Back to the 1980s

By Jared Jordan

In her previous life, she had been a submissive softie.
Her closest family members would only say to her:
——'You have to be patient, you have to be considerate, you have to be tolerant, and you have to dedicate yourself to make everyone happy. '
Everybody get out of here! ! ! !
……
If she had to live her life again, would she continue to endure it? No!
She wants to quarrel with her parents! She wants to slap big brother! She wants to kick the scumbag! She wants to use this tone to create something for everyone!
It turns out that only by refusing to be mentally exhausted and forcing others to death can you be happy.
She had a great enlightenment, as if she had opened the door to a new world!

• Language: English
• Publisher: Jared Jordan
• Release date: May 3, 2024
• ISBN: 9798224974986

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Chapter 1

'B ang bang, click.. . clang. '

From time to time, there was the sound of smashing things in a corner room in the courtyard.

Aunt Mu, who was standing in the yard drying her clothes, looked at her and asked the people next to her strangely, Didn't Ye Damo's family go to dinner? Why is there anyone at home now?

Her third child didn't go.

Didn't she go with us? Aunt Mu shook her head in confusion.

It's a rare occasion to have a big banquet at a relative's house, where you can have good wine and good food. Why don't you come along at this time?

If she thought so, she could guess why.

The third child of the Crane family has always been too quiet, and sometimes being quiet is not a good thing. Every household has several children, and they do not fight, fight, or make trouble. In the end, the only one who suffers is himself.

Just like Crane.

After living in the same compound for so many years, she had watched Kelan suffer a lot at home, both openly and secretly.

But this is other people's business, and she won't interfere. She just sighs: If I have to go along and hold a big banquet, then I can't be a big fish...

Before I finished speaking, I couldn't continue.

Aunt Mu stared at the people coming out of Crane's house with wide eyes, her eyes focused on the big bowl she was holding in her hand.

The bowl is full of bacon and fish. Isn't this better than going to a banquet and fighting for it with others?

Martha, who was spinning a ball of yarn nearby, raised her eyebrows. Lillian, what were you doing at home just now? You were banging so loudly.

Lillian, holding a large bowl, found a railing and sat down.

He answered casually, I opened a cabinet.

And smashed a lock by the way.

You’re not even to mention.

The meat that is taken out from the cupboard after breaking the lock is especially delicious!

Lillian picked up a piece of bacon and sniffed it.

With its unique smoky and salty aroma, paired with all these delicious fish and meat, she can eat two bowls of rice!

Seeing that she had no fear on her face, Martha said meaningfully, You seem to be in a good mood.

The housekeepers all understood that this meat was not just left there randomly.

Even if it is kept in the house, it has to be locked in a cupboard, lest some greedy person in the house can't hold it back and open the cupboard to eat.

The Cranes are the same.

When Lillian suddenly brought out such a large bowl of meat, it was definitely not as simple as opening a cupboard.

When Ye Damo and his group come back, there will definitely be a commotion.

However, Lillian didn't know if she didn't understand the deeper meaning of her words.

The cooked cured fish and bacon were very delicious, and I took the time to reply, It's quite good.

How could it be bad.

She was in such a good mood that she couldn't help but throw her head back and laugh wildly.

I have lived for so many years and held my breath for so long.

As the third child born in the family, the eldest sister above her was given away for adoption at a very young age. The man the Crane family had been waiting for for several years finally arrived, and suddenly she became pregnant at a rare moment.

She is less than a year older than her eldest brother.

She is obviously younger, but all the attention in the family is on her eldest brother.

Because he couldn't stop breastfeeding, she had to be weaned less than a month after she was born. The aunt next door couldn't stand it, so she took her away and raised her for half a year because she was about to die.

After she grew up, her family began to educate and remind her very early.

Tell her that people should be more tolerant, understanding, and tolerant...

It was like a circle of shackles that trapped her before she could react, making her unable to break free.

So that the years of growing up.

She had to give in. For the sake of her elder brother who had failed the high school entrance exam twice in a row, she had to drop out of school despite her excellent grades and give up the opportunity to study to her elder brother who was as stupid as a pig.

She has to understand that just for the extra twenty or thirty yuan in salary, she had to change her job to the hardest and most tiring one in order to reduce the burden on her parents and try to save money for her eldest brother to get married in advance. It would be even better if she could save money for her younger brother to study and get married at the same time.

She also has to be tolerant.

The man she had been dating for many years cheated on her, but his family was well-off, so she had to tolerate it. But she was making a fuss over a small mistake...

This relationship is indeed inappropriate.

Wayne's mother was a clerk in the street office, and his father was one of the first people to go into business in the early 1980s. Compared with the Clan family, who had five members of a family living in a small house in a slum, they were definitely marrying up.

That’s right, it’s beyond your reach.

Every now and then, her family would give her some advice.

——I don't know what Jianbai likes about you. You have to go along with him. With your qualifications, you won't be able to find a better partner than him in the future.

——What are your qualifications? It's normal for the Gao family to look down on you. You should flatter Jianbai's parents more, show up in front of them more often, work harder, and praise them more.

——You have been dating for so many years, why haven't you gotten married yet? You have to let him marry you even if you beg him on your knees. For a woman, it's no big deal to bow your head.

Even Wayne is like this.

He was the one who proposed this relationship in the first place. Everything she went through during that time made her feel no love at all. Under his and his family's belittlement, she felt really confused and wondered if she had not done well enough.

But I found out later.

It’s not that she is not good enough, but that the other party doesn’t care at all.

What Wayne wanted was to find an object who was easy to control so that he could get rid of the pressure from his family to get married. The Gao family was dissatisfied with her as a lowly future daughter-in-law and found fault with her from time to time, completely unaware that their beloved son fell in love with the married older sister next door.

It was the dirtiest scene Lillian had ever seen.

However, the two people she caught were not panicked at all. One of them put on his clothes one by one, looked her up and down, and left with a disdainful sneer on his face.

The one who glared at her, not feeling guilty but blaming her with a clear conscience, saying that it was her incompetence that made him fall in love with other people.

As soon as this matter came to light.

Whether it was the family members or the Gao family, they all had the same expression.

Everyone felt that this was a matter that couldn't be any smaller, and if she didn't tolerate it, she would be making a big deal out of nothing and being too fussy.

Those words were like knives inserted into the body, piercing the air that had been held back in this life.

Everybody...go to hell! !

After enduring for nearly thirty years, facing her own injustice, she could remember every little thing clearly, but she could only hold it in her heart every time.

Because her parents taught her to endure and hold back since childhood.

These shackles that were reinforced on her body were getting heavier and heavier, and Lillian felt that if she could still endure it, she would lose herself completely.

For the rest of my life, even if I am alive, I will have no soul.

So, just when she was about to lose herself, she completely exploded.

I did something I have fantasized about every day my whole life.

Her parents, who she spoke out against, looked livid, and slapped the idiot brother in front of their faces, even though her parents cried and cried in distress without stopping.

Until the eldest brother, who was already fat and swollen, looked more like a pig's head.

She spent a lot of money to buy a bag that she had been reluctant to buy for several years. She waved the bag and slapped Wayne, who was still talking nonsense, to the ground and couldn't get up.

Then she stepped on him hard with her feet wearing beautiful high heels...

To others, he looks like a madman.

But that was definitely the happiest time in her life. These people's cries and pleas made her feel like she was truly alive.

Talking about patience, consideration, and tolerance, that’s all a bunch of bullshit!

It was only when she was approaching her thirties that she suddenly realized.

Your life should not be bound by these unimportant people. We are all born as human beings. Who is more noble than whom?

If they want to trample on her, then she will go crazy and show these people.

Let's see who is scarier!

Unfortunately.

Before this breath was completely vented, the person was gone...

When she opened her eyes again, Lillian found that she had returned from the age of thirty to the age of eighteen.

The autumn of 1983.

This is definitely because God sympathizes with her, a stupid woman who finally figured it out, and is willing to give her a chance to do it again.

In this life, she will not tolerate it anymore!

What is hers is hers, and what others owe her must be returned.

She will never compromise in this new life!

Therefore, the first thing she did after waking up was to smash open the locked food cabinet, take out half of the cured fish and bacon, and steam two bowls of rice.

If this had been done in the past, she would never have had a share in it.

But why?

After dropping out of school, she started doing part-time jobs to earn money. Until now, her salary was paid to her family. If you really think about it, most of the supplies for this family were bought with her salary. So why can't she eat it? use?

Not to mention, the food you eat after breaking open the cabinet is extremely delicious!

Martha asked her if she was in a good mood.

Not only was she in a good mood, she was extremely refreshed.

The invisible shackles on her body were completely broken off by her, and just breathing at this time felt particularly relaxed.

At this time, she and Martha were alone on the stove.

After finishing her meal, Lillian put down her bowls and chopsticks and asked, Grandma Sun, is your son still looking for a job?

Martha continued to twist the ball of wool, nodded, and said casually: Why, can you help introduce me?

Lillian opened her mouth, I'll sell you my job in the abandoned factory for six hundred yuan. Do you want it?

Martha looked up suddenly, Are you serious?

Lillian smiled and said, If you dare to ask for it, I dare to sell it.

Martha couldn't help but stop what she was doing, and stared at the person in front of her with a pair of cloudy eyes, as if to confirm whether she was joking, This job pays a lot of money. If you want to sell it, your family will agree. ?"

Grandma Sun, you also know that I didn't take over this job from home. Lillian continued, They don't need to agree.

She didn't care if her family would agree.

The reason why she dropped out of school two years ago was because her original tuition and living expenses were actually funded by her uncle's family. During that time, something happened to her family and they could no longer afford the expenses.

Ye Damo and his wife were not willing to pay the money either.

Just say that the family can only support one person, so she, as a girl, must be humble.

Later, when my younger brother went to school, my family could afford to send a second child to school.

After she dropped out of school, her family would definitely not let her take over the job.

She can only think about herself.

I first found some odd jobs, and later my teacher recommended me to do clerical work.

The monthly salary is very small.

Only thirty or forty dollars was earned.

But the work is leisurely, with no exposure to wind and rain. Sitting in the office organizing some documents and copying various reports is quite relaxing.

As for why we went to the abandoned factory later.

It’s because my uncle has a job in an abandoned factory waiting for him to take over.

But his family couldn't bear to see his cousin suffer in the abandoned factory, so they wanted to find her a less busy job, even if it paid less.

When Zhou Zhanfang returned to her parents' home and heard the situation, she immediately settled the matter without hesitation.

In her opinion, it would be a great thing to be able to gain favor from her mother's family and get a higher-paying job.

As for whether working in an abandoned factory was tiring or not, she didn't care at all.

What does it matter if I’m a little tired?

The monthly salary of the abandoned factory is 70 to 80 yuan, which is double the previous salary. So what if I am a little tired? Who hasn't experienced hard times?

My uncle's family loves their daughter very much and doesn't want her to suffer.

In their family, as long as they make a lot of money, they will be tired.

He kept asking her to understand the difficulties at home, but he still forced her to transfer her job.

It was an old abandoned factory of more than 400 square meters, equivalent to the size of a football field in later generations.

The piles inside are all mechanical waste.

These scraps are either extremely heavy or have extremely sharp edges. In the absence of transportation equipment, they can only be transported manually .

For a girl who is just eighteen years old, it is really too strenuous.

Equipment heavier than body weight pressed on her shoulders. Lillian had tasted that feeling for several years, and she felt like her back was being bent.

Not to mention that there is engine oil everywhere in the mechanical waste. Even if she tries to avoid it as much as possible, over time, the engine oil will be indelible between her fingernails and the smell of engine oil will not be removed from her body.

And those sharp edges.

No matter how careful you are, you will inevitably get hurt.

The most serious incident was when she stepped on an upward iron nail while carrying items.

An iron nail of more than ten centimeters penetrated the instep of her foot directly, and the pain almost made her faint.

When he was sent to the hospital for treatment, the medical staff had to forcefully pull it out. Afterwards, he collapsed...

I had suffered a lot in my previous life.

Lillian didn't want to bear it for a second.

It's now 1983. Although jobs are not as hard to find as they were a few years ago, not everyone living in the courtyard has a job.

If she remembered correctly, Grandma Sun's son was older than her. He had been unemployed at home for two years, without a stable income, and it was difficult to find a partner.

Nowadays, every household is much more prosperous than it was seven years ago.

As long as you save some money, it's not impossible to take it out.

And six hundred yuan may seem like a lot, but in fact it’s just half a year’s salary. I don’t believe that no one would be tempted.

Martha was naturally moved.

However, she did not respond immediately, but said: Girl Rui, you have to think about it. If this job is sold, what will you do in the future?

Lillian smiled softly, I have a plan.

If she didn't have a new life, she would carry it no matter how tired she was.

It feels like it’s been a lifetime. It’s so hard, but you’ve only been working for a few years? It's not all because of the pressure from my family, but because of the pressure of life.

But it's different now.

She dare not say that she has a thorough understanding of future development, but she has experienced it once.

Compared with earning a dead salary, choosing to do business overseas is the most profitable at this time.

Just don't be impatient, everything has to be done step by step.

Okay. Martha smiled. She knew how upset the Clan family would be if she bought Lillian's job. But as Lillian said, she got the job herself and she was not taking over her family's job. It was her own choice whether to sell it or not.

As for whether you will get into trouble after buying it.

Martha had never been afraid of trouble in her life, so she replied with Lillian's previous words, If you dare to sell, I dare to buy. Go to the factory and complete the handover, and I will give you the money immediately.

Lillian nodded and said, Wait for me for three days. Gangzi and I will go to the abandoned factory and get the job done in three days.

Without saying anything else, he got up and went back to the house with the bowl and chopsticks.

The deal with Martha was not a random choice.

There are more than a dozen families living in the courtyard. If she really wants to let this news out, there will definitely be many people coming to her with money. If they are not sure about the price, they will have to mention it.

But if she sells her job, there will definitely be trouble at home.

She was not afraid, but she was afraid that the other party would back down.

But Martha's family is different.

Who on this street doesn't know how fierce Martha is?

In the early years, there were thieves in the courtyard, and Martha could chase them down several streets with a kitchen knife and recover their lost belongings.

In normal disputes, she would fight three of them one at a time, and the hair she pulled out would be gathered together into a big pile.

Not to mention the five or six of her sons and grandsons together.

Lillian was still hoping that Ye Damo and the others would go and cause trouble. In the end, they would not come back or say anything, and they would have to be pinned to the ground and beaten.

Just thinking about it is enough to make me happy.

chapter 2

Feeling sleepy after eating, Lillian went to bed when she returned to the house.

Today is a holiday that only comes once a month. I should have gone to my relative's house for a feast. In my previous life, I really didn't like to hang out with my relatives.

It’s not that these aunts and uncles are bad.

Instead, every time relatives get together to chat, the mother will always praise her children, even if it is a very small thing.

Zhou Zhanfang is different.

As a mother, she would step on her own daughter to flatter her relatives' children.

He followed the relatives' words to praise their children, and then immediately talked about her and severely belittled her, completely ignoring how embarrassed and wronged she was standing next to him.

But Zhou Zhanfang would never belittle his two sons.

She would always give all kinds of excuses to her elder brother who failed the high school entrance exam twice in a row and never find fault with him.

The little brother who always gets into trouble is described in her eyes as lively and clever, and will definitely achieve great things when he grows up.

Anyway, in her eyes, her two sons are the best in every way.

Really, quite double standard.

No one likes to be belittled, so Lillian doesn't like to chat with relatives.

But not liking to go doesn't mean she's willing to be excluded.

My aunt once pointedly mocked a certain family for being so shameless that they just gave a small red envelope and then brought their whole family to a banquet.

Zhou Zhanfang found the answer.

After that, whenever relatives held a banquet, she was the one left at home.

After all, you can eat big fish and meat right out of the house. Zhou Zhanfang wished that her two sons could eat more, but she was not willing to leave them at home. She was always the one left behind.

If she hadn't smashed open the cabinet.

This time at home, she could only eat half-full of whole-grain steamed buns mixed with chili sauce.

If you don't think about some things, the thought is not worth it for you.

Lillian couldn't help but turn over, relax herself, and let herself fall into sleep. She had to have a good sleep, and the day would be lively when she woke up.

...

Life in the courtyard itself is lively.

Especially when get off work and school are over, a group of people gather in the yard.

The three members of the Clan family returned at this time.

As soon as he entered the yard, Zhou Zhanfang couldn't wait to squeeze into the crowd. Regardless of whether others were talking or not, he showed off directly, You didn't see how grand my cousin's family's daughter's wedding was. Can you guess what my niece's dowry was?

Without waiting for others to speak, she continued in a particularly exaggerated tone, Not to mention the quilt counter that was prepared years ago, she also gave me a sewing machine as a dowry!

That proud look seemed to happen to myself.

Aunt Mu could never bear to hear her say these things.

You keep showing off, but you are only talking about your relatives' homes. It's not your own home. What's there to show off?

She said sarcastically, That's amazing, but you are all relatives, so you can't have less than them. You have to prepare a sewing machine for your Rui girl, too.

That's impossible. Zhou Zhanfang answered without thinking.

Aunt Mu asked, Why is it impossible? Other parents can prepare, but you can't?

Zhou Zhanfang frowned, Then why don't you prepare?

Who said I'm not preparing? Aunt Mu said immediately.

Her little girl was only a few years old, and she didn't believe that she couldn't save enough for a sewing machine in twenty years, so she answered without hesitation, Let alone a sewing machine, I can even buy her a tape recorder.

The tone was so loud that Zhou Zhanfang moved his lips but couldn't say anything.

Not to mention actually doing it, she couldn't even talk about it or pretend to do it.

But Zhou Zhanfang would not think it was her fault. She curled her lips and said, Lillian is no match for my niece. What can she achieve...

Oh, your niece is so amazing? Martha interrupted her. Was she at the top of the class when she was studying, or is she making dozens of dollars a month from her job now?

... Zhou Zhanfang was choked for a moment.

Another sentence she couldn't reply to.

I couldn't help but glance at Martha. Normally, she didn't mind other people's business, so why did she stick up for Lillian for no reason?

Martha certainly wouldn't say she would do Lillian a huge favor in three days.

No matter what her purpose was in selling her the job, her family owed Lillian a favor.

The monthly salary is seventy or eighty yuan.

As soon as her son Gangzi gets the job, a matchmaker will surely come to his house soon.

This solved the two most important things in life at once. Even if I gave out 600 yuan, I should thank the girl from the Clan family very much.

So now she stopped rolling the ball of yarn and continued to praise: Speaking of the boys and girls in our courtyard, your Lillian is the most promising. Who is not eagerly waiting for assignments and taking over from home? She If you are good enough, you can find a job by yourself.

It's true, there are a few young people waiting around us. Someone nearby echoed, Only Lillian has a vision, and she helps others with their work for a few cents salary, working here and there. He actually became a formal employee.

There was a bit of envy when I said this.

When Lillian dropped out of school and returned home, there were many young people idle at home in the surrounding courtyards.

Many people like her look for handymen everywhere, but she is different from these people. She is willing to do any job regardless of the price.

I found a temporary worker who was paid 20 to 30 cents a day, but everyone advised me that there was no need to go through the trouble. Not only was the work tiring, but it also took a long time, so it was better to stay at home and rest.

The results of it?

Lillian worked honestly for two months. Seeing how hardworking and diligent she was, the people in the factory recommended her along with her teacher, and she eventually went to work as a handyman in a newspaper factory.

I managed to get a formal job by myself.

A few days ago, I used this job to exchange with my relative, and my salary doubled, making the young people around me extremely envious.

She must be making 70 to 80 yuan a month now, right? If it was in the 1970s, she would be as much as the skilled workers in our hospital.

It's not bad now. There are not many young people who can get such a high salary.

Martha glanced and said, Xiao Zhou, I remember that the combined salary of you and Xiao Ye is not more than that of Lillian.

... Zhou Zhanfang didn't reply.

I couldn't help but do the math in my mind.

In this calculation, Martha was indeed right.

But at the same time, she was a little confused. Why hadn't she noticed it before? She obviously got the girl's monthly salary with a note, but she never thought that she was actually the most profitable person in the family.

By the way, you haven't said anything yet. Martha looked at her thoughtful look, and regardless of what she was thinking, continued to ask: Where is your niece, Lillian Qiang? Just come and listen, let me We have learned a lot.

... Zhou Zhanfang opened his mouth and fell silent again.

I can't wait to praise my niece.

As a result, after much deliberation, there is no place comparable to Lillian that girl.

At this silence, Aunt Mu sneered, What I'm afraid of is not whether the children have any future, but how bad you are as parents. You just can't compete with my parents. Look how happy your niece is. She even has a sewing machine at home. How can her parents do it? Really promising."

That's right, look how many years you have been in the textile factory? You haven't been promoted yet, and your seniority salary is increased by one every year. You and your wife are the only ones who get the lowest salary in our compound, right?

Look at Meizi next door. He joined two years later than you. Now he has become a team leader.

Compared to your Lillian, you are indeed lagging behind.

Thanks to Lillian being here, otherwise it would be really hard for the two of you to feed a family of five.

Zhou Zhanfang was a little confused now.

How come after so many words, you are the one who is belittled in the end?

Didn't she come here to show off how wealthy her relatives were? How come she and Old Ye were now considered losers?

And being humiliated in public made her feel particularly uncomfortable.

I wish I could find a crack in the ground to crawl into.

Dad! Mom!!!

A sudden roar came from the house in the corner.

The people outside were startled by the sound, but most of them had a rough idea of what was going on. Only Zhou Zhanfang rushed over, What's wrong? What's wrong?

Ye Zhiqing was horrified, pointing inside the house and shouting, Our house has been robbed!

Zhou Zhanfang looked in the direction he pointed, his eyes wide as bells.

Their house is not big, with five people living in an area of more than 20 square meters. The first thing they see is their bed boards, and other than that is a slightly larger cabinet.

This cabinet is Zhou Zhanfang’s treasure.

Everyone's clothes and bedding were placed underneath, and on top of it was a lock that he had bought at great expense, in which the family's food and other food were locked.

Ever since the family split up, the key to the padlock has been in her hand.

She gets up early every day to unlock the door and distribute food, and then unlocks the door again at night to count the supplies in the house. She does the same thing every day and never finds it troublesome.

For Zhou Zhanfang, having control over the food at home gives her a special sense of satisfaction.

Even if it was her most beloved son, she would not give in.

At most, when distributing food, fill their bowls so that they won't be hungry at all.

Therefore, facing the smashed padlock in front of him, Zhou Zhanfang was shocked and screamed sharply, Who? Who dares to come to our house to steal things...

As he rushed to the cabinet, the words were suddenly choked in his throat.

She thought all the food and provisions were gone, but she found the food bags were intact, and some bottles and jars were also intact. She counted them carefully and found that only some rice and a few pieces of bacon and fish were missing.

At first glance, I knew that the house was not robbed.

Old Ye, Old Ye!

I shouted outside twice, but no one came back.

Zhou Zhanfang had no idea that Ye Damao had secretly left the compound with his sleeves covered when she was being humiliated. It was so embarrassing that she didn't want to stay any longer.

She was still muttering, Could it be that your father came back at noon? That's not right. Even if the old guy came back to get something, he shouldn't have broken the lock.

I smashed it. A sleepy voice sounded, and a corner of the curtain on the right was opened. There were still marks on Lillian's left face from the pillow. She smiled, Mom, I'm not telling you that. It’s because the family locked some cabinets, which made it so hard for me to even eat a meal.

Lillian?! You are so brave! Zhou Zhanfang's eyes widened.

Ye Zhiqing looked at the lack of so much meat in the cabinet and got angry, You are really good at eating. Who can afford to feed you the way you eat?

I'll just do it myself. Lillian glanced at him, If I ignore you so cruelly, how can I not eat every meal of my seventy-yuan salary?

Ye Zhiqing never expected that she would retort, with a look of disbelief on his face, Mom, look at her attitude!

Zhou Zhanfang was also stunned at this moment.

She had previously suspected that there was a thief and wondered if it was Old Ye, but she never thought it was Lillian at home.

What kind of person is Lillian?

She was the one who brought him up since he was a child, how could he dare to do such a thing?

But what I didn't expect was that it turned out to be her.

Compared to her eldest son's disbelief, she found it even more absurd and bizarre, What's wrong with you?!

I'm just starving. The more I think about it, the more I feel it's not worth it. I work so hard to earn money, but in the end, I can't even have a full meal, let alone meat. Lillian put her hand on her chest, looking distressed. The hungrier I am, the more I think about it, and the more I think about it, the hungrier I get. I couldn't help it and smashed the lock open with a hammer, just like this...

As she spoke she demonstrated.

I don't know when he picked up the hammer and started swinging it at the cabinet.

A few sounds of 哐, 哐 shocked the two mothers and children next to them, and they swallowed their saliva in unison.

Inexplicably... I feel a little scared.

Stop, stop quickly! Zhou Zhanfang shouted to stop, but she didn't dare to step forward at all. She watched helplessly as a big hole was smashed out of her most precious cabinet.

Lillian stopped. She looked panicked at this moment, and quickly threw away the hammer in her hand, I, I didn't mean to do it, I was just too tired and hungry...

Seeing her panic, Zhou Zhanfang breathed a sigh of relief.

This is how it should be, this girl should be so afraid of weakness.

Girls, why do you want to be so strong? Before you get married, you should contribute more to the family, and those who have brothers should also help, otherwise the mother's family will not be able to rely on support when they get married.

Once you get married, you have to have more children.

Sons bring honor to the family, and daughters help their brothers.

Just like her, hasn’t she lived her life this way?

Zhou Zhanfang was frightened by Lillian's crazy pounding on the cabinet just a minute ago, but now she seemed to be acting just like usual. She became bolder and walked up to her and started to scold her: Who the hell are you? How dare you show off like that at home? I'm your mother, it's only natural for you to bring money home. Hungry, hungry, hungry. If you feel hungry, bring more money home, otherwise just hold it in!

Lillian looked up at her and curled her lips slightly, I understand.

Then, she used all her strength to slap Ye Zhiqing next to her, imitating Zhou Zhanfang's tone, You are a useless thing, a dog that only takes in and never gives out! I have raised you for nothing, but I have never seen you bring any money to the family. All you do is eat and eat all day long. Do you have the nerve to eat a grain of rice from this family?

This slap was delivered with great force.

Ye Zhiqing's face trembled even after the slap was so big that it hurt so much that he didn't hear his second sister's words clearly. He covered his face and was completely confused...

He, he... why was he beaten suddenly? !

Ouch, ouch, it hurts, it hurts him to death!

Just when he was so angry that he was about to backhand, he didn't know what he saw. A big boy huddled up and didn't dare to move.

Lillian turned her sore wrist.

It seems that she needs to exercise more. She is quite regretful that this slap did not knock out her eldest brother's teeth.

This feeling of moody madness is quite interesting.

Look at the two people in front of you.

One covered his face in panic, and the other was so frightened that he backed away and didn't dare to say a word. The more he looked at it, the happier he became.

She straightened her clothes to cover the handle of the machete that was exposed from the hem, and said calmly, I was stupid too. You and dad only make 60 yuan a month. How can you support this family?

Life is getting better and better now.

Wages have increased significantly, living conditions have improved a lot, and prices have naturally risen as well.

However, the salary increase of Ye Damao and his wife could not keep up with the rising prices.

It's not like they don't have a chance to rise.

But these two people are like local emperors at home, controlling this and that, and seem so powerful.

However, they are bullied by others outside. No matter who says a few words to them, they don't care whether the other person is sincere or has ulterior motives. They are eager to open their heart to them.

Ye Lilian...I am your mother. Zhou Zhanfang didn't dare to move at this moment.

This damn girl is like a madman, with a machete stuck on her waist. What if she goes crazy with the machete like she just did when she smashed the cabinet with a hammer?

Lillian nodded. You are my mother, but this is not the old society. You won't be arrested and beaten for being unfilial.

Fortunately, it is now 1983.

No matter how ruthless she is, she will only be criticized by outsiders. Who can force her to be filial to her parents?

If you calculate carefully, your salary is not enough to cover the daily expenses of the family. If it weren't for me, would Ye Zhiqing be able to eat meat? Would Ye Xiao be able to stay in school and study well?

She has been good at math since she was young, and she can calculate the account clearly one by one.

After all the calculations, if it weren't for her salary, everyone in the family would have gone hungry.

She couldn't help laughing out loud as if she had heard a joke, Ha, but you guys are the ones who don't work and get to eat meat, wear new clothes, and go to school, while the one who earns the most money in the family is left hungry.

It's really a huge joke.

Everyone was gnawing at her flesh and drinking her blood.

As for her, every meal consisted of pickled mustard tuber and coarse grain pancakes. Not to mention fish and meat, she couldn't even eat a bite of rice or noodles.

Every time at the dinner table, Zhou Zhanfang would serve Ye Dama first, followed by her beloved eldest son and her favorite youngest son. Finally, she would put down the spoon for serving rice, pick up two pieces of cake from the side and throw them into her bowl.

It's such blatant discrimination.

No one in the family found it strange.

Including her previous life, she lived as usual for nearly thirty years.

We are all family, why do you care so much? Zhou Zhanfang didn't think there was anything wrong with her, but she thought Lillian was a little bit puzzled. You treat your brothers well, don't they remember it? When you get married, they will still be your support. Otherwise, who will help you vent your anger when you suffer in your husband's family?

Lillian laughed again, her eyes falling on Ye Zhiqing who was standing beside her. I have been bullied in this family for eighteen years, and they just watched helplessly. You still want to rely on them? Are you kidding me?

Ye Zhiqing shuddered when he was looked at by her and turned his head away, not daring to look at her.

Lillian continued, We are all children of the Clan family. Why can this idiot just eat and not do anything? If you want me to be filial to you, you should also think about whether you have ever raised me. If you don't even give me a mouthful of milk, don't expect me to make money for you every month.

After a pause, she continued, So, I don't want to endure it anymore.

It’s enough to endure it for a lifetime.

How can you be comfortable in this life?

She grinned, I will go to the factory tomorrow. I will collect my salary myself, so I won't bother you.

No! Zhou Zhanfang was really panicking now.

Lillian Shunzhi nodded, You can't do it if you say no.

However, this time's obedience did not let Zhou Zhanfang breathe a sigh of relief. He always felt that there was more to say later.

Sure enough, Lillian continued: At worst, I won't work anymore. I also want to be like this idiot Ye Zhiqing and experience what it's like to lie at home every day.

... Ye Zhiqing, who had been scolded as an idiot countless times, did not dare to say a word and continued to hide his swollen face in a corner.

Machete!

His second sister had a machete hanging on her waist. Who dared to mess with her at this time?

Lillian smiled softly, and then said in a particularly shameless manner: If I don't want to go, then I won't go. If you have the ability, find someone to move me there.

Either she collects the salary or she doesn't go to work.

This is the multiple-choice question she gave.

But Zhou Zhanfang had no idea that even if she racked her brains to make a choice, she would eventually find that the job position in the abandoned factory had already been sold long before that.

From the very beginning, Lillian never thought about continuing to be the workhorse of the family.

Chapter 3

Zhou Zhanfang was so angry that his chest ached.

How could this damn girl make her so angry? Wasn't she fine before? Why did she suddenly become crazy? I don't know if some gossipy people instigated something in front of her.

I took a few deep breaths and thought to myself that it’s better not to push myself too hard right now.

Just as she was about to speak to ease the tense atmosphere, she saw Lillian walking towards the door and subconsciously shouted, Why are you going?

Lillian looked back at her.

Then he turned around and walked towards her. As he walked, he took out the machete tied to his waist with his right hand. When Zhou Zhanfang turned pale with fright, he stuffed it into her hand, grinning and sneered: Mom, this knife It's a little dull, so find some time to sharpen it, otherwise it won't be easy to cut.

Regardless of whether this sentence scared people or not, she walked out of the house after saying that.

As soon as we walked into the courtyard, Aunt Mu from the side came over and asked curiously: What are you doing at home? It's banging.

Lillian, who was still sneering and threatening, suddenly lowered her eyes, twitched her nose slightly, and said, Mom saw me eating the food in the cabinet, and she smashed the cabinet when she got angry.

Oh! Are you so grand?

Lillian raised her hand and wiped the corners of her eyes, Auntie, I won't talk to you any more. Before it's too late, I have to go to the factory and ask if I can apply for overtime.

Well, she had tasted this feeling of being splashed with dirty water countless times.

Every time she goes out, her parents say she is the most disobedient and useless of the three children.

Even though she works hard to earn money outside the home, she still does a lot of housework at home.

But no matter what, she is the one her parents always complain about.

She doesn't care what others say.

So now she can say whatever she wants, and she also wants to be a person who throws dirty water on others.

Don't tell me, if you don't have quality, you can live a really comfortable life.

After some posturing, he left the courtyard with a pitiful figure behind him.

As soon as Lillian left, Aunt Mu said, Ye Yatou is so pitiful. She works so hard every day and doesn't even give her enough to eat.

Now that she had something new to talk about, she decided to find someone else to chat with.

But just when she was about to turn around, she saw Zhou Zhanfang going out with a machete, and immediately approached her again, intending to inquire more about their family's fight.

As a know-it-all in the courtyard, Aunt Mu has her own way of talking.

You must not state your intention as soon as you approach. You must first start with the other party's behavior and use tactful words.

Just like now, the first thing she said when she came over was, Sister Zhou, are you planning to sharpen the knife? Let me tell you, there is a technique involved in sharpening the knife. I have a way to make the knife even sharper. With a 'click', the flesh and bones will be separated!

Who said I was going to sharpen my knife?! Zhou Zhanfang couldn't bear to hear these words, he felt scared when he heard them.

He yelled at her and quickly left with the machete.

I don't know what the hell is wrong with that damn girl. She even uses a machete to scare people.

Not only could the knife not be sharpened, she also had to find a place to hide it.

Walk quickly towards the shared stove.

There were more than a dozen households in the compound. At first, everyone shared a kitchen. Later, as life got better and better, every household began to buy household items. If the home had enough space, they could just build a stove there, to avoid having more than a dozen families squeeze together.

After a few years, most people, except the Clan family, built their own stoves at home.

The main thing is that building the stove is not difficult. You can find an experienced person to do it in a day or two. It is convenient and cheap.

The Clan family can also come up with the money.

But they really couldn't squeeze out any space.

Five people were crammed into an apartment of more than 20 square meters. There was no room to even step, let alone a stove.

So Zhou Zhanfang still uses the shared kitchen.

She planned to hide the machete here as well, so that she wouldn't have to worry about leaving it at home.

After entering the kitchen, he bent over and looked around.

You can't just hide it casually, what if someone steals it?

Even if it's blunt, it's still a knife.

...

Lillian went out for two hours this time.

He waited until nightfall before returning to the courtyard under the dim street lights.

Her house was locked. She first called out twice, then when no one opened the door, she shouted, I counted to three, and when no one opened the door, I kicked the door down.

Before he started counting, Zhou Zhanfang opened the door with a cold face and said viciously, Your dad is back, let's see how he deals with you!

Lillian didn't react at all, and walked directly past her towards the house.

Seeing that there was no fear on her face, Zhou Zhanfang suddenly felt a little irritated.

It always felt like this damn girl was out of their control and they couldn't catch her no matter what.

Lillian is really not afraid.

She has been an old scalper of the Crane family for thirty years. Whether it is scolding, scolding, being beaten, or telling lies sincerely, she has experienced these countless times.

It turned out that she still cared, so she could only choose to bow her head.

Now she wished that these methods would be used on her again. This time she would definitely respond in other ways.

Kneel down! Ye Damo said solemnly, stretched out his hand and slapped the bed board hard.

He is not a talkative person, and a slight frown on his face can scare the family members into not speaking a word.

In fact, Lillian has always understood.

Her father had always bullied others and was accustomed to being powerful at home, but outside he was a soft persimmon who could be manipulated by others.

When he has a dispute with someone, regardless of whether he is justified or not, he is always the one who retreats.

When someone points his finger at him and scolds him, he will respond with a smile.

This time he asked her to kneel down with a sullen face, but in her previous life she had watched him kneel in front of others, kowtowed and smiled apologetically timidly.

Lillian looked at him calmly, I won't kneel.

You! Ye Damo stood up angrily and raised his hand to hit him.

Go ahead and hit me. If you do, I'll go to the police and sue you for domestic violence. Lillian saw him stiffen instantly, and then she soothed him slowly, It's okay. At most I'll give you a lesson, and I'll release you soon.

Ye Damo raised his hand and was about to drop it again...

Lillian counted on her fingers as she continued her plan. Then I'll go to the oil mill and make a scene. I'll make a scene until you either lose your job or get suspended.

... Ye Damo's eyes widened, and his raised hand could not be put down.

Lillian didn't finish her words. If you go to the textile factory and make a scene again, Mom won't be able to work in peace. It would be best if you two were suspended from work at home. Then our family of five will have to starve.

Zhou Zhanfang was so angry that she gritted her teeth. Why did they have to bring trouble to her factory?

Lillian didn't let any of them go, and then said, Brother, don't even think about finding a partner. I'll make trouble for every one he finds. He is destined to be a bachelor in this life. The bloodline of our Clan family will stop with him.

... Ye Zhiqing, whose face was still swollen, stamped his feet anxiously, but he didn't dare to move. He saw that there was a knife handle stuck on his second sister's waist, and he didn't know where she got so many knives from.

How can we let him remain single?

He also wants to have two children with his partner.

If the second sister really messes things up, then he, he... seems to have no partner yet?

Ye Xiao should stop studying. If you want the Clan family to have a scholar, it's just a dream. Lillian said as she made all the arrangements for everyone in the family.

Anyway, they just need to touch a hair of mine.

If you can't beat them or scold them, the worst that can happen is to act crazy and stupid. No one can have an easy time anyway.

She will make the whole house in chaos!

Really?!

As soon as Lillian finished speaking, the boy's eyes lit up instantly.

It’s better not to study.

He doesn't want to study at all!

Ye Xiao immediately looked at his second sister eagerly, wishing she would make a fuss.

Lillian glanced at him and said with a soft tsk. One of them is stupid and the other is foolish. You still want them to get into college? This is just throwing money into the water. You are really willing to do that.

As he said that, he tilted his head and said, That's right. It's my hard-earned money anyway. Why should you feel bad about it?

As she finished her words, the room became quiet.

Ye Damo's hand was still frozen there, and for a moment he didn't know whether he should let go.

It just ended like that, and he was angry again.

He has always been the one who has the final say at home. Even his two sons have to follow his lead. Now he is suddenly being controlled by his daughter. This feeling is really bad.

But he really didn't know how to control the situation at this moment.

He had heard before that this girl used a hammer and a machete. What if she really went to the factory to cause trouble?

The factory was already overcrowded with workers. Someone went to cause trouble a few days ago, and the leaders above were eager to suspend them. If Lillian was like what she said, her whole family would have no income, and they would have to wait until they were hungry. died.

Ahem. Ye Damo slowly retracted his hand, moving very slowly. He was afraid that Lillian would misunderstand and bring trouble to the Public Security Bureau. He coughed a few more times and said in a very embarrassed voice, Are you angry? You have smashed the cabinet to pieces, why are we not allowed to be angry? "

Lillian Wenyan had no reaction at first.

Then he raised his head and laughed, the smile was extremely exaggerated, and tears overflowed from the corners of his eyes.

She really felt that Ye Damo and the two were not suitable for having children.

One of the two sons is stupid and the other is stupid. Even she is not very smart.

Having lived together for nearly thirty years in their previous life, she had actually already figured out the personalities of these two people thoroughly and understood their temperaments and weaknesses very well.

Obviously this family is all very easy to handle, but she has been suppressed her whole life.

Lillian suddenly smiled like this, which made several people in the room panic.

Ye Damo and his wife looked at each other and kept giving each other signals, but no one dared to move.

They really felt that Lillian was a little abnormal. Could it be that they had pushed her too much and made something wrong?

Lillian didn't bother to care what they thought, so she took the basin and went out to wash up.

If this had happened before, in order to save some coal, she would have just randomly connected some cold water. Now she couldn't bear to do anything wrong, so she just grabbed a piece of coal and started burning it.

While waiting for the water to boil, a young man came over and said, Second sister, have you eaten bacon today?

Lillian nodded.

Ye Xiao licked his lips and complained a little, Why don't you leave some for me.

You went out to dinner and I didn't see you bring it back to me.

But I am your brother! Ye Xiao puffed up his chest and looked particularly confident. Isn't it natural for a sister to give in to her brother?

Lillian let out a sigh, Yes, you are my brother and not my son, why should I care about your eating, drinking, and diarrhea?

... Ye Xiao puffed up his cheeks angrily.

However, I was only angry for two or three seconds, and then approached him again, Are you really going to make a fuss? Why don't you go to my school to make a fuss first? I really don't like studying.

Lillian's hand paused.

Sometimes it really feels ironic.

Those who want to read cannot, but those who can read never know how to cherish it.

But this time Lillian didn't reply, but used the moonlight to look at the complaining boy in front of her.

Ye Xiao is too young now.

Even ten years later he was still in his early twenties.

Young people at that age are somewhat impulsive. Perhaps because of this, even though the relationship between their siblings has never been close, after learning that Wayne had cheated on him, he was the only one who rushed forward and punched Wayne. people.

He was also the only one who didn't persuade her to be patient, telling her not to hold on to such a small mistake.

At that time, Ye Xiao was just like a little gangster.

He was so angry that he cursed loudly, rolled up his sleeves and kicked down all the tables and chairs in the room to relieve his anger.

Lillian was sure that Ye Xiao's actions were not just because he felt that his sister had been let down, but because he was young and energetic and did not think too much about his actions.

But even this made her feel better at the time.

At least not everyone is stabbing themselves in the back.

Second sister? Seeing that she didn't respond, Ye Xiao bumped her with his elbow, Did you really slap my eldest brother in the face? If I had known, I wouldn't have gone out to play. I haven't seen my eldest brother get beaten before.

He was so sorry.

The eldest brother is the most annoying person. Every time he thinks he is the boss, he likes to snatch things from him. My cousin gave me two glass beads, saying they were brought back from the south. They are very beautiful, but the eldest brother actually wants to snatch them from me. , luckily I run fast..."

The young man is a talker, and he wants to tell all the anger he suffered from his boss.

Lillian thought he was being really noisy, so she interrupted him and said, Do me a favor and I'll give you a dollar to buy some glass beads.

Okay! Ye Xiao agreed without saying a word and stretched out his hand to ask for the money.

Lillian slapped his palm and said coldly, Let's talk about it after it's done.

Ye Xiao hissed.

The second sister's palm was really strong, no wonder the eldest brother's head was swollen like a pig. Then let's make a deal. I'll do a good thing for you, but you can't trick me into not paying you.

Lillian laughed. I only make 70 or 80 yuan a month. How can I be that much less than you?

It’s really bad.

At least it can’t be taken out now.

Before, Zhou Zhanfang went to