Dads Under Construction: Adventures in Fatherhood
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Many men today feel set adrift from the notion of themselves as "father." Times have changed, and the old, familiar, traditional models of parenting no longer work. Society has not yet evolved a strong and workable new model of parenting, or, in particular, of fathering.
Dr. Neil Campbell believes the answer to the question "what is an involved father?" can be found within the experiences and stories of our own lives. In this book, he takes us into his life, first as a son, then as a father, sharing some of the profound insights he learned along the way.
Neil Campbell
Neil Campbell is a short story writer, novelist and poet. From Manchester, England, he has appeared three times in the annual anthology of Best British Short Stories (2012/2015/2016). He has published four collections of short fiction, two novels, two poetry chapbooks and one poetry collection, as well as appearing in numerous magazines and anthologies.
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Dads Under Construction - Neil Campbell
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FREEZING MY FATHER’S PYJAMAS
I was fifteen years old, the time of life when mischief takes hold of a young man. Who better a target than my father, who was a staid fifty-eight? He was an industrious man who worked long hours operating a laundromat and working as a telegrapher with the railway. Out of necessity, he usually went to bed early.
My father had a thing about being cold. He often felt chilly. Winter was never his favourite season. And of course, his creature comforts at bedtime were very important to him. He always had his pyjamas folded neatly under his pillow, and he looked forward to getting into a warm bed for a good night’s sleep.
One evening, several hours before his bedtime, I snuck into the master bedroom and took his pyjamas from under his pillow. I quietly made my way to the laundry room, filled my mother’s laundry spray bottle with cold water, and sprayed the PJs thoroughly. Then I put them into the freezer. One hour later, shortly before he went upstairs to get ready for bed, I retrieved the pyjamas, which by then were frozen stiff, and put them back under his pillow. I left the room and waited in gleeful anticipation as he came upstairs and prepared to go to bed.
From down the hallway came his startled exclamation. He immediately called out to my mother, wanting to know who was responsible for this deed. He got to bed somewhat later than usual that night because he had to defrost the pyjamas in the dryer.
I played this trick on him several times during my teen years, and he would always give the same startled yelp. He knew very well who was freezing his pyjamas. Years later, he told my mother that he appreciated this prank I’d played on him. He said that in a strange sort of way, it made him feel important.
During the period when I was growing up, in the 1950s and 60s, father
meant the authority figure, the one in charge, the breadwinner. Certain roles were expected of my father, even though he did not always understand how to play them out in his own life. He resolved this uncertainty by working very hard, the only thing he knew how to do, and the only thing he was sure was expected of men. The frozen pyjamas prank I pulled on my father was one way I had of poking fun at him — a way to challenge his authority role. I had found a way to engage him in play.
As the years passed, my father grew wise enough to see this. Instinctively, he knew it was because I cared so deeply about him, and because I cared about what he thought of me, that he had become the target of this and other pranks. That’s what he had meant when he told my mother that it made him feel important. He sensed that this was one way I had of differentiating myself from him, of declaring my own personhood, separate and distinct from him. At the same time, it was a way that we could connect with each other. That’s why he never really became angry about the frozen pyjamas.
Some children find it difficult to find positive ways to declare their independence. They may resort to negative acting out
behaviour, such as getting into trouble at school or perhaps breaking curfew. So, too, some fathers find it difficult to let go of the authority role. They cannot bear to have this role challenged. Sometimes they absent themselves from the situation altogether. When that dynamic emerges, the scene is set for a power struggle that can reverberate throughout a child’s life, right into adulthood. My father received the message from my pranks that I needed to challenge his role, and he accepted this playfully. He and I grew closer in our relationship.
PIG TIED TO A WAGON
My father shared very few stories with me of his own childhood, and what he did share was usually at my prompting. My father was raised on a one hundred and fifty acre farm located ten kilometres north of Elmira, Ontario. Farming in the area was mixed, but focussed on growing a variety of seed grains. My father’s was a self-sufficient farm typical of the time: crops included hay, vegetables, and a variety of fruits, while the livestock consisted of cattle, horses, pigs, and chickens.
It was difficult for me to comprehend my father simply having fun as a child.
One playful story he recalled was in the context of hard work. Two other stories were of mishaps that were quite painful to him, and one of them made him feel devalued by a family member.
With these three stories that he would tell me, it was always left up to me to determine what the meaning of them had been for him.
The playful story was of an incident when he was nine years of age and playing with his older brother with a children’s wagon in the farmyard behind the barn. After awhile, they became bored and decided to liven things up a bit. They went into the pigpen and tied a pig to the front of the wagon. Both my uncle and my father attempted to sit down inside the wagon with the intention that the pig would pull them. Just as they got inside the wagon though, the pig started running all over the pen. Suddenly the wagon tipped over and both my uncle and my father fell out. The pig then continued running toward the fence. The wagon shattered as it hit the railings. The fence itself toppled and the pig ran off, dragging the rope and pieces of wood behind it. My uncle and father scrambled to their feet and started chasing after the pig. Eventually they were able to corner it and bring it back to the pen.
When they got back, my grandfather was standing there looking very stern indeed. He scolded them for the damage that had been done and told them to fix the fence. And he announced that they would not get a new wagon.
To me, it sounded like an ingenious, playful activity for my father to engage in, like something fun with a disastrous outcome. My father did not see it that way.
In the second story that he would tell me, he was about eleven years old. Working in the barn, he cornered a squirrel, bent down, and tried to pick it up. The squirrel, quite frightened, bit my father’s thumb, piercing his nail. The injury was incredibly painful, and he had to be seen by the local doctor. He received several stitches to his thumb and was left with scars for the rest of his life.
In the third story, my father recalled a time that he was visiting relatives. He had not yet entered puberty and was still quite short for his age. His cousin, who was the same age, had grown considerably the previous year. Immediately upon entering his relatives’ home, my father was asked by his aunt to stand beside his suddenly lanky cousin. Comparisons of their height were made, and his aunt pointed out the disparity in size to the family members present. My father felt quite devalued by this situation and by his aunt, and the feeling would stay with him all of his life.
Most of the time my father was an all-work-and-no-play sort of guy. I figured out pretty early in my life that if I wanted to play with my father, I would have to teach him how. To hear a story about a pig tied to a wagon helped me to understand that at one time my father had been a boy and had known how to have fun.
The scar on his thumb always reminded me that my father had had a childhood. I knew he had been a typical boy who took risks — in his case wanting