Diary of a Superstar: Hotlights

By Rukshana Khatun

There is a reason why a dream is called a dream, based on the fact that it is not possible.
That is what I thought until my dream of fame and singing came true, which led for me leaving my old life behind, and only concentrating on money and publicity.

Its true when they say becareful of what you wish for, because sometimes that dream isnt as perfect as you always dreamt about...but the question is why?
......what could it all possibly lead to?
...and most of all what has it turn me into?

• Language: English
• Publisher: AuthorHouse UK
• Release date: Mar 15, 2011
• ISBN: 9781467891059

Rukshana Khatun

I am currently 16 and wrote a book which was published at the age of 14. I live in st.albans, near my friends and family. The second oldest out of 5 siblings. I have many ambitions of owning a buisness, being a writer and most of becoming a teacher as it has been a dream of mine since i was a child.

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Contents

Chapter 1

Ordinary life!

Chapter 2

Dreams start here

Chapter 3

A superstar!

Chapter 4

Out of Control

Chapter 5

Broke

Chapter 6

Regrets

Chapter 7

Forgive and forget.

Chapter 8

Is he really my father?

Chapter 9

I’m too cool

Chapter 10

The Brit awards

Chapter 11

Nothing else Matters

Chapter 1 

Ordinary life! 

OMG, my vocals ain’t right, however Joanne says it sounds great.

Liar, well she isn’t a complete liar!

Guess what she is so unbelievable, she wants me to audition for X-factor. I said yes, I mean what have I got to loose, apart from my pride and being rejected by Simon Cowell.

I woke up early, it wasn’t Sunday anymore it was Monday a school day. Anyway I leave the house calmly which normally does not happen. Me being myself I end up getting gobby, in my first lesson of Maths. My teacher is called Miss Lowta. She is so irritating I swear she purposely tries to get me in trouble. So she straight away sends me home. At least I don’t have to do work!

When I come home straight away, I walk in I get a pointless lecture, it is not like I am gonna listen.

As if, she can talk, she sits on her backside doing nothing at all.

The second thing she shouts at me is about me getting a good career. It is not like she has got one. So I reply saying people are fine the way they are. I will live on benefits for my life, I don’t care.

Also for some idiotic reason she tells me that me becoming a singer is when Simon Cowell, doesn’t realise good sounds or vocals. All I am thinking is what ever, she can’t even sing to save her own life.

I can imagine if I became well famous I would have my own Album, with my name on the C-D case. It would say Dianne Charles!! It would hopefully be the greatest album of the year!

I get well badly complemented they all say I should be a model, you know what they are so stupid I am not even old enough. I know why they say it, because of my well gorgeous eyes and my brown straight hair.

I tell them to shut up but really I don’t mean it, keep the compliments going!

Days passed, and I realised something massive. I can not believe Joanne put me through X-factor how could she. That is just out, I would never do something like this to her. Also my mum would scream like crazy. Oh well who cares I am not going to throw away my chance. I might as well do it I practised the whole of today. And tomorrow it would be Tuesday. That day would be the scariest day of my life, it would have an impact on my future career (if I manage to go that far). But first of all I would have to have my beauty sleep.

So it was goodnight for now and good morning for tomorrow.

Tuesday Morning

The alarm went off and I woke up feeling great; I put on my best outfit. Sorted out my make-up and my hair. Imagine I went looking like a tramp. Gosh! That would be so hilarious. Finally I managed to get ready in time so Joanne got me a taxi, to the place where the auditions where. Trust me, you should have seen the amount of people there. It was incredible. Soon enough it was my time. I was pissin myself.

Okay I had to be confident, there was lights which faced me and which was really bright I felt like a sun, but obviously a gorgeous sun. A massive crowd all stared at me so psychopathically. They asked me what my name was, I obviously said Dianna I also gave them my age. Soon enough they told me to start singing so I sang my heart out. I sang the song called listen by a singer called Beyonce. Everyone started cheering it was amazing, I knew I was good, but not that good. I had to find out if I got through and finally he told me the answer which was yes.

I was so happy especially when I found out I was going to boot camp! Nothing was stopping me now from succeeding, I met the other contestants and they are not that good if I am being honest.

Next week I was in boot camp. It was a Tuesday afternoon and I somehow I actually managed to make my way to boot camp, I was actually really scared for once. Wondering if I actually could get in!

The judges called a group of us in I got lucky and I got in, which was not surprising come on, lets face it we both know that I have an amazing voice. For some reason I already felt like a superstar.

I met a few of the contestants which didn’t get through.

One of the contestants were such a flippin slob, he literally made me feel sick. This may sound harsh but I wasn’t exactly sad when he didn’t get through! Looking like that who would wanna buy his records.

I found out who my mentor was going to be I hoped I was gonna get Cheryl but, I had Simon. I wasn’t exactly sad coz he is the only one who criticize and he won’t do it to me. I went home to pack, because soon I would have to go to the judge’s house. When I mean soon (I mean like in another day) unfortunately my mother did not support me at all she didn’t even speak to me! Sorry for taking your advise and trying to get myself a good career. That saves me pain! Only one person is supporting me and that is Joanne that’s what mates are for.

The next day I had to go back to school, which was horrible. And plus I hate Fridays.

Suddenly, the scariest thing happened ever, when I went to school, everyone in school started to be well kind. It was kinda weird! Including the teachers so now they pick favourites! I wanted to see how angry they could get, so I purposely tried to piss them off. They still wouldn’t get angry it was so crazy but good.

What really made me laugh out loud was that they actually thought I would wanna be their mates. As if, I don’t mean that in a harsh way. They are too weird for me, or I am just way to cool for them.

In science I had to sit next to one of the geekiest and idiotic boys ever. Every single moment he kept drawling near me. It was so flaming dirty. His name was John. I just feel sorry for anyone who has the same name as him. I shouted at him telling him to stop staring at me, or otherwise I would seriously slap him. What a creep! He was such a freak of nature.

Later on that night, I came home peacefully and all I hoped is that she would say the word congratulations and come to her senses! I would appreciate it even if she didn’t even mean the word. The whole evening was silent and boring; obviously she knows how to piss me off!

That whole time my own nutty mother gave me pure evils, talk about pathetic and childish.

All I could think about was winning X-factor and I won’t be able to see my mothers’ freakish look ever again.

If I had someone to blame it would be my teachers all they had to do is keep their mouth shut and my mum wouldn’t be in a strop right now. Anyway I am 17 no-one can tell me what to do! I can do whatever I like!

I had to pack my bags and go to my mentor house, and see if I would be on X-factor live! Which would be well exciting? But before I left I decided to have a massive party whilst my mum was out. Everyone was invited. Of course they had a good time, I mean I created it, don’t mean to sound vein or anything. The music was so loud, but hey it is a party. Oh no! Crap she arrived early. She scared all my guests away, and then tells me I got a gob. She is the one who is so bloody rude.

A few hours later after the dragon blew away all my guests, at home everything went crazy!

Well all she had to tell me was that I was the biggest mistake she ever made. Soon enough she went outside and smoked her cigarette. I did not even bother talking to her it was her who started it and ended it. Whether I looked at her or spoke to her I would get really pissed and I really could not be bothered to do that. Her lost.

So I went upstairs and packed the rest of my favourite clothing and fashionable accessorise. Now I was ready to go I sent everyone goodbye texts.

I was on the plane and I was bare lonely with no-one to talk to. But I was being stupid thinking my mum would apologise to me or send me any random text. She hurt me so badly but still I could not hate her for some weird dodgy reason.

Finally I arrived at Simon’s house with the other contestants. If I made it through no-more living an ordinary life!

Does a dream come true?

Chapter 2 

Dreams start here 

The song I chose was sung by Mariah Carey-I want to know what love is. When I sang the song it actually came from the heart. Which I never normally do it was freaky, also I started to breakdown It was weird I hardly ever cry.

Oh no! I was bare worried encase I blew my chances by crying. He probably thinks I am such a cry baby. Now I may not be in the X-factor he probably thought I was also some emotional freak. I tried to think positive, and thought if I was on the live show then, I so would not be worried coz the whole school is hopefully voting for me. This may sound really cruel but I am only telling the truth, I am just using everyone for the votes. Otherwise they can get lost. I sended a message to Joanne. Telling her how I am using everyone. She said that I was really mean.

The night grew longer and one by one each person spoke to Simon. I was so nervous I felt like I was going in, for an interview. Next was me. I walked in and he told me to take a sit. He started babbling on about some crap; I really wanted to scream the word hurry up! I could not waste another minute. Soon enough he finally told me the part I wanted to hear, he actually said it. I literally screamed really loudly. I only screamed coz I was happy obviously. OMG! This was so surprising I could literally not believe it. Normally people do not get in if they start crying.

Right now, right here is where my dreams would come true! Well not exactly here but you know what I mean. Gosh it felt so weird; I would become a whole different person.

I went to my room and started to pack all my stuff together. After I finished I decided to take a quick music break.

Lying down, I was listening to music, in my fancy bedroom that I had to share, with the other girls. The question was who was gonna