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Just 18 Summers
Just 18 Summers
Just 18 Summers
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Just 18 Summers

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Winner of the 2014 CLASS Reunion Kudos Book Award, fiction category.
After the tragic death of Butch Browning’s wife, Jenny, four families begin to realize how precious—and fleeting—their time together is. Each is at a different stage in life: Butch is facing single parenthood. The O’Reillys are expecting their first child. The Andersons are approaching an empty nest, and the Buckleys are so focused on providing their children with everything that they’ve forgotten what they truly need. With just eighteen summers before their children are grown, how do they make the most of that time when life so often gets in the way?

As summer flies by, each of these parents must learn about guilt and grace . . . and when to hold on to their kids and when to let go.
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Release dateMar 21, 2014
ISBN9781414390901
Just 18 Summers
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Michelle Cox

Michelle Cox is the author of the Henrietta and Inspector Howard series, a mystery/romance saga set in 1930s Chicago often described as “Downton Abbey meets Miss Fisher’s Murder Mysteries.” To date, the series has won over sixty international awards and has received positive reviews from Library Journal (starred), Booklist (starred), Publishers Weekly, Kirkus, and various media outlets, such as Popsugar, Buzzfeed, Redbook, Elle, Brit&Co., Bustle, Culturalist, Working Mother, and many others. Cox also pens the wildly popular Novel Notes of Local Lore, a weekly blog that chronicles the lives of Chicago’s forgotten residents. She lives in the northern suburbs of Chicago with her husband and three children and is hard at work on her next novel.

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  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Just 18 Summers, a novel by Rene Gutteridge and Michelle Cox, is inspiring, emotional, and God filled. This novel is told from the point of view of four different families and takes place after the tragic death of Butch Browning's wife, Jenny. Each family is at a different stage in life as well as parenthood and as the summer flies by they come to realize that the time they have with their children is precious and will not last forever. Butch, after losing his wife, has to deal with the struggles of being a single parent for a grieving eight year old little girl, as well as feeling lost and hopeless with grief of his own. The Anderson's are faced with an fast approaching empty nest as well as their daughter marrying a young man they know nothing about and do not yet approve of. The Buckley's, who are the Anderson's neighbors, are so focused on providing their kids with everything they could need and more that the have forgotten what their children desperately need from them, love and attention. The fourth family, the O'Reilly's are expecting their first child and dealing with the doubts and emotions that come with becoming a parent for the first time. Each family faces the truth of what really matters, that they have a limited time together as a family and need to make each moment count.

    As I was reading this book I found myself laughing and crying throughout. I truly enjoyed this book, and even though I am not a mother myself I found that I could relate to what the characters were going through because of the fact that I have a little sister who is 12 years old and turning into a teenager faster than I would like. This book reminded me that time with her as a child is very fleeting. I need to make the most of her childhood now while I can. Pretty soon she will not want to be tucked in and kissed every night, she won't want to cuddle with me while watching a movie, and she probably will not ask for my advice like she does now.

    I found that I within the four families I enjoyed reading and elated most to Butch's story, not because I am a single parent, but because my father was a single parent during my baby years, and I know first hand how much of a struggle it can be to provide everything for a family on your own.

    The biggest takeaway for me from this novel is that I have to make every moment count. Life is short, whether or not we want it to be. We need to make the most out of every situation, good or bad. My favorite part of the entire book came on page 363 when I read this quote, "God is not at all restrained by time. What I've perhaps wasted, he can multiply miraculously." I love this quote for various reason but mainly because it is true and gives the reader hope in God, hope for mending the wasted moments in life.

    Disclaimer: I received this book for free from Tyndale House Publishing in exchange for my honest review.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    I loved this book. I cried, I laughed, I cried some more. Even though my children are grown, when they were home I felt alot of those same feelings. Great characters. People who could be your next door neighbor or a family member. I am definitely passing this book off for others to read. I hate to say too much because you just need to read it. Great, uplifting, heart felt. LOVE.
  • Rating: 4 out of 5 stars
    4/5
    Time is PreciousThis book is about parenthood and the importance of spending quality time with loved ones. The story is told from the perspectives of four families. Each one has been impacted by the sudden death of Jenny Browning.Butch Browning is Jenny's husband. He now finds himself left to raise their child alone. It is a daunting task. The Anderson family's children are nearly grown. Can they make the most of the time they have left together? The Buckley's want only the best for their children, but are they truly giving them all they need? The O'Reilly's are going to be first-time parents. Will they be good parents?All of the parents in this book want to be the best influence they can be in the lives of their children. Jenny Browning's death causes all of them to rethink their values and realize that time is precious and fleeting. They each have only 18 summers with their children. How can they make the most of that time before it slips away?I found this book to be interesting and thought provoking. It is an easy read with an important message. If you are a parent, you will especially enjoy this book. It is an inspirational and enjoyable novel.I received a copy of this book from the publisher, through The Book Club Network (bookfun.org) in exchange for my honest review.
  • Rating: 3 out of 5 stars
    3/5
    This book was a fine crafted story. Because I am a mother of two teenage sons, as I read this story I felt a little guilt about some of my past parenting times. I do try to pick my battles, but I still find myself getting wrapped up in daily, little, things once in awhile. I did enjoy how Ava helped Butch to grow and look at life differently. I might seek out the movie this book was based off of. Or I might read this author again in the future.
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    Just 18 Summers is particularly relevant for many readers because it is about the brevity of parenthood, the struggles parents experience, and at least in the Western culture, trying to balance busy lives with our children's need for us to be there for them. Four families loosely connected to each other become the backdrop for the events embroidered on it. Some of the scenes are funny, some are poignant, some are very serious in nature. The book touched my heart in a good way, and I hope it does the same for you.Butch Browning was suddenly thrown into single fatherhood when his young wife died in a car crash. Butch and Jenny's daughter was 8 going on twenty it seemed. Since the day he received news of his wife's death, he could barely function in real life. He didn't know anything about rearing a little girl. Tippy's wife Daphne was pregnant with their first child. Tippy thought she was high strung before the pregnancy, but now she was fanatical about child care, child rearing and safety, and parenthood in general. He admitted to Butch that she had bought nearly 50 books on the topic. Daphne found some consolation in the scrapbooking group she attended once a week. The group had been started by Jenny, Butch's wife.Beth Anderson was also a part of the scrapbooking group her sister Jenny had started. It was a bright spot in what looked to be a difficult summer. Larry and Beth Anderson lived in a nice neighborhood. Larry was a great provider which allowed Beth to stay at home with their three children. But regrets reared their ugly heads after the death of Beth's sister. She realized how fleeting life really was, and it hit her hard when their oldest son graduated from high school. Larry, too, felt the crunch of time when he understood this was the last summer their family would experience as a whole unit. When Robin, 21, announced her engagement and upcoming marriage in the Fall, Beth went through full-blown panic, while Larry launched his last ditch effort towards family unity that he called The Summer of Intense Fun.Across the hedge from the Andersons were Charles and Helen Buckley. Helen was also part of the scrapbooking group Jenny had organized. They had noticed the sudden frenetic activity in their neighbor's yard--strange games with whipped cream and cherries, rocket-powered kites, picnics, charades, and Pictionary. It was not dignified and Helen was unsettled by it all. Charles hadn't noticed much because he was always away at work.One of the many things I loved about this book is the humor embedded in the multiple streams of the plot lines. For me, one of the funniest incidents was when the culinary-challenged dad, Butch, was to bake cupcakes for Ava's class. I could only laugh when Tippy showed up with a toolbox, especially later when they lost a screwdriver in the batter. I really have to try using a glass to cut out cupcake shapes from a sheetcake, just once. But the peanut butter covered beef jerky with M&M's on top really struck my funny bone. How could we not chuckle at such attempts to make little Ava's upside down life turn topside. I give Butch an A for effort.I enjoy character-based books as well as I like adventure and action books. Characterization is important in this book, especially in the addition of the deceased Jennifer Browning, whose presence is felt all throughout the story. In fact, her absence is the catalyst for the fallout two main characters experience and is the element the authors use to further bind the four families together. Her loss served to create tension; eventually that tension is resolved through the events of the storyline.Throughout the book, a single theme rings out loud and clear: time is short and you may never recover special family moments if you allow them to slip past you. Because four families are struggling with this basic factor, it tends to get repeated often in various ways. I found this a tad bit irritating. But that's just me.Overall, I give this book two thumbs up and recommend it to parents in all stages of life.Disclosure of Material Connection: I received a copy of this book from The Book Club Network on behalf of Tyndale House Publishers. I was not required to write a positive review. The opinions I have expressed are my own. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commissions 16 CFR, Part 255: "Guides Concerning the Use of Endorsements and Testimonials in Advertising."
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    Fantastic page turner made me think about my life! ?
  • Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
    5/5
    Just 18 Summers by Rene Gutteridge & Michelle Cox Four families face tough life lessons each in a unique, believable, and realist way. A parents worst nightmare comes true when Beth and Larry face an empty nest. Butch is left to face single parenthood after the death of his wife. Daphne and Tippy are preparing for their first child and Charles and Helen want their children to have everything they didn’t. Their stories intertwine and make a great story. I found Just 18 Summers to be refreshing and at times laugh out loud funny. The characters are down to earth and real. I could see me and my own daughter in this story. This is the first book I have read by Rene Gutteridge or Michelle Cox, but I plan to find more books by them. I really enjoyed this book. I recommend it to all that like Christian fiction. This book is worthy of 5 stars. It’s a great book for parents in all stages of raising their children. I want to give a high-five to the authors Rene Gutteridge and Michelle Cox and publisher Tyndale Fiction for bringing compelling Christian books that are entertaining and give hope to the reader with stories of faith. The Book Club Network Inc. provided me with this book in exchange for my honest review and I am so grateful for their, the authors and publishers generosity.

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Just 18 Summers - Michelle Cox

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BUTCH

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SED TO BE,

in the olden days, as his father-in-law called them, the seasons were predictable. Winter ushered in a chill that stayed in the bones until spring thawed the snow and ice and brought in comfortable temperatures, gradually warming day by day into summer, when stifling heat had to be endured only for a little while because fall was around the corner.

But that was before global warming, or as Butch Browning liked to describe it, before seasons became irrelevant. Now there were tornadoes in winter and heat waves in May.

The kind of sweat induced by both heat and extreme boredom dropped from his brow onto the face of his watch as he checked it for the fourth time in ten minutes. He tugged at the collar of the only starched shirt he owned and listened to a young woman, introduced by the principal as Madison Buckley, read from the dictionary during her valedictorian speech. She was literally reading, word for word, all the definitions of success. For the price of valedictoriandom, he thought she might be able to come up with one on her own, but it didn’t look like it.

Butch endured this graduation ceremony at the football stadium, during record-breaking heat on a virtually windless day, only for his nephew. Jenny’s nephew, to be exact. But this morning when he was thinking of skipping the ceremony and mailing the gift, he’d heard her displeasure, in the form of guilt, like a wave rolling him right out of his bed. She placed a lot of importance on family. Always had. When he’d had a falling-out with his father years ago, it was Jenny who worked to get them set right.

It wasn’t Butch’s thing, though.

He was soaking straight through his only good shirt, listening to an eighteen-year-old lecture other eighteen-year-olds on how to succeed in life. Yeah, well, life has a way of making sure you don’t see what’s coming. That’s what he’d say if he were up there.

He glanced down at Ava sitting next to him, her hip touching his. Now that Jenny was gone, she never sat by him without touching him. It was something he’d had to grow used to. He was a man who cherished personal space.

He’d been a lot of things before, with no clue as to what he should be now. Every day was like wandering into a dark forest with no map, no compass, and a flashlight that had pulled nearly all the juice from its nine-volt battery.

Ava tugged at the neck of her shirt. Sweater, to be exact. Christmas sweater, to be more exact. It had Rudolph on the front, with a bright-red blinky nose that had actually worked before Butch accidentally washed the battery pack he was supposed to know to remove. But it was the only thing he could find that was clean this morning, as they’d overslept and he’d rushed to get them both ready. He didn’t turn on the news to hear the meteorologist’s prediction of unseasonably warm weather. But who was he kidding? A sweater like this shouldn’t be worn past February—any idiot would know that.

His daughter’s cheeks were bright red and her bangs had curled into a wet mess on her forehead, but she sat upright, not complaining, focused on the young blonde woman at the podium who droned on and on about her vast achievements. Ava’s little mouth moved as she unconsciously repeated the words to herself. It broke Butch’s heart. Jenny used to do the same thing when she was intently focused on a conversation.

Finally, at the point that his deodorant had failed its commercial claim of lasting for twenty-four hours in the Sahara, they got around to calling out the names of the graduates.

Nathan Anderson, said the monotone voice over the loudspeaker. Cheers erupted and Butch clapped loudly and whistled through his fingers.

Ava, a sweaty mess of heat and charm, grinned at him. You gotta teach me how to do that whistle thing.

Okay, he said. At least once a day she asked him to teach her something. He hadn’t gotten around to any of it yet. He was still teaching himself how to do laundry. He’d almost gone broke buying them new packages of underwear every week for the first eight weeks after Jenny died. Now he could do the basics of throwing in a load with all the right colors, at the right temperature, with the right detergent—when he had the time.

He remembered a moment three weeks after they were married—Jenny holding up a white shirt that had ended up smeared with pink, thanks to the lipstick she’d left in a pocket. That laugh. He missed it. He craved it.

Suddenly hats shot high into the sky on the football field and the band started playing something triumphant. Time flies when you’re lost in thoughts of days before you had to learn to do laundry.

Like an avalanche, the crowd rolled down the bleachers and onto the field to find their graduates.

Hey, Ava, stay right by my— Butch looked down, but she was gone. Ava?

He barely caught the top of her little head bobbing between people as she raced to find her aunt Beth. Maybe he should worry about her more, but sometimes it seemed his little girl knew how to take care of herself better than he did.

With the back of his sleeve, he wiped his forehead as he made his way down the bleachers. The field was so crowded he was actually locked in place by a couple of families, unable to move anywhere. All he could do was stand there and wait for someone to step aside. Jenny used to tell him he should be more assertive, but he could only assert himself in the place he felt most comfortable—a construction site. So he just stood.

But then his gaze wandered to the place he’d tried not to look the entire time he’d been at the football stadium. Across the field were the home team’s bleachers. And eight rows up, in the center section, was the place he’d first seen Jenny. He’d transferred over from his old school and been backup quarterback his junior year. It wasn’t until his senior year that he even had the courage to talk to her. She sat in the same place every home game, cheering and holding up some kind of poster she’d made. He’d heard she used to be a cheerleader but blew out a knee her sophomore year. She was voted most liked their senior year. Four days before they graduated, he asked her out.

Madison! Beautifully done! a woman said. Butch snapped his attention back to the field. A striking and severe-looking blonde woman embraced the valedictorian. She swept the girl’s hair out of her face and smoothed her gown. I thought you were going to get your bangs trimmed.

He imagined what Jenny would say to Ava if she were valedictorian. Probably nothing about her bangs.

A man, presumably the girl’s father, shook her hand and nodded in agreement like they’d just signed a binding contract. The whole family seemed very pulled together, dressed correctly for the weather and weirdly sweat-proof.

Finally the sea of people moved and Butch was able to make it to Nathan, who he swore had grown a foot since he last saw him. He was now taller than his father, but still an inch short of Butch.

Congratulations, Nathan, Butch said. He handed him the small box he’d been clutching for two and a half hours. The paper was red, the corners crisp, the tape invisible. The silver bow sparkled in the sunlight.

Thanks, Uncle Butch. Nathan took the box.

Yeah, good job, Ava said, tugging at Nathan’s gown.

Nathan ruffled her hair and said, Thanks, Ava. Was it just him, or had this kid’s voice dropped four octaves?

Beth was now by Butch’s side, looking adoringly—not at Nathan and not at Ava, but at the package. Wow, look at that, would you? So well wrapped!

Oh, Jenny wrapped it before she . . . Well, obviously it was Jenny. She’d been eager to give this to Nathan for months.

He expected Beth’s expression to fade into the same one everybody wore around him these days, bobbing her head steadily as she tried to find words to change the subject without looking too obvious. If he’d seen it once, he’d seen it hundreds of times. The guys at the site were just now starting to look him in the eye, and only if it was more awkward not to.

But Beth didn’t do that. She smiled at him, met his eyes, just like old times.

They all watched Nathan unwrap the gift. He dropped the paper to the ground and opened the box, pulling out the small, brushed-silver pocket watch.

Beth stepped forward, touching it lightly with her fingertips. I recognize this.

Yeah, it was her father’s . . . Butch cleared his throat and tried a warm smile toward Beth. Your father’s, too. There’s an inscription inside.

Attention shifted back to Nathan as he opened the watch and read it. ‘Psalm 90:12. So teach us to number our days, that we may apply our hearts unto wisdom.

Beautiful, Beth said, patting her heart while simultaneously taking Butch by the arm, leading him to turf a few feet away.

Beth had a warmth about her that reminded him of Jenny. The sisters didn’t look alike, but they cared alike. Beth was just slightly nosier. Her hand was on his shoulder now. Are you okay?

He tried to appreciate the gesture. Yeah. I’m fine, Beth. We’re making it.

Are you sure?

Absolutely.

Because Ava’s wearing a Christmas sweater during a heat wave in May.

Oh . . . that . . . Butch sheepishly glanced his daughter’s way. Even while she was shaking the sweater to try to create a breeze on the inside, she still managed to look poised and carry on conversations. She was Jenny’s Mini-Me. I couldn’t find anything else that was clean.

As soon as he said it, he wished he hadn’t, because that kind of statement caused a woman like Beth to believe it was her moment to be a superhero. By indicating there might be a need in his household, he’d just handed her a cape and permission to dominate. He should’ve said something about misreading the weather report—thought there was a chance of snow.

. . . come over and do some laundry? I have to work tomorrow. Starting to sell a new line of party products. So far it’s beating my Tupperware stint. But I could definitely come over in the evening and even set up a system to—

No, I can do laundry.

Oh. She sniffed. Do you need a meal?

We’re fine.

I know Ava has a couple weeks of school left. Can I give her a ride?

I can do that.

Butch could almost hear the hiss of air leaking from Beth, like she was about to collapse right into the grass. Even her hair looked to be wilting.

Butch . . . She dabbed her wrist against each eye. I promised Jenny I’d help out with you guys if something ever . . . Beth placed a gentle hand over her mouth, pausing as the tears rested against the rims of her eyes. Let me live up to that promise.

Butch nodded, fully understanding the burden that came with not being able to lend a hand. Beth had a good heart.

You can. I promise. At some point. But right now, I’ve got this new life. I need to get used to it.

For once they seemed to understand each other. Beth inflated with a smile, a warm hug, and a whispered thank-you. She came away a little wetter, but they’d had a moment Butch knew she needed.

You know we pray for you every day, Beth said as she stepped back.

Yep. Thanks.

Then he felt a hard punch on his arm. He turned to find Tippy standing next to him, grinning like a ten-year-old. Butch.

Hey, Tippy. Hi, Daphne. Butch assumed Daphne had come to support Beth, but he knew there were a thousand other things Tippy would’ve rather been doing. Butch could relate.

Daphne, however, seemed fully engulfed in something else. It wasn’t immediately clear what that was. Since she’d gotten pregnant, Tippy had lamented on the job site every day about what was happening to his wife. She’s lost her mind, he would whisper, almost like she might be somewhere close enough to hear him make the confession. Last week he’d described her sudden need to clean everything in the house—and not just clean, but scrub till the germs scream and run. But she seemed fine to Butch when they worked on the company’s books, so it was hard to know.

Are you two coming to the party? Beth asked them.

Tippy nodded just as Daphne answered, Oh, we can’t. The book says I need to synchronize my sleep schedule with when I want the baby to sleep. I’m already six minutes late for my nap.

Yeah, what was up with Madison’s speech? I think the polar ice caps melted during point number seven, Tippy said.

Shhh! Daphne subtly pointed over her shoulder in a way that said, Don’t look. Naturally Butch looked.

Oooooh. He was putting it together. Madison’s mom was Helen, a lady Jenny used to scrapbook with. They were neighbors with Beth and Larry. He’d thought they looked vaguely familiar in a neighborhood-barbecue sort of way.

Daphne rubbed her belly with both hands, circles in opposite directions like the wax on, wax off scene from The Karate Kid. Beth, I’ll see you at scrapbooking, she said.

Butch glanced at Tippy, who looked weary just thinking about what was ahead for him at home. See you at work tomorrow, buddy, Butch said.

Save me, Tippy mouthed as Daphne pulled him along. They disappeared into the crowd.

Butch wished he could offer Tippy some advice, but the truth was, he wasn’t around much when Jenny was pregnant with Ava. He was consumed with work, trying to make enough money to support this kid he was bringing into the world. He’d worked long hours and weekends, too. Before he knew it, the pregnancy was over and Ava had arrived.

The conversation moved on to other things and Butch was left alone for a moment. He observed Ava chatting with the adults like she was one of them. When he was eight, he couldn’t have carried on a conversation with an adult if his life depended on it.

He was about to grab Ava and leave when he once again found himself within earshot of Helen. He tried to remember her husband’s name. Jenny had talked about them, said they were the kind of people she had a hard time relating to. But Jenny always found the best in everyone. She had faith in people even when they didn’t deserve it. She believed every person had a good side.

He took a couple of steps back, just for eavesdropping purposes, and turned slightly to observe as he heard the father ask if Madison was ready for her gift.

Diamond earrings, Butch guessed. That’s what he would want to get Ava for her graduation gift, even though he’d have to save for months.

He noticed no one was holding any kind of gift. Instead the father took Madison by the shoulders and turned her toward the parking lot. Right there, he said, pointing.

Helen and Madison were both looking the direction he pointed, as was Butch. They all saw it at the same time: a brand-new black Mustang with a big yellow bow on it. The father handed Madison the keys and she squealed, jumping up and down, hugging everyone around her, then running toward the car, two younger siblings trailing in delight.

Butch stared at the car in disbelief. He’d wanted a Mustang his whole life.

Can we really afford that, Charles? Helen asked.

Charles. Right. That was his name. Jenny said she’d met him only a couple of times but that he seemed to be an uptight kind of fellow. He and Helen looked to be in their early forties, but their stuffy ways—and late-generation names—suggested they were older.

Oh yes, Charles said. He didn’t appear that uptight. He’d bought a car without his wife knowing and seemed extremely sure it was okay.

Do you know something about our budget that I don’t? Helen asked.

Butch was in a full-blown stare now. She really didn’t have a clue that Charles had bought a car, and by the strained look on her face and the way her eyebrows were almost touching her hairline, Butch realized this could get ugly very fast. At least there was something interesting to listen to on this football field.

Charles turned toward his wife and took her hands. Well . . . I was going to wait until after the party to tell you this, but since you asked . . . I got a promotion!

Helen jumped into his arms. It felt a bit like Christmas Vacation, when Clark announced they were getting a pool, until she abruptly stopped the hug and adjusted herself from the top down.

It’s a big one, too! Charles said.

But the squealing was apparently over. Butch sighed and turned away from the glee. He observed Ava for a moment and wondered if diamond earrings would be the last thing on earth she’d want. Was he that out of touch? Didn’t every girl want diamond earrings?

No. Every girl wanted a sports car. How was he going to be able to afford a car for her? At best, it’d be an old clunker, the kind with half the paint stripped off that you could hear coming a mile away.

Just then Larry, Beth’s husband, gathered everyone around and turned to Nathan. We got you a present!

What? Nathan asked.

Here you go! And with great dramatic flair, he held out keys.

Butch shifted his attention to Nathan, expecting him to howl with excitement. He didn’t.

These are the keys to the car I already own, Nathan said flatly.

I know. I filled it up with gas.

Oh. Awesome. Nathan, good kid that he was, was trying awfully hard to look enthusiastic, but his shineless eyes weren’t cooperating.

Larry smiled and patted him on the back. And there might be a check on the driver’s seat.

Nathan grinned and started trotting toward the car.

Family wasn’t his thing, but Butch knew there was a reason he liked Jenny’s so much. They were grounded, for one. And as he watched Ava cling to Beth’s waist, he knew no matter what, he had to keep them in her life, even if it meant having Beth come do his laundry once a month.

He just hoped his little girl could endure a life full of disappointments. He wasn’t going to be able to give her what Jenny had given her. Jenny had almost a magical way about her, like she was born to be a mom and had superpowers to prove it.

Butch, on the other hand, knew how to draw a paycheck and keep up on the mortgage. That was it.

There was no fairy dust. Just sawdust.

Come on, Ava, Butch said, taking her hand. Time to go.

Are we going to the party? she asked. Beth slid an arm around her shoulder. A hopeful expression grew on both their faces.

Well, um . . . yeah, maybe we’ll stop by. We’ve got things to do. Laundry and whatnot. We’ll see.

Ava began walking, glancing back at Beth. That’s a no, if you’re wondering.

Butch waved and they walked to the truck together. Maybe he should take Ava to do something fun today. A trip to the park. He opened the door and she climbed into the front seat, where Jenny would’ve never let her ride, but where she’d been riding since the day Jenny died.

Once inside the truck, he turned on the air conditioner full blast. Her hair blew backward like she had stepped into the path of a hurricane. It looked like she was riding the wind. The seat nearly swallowed her whole, though. Sometimes, with all her wisdom and maturity, he had to be reminded of how small she was.

As he managed his way out of the crowded parking lot, Butch knew the truth was that he didn’t really know how to talk to his daughter. He knew he should talk more. Mostly they watched TV together and let other people do the talking for them.

Cool enough? he asked over the noise of the air conditioner.

Ava nodded. Her cheeks were returning to their normal color.

Hey, listen, sorry about the sweater thing. I don’t know what I was thinking.

That’s okay. Just like her mom, she always forgave. Always.

He reached for the radio. Mind if I put on the game?

Go ahead.

He smiled at her because above all things, he loved to see her smile.

And on cue, she did. Go Chiefs. She pumped her fist.

Red Sox.

Football?

Baseball. It’s baseball season now.

Oh. Got it. Go Red Sox.

You betcha. They’re going to be good this year.

That’s good.

Yep.

Pizza tonight again?

You want hot wings instead?

Pizza’s okay. Hot wings are usually just for adults.

You’re sure?

I’m sure.

He smiled and drove on, but he knew something—he’d never really understood women, and he certainly didn’t understand them in pint size.

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HANK YOU SO MUCH FOR COMING!"

From the door of her home, Beth waved graciously at the final guests to leave the party. They were church friends whose daughter used to babysit Nathan. That sweet, mature teenager was now an attorney with two kids of her own. How was that possible?

Inside, she heard the commotion of her family still buzzing with the excitement of the party. She stood with her back against the door, observing streamers scattered across the wood floor, balloons deflating on the table, a half-eaten cake with clumps of icing on her finest silver cake server.

She could still remember Nathan’s first taste of cake, on his first birthday—a small version of the big cake they’d served to family. He’d gobbled it down without even a second thought. Robin, her eldest, had taken an entirely different approach to her first piece of cake. She gently stuck her finger into the icing, prodding it as if testing to see if it was alive. With great hesitation, she licked a very small piece of icing off that finger, eyed the slice suspiciously, then pointed to a spoon. Once she had a utensil in hand, she went forward, eating the cake with the other hand, holding the spoon in the air the entire time. Chip wouldn’t touch his cake and to this day had a strong aversion toward icing that nobody could really explain. Beth thought it might be due to the cupcake binge she’d gone on three days before he was born.

Now, in a few short weeks, Nathan would be off to college. Robin was home for the summer. She’d been away at college, getting her basics, undecided in her life goals, but Beth tried not to push. A couple of months ago Robin had talked about taking some summer classes. They’d have to discuss that soon. After that, only Chip would be left at home, and if Beth wasn’t careful, in the blink of an eye he’d be gone . . . grown. He was already taller than she, passing her by two inches in the spring.

Beth stepped toward the cake table, taking the knife and wiping the icing off with a napkin. What was happening to her life? When had motherhood begun to flee? It was the only thing she knew. She could barely remember life before kids. What did she do with all her time?

Cupping her hand, she began dusting the crumbs off the table into the other hand. Behind her, echoes of the family all together, all under the same roof, gave her peace.

Soon she went to join them in the living room, smiling through the pain of realizing that come August, they were going to lose Nathan. Not lose him like he was a set of keys, but lose him from the safe haven of the only place he’d called home. He’d gotten a scholarship to Ohio State. It was a fifteen-hour-and-thirty-two-minute trip by car, if you averaged Google Maps with MapQuest. She’d checked it three times.

Beth paused just inside the room, listening to Nathan laugh. His voice was so deep. He was, after all, eighteen, but she could still see that boyish charm in those big, beautiful eyes, now shadowed by a strong brow, just like his father’s. Robin giggled the same way she had since she was two. Beth watched them all as they relived the worst valedictorian speech ever, with Chip, fourteen going on twelve, imitating Madison as she kept flipping her hair with her fingers while she spoke. Shhh! Beth said. The Buckleys were their neighbors, and though she was certain a great deal of space and building materials separated the two homes, Helen was nosy enough to render walls useless.

You did great, honey, Larry said, walking to Beth and bringing her to his side. That cake was amazing! Glad we have some left. He pecked her cheek and grabbed the remote to turn on the TV. She marveled at how he didn’t seem at all bothered by the lasts that were taking place right in front of their eyes.

Nathan, engrossed in his phone, lightly punched her on the arm as he walked by. Yeah. Good party, Mom.

She mustered a smile while remembering him standing in that very spot, holding his diaper in one hand and a wipe in another, having decided at the age of eighteen months that he was perfectly capable of changing himself. Then he wet the floor. It had been such an inconvenience . . . they were late for church and she had a big mess to clean up. But what she wouldn’t give to be able to hold him in his diaper again.

I’m going to bed, she said, starting to head upstairs.

What? So soon? Larry asked. "Cake Boss is

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