This book came out of the struggle to try and explain it all to my kids. I want to leave some kind of record that sets things straight, pokes holes in the mythology that’s sprung up around me, destroys some of the legends and keeps the piranhas off. Something that documents the time I was on this planet with some kind of accuracy. Because what exists on the record now has no bearing at all on the truth.
Paul Newman
Joanne made me feel sexy.
We made a point during Picnic [the Broadway play both were in] and afterwards to let the lusty aspects of ourselves have time to function without interruption or distraction; I think we were pretty good about that, we left a trail of lust all over the place. Hotels and motels and public parks and bathrooms and swimming pools and ocean beaches and rumble seats and Hertz rental cars.
I don’t know that Joanne and I sat around questioning our morals. There was passion in what we had. Something had happened to us and we had no idea where it was going. One day I’d determine to commit to her, and the next day, faced with having to do it, I’d find I couldn’t bring myself to break away from [Paul’s wife] Jackie.
I remember a night when everything exploded on me. I was leaving our house for the theatre, the kids were carrying on, there was food all over the floor. I just wanted to drop down on my knees and
