The Empty Boulevards

By Willis Gordon

Heroin, Heartbreak, and Hard Liquor. These are just a few of the elements at play in Willis Gordons second collection The Empty Boulevards. Told in beautifully compact style, Gordon tells the stories of men and women on the fringes of society. Raising the issues of the modern servicemens struggle, Death, Addiction, Manhood, Fathers and Sons, Sex, and Lost Love, he brilliantly weaves a true journey into the dark heart of Americas overlooked and unlucky.

His tough and meaningful prose cuts deep into the matters at hand, reminiscent of post-modern classics with a more ragged and worldly flair. With a unique style and a keen eye for description, The Empty Boulevards is an enthralling account of our modern society and the high cost of low living. In this radiant sophomore effort, Gordon proves that he is truly a voice for our time.

• Language: English
• Publisher: AuthorHouse
• Release date: Aug 17, 2012
• ISBN: 9781477253779

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© 2012 Willis Gordon. All rights reserved.

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Published by AuthorHouse 07/27/2012

ISBN: 978-1-4772-5378-6 (sc)

ISBN: 978-1-4772-5377-9 (e)

Library of Congress Control Number: 2012913730

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Contents

Demons

Peace in the Valley

I Love You, Jim Morrison

Sister Morphine

A Quiet Place

The Fifth Round

Invitation

Eggnog

Bourbon Street

The Empty Boulevards

Demons

We give ourselves to God when the Devil no longer wants us.

I hate Sunday nights. The dark, quiet, restrained nature they have, the impending doom of work the next morning. After letting you run free for two whole days, you are once again subjected to the chains of the 9-5. A grueling, soul-crushing, fruitless ritual we do to gain power, and social status. Do a good enough job to earn a good enough paycheck to buy a good enough car to catch a good enough woman to have good enough sex and have good enough children and have a good enough life, until you die under the eerie discomfort of dull fluorescent lighting and some temp on the graveyard shift dumps your body in the morgue to the shattering sound of no one caring.

But what do I know? I haven’t been to work in a month. They’ve probably found a replacement by now, some worm to do the bitch work for them. It doesn’t matter who does it, we’re all faceless to them…

Some folks get off on the power, flexing at other people. Making them feel weak and helpless. I knew an executive once who used to hire secretaries just to berate, belittle, and occasionally cop a feel, which led to tears and subsequent humiliation. After he fired them for being Weak and Without vision he’d be in a good mood for the rest of the week.

We all have our kinks and our vices. We gotta get off somehow. For the past 4 weeks I was holed up in my filthy apartment with endless bottles of cheap beer and rot-gut whiskey, so I guess that’s my thing. Knob Creek and Old Crow make being a drunk on a budget a painful chore. But she was always there; I had to stay sober long enough to make sure she was alright. One she’d pass out somewhere or go to bed on the mattress, I’d get up and walk into the kitchen with my guitar, light a cigarette, and pour myself a highball.

. . .

She always loved the rain. It’d been doing a lot of it over the course of the previous 2 or 3 weeks, so she would camp out on the windowsill next to the radio and stare deep into the heart of the storm. Her shoulders rolled with the thunder and her eyes flashed with the lightning; a deep hazel that was once bright as the midday sun, but were now faded and sunken in by black circles. She’d brush her dirty brown hair over her ear and look over at me every once in a while and smile. I’d sit there at the kitchen table with a bottle in front of me and just marvel at her. The childlike wonder she had with the rain. Eventually when she’d move to the floor I’d walk over and sit down behind her, and she’d fall back a bit and rest her head on my shoulder. I’d whisper in her ear and we’d talk and watch the rain, trying to remember, trying to get back. Back when it wasn’t all about work, or money, or waiting on the Man.

Every Tuesday there’d be a knock at the door and no matter where she was or what she was doing, she’d spring up and bolt for the money drawer and open the door. The Man was a shady looking guy, but I guess that’s a requirement in his line of work. She’d always get real girly and her mannerisms would become childish when he was around. The Junk took her energy most of the time, but after the first kick she would get a burst; dancing to the rock on the radio, spastic and idiosyncratic movements jolting through her body. A lightning bolt of focus. And then when the first wave died off, she would just lie there, nearly lifeless but in a state of such physical and mental ecstasy that I’d be ashamed to disturb her.

Eventually our routine of drugs, sex and drink got the better of us, and it started to run our lives. The Man came more often, and I was out to the corner store for more High Life, cigarettes, and whiskey. Eventually we got into a bit of debt, but he was pretty lenient for the time being. Schedules were made around passing out, waking up, lying down and shooting up. Before long those endless rainy nights faded into distant memory, to some other world, and we drifted deep into the swallow of excess.

I woke up when the sunlight hit my eyes through the grimy kitchen window. I had passed out face down on the table at around 3am and was now trying to collect myself. The intro to Zeppelin’s Since I’ve Been Loving You steamed out of the radio and filled the apartment as I tried to get to my feet. My vision was hazy and I wasn’t as coordinated as I remembered, but I ambled to the living room to see her curled up on the mattress. I watched her for a moment, and then realized she wasn’t just serenely sleeping, but totally motionless.

Rushing to my knees at her side, I grasped her shoulders and shook. Nothing. Called her name. No response. She was gone, and never coming back. I was finally alone. Clouds were still hanging over the sky that Thursday morning when I kissed her goodbye; another storm was coming. Every ounce of my being wanted to stay there, wrap her in my arms and howl in agony until the seas rose and the sun flickered out. But something in me told me to pack up and go. I staggered to my feet, crushed the blood-filled syringe under my boot, and packed a bag.

My hands are bleeding. I must’ve tripped in the gravel. I don’t even remember it. I’m running now, harder and with more abandon than ever. But where am I going? I look around. I’m trying to get to 12th street so I can catch a cab… Get to the train station. She- We owe the dope man money. Have to get to 12th. I must’ve run right into the storm, it’s raining hard now. Christ, it’s raining. I’m nearly blind.

I wave down a taxi on 12th and sling my bag into the cavernous backseat of the Crown Vic before spilling into it myself. I croak out my destination and the Cabbie cranks the windshield wipers into high gear and