Love and Little Birds: Wrestling with the Sadness of Dementia
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The human brain is desperately fragile in some ways and incredibly powerful in many others. Dementia is the quintessential example of mental fragility, but dealing with dementia can awaken the full power of the brain in those who are obliged to care for its victims. In Love and Little Birds, author John Radway shares the journal of his struggle to cope with the dementia that eventually claimed the life of his wife, Claire, at the age of seventy-five.
Divided into two parts, the first section describes Radways attempts to grasp the meaning of dementia, while the second section includes a very personal chronicle of his tortuous journey through the ruins of his previous life into a new one.
In this memoir, Radway seeks to provide guidance to others who are caring for someone struggling to deal with a dying mindthe sad prognosis for this disease. He communicates the emotional toll it takes on the caregivers, who are fully aware of what is happening to their loved one. Love and Little Birds provides raw insight into a caregivers world and shares the importance of taking care of the self so as not to be destroyed.
John A. Radway Jr
John Radway is a retired attorney and farmer; he is originally from Hawaii but is now living in Arizona. His greatest joys have been his forty-nine-year marriage to the love of his life, Claire, who succumbed to dementia at the age of seventy-five and, now, helping those who care for dementia patients.
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Love and Little Birds - John A. Radway Jr
Love
and
Little Birds
Wrestling with the
Sadness of Dementia
JOHN RADWAY
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ISBN: 978-1-4808-0095-3 (sc)
ISBN: 978-1-4808-0096-0 (e)
Library of Congress Control Number: 2013908937
Archway Publishing rev. date: 5/15/2013
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Contents
Introduction
PART I
Shape and Shadow, Form and Function: The Structure of Progressive Dementia
Boxes and What They Contain: The Shape of Reality
Layers within the Boxes: Changing Shapes
Dealing with Dementia: The Shadow of Reality
Dealing with Death: The Cruelest Reality
After the Ashes Have Cooled: Rebuilding Reality
The Shape of the Future: Banishing the Shadows
Postscript: Going Home, The Last Journey
PART II
Claire and Me: An Emotional Journey
Seasons
My Little Ghost
Anniversary
This Fleeting World:
Foundations
Pathways
Claire
Rustling Leaves
Places and Spaces and Time
The Solace of Uncertainty
Shapes and Shadows
The Tunnels of the Wind
Music
The Final Decision
Sundowning
Windows of the Night
Remnants
Dementia:
This Fleeting World:
Identity Theft
Solitaire
This Fleeting World:
Northern Lights
Gettysburg Revisited
Battlefield Gettysburg
Perhaps
The Comfort Zone
In the End
Reflections
Through the Gates
Introduction
We all know that the human brain is desperately fragile in some ways and incredibly powerful in many others. Dementia is the quintessential example of mental fragility, but dealing with dementia can awaken the full power of the brain in those who are obliged to care for its victims. This little book is the fusion of two diaries
I have been writing in my attempts to come to grips with my own loss—the death from dementia of the love of my life almost three years ago. I started these diaries soon after I had committed her to the loving care of a facility specializing in dementia. There had been no time at all for writing in the final two years of my caregiving. The first section describes my attempts to grasp the meaning of dementia, and the second is a very personal chronicle of my tortuous journey through the ruins of my previous life into a new one.
It is not a terminally sad journey, and it’s not over yet. I have been helped along the way by good friends and by the staff of the hospice organization that