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    Slepless Memories: Insomniac, #1
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    Insomniac

    By Lidy Dellan

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    VORMORT

    Entweder du wischst deine Tränen mit diesen hier geschriebenen weg oder erweckst sie wieder zum Leben. Du begegnest ein paar Lächeln, ein paar Tränen. Du hast Anfälle von Seufzern, die auf Gefühle prallen, und nimmst ein Glas Wein in der Hoffnung, dass es versucht, den Knoten in deinem Hals zu lösen.

    Es ist ein Lesezeichen - wie sie es gerne sagt -, das die Erinnerungen markiert, die du naiv geglaubt hast, versteckt zu haben, und dich spüren lässt, dass sie immer noch da sind, auch wenn du versuchst, sie rückgängig zu machen. Unerwartet tauchen ein paar Schmerzen im Körper auf, um diese Emotionen zu somatisieren, die du nicht ablassen wolltest; die, die du aus Stolz oder aus Angst, zu schwach zu sein, geschluckt hast.

    Du erinnerst dich an all diese Orgasmen, die mit Tränen endeten; an Fehler in anderen Betten und an die Unzufriedenheit mit einem Bildschirm voller obszöner Bilder. Und Krallen lassen die Liebe auftauchen, die du so sehr zu ersticken versuchst. Du betrinkst dich mit ein wenig Sex, Sarkasmus und Schmerz; ein wenig mehr von dem, was du fühlst, aber nicht ausdrücken kannst; du liest es, lebst es wieder und das Unbehagen kehrt zurück. Du schließt es und erinnerst dich daran, wie masochistisch du bist, weil du es weiterlesen willst, um das Gute zwischen dem Schlechten, das du zu vergessen versuchst, wiederzubeleben.

    Du suchst nach einem weiteren Glas Wein und entscheidest dich immer wieder weiterzumachen...

    Wahrscheinlich markieren ein paar Tränen es und du schaffst es nicht, es auf deinen Nachttisch zu legen; nicht nur das Kissen begleitet dich jetzt, sondern auch tausende von Geschichten.

    Es ist nicht so schlimm, nach allem; denn du weißt, dass es auch jemand anderem passiert ist.

    Hilmar Báez

    LanguageDeutsch
    PublisherLidy Dellan
    Release dateApr 30, 2023
    Slepless Memories: Insomniac, #1

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      Slepless Memories: Insomniac, #1

      Lidy Dellan
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      You either wipe away your sorrows with the words written here or you relive them. You come across a couple of smiles, a couple of tears. You have bouts of sighs colliding with emotions and you take a sip of wine in the hope that it will help ease the knot in your throat. It is a bookmark - as she often says - marking the memories that you naively thought you had hidden, making you feel that they are still there, even if you pretend to get rid of them.   Unexpectedly, a couple of pains in the body appear to somatize those emotions that you did not want to drain; those that you swallowed out of pride or fear of being too weak. You remember all those orgasms ended with tears; the mistakes in other beds and the unsatisfied feeling from a screen loaded with obscene images. And some claws make that love that you are desperately trying to put out resurface. You intoxicate yourself with a little bit of sex, sarcasm, and pain; a little more than what you feel but cannot express; you read it, relive it, and the discomfort returns.   You close it and remember how masochistic you are, because you want to keep reading to relive the good amidst the bad that you are trying to forget. You look for another glass of wine and always choose to continue...probably a couple of tears will mark it and you won't be able to put it on your nightstand; it is no longer just the pillow that accompanies you, but thousands of stories, too. It's not so bad after all, because you know it happened to someone else too.

      You either wipe away your sorrows with the words written here or you relive them. You come across a couple of smiles, a couple of tears. You have bouts of sighs colliding with emotions and you take a sip of wine in the hope that it will help ease the knot in your throat. It is a bookmark - as she often says - marking the memories that you naively thought you had hidden, making you feel that they are still there, even if you pretend to get rid of them.   Unexpectedly, a couple of pains in the body appear to somatize those emotions that you did not want to drain; those that you swallowed out of pride or fear of being too weak. You remember all those orgasms ended with tears; the mistakes in other beds and the unsatisfied feeling from a screen loaded with obscene images. And some claws make that love that you are desperately trying to put out resurface. You intoxicate yourself with a little bit of sex, sarcasm, and pain; a little more than what you feel but cannot express; you read it, relive it, and the discomfort returns.   You close it and remember how masochistic you are, because you want to keep reading to relive the good amidst the bad that you are trying to forget. You look for another glass of wine and always choose to continue...probably a couple of tears will mark it and you won't be able to put it on your nightstand; it is no longer just the pillow that accompanies you, but thousands of stories, too. It's not so bad after all, because you know it happened to someone else too.

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    Lidy Dellan

    Lover of poetry and raw writings. Intense and passionate. Teacher and podcaster.

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