They Searching for identity in rural Utah.

I AM A MAN, but sometimes I hate it. It is an inexplicable sensation — dysphoria, defined by Merriam-Webster as “a state of feeling very unhappy, uneasy, or dissatisfied.” Sometimes, I am all those things. Sometimes, I am none.

I feel privileged for being comfortable with my anatomy, for feeling at home with pronoun. Still, I lose myself in a suit because it makes me feel