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Little Mouse

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The other day, when I saw a dead mouse in the middle of my way, I stood still and said: What is this? Why do you lie here so quietly? Having barely entered this life, you are already fleeing from it. Well, let me the jolly path your life has taken: There were certainly no words wasted when you arrived here, a baptism was probably a waste. You never went to school, no teachers were ever forced to work themselves to death over you. You knew from the first day how to find your place in this life. When it came to your upbringing, higher studies, knowledge, awareness, you were free to do without all that. You never had any piano lessons, dancing lessons, gymnastics lessons, or other kind of lesson. You were born with grace and agility and an entirely natural sense of decency. Shoes, socks, hat, and gloves remained unknown to you. You always wore the same suit. Did you have any brothers and sisters, uncles, aunts, and cousins? Were you by any chance married? These are questions we all rather not ask in the end because they are all too complicated. Of course, my dear mouse, you never had to care about anything. Our kind is full of doubts; we convince ourselves of God knows, we make our time on this earth as annoying as possible; we struggle and wear ourselves down, we seemingly go mad with all those delicate worries of ours. It is obvious that you were very happy just to be alive, you had hardly any worries at all, which make you, in almost all cases, nothing but frustrated anyway. I doubt I am very much mistaken, when I think about how you loved to squeeze through small crevices. A small quantity of leaves was the world in which you lived, you liked to crawl under rocks. When we humans see a bit of grass, you must see something quite large. Trees, oak trees, for example, must have seemed colossal to you, if you were ever able to overlook such girth and such grandness. Even a hare must have seemed rather respectable to you. Yet you were especially afraid of cats, so much that you avoided even the slightest chance of trouble. Your voice was a whistling, and your walk was like a dart. You could not speak German, nor French or English, you clung to your Mouselish, it was enough to be able to talk to your own kind. You did not create any kind of important work in your life. You never had a need to travel. This makes you no less important in the eyes of our Father up there in the clouds, which floated above you as well as any other beings on earth. So goodbye.—And when I had said all this, I continued walking.

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