He wasn’t sure what to do next. His body needed relief, but he didn’t want it to be from just anyone.

The past weeks of his band’s tour ran through his mind. He’d teased and tortured his bandmates with his behavior. Only some of his sexual advances had been a joke. His comments and actions toward Ash Taylor, his band’s bassist, had all been semi-serious.

He’d had many fantasies of fucking Ash. It was something he refused reveal to anyone. Should I really hook up with him? What about a threesome? Leo knew he could handle that. Would Ash actually share his girl?

That was a question for another day. Leo needed to get his shit together and fix his own love life, or lack thereof. He’d blocked his emotions for so long, he had no idea how to deal with the feelings of confusion within. For many years, he lived however he wanted to. His bandmates had been trying to tame him. Maybe it’s time?

As he shook his head, he strode to the master bathroom. A shower might clear my mind. Once under the cool spray, his hands pressed to the wall. The water ran over his back, soaking his long, blonde hair. His muscles were taut, which told him he was quite stressed. Guess I shouldn’t have thrown her out.

By the time he finished, he hadn’t worked anything out. Frustrated, he sat on his bed and called his closest friend, Victor Valentino. Hey, how’s my baby doing?

She’s fine. Vic smiled, then groaned when the playful pit bull jumped on him. Since Vic was between jobs as a personal assistant, he’d volunteered to watch over the large but sweet dog. She just nailed me in the balls. Other than that, we’ve been having a great time. I hope you don’t mind. I took her back to your place to run around the yard.

Leo laughed. Of course I don’t. This is her home.

He missed Brandy. Ash adopted the three-year-old dog as a young puppy. Then he found he was highly allergic. Leo fell in love with her at first sight. She was his pride and joy. He even posted pictures of her on his social media accounts.

We got home yesterday. Sorry I didn’t call. Crashed at Ian’s last night. Do you mind if I pick her up in a few? She always made Leo smile.

Although worried, Vic had learned not to ask Leo his location. Come on over. I’ll make dinner tonight. He watched Brandy walk around her bed a few feet away. I think she’s tired. We went running about an hour ago.

You’re the greatest uncle she ever had. Leo rarely brought her to his bandmates’ homes. Let me get dressed, then I’ll head over.

Are you naked? Vic licked his lips.

Leo couldn’t help but grin. Wet and naked.

Such a tease. Vic hoped Leo needed something more than just affection from his pet. I’ll see you soon.

With a growl, Leo ended the call. His mind spun with erotic memories. All of them involved Vic. They’d been lovers for six years. Over that period, they’d become quite close. It wasn’t the same as his bond with his bandmates, not that he wanted it to be.

Leo had known he was different by the time he’d reached high school. His traumatic childhood had something to do with that. However, he was sure not everyone admired both women and men. Out of fear, he hadn’t acted on his feelings for men until adulthood.

Velocity had just started out then, but other musicians invited them to plenty of parties. Usually, Leo had his choice of women. That night, he continually stared at a young man. When he built up the courage to say something, he received his first blowjob from a man. That hooked him.

The day he met Vic was another he wouldn’t forget. It still amazed him that his lover treated him like a man, not a rock star. Is that why I care so much about him? If only I understood my feelings.

*** ♫♪♫♪ ***

Six Years Ago…

Twenty-four-year-old Leo looked up at the camera and smiled. As always, he gave the lens a seductive expression. He worked very hard on his body, so he liked to show it off. It was his first naked shoot though. Not shy in the least, he leaned on a table and arched his back so his long erection jutted out further.

The photos wouldn’t be available to the general public as some of them were. That batch was for a private collector, who paid him four times his usual fee for exclusive rights to full frontal nudes.

At first, he’d been hesitant to do it. He worried the pictures might end up in the wrong hands. The photographer had suggested he just try a few naked poses to see how he felt. It took only two shots for him relax and enjoy it. His typical cockiness onstage translated well before the camera. After that, he gave in to the exhibitionist within whenever possible.

He had begun to model as a side job when Velocity was only an up and coming band. At that point, they were close to mainstream. He still did photoshoots, but only when personally requested.

Over that time, he’d done numerous calendars, stock photos, and even exclusive batches. It started one day at a festival after performing in only a pair of boxer briefs. Mario Lee, a well-known photographer, approached him. The request he pose for pay had boosted his confidence.

Because of his traumatic childhood and confusion about his sexuality, he’d developed low self-esteem at a young age. He had hoped the modeling job would change all that for him, and it had, to an extent. At his first shoot, he wore only a towel. It had taken him almost an hour to feel comfortable. Once they started, there was no stopping him.

A door opened, and Leo’s eyes drifted toward it. The man who walked in wore a business suit and seemed embarrassed he’d interrupted. Leo’s dick twitched. He wanted to run his fingers through the dark-haired beauty’s spiked locks.

Hey there. Leo turned just enough to show off his impressive length.

Eyes wide and focused on Leo’s equipment, the man approached. I’m sorry. I, uh… He couldn’t help but ogle the hot blonde who seemed relaxed fully nude in his presence. Um… I was… I have… His mind had gone blank.

Now that you’ve met my dick. Leo winked and offered his hand. I’m Leo, drummer and obviously sometimes a model.

Unable to form an appropriate response, the man managed, Yes, you are sexy as hell. He covered his mouth when he realized what he’d said. Oh my God!

Why thank you. Leo licked his lips and watched the man’s pants expand. Seems I’m doing my job right.

Victor, did you need something? Mario cocked an eyebrow at his new personal assistant. Or is this a social visit?

Leo wanted to yank Victor toward him, but he resisted. Visit anytime.

Oh, um, sorry. Victor nodded at Leo. You… well, you sort of startled me. You can call me Vic, or whatever else you’d like. His cheeks heated up. Is it hot in here? He opened the top button of his dress shirt.

Unperturbed, Leo replied, It could be. He clutched Vic’s hand and almost jumped back when he felt a spark.

Sorry, I seem to carry a lot of static electricity. Vic had no idea how to counter the embarrassing reaction. Maybe I should go.

Please don’t. Leo didn’t flirt with men around others, but he wanted Vic to see his interest.

Vic’s gaze drifted back to Leo’s dick. I guess I interrupted a naked photo shoot?

You did. Leo tipped Vic’s chin up. His voice lowered to a whisper. When I’m done, I’d like to get to know you. His green eyes met Vic’s brown ones.

Without a thought, Vic responded, Sure.

Mario cleared his throat. Do you have something for me, Victor?

I’m so sorry. Vic turned to his boss. I have the contract you asked for printed out. His gaze returned to Leo, who wore an impish grin. Do you want me to wait until you’re finished here?

Please. Mario knew if Vic left it would distract Leo.

Leo raked Vic with his eyes. "Yeah, please stay."

After the photo shoot, he and Vic went out for a drink. That turned into coffee at Vic’s place. At that point in Leo’s life, he hadn’t taken his trysts with men to the next level. He enjoyed giving and receiving oral sex, but there’d been no penetration. That trend was about to change.

When the sexual tension became out of control, Leo asked, Where’s your bedroom?

*** ♫♪♫♪ ***

Present Day…

Leo sighed as that night flashed through his mind again. When Vic had taken off his shirt, Leo’s jaw dropped. Beneath the sexy-ass suit was a bad boy in disguise. Tattoos covered his torso and back with full sleeves on each arm. He found both nipples pierced and upon closer inspection, noticed holes for lip and eyebrow piercings.

When they’d made it to bed, the pleasure sex with Vic gave Leo shocked him. The man took all Leo dished out and more. He was the perfect lover. Why don’t we see if we can make things work permanently? He frowned when he remembered why. Because I like pussy too much to give it up. If only Vic was bi.

CHAPTER TWO

Twenty minutes later, Leo parked his blue 2016 Ferrari 488 Spider in Vic’s driveway and stared out the windshield. Since they both lived in the heart of Riverview, Florida, the ride was short. It hadn’t helped him decide which way to take his life, not that it should have. He wanted something to lead him in a solid direction.

Resolved to keep the status quo, he climbed from the car and smiled at the sound of his fur baby barking. Before he made it to the path leading to the house, two paws slammed into his chest. He groaned but hugged Brandy anyway. Hi, girl. Yes, I’m home for a few days. Her tail whipped his legs as she forced her weight on him. You’re gonna knock me over.

Vic hurried over, laughing. She heard you coming down the block. You should see the scratches on the door from her trying to get to you.

Aw! I love you too. Leo let Brandy lick his neck and face. Was Uncle Vic good to you? Of course he was. After another minute, he pushed her down gently. The sun is annoying. Time to go inside, girl. When he and Vic headed to the front door, she followed.

Leo’s mouth turned up as he thought about the last time he’d seen Vic. Their relationship was more friendship than anything, yet they also had a passion that couldn’t be matched. He hoped that never ended, but he’d lost almost everything he had ever loved.

Go lay down. Leo smiled when Brandy did as told. That’s my girl.

Vic poked Leo’s side. "I missed you too."

Oh really? Leo’s dick came to life. His gaze lingered over Vic’s naked torso. Now that I have you to myself. He grabbed a handful of Vic’s hair and tilted his head up. Been a while.

Leo almost sighed when their lips met. He preferred men who were a bit shorter and thinner, so he felt somewhat superior. The two years Vic had on him never mattered. Filled with need, he pressed Vic to the wall and deepened the kiss. With a tug on Vic’s hair, he rubbed his growing shaft against him.

About to lose control, Leo pulled back. Bedroom, now! He didn’t want to risk being interrupted by Brandy.

Vic excitedly led the way to the master bedroom. The door closed behind him, then all of a sudden, Leo shoved him. Vic’s arms flailed as the bed came closer. He landed on his face with his legs off the mattress.

His dark eyes opened wide when Leo yanked off his shorts and underwear without a word. They were rough at times, but it wasn’t usually unexpected. What’s gotten into him?

Breath coming fast, Leo spread Vic’s cheeks and admired the tight puckered hole. He needed to calm down or he would hurt his lover. After a few more seconds of admiration, he reached into the nightstand drawer for a condom and lubricant.

Have you been with anyone else? Leo asked as he prepared Vic’s body for penetration.

Vic’s eyes closed as a finger breached his backdoor. No. A moan escaped his lips. No one else. He’d been too busy looking for work to seek out a new lover.

Good. Leo didn’t like to share. Although it made no sense, since they weren’t in a committed relationship. He donned a condom and spread lube over it. Who owns you? He growled and thrust his full length into Vic.

You do. Vic whimpered as his body adjusted to the thick invasion.

Whose ass is this? Leo thrust hard again.

Yours. Vic moaned while Leo twisted his hips just right. Any time you want it.

Leo grinned wickedly. Vic submitted to him most times. A few nights they had battled for control, but Leo never bottomed. That was a hard limit for him. He wasn’t even comfortable with anyone performing anal play on him, unless he was high.

He held Vic’s hips as he pumped. Some of his lovers couldn’t handle his size, but Vic never complained. It seemed like Vic preferred the burn of his wide shaft. The soft moans and whispers that came from the man before him drove him up a wall.

The blanket clutched in his hands; Vic let out a gasp when Leo buried himself completely. That always made Vic squirm. The deeper the better. Leo never failed to deliver.

Vic gritted his teeth as Leo’s hips went around again. It was worth being celibate while Leo was away. He wanted to touch his lover, but they rarely had sex in a position that he could. Leo leaned down, and Vic’s eyes closed. Skin against skin surprised him.

Unable to resist, Leo brushed his lips over Vic’s neck. Sorry this is kinda impersonal. I’m dealing with something.

It’s fine. Vic sighed as Leo sucked his earlobe. You always make up for it.

Pleasure shot up Vic’s spine when Leo nipped his neck while he ground against Vic’s ass. If they had been fully on the bed, Vic would have lifted his hips for deeper penetration.

Leo gripped Vic’s fingers. Then he planted his feet and withdrew slowly. His next stroke was faster but not as deep. He directed the head of his cock to Vic’s sweet spot over and over again. The shudder that passed through Vic, echoed within Leo. Each thrust forced their moans to rise in volume. Leo had trained his body to orgasm multiple times a session, so he had very good control of himself.

Determined to drive his lover into a pleasure filled frenzy, Leo pressed Vic’s hands harder and picked up his pace. The reaction was instant. Vic cried out and writhed as much as his position allowed.

Leo sucked on the sensitive skin closest to his mouth and groaned as a brief orgasm washed over him. Vic’s muscles gripped his shaft repeatedly, but he did his best not to go over the fine line within reach. Leo recovered and continued the intense thrusts.

In a world of pleasure, Vic could no longer see. The blanket beneath him stimulated his cock while Leo tortured his sweet spot. He had no sense of time, or the ability to speak. Every nerve ending seemed to be firing at once. All Leo had to do was bite his shoulder and he exploded.

I feel that, baby. Leo pumped harder as Vic came. One day I’m gonna blow a load inside you.

He never played without condoms, for safety. Too many men he’d met were HIV positive. He always asked for proof before he took on a new lover. Since he was negative, he didn’t want to risk changing that status.

Eyes closed; Leo concentrated on his own pleasure. Vic still pulsed within. His strokes increased in speed and intensity as he came closer to the end. Just as the sensation took over, he cried out and buried his face in Vic’s neck. The relief was immense.

Perfect, Leo whispered. He dropped onto Vic and sighed. You OK down there?

Uh-huh, Vic mumbled.

A bark made them both jump. Guess she’s tired of being alone. Leo shifted, then pulled out. I’ll take her for a walk. After a quick trip to the bathroom, he opened the bedroom door. Brandy jumped on him. You missed me that much?

In only a pair of shorts, Leo led Brandy to the front door and connected her leash. Vic’s backyard was too small for Brandy to get a good workout. Just before they walked out, Leo put on Vic’s slides. Unlike some of his friends who were born in Florida, he couldn’t go outside barefoot.

Come on. Leo tugged Brandy outside and shut the door. He waved at a neighbor across the street, then let Brandy pull him a few houses away. Easy, girl. We’ll go running tomorrow. Promise.

Vic was in the kitchen when Leo returned. "You are staying for dinner, right?"

Yep. Leo kicked the shoes off and walked toward Vic. Whatcha gonna make? He slipped his arms around his lover from behind. Affection was rare without sex, but he was too happy to tame himself. I’m starving.

Good. Vic liked to feed Leo.

*** ♫♪♫♪ ***

You sure you want to stay here tonight? Vic sensed something was off.

Leo shrugged as he undressed next to Vic’s bed that night. Why not?

You almost never sleep over. Vic felt the slight tension. Talk to me.

I’m avoiding Angel. Leo refused to sugarcoat it. She was passed out on my porch when I came home this morning.

With restraint, Vic asked, You stuck your dick in her before you fucked me?

No. The jealous tone surprised Leo. You get we’re not a couple, right?

Vic nodded. Of course I do, but she is a leech. I don’t understand what you see in her. All she does is take from you.

"I take from her. Leo thought about it. He took only pleasure from her, but not as often as in the past. Well… She’s just… Sometimes she needs help."

I’d like to help her over a bridge. Vic covered his mouth. I’m so sorry. I don’t know why I said that.

Can we not talk about her anymore?

Vic climbed onto the bed. Sure. She’s forgotten. He watched Leo drop his underwear. I have something else I’d like to think about.

Really now? Leo crawled toward Vic. What’s that? He knelt in front of his lover.

Lie on your back, and close your eyes.

Leo hesitated before he asked, Why?

My tongue is lonely.

Oh, OK. Leo grinned, then laid down. Get busy.

Eyes shut; he didn’t have to wait long. The tip of a tongue lapped at his flaccid length. Slight suction at the crown made him gasp. A hand forced one knee toward the mattress. He took a deep breath, so he wouldn’t react to it.

Vic wanted to experiment a bit, since he and Leo had gotten quite close that day. Once Leo relaxed, Vic wrapped his fingers around Leo’s thick shaft. With Leo’s sac in the other hand, he leaned down and let his tongue brush against the skin beneath it.

The reaction wasn’t bad, so Vic continued down. A lashing of the tight puckered hole caused Leo to jump. Vic paused, then tried it again. Leo squirmed a bit, which was a good sign.

Leo gripped the pillow behind his head and did his best not to freak out. He trusted Vic. It was the first time a rim job had given him pleasure. He shivered when it became more intense.

Suddenly, his eyes opened wide. Something pushed against his backdoor. His entire body tensed with fear. A finger breached him, and he shouted, Stop! Don’t!

Vic jumped up and laid on top of Leo. I’m so sorry. I thought that would be less scary for you.

Please. Leo fought to hone in the tears that threatened. Images flooded his mind. He shut his eyes tight, begging them to go away. Please.

Vic rolled them to their sides and held Leo close. I won’t hurt you. I promise. He felt awful he had triggered the reaction. I’m so sorry.

Leo clung to Vic and buried his face in his shoulder. Appalling memories still filled his head. No matter what he did, they played out in his mind. He was sure he’d have a nightmare. That hadn’t happened in almost a year.

He did everything he could to stay awake. When Vic’s breathing changed, he realized he wasn’t far behind. Deep breaths and forced good memories calmed him some. Maybe it’ll be all right. His body began to give out. Think happy thoughts.

CHAPTER THREE

Fifteen Years Ago…

Leo walked into the trailer he shared with his mother, Cheryl, and her boyfriend, Dario. He found her strung out in her room, as usual. His eyes caught movement. Dario tossed a needle in the trash.

What’d you give her now? Leo hated that Dario had gotten his mother hooked on heroin.

None of your business. Dario scowled at the fifteen-year-old.

Leo walked away, annoyed. He was sick of his mother not being able to help herself. She was so addicted; she couldn’t function sober. If only she’d say no, she wouldn’t be such a mess.

This is your fault! Dario stalked toward Leo.

What is? The sudden accusation made no sense.

Dario was also high but completely functional. She’s so out of it all the time she can’t even suck me off.

Ew, man! Leo wished he had somewhere else to go, so he wouldn’t have to witness the wreck around him. That’s not my problem.

You know it is. Dario snatched Leo’s arm. Time to give me what she won’t.

Leo shoved him. Fuck off! I’m not a kid anymore. He rushed for the front door, sure what would come next. Just as he grabbed the doorknob, Dario yanked him backward. His mind raced. His life for the past five years had been hell.

You’re not leaving yet, Dario growled.

Mom! Mom! Leo yelled while Dario dragged him to the kitchen. His scrawny physique made him unable to fight off the larger man. Mom, please! She’d never come to his rescue before, so he wasn’t sure why he still tried. Mommy!

Tears ran down Leo’s cheeks as Dario shoved him into the table. He kicked and was a bit relieved when his foot connected with some part of Dario’s body. The moment he was free, he ran to the front door.

When his face hit the wood surface, he cried out, No!

You can leave when I’m done.

Please, Mom!

Leo whimpered while Dario carried him to the kitchen. He couldn’t see a way out. Once bent over the table, he looked back. Dario smirked. Leo’s eyes widened when Dario opened his pants. With all his strength, he kicked again.

Cut it out!

Leo’s head slammed into the table. Pain radiated from his temple. Then dizziness came over him. A hand fumbled with the button of his jean shorts while his vision faded.

When Leo’s eyes snapped open, he howled. Fingers dug into his sides, and he heard moans. He tried to block it out. However, it was difficult to shut out reality. His head still throbbed, but it didn’t overtake the agony inside him.

You have a sweeter ass than your mother.

Eyes shut again, Leo held onto the end of the table and wished it was over already. He couldn’t stop the soft whimpers. It was rarely that painful. Something isn’t right. Fluid trickled down his thigh. It made no sense.

Loud grunts and a pulsating sensation told him it was finally over. His ass was on fire. The worst part of the rape was when Dario came inside him. For hours, semen seeped out, and there was a nasty reminder every time he used the bathroom.

Now you can leave.

While Leo tried to hide his tears, he redressed himself and hurried out of the trailer. It hurt like hell to walk. He didn’t care. It took quite a while, but he wound up at Bryce’s house several miles west.

Hey man! Bryce hadn’t expected his friend. What’s up?

Leo bumped his fist against Bryce’s. Nothing, just had to get away.

Come on in my room, Bryce encouraged. I’m playing Resident Evil.

Unsure what would hide his discomfort, Leo shrugged. Um, let me use the bathroom first. After he relieved himself, he found blood in his underwear. With the hope no one would notice, he tossed them in the trashcan. The pain hadn’t lessened, so he wasn’t sure what to do.

You hungry? Bryce called into the hallway.

Leo winced as he pulled his shorts up. Um, yeah.

When Leo stepped into the hall, Bryce nodded at him. Mom said she’d make us pizza rolls. He knew Leo didn’t eat much at home.

After only a few minutes in the kitchen, Leo realized Bryce’s mother, Angelica, had noticed something was wrong with him. It was too painful to sit, so he leaned against a wall. He watched her leave the room. His eyes opened wide when he heard her speaking to Bryce’s father, Harold.

You need to check on Leo. He’s bleeding from somewhere in the pelvic area, and he has a fresh bruise on his temple. Angelica sounded quite upset.

Harold came into the kitchen and stopped in front of Leo. He whispered, Son, what’s wrong?

I’m fine. Leo had no intention of telling anyone what had happened to him earlier. When it was obvious Harold wouldn’t drop the subject, Leo rushed to the hallway.

Concerned, Harold followed Leo. When they were alone, he turned Leo around and touched the back of his shorts. Where’s this blood from?

Don’t touch me! Leo squirmed.

That worried Harold even more. Did someone touch you somewhere they shouldn’t?

Leo rolled his eyes. I’m not five.

Then show me where you’re bleeding from. Harold held Leo’s shoulders to portray his sincerity. Is it your penis?

No. Leo shook his head as he tried to pull away.

Harold quickly changed tactics. If you don’t show me, I’m calling the police.

Leo stepped into the bathroom, closed his eyes and dropped his shorts. It’s nothing.

Oh my God! Harold stared in shock for a moment. Leo, son… His voice filled with emotion. We need to get to the hospital.

No! Leo hitched his shorts up. You said you wouldn’t tell if I showed you.

Son, you’re bleeding from your ass. That can be cancer or something.

It’s not cancer! Leo shouted.

What’s wrong? Bryce knocked on the bathroom door. Dad?

Harold opened the door a bit. Leo has a little problem. He swept Leo’s hair back from his temple. Who did this to you?

No one! Leo insisted. Tell him, Bryce. I’m fine. A look passed between them which meant for Bryce to help him hide the truth.

Bryce wouldn’t stay silent anymore. Dario rapes him. He won’t tell anyone.

Angelica walked toward the raised voices, curious about Leo’s condition. What’s going on?

Harold swallowed hard. I’m taking Leo to the hospital. We have a private situation here.

Private? She didn’t understand. What do you mean?

Sure Leo wouldn’t want everything in the open, Harold tilted his head. It’s a man thing. I’m not at liberty to explain.

I’m fine, please, Leo pled. It’ll stop. It always does.

No, son. Harold leaned down and whispered, This is serious. Either you go willingly or I call 911.

With fresh tears in his eyes, Leo let Harold take him to the Emergency Room. It humiliated him when Harold mentioned his condition to the admission clerk. They didn’t wait long before questions began. Leo pursed his lips when asked what caused the bleeding. Relief came over him as soon as Harold relayed the truth and handed over Leo’s bloody underwear. Someone said they would contact the police. He shook with fear Dario would find out and attack him again.

Harold refused to leave the room for Leo’s examination to lend his support. Nothing to be ashamed of. That animal is to blame. He gripped Leo’s free hand. They’re going to do a rape kit, so stay still, son. I’m right here.

Leo whimpered when a gloved finger brushed his anus. Please don’t touch it.

How about we give you something to help you sleep? We need to cauterize some tears.

I won’t leave you alone. Harold squeezed Leo’s fingers. Promise.

Scared, but glad to have Bryce’s father there, Leo nodded.

When he woke up again, he was on his back, still in the hospital gown. Harold clung to Leo’s hand. Thanks. Will I be OK?

It might hurt for a while, but you’ll heal.

*** ♫♪♫♪ ***

Present Day…

Leo jumped to a seated position. His eyes swept the room. Fuck! It was just a dream. Relief washed over him. The nightmares had lessened over the years, but they’d never stopped. Since he’d turned thirty, he sometimes felt he should be over it already.

You all right? Vic sat up and snaked an arm around Leo’s back. Bad dream?

Yes.

Vic moved closer and held Leo’s head to his shoulder. Memory or nightmare?

Memory. Leo swallowed hard as emotions washed over him. He didn’t want to think about his abuse.

The short answers told Vic all he needed. I’m sorry you went through all that. His fingers wove through Leo’s hair. If you ever need to unload the pain, I’m here for you.

Thanks. Leo did his best to let it go, but he couldn’t. I’m lucky. He shivered when he imagined what might have happened if Bryce’s father hadn’t stepped in. His fingers flexed as he stared at the skull rings on many of them. He’d began wearing them to give him an edge during fights. Bryce’s family took me in until Grandma moved here.

Over the years, Vic had learned bits and pieces about Leo’s childhood. Leo told him Dario had gone to prison after being convicted. He didn’t know the exact charges, just there were multiple indictments of child abuse and sodomy. I hope the animal dies there!

I’m always here for you, Leo. Vic kissed his lover’s temple and closed his eyes. For whatever you need. His feelings for Leo were much deeper than he admitted. It killed him that Leo was in pain. If only he knew I love him.

CHAPTER FOUR

The next morning, Leo pulled up to his grandmother’s house. He’d given her the beautiful three-bedroom home in Apollo Beach as a gift. The 55 and over community had many amenities, including shuttle service to and from stores. That meant she had no need for a car, although she owned the Buick in the driveway.

He’d left Vic’s place soon after he woke up. The emotional few minutes in the middle of the night had made him doubt himself and how he lived. He refused to stay and possibly reveal his feelings.

His mind reeled with questions. None had an answer. Some didn’t even make sense. He had no idea how to figure it all out. His grandmother had a knack for giving him direction. She had moved to Florida after Bryce’s father relayed the gory details of Leo’s abuse. He relied on her throughout his recovery.

Leo? The loud Ferrari had alerted Jane to his arrival. She walked toward the driveway and grinned. You’re home!

He exited the car with Brandy’s leash in hand. Yes, Grandma. I couldn’t forget about my best girl. Brandy barked, and he laughed. OK, my second-best girl.

I don’t mind playing second fiddle to you, Brandy. Jane stepped back when the pit bull jumped. She’d been afraid of dogs for most of her life. As sweet as Brandy was, Jane sometimes recoiled when she leapt.

Leo tugged Brandy’s leash. No jumping!

It’s OK. Jane offered her hand, which Brandy sniffed, then licked several times. She knows I love her. When she relaxed, she scratched the dog’s head. Let’s get out of this heat. She led the way inside. Where’s Victor?

Um, home. Leo swallowed. She always saw right through him. I need time to think.

She set a bowl of water out for Brandy, then sat at the kitchen table. Sit so we can talk.

He glanced around. How about we have some lemonade first? Instead of waiting for an answer, he opened the refrigerator and pulled out the pitcher.

Come on now. Sit. Jane waited until he’d filled two glasses. What’s bothering you? I see the tension on your face.

Leo took a seat and sighed. I have feelings for someone that don’t make sense. Maybe I just don’t understand how real relationships go.

You should follow your heart. Jane realized Leo meant Vic. She had encouraged their bond to grow because she’d witnessed their love for each other. Are you afraid of telling everyone you’re attracted to men?

His head snapped up. She had never admitted aloud that she knew about his bisexuality. Not exactly. He swallowed hard. OK, maybe a little. I dunno how it will affect my band. The world had changed. But is it enough that fans would accept me with a man? Do I want that?

Jane watched the confusion on her grandson’s face. They all accept you for who you are, right?

Yes. He met her concerned gaze. They’re not the problem. I guess it’s just me. He stared at the table and stayed quiet for a while.

Have you spoken to your mother?

Leo scowled. His mother had been in and out of rehab and jail since the state had taken away him from her. No! Why would I bother? She didn’t save me from Dario.

She was sick, honey. Jane reached out and grasped his hand. She’d been angry with her daughter for many years following her move to Florida. They’d