Words from a Second-hand Heart
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Working full time was never an appealing option for me. I went to university for five years to study an Arts Degree. Because I dropped my subjects on a whim and was less focused every year, I never actually finished. Right now I am a semester away from obtaining my degree with no real desire to ever go back. I used to spend time at the tavern with students who assumed the world was theirs having pointless conversations we would forget by the next day. The rest of my time was spent falling in and out of love with every intelligent girl I came across (the ones with bob cuts, red lipstick, black boots, who read Gertrude Stein and Jeanette Winterson, who lived alone, who drank in the day, who bought records instead of C.Ds, who had black bed sheets with white cum stains and rooms that smelled of incense and adventure). I didn’t believe in the power of a degree. Going to university was like practicing for a life that doesn’t exist. So I quit and decided to become a writer instead.
J.L. Shenstone
J.L. Shenstone writes poetry, short fiction, novels and scripts.
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Words from a Second-hand Heart - J.L. Shenstone
Words from a Second-hand Heart
J.L. Shenstone
Copyright 2014 J.L. Shenstone
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Contents
Prologue
come
let it go
what we say
about a girl
proposal
incest
sleepwalk
four months
two words
love
not needed
your mind
string
your body
Bukowski
smoke drunk driven
the baby who knew too little
the daily maintenance of life
the exit
novelists
poetry night
what it's like to want to write when all they want is for you to sing
life/death
slow leak
happiness
it rained, I forget the rest
life's little luxuries
stranger
call waiting
About the author
Prologue
I chose this life. When I'm broke, which is often, I have to remind myself of this. When I’m alone with a blank page that seems only to mock me, I have to remind myself of this.
Even though I have chosen a life that is not commonplace, that is not well funded, or even well liked, I could not think of another life to live. Being an artist is the only thing that has ever made sense to me. Life has been distilled down to this: as long as I can afford to pay the rent, to eat and to feed my dog, who cares about the rest? All that is left is being able to create and to enjoy what others create.
When I watch a film that surprises me or is done in a unique way, when I read a sentence that stands out above all the other sentences on that page, when I look at a painting and feel as if I was peering through a window into a scene that is occurring now and not a hundred years ago—it’s like falling in love.
When I turn forty and I'm still an unpaid writer, still trying to reach an audience that at times seems not to exist, I don’t know how I will feel. I will probably be proud of myself. I try not to live with this fear because it doesn’t matter. I will always write. My mind will never stop its incessant talk, its nightly ramblings. It will always stop me to glance at a stranger, to think how I might describe them. It will stop me like it did the day the sun fell on my girlfriend’s face and I saw she had the smallest white hairs at the bottom of her earlobe and