A Thousand Doors
By Matt Pasca
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Poet Matt Pasca explores how personal suffering can be transformed into grace, as if through alchemy, when that grief can be shared with others. Using the Buddhist “Mustard Seed” parable as scaffolding, Pasca’s work pays homage to Kisa Gotami’s quest to save her son by finding a home where, impossibly, no suffering has befallen the inhabitants. Pasca’s poems manuever deftly between the seemingly simple and mundane details of the world around us and the sublime world we often miss in the myopia of our pain. Just as Gotami comes to see her grief reflected in the eyes behind the doors upon which she desperately knocks, we too find our own sorrows and pleasures illumined by the light of Pasca’s unflinching exploration and delicate crafting. In the end, A Thousand Doors testifies to the necessity of sharing our stories with courage and vulnerability, and how doing so can lead us further down the path of joy.
Matt Pasca
Matt Pasca makes his home on the south shore of Long Island in Bay Shore, New York with his wife Terri and sons Rainer and Atticus. A graduate of Cornell University and Stony Brook University, he has taught Creative Writing, Mythology and Literature at Bay Shore High School since 1997. He was named New York State Teacher of Excellence in 2003 and is the adviser of The Writers’ Block, named Most Outstanding High School Literary-Art Magazine for 2010 by the American Scholastic Press Association. This is Pasca’s first full-length manuscript. For bookings and inquiries, contact Matt at simileman@optonline.net.
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A Thousand Doors - Matt Pasca
T h e S t o r y
The title of this collection was inspired by a Buddhist parable about a poor woman named Kisa Gotami whose overwhelming joy at having birthed a son turned to crushing grief when the boy suddenly took ill and died. Crazed with sorrow, Kisa Gotami pleaded with everyone she saw to help bring the boy back to life. A kind man directed her to the Buddha, who, she was told, might have the medicine she so frantically sought. Kisa Gotami rushed to the Buddha’s monastery. Here you will find the help you need,
said the Buddha, but first you must do something for me. You must return to the city from which you just came, find me a single mustard seed and bring it back.
Kisa’s face lit up. Most importantly,
continued the Buddha, the seed must come from a family in which no one has died.
Kisa Gotami rushed back to her town, stopped at the first house and knocked at the door. An old woman answered. She eagerly gave Kisa Gotami a mustard seed—all India used them in cooking. But just as the seed was placed in Kisa’s palm, she remembered the Buddha’s stipulation. The old woman’s head lowered. I’m sorry to say the answer is yes. My dear husband died six months ago.
I am so sorry,
said Kisa. Thank you for your kindness, but I cannot take this seed.
Minutes later, she knocked at the door of another house where a young woman saw Kisa standing in the doorway and came to greet her. Can I help you?
she asked. I am looking for a single mustard seed from a household in which no one has died,
explained Kisa. We cannot help you. I am sorry. We lost our mother two years ago,
stated the young woman, quietly. For many months I was so unhappy I didn’t know how to go on, but I knew I had to help my father take care of my brothers and sisters. That’s what my mother would have wanted.
Kisa Gotami continued to the next house, and then to another, but always someone had lost a beloved—a brother or sister, a grandparent, an aunt or cousin, a mother or father. After a time, nightfall came. Kisa Gotami sat down, rested against a tree and felt a gradual change in herself. Not a single household she had visited lived untouched by death. Many suffered just as she did now. She was not alone. Somehow, with these thoughts, her grief lightened a bit and she returned home. The next day, Kisa Gotami readied her son for his funeral, tears streaming down her cheeks as she said farewell. Afterwards, Kisa Gotami returned to the monastery to speak with the Buddha, who saw the change in her face. He asked, Did you bring me a tiny grain of mustard?
No, teacher. I am done looking for the mustard seed. I know that in the whole city, in the whole world, there is not one person free from the certainty of death and suffering. At last I have said goodbye to my son. I felt terribly alone in my grief, but now I know there are many others who have lost what they most cherished. We must help each other, as you have helped me.
C o n t e n t s
The Story
T H E B U D D H A ’ S T E S T
Call to Prayer
E-Train Blues
Tanyou
The Oldest Story
Passing It On
On Your 36th Birthday
In Lieu of Narnia
Letters
This Week Had Arms
Ghosts
Perigee
March Baseball
Redshift
Feet
Gateau de Mille-Feuilles (Cake of a Thousand Leaves)
For Remus Lupin
Osiris Speaks to Isis
Head of the Bomb Squad
Shirts and Skins
It’s Never the Flesh
Misplaced
Natalie, Who
Ode to NPR
A Thank You to William Bayard Cutting
Thoughts of an Almost Dad
The Blow
Halfway
K N O C K I N G O N D O O R S
Grace
Grabbing at Water
Silence
Estuary
Narrowsburg, NY
Night Owl
Mako Sica
Orchard
The Payoff
In Praise of Exposure
Opening Day
Show and Tell
Waffle House Blues
Imagining Dubya
Relapse
Mailboxes
Not the Me Myself
The Leaf Inspector
Trunk
Closing of a Nation
Dead of Winter
Definitions of a Baseball
White Boys of Summer
Pumps
Blue Sign, Route 30
T H A N K I N G T H E B U D D H A
Wash
Remnants
Half-Mast
Five-Cent Poem
Robert Moses Field Two, 1983
The Egyptian Collection
Antalya
For the Taliban
The Mathematics of Letting Go
At Knollwood
Toll
The Listmaker
Long Poems
To My One-Month-Old
Where I’m From
Satellite
Commencement
Certain Voyage
The Peconic
Racing Toothpicks
When Joy Breaks
Acknowledgements & Thanks