Like Shattered Glass...: Autopsy of a Human Soul
By ShellyBeenz
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the autopsy of a human soul
No parent should have to bury a child. It is the greatest loss a human being can experience. And it happens all too often. The toll that such a loss exacts is terrible. Most marriages dont survive. Mimis didnt. After nine years, she remains in therapy. There is no end in sight. And that is but half the story, half the tragedy.
The birth of her first child, Jessie Marie, in 1996 changed Mimis life forever. Hers had been a hard road and Jessies arrival brought sunshine and blue skies to a life that had too often been cloudy and grey. More than ever before, the future looked bright! For a while
On Halloween night of 2003, everything changed. Mimi stood and watched helplessly as the doctors fought desperately to hold on to Jessie. But it was too little; it was too late. Jessie quietly slipped away at 1:21am. She was gone. So was the sunshine.
But suffocating grief could not stifle Michelles need to know: WHY? And the answers just werent coming. Mimi began to dig, and eventually she learned the appalling truth: Jessies doctors hadnt done what they were asked to do, and theyd lied about it. Jessie was dead because of negligence, and incompetence. And nobody would be held accountable.
Along with hundreds of other parents, Californias MICRA law would keep Mimi from having her day in court. Her epic struggle to expose the injustice of MICRA would win Mimi the CAOCs Consumer Advocate of the Year award (the Erin Brockovich Award) for 2005.
The poetry of Like Shattered Glass tells a story. It is a hearts-eye-view of the anguish and torture that a mother endures. If you have experienced such a loss, this book will show you that someone else really does understand. Like Shattered Glass is nothing less than the autopsy of a human soul.
ShellyBeenz
A native Californian, Shelly Beenz spent her school years in Montana. She returned to California after college, and it was in California that she met and married her first husband and started a family. It was also in California that she lost her first-born, her daughter, Jessie, to medical negligence and was then confronted with the evil of MICRA. Shelly Beenz returned to Montana in 2007. Today, Shelly Beenz resides in northwest Montana with her two sons, her new husband and their daughter. She is a full time Mommy, a dedicated activist for medical malpractice victims’ rights and is currently working on her next book. www.likeshatteredglass.com
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Like Shattered Glass... - ShellyBeenz
Like
Shattered
Glass…
autopsy of a human soul
ShellyBeenz
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By John Massey
Like Shattered Glass… is a collection of poetry, and it is more than that, much more than that. It is a psychological and emotional memoir. It tells the story of a life.
No one gets through life unscarred, but some people collect more scars than others. Before she was old enough to vote Mimi’s had experienced more trauma than most people endure in a lifetime. And her suffering had only just begun.
Born into a family history rich with mental disorders, Mimi began life with a heavy enough burden. It would get much heavier. Her father had serious anger control issues. Her mother was a convenient target. Before she was half way through elementary school Mimi was already refereeing her parents fights. They were so engrossed with their own dysfunction that they failed to see the warning signs when Mimi’s molestation began. They remained blind as it continued for months. The bed wetting and acting out never caught their attention as their eight-year-old daughter was repeatedly raped and abused. Like most young victims, she did not tell. She carried the secret with her, feeling dirty, guilty and responsible. The trauma would haunt her for decades. It affected every relationship she had, every aspect of her life. A very special sort of miracle would be necessary to free Mimi of that burden.
As a teenager and young adult Mimi wished for only one thing: a family of her own. She wanted the chance to live a normal life, to raise a family where her children would be loved and protected from the isolation and evil that had dominated her youth and stolen her innocence. But like so many victims of the kind of abuse she suffered, Mimi battled her demons in her daily life. As a teenager she was a remarkable athlete, a real over-achiever, but she was also sexually active at an early age, sometimes with the most inappropriate partners.
In college she discovered alcohol and, again typical of molestation survivors, began to drink alcoholically and engage in some very promiscuous behavior. She became an obsessively meticulous worker while she was entrenched in a violent and mutually destructive relationship. She was a study in contradictions: bi-polar, alcoholic and sexually obsessed; she was also an anally overachieving athlete with dreams of a white knight and a white picket fence.
She eventually found her way to AA and sobriety. She married her best friend. Then, with the birth of her daughter Jessie on September 23rd, 1996, all her dreams came true. Her every prayer had been answered. She didn’t think it possible to be any happier. But as her family grew and their financial situation improved beyond her grandest dreams Mimi knew happiness and fulfillment that exceeded her wildest expectations.
She really was happy, truly happy, for the first time in her life. And that happiness might have lasted forever, except that babies become toddlers and toddlers become little girls. And the monsters like little girls. The monsters prefer little girls. The monsters devour little girls. Mimi knew, and she wouldn’t let that happen to Jessie. She just couldn’t. And all those memories came flooding back.