Small Mercies: A Novel
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“Small Mercies is thought provoking, engaging, enraging, and can’t-put-it-down entertainment.” — Stephen King
The acclaimed New York Times bestselling writer returns with a masterpiece to rival Mystic River—an all-consuming tale of revenge, family love, festering hate, and insidious power, set against one of the most tumultuous episodes in Boston’s history.
In the summer of 1974 a heatwave blankets Boston and Mary Pat Fennessy is trying to stay one step ahead of the bill collectors. Mary Pat has lived her entire life in the housing projects of “Southie,” the Irish American enclave that stubbornly adheres to old tradition and stands proudly apart.
One night Mary Pat’s teenage daughter Jules stays out late and doesn’t come home. That same evening, a young Black man is found dead, struck by a subway train under mysterious circumstances.
The two events seem unconnected. But Mary Pat, propelled by a desperate search for her missing daughter, begins turning over stones best left untouched—asking questions that bother Marty Butler, chieftain of the Irish mob, and the men who work for him, men who don’t take kindly to any threat to their business.
Set against the hot, tumultuous months when the city’s desegregation of its public schools exploded in violence, Small Mercies is a superb thriller, a brutal depiction of criminality and power, and an unflinching portrait of the dark heart of American racism. It is a mesmerizing and wrenching work that only Dennis Lehane could write.
Dennis Lehane
Dennis Lehane (Dorchester, Massachusetts, 1965) va descobrir la seva vocació d'escriptor en el Eckerd College i va realitzar un curs d'escriptura creativa a la Universitat Internacional de Florida. Va debutar el 1994 amb Un trago antes de la guerra, primera baula d'una llarga llista de novel·les entre les quals destaquen Mystic River, Shutter Island, Desapareció una noche i Vivir de noche, portades a la gran pantalla amb enorme èxit de públic i crítica. Ha participat com a guionista en les sèries The Wire, Boardwalk Empire i Bloodline, així com en Mr. Mercedes. Escollit per la revista The Hollywood Reporter com un dels vint escriptors més influents de Hollywood, ha guanyat els premis Shamus, Edgar, Anthony i Barry a la millor novel·la, el Massachusetts de ficció i, a Espanya, el XII Premi Pepe Carvalho de 2017 . Amb el segell Salamandra ha publicat La entrega i Ese mundo desaparecido.
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- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Oct 19, 2024
Great writer. Up to par with his previous books. I’ll read anything by him. - Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5
Nov 10, 2025
Small Mercies is a sad story about the 1970's bussing in Boston, Massachusetts and certain characters who lived in the areas where would be involved. There was a lot of anger and gun fighting against each other. Four stars were given to the book in this review. - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Apr 27, 2025
I listened to this is audiobook format.
This novel is set in Boston 1974, where federal courts have just mandated school bussing for racial integration. Against this high tension backdrop, exacerbated by local Irish mobs and the introduction of heroin to the neighborhoods, the story of a missing teenage white Irish girl and the murder of a black teenage player boy plays out. The girl's mother is the main character so through her eyes we see painful loss, the dawn of understanding of racism as a societal ill, and the need for revenge. There's a lot packed into this book but it is done exceedingly well. The storytelling is raw and holds back nothing; every racial slur in the book is thrown around. The violence is abundant and graphic, but the vigilante revenge, reminiscent of Tarantino or Fargo, was pretty fun too. The audiobook narration was superb; the south Boston accent was spot on and infectious. - Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5
Oct 21, 2025
Listening to this story was like having Carla from Cheers talking at you. Set in Boston in 1974, specifically, the notoriously tough Southie, there is a public side to the story and a personal side to the story and both converge with a big explosion. Historically, Southie schools were to be integrated in the Fall of '74 by busing black students in from their neighborhoods, and Southie might as well be the Deep South for the explosive reception that edict had among the white, working-class Irish. Protests and other forms of unrest were happening all over the area in the preceding summer, and that is what Mary Pat Fennessy finds herself in the middle of. Her 17-yr old daughter Jules will be at one of the schools that is impacted, so the whole neighborhood is mobilizing. When a black boy ends up dead at the local subway stop and Jules doesn't come home that night - or any thereafter, Mary Pat knows something is up and begins her own investigation. To say she is a tough broad is an understatement - she is lethal - and will stop at nothing to get to the truth of what happened to Jules. The boy is Auggie Williamson, son of a co-worker of Mary Pat. So much bad stuff for a kid to get mixed up in around there - there's basically an Irish mob that runs the area with the usual problems that go with it: drugs, trafficking, intimidation, bars and strip clubs - all under the veneer of solid Irish Catholic families. I'm always a little shell-shocked at the seedy underside revealed in books and movies. Detective Michael "Bobby" Coyne gets assigned to the case-both the potential murder of Auggie - though it 'looked' like he fell and got hit by a subway train - and the disappearance of Jules. Great gritty crime story - Lehane's specialty - and following Mary Pat as she gets answers - and vengeance - is very suspenseful and also very satisfying. This would definitely be a Godfather caliber/vibe if made into a movie - just starring Carla from Cheers. - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Sep 21, 2025
Fascinating,informative,very sad moving story. - Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5
Mar 20, 2025
This is a good book set in the Summer of 1974 in Boston
Main character is Mary Pat Fennessey who is a bit down on her luck. She lives in Southie (South Boston the Irish neighbourhood)
Her son is dead, she is twice divorced, low paying job, now her daughter Jules has went missing.
There is lots of Racial tension due to the School desegragation of the schools. The local Irish Mob are helping stoke the hatred.
Mary Pat asks for the Mob to help find her daughter she wont go to the Police.
It turns out Jules was involved in a Racist attack on a young black man who ventured into the wrong area.
Jules was also pregnant having an affair with one of the Irish mob, she was becoming a liability and they killed her. Mary Pat finds out and is out for revenge. A police man called Bobby wants to help her but she goes it alone, she has nothing to lose now.
It doesnt end well for the Mob or Mary Pat.
Good book lots of interesting characters.
I am trying to think who would play Mart Pat in a film. - Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5
Sep 17, 2024
Dennis Lehane is a fantastic writer. He creates believable & believably flawed characters. He builds tension in cinematic fashion. I will continue to be a fan of his work.
This book was not my favorite work of his, however. Some of that is attributable to the setting & a few plot elements. Spoiler alert: it takes place in Boston, there's a missing child, and an upset parent willing to do anything to get her child back. I feel like this story has been told before - by Lehane - more than once. So, for me, those elements were repetitive.
The grittiness and historical backdrop were executed very well. And Lehane, as always, absolutely nails the humanity & both the inherent cruelty and goodness that can exist in people -- often simultaneously within the same person.
So, for me, the first part of the book was much of the same as I've come to expect from Lehane & I could have been reading Mystic River or Gone Baby Gone. The later portions of the book rev up the action and I found much more engaging. Thus: ⭐️⭐️⭐️ - Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5
Sep 8, 2024
Dennis Lehane is at his best when he writes about crime in Boston, and Small Mercies meets both of those criteria. On the brink of forced busing in the 1970s, Mary Pat and her seventeen-year-old daughter Jules live in the heart of the protests in Southie. Barely making ends meet, Mary Pat may not always know what Jules is doing, but when she doesn’t come home one night the tragedy that unfolds devastates her. Mary Pat is a character for the ages as she doggedly pursues justice and the truth in the only way she knows how, and along the way faces her own failures. - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Aug 28, 2024
Desegregation of the Boston Public Schools takes effect on Thursday morning, September 12, 1974. Surrounding this historical moment is the story of a mother, Irish-born Mary Pat Fennessy, a Southie from the projects of Commonwealth, who finds the strength to avenge her daughter’s death against the local gang. Raised in a world where racism is passed from generation to generation, Mary Pat’s daughter, Jules, commits a heinous crime of mercy and pays for it with her life. Not that Jules is innocent, far from it. But after having lost her son to drugs, Mary Pat can’t let her daughter’s death go without retribution. This story, told in Dennis Lehane’s straightforward style, is powerful and hits home in every parent’s heart. It brings the pain, guilt, and responsibility of raising children in a far less-than-perfect world front and center in a time that was a powder keg of hate and violence. ‘Small Mercies’ will haunt your thoughts long after you’ve read the last page. - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Jan 24, 2024
The story takes us to Boston and back nearly a half a century. In 1974, when the court ordered school busing, protests erupted throughout many of the white neighborhoods of some previously very segregated cities.... which it seems Boston to have been one of them. Mary Pat Fennessy was a hard-working white woman, the daughter of Irish immigrants, who was trying to keep ahead of the bill collectors. Her relationship with her teenage daughter, Jules, was close, but also trying. She suspected that Jules was keeping secrets. Then one night Jules doesn’t come home, and of course Mary Pat is frantic. The next day at Meadow Lane Manor, a retirement home for the elderly where Mary Pat works as an aide, she learns that the son of Dreamy Williamson, one of her few black co-workers, had died in, what the police are calling, a "mysterious subway incident" that same night. Mary Pat doesn’t really know Dreamy all that well, but she likes her, and is sorry for her loss. It now seems that they have a lot in common...they both have lost children, however they're responses to this event are very different, and... they experience entirely different levels of support from their two communities. Soon they come to learn that these seemingly separate losses; a death and a disappearance...have a connection that neither of them could have ever anticipated. The story mostly focuses on Mary Pat, showing her to be a loving mother and a decent person, but sharing the prejudices of her white, Irish neighborhood toward the people they feel are encroaching on their turf. It’s a hot summer, and tensions are escalating with threats of violence at a fever pitch. Mary Pat keeps trying to find out what happened to Jules and why her, no matter where or what the truth may be. What she discovers is how much she DIDN'T know about her daughter...her neighborhood, and who really has the power and the authority and how long it has gone unchallenged. In spite of their differences and their different circumstances, both mothers are willing to risk everything to learn the truth. It's a good story that will produce a bit of soul-searching. - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Mar 24, 2024
This was another Lehane that made me think a lot. Please don't get me wrong, I am against any form of racism, but the way the solutions were implemented in Boston to bring about mixing was doomed to failure in my eyes. How is this supposed to work when children are bussed across the city to attend a school where there are mixed races? The question that should have been asked is how to mix neighbourhoods so that different ethnicities can live together and the school would also be mixed. This is hardly possible in America because rich parents send their children to private schools and the public schools (as it seems here in Switzerland) do not have the best reputation.
The second focus is drug dealing and consumption. How easy it is as an Irish population that is against the mixing of the races, but big in the drugs business, to blame all misdeeds on the weak population. They are often supported/covered up by the 'white' police.
Sometimes I felt really sick while reading, with so much injustice. And I ask myself, when I look at today's American politics from a distance, why after so many years the USA has somehow still not come up with a solution to racism. - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Jan 7, 2024
This was an amazing read. It really has everything from Great Characters to Brilliant Storyline. Up there with Mystic River. Definitely on my TBR again list. - Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5
Dec 15, 2023
A mash up of the true crime story of Whitey Bulger's murder of his lieutenant's girlfriend, Debra Davis, and a revenge fantasy. Well done depictions of Boston in the busing era. - Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5
Feb 13, 2024
I read three Dennis Lehane novels pre-library thing (pre 2009): Mystic River, Prayers for Rain, and Sacred. I didn't recall the books thus gave them two stars. Librarything average rating is upper three, low four. Planning on re-reading them I saw Small Mercies had a solid 4.25 average rating. I gave it a shot, and glad I did. Very violent book and well done.
525 members; 4.25 average rating; 2/2/2024 - Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5
Jan 6, 2024
Mary Pat lives in a poor white neighborhood in South Boston in the 1970s, where she is a single mother of a teenage daughter. Boston has just mandated bussing to desegregate the schools, and Mary Pat's daughter is one of the students who will be bussed to a black neighborhood. Mary Pat is racist, and she and her racist neighbors are fighting against the bussing laws. Against this racial tension, a young black man is found dead in a subway station, and Mary Pat's daughter is missing. The story is about Mary Pat's desperate search for her daughter, and the mystery of who killed the black man.
Lehane paints a very vivid picture of South Boston in the 70s. He manages to make Mary Pat a sympathetic character, despite her blatant racism, which is the especially ugly type of racism that poor white people have toward Black people, the need to look down on someone from the bottom rung of the ladder. Mary Pat acts from a fierce love for her daughter, and there is a lot of schadenfreude at watching this middle-aged woman single-handedly take on Boston's organized crime rings. - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Dec 31, 2023
Here is some of the best character-driven fiction I have ever read. Now at the end of 2023, I may be changing my choice for "best of the year" to Dennis Lehane's SMALL MERCIES.
Background: the summer of 1974 in the housing projects of (Lehane's favorite) Boston, Southie to be exact. Everyone's upset about the new busing plan, that many white children will be forced to go to schools in black neighborhoods and that many black children will be forced into schools in their neighborhoods. This background is true.
The story: Mary Pat Fennessy's 17-year-old daughter, Jules, goes missing after meeting with friends one evening. So Mary Pat looks for her, and she's not afraid of anyone. As time goes by and we learn along with Mary Pat what has probably become of Jules, we see how tough Mary Pat can be. And she's just beginning.
During her search, Mary Pat learns of the death, maybe accidental, maybe not, of her black coworker's 20-year-old son. Little by little, she hears about Jules' possible involvement.
Working this case of possible murder is Homicide Detective "Bobby" Coyne. Separately, he and Mary Pat both come to know what really happened. They each are examples of a parent's love for their child. And she is an example of a mother's vengeance.
SMALL MERCIES is great character-driven fiction in part because it also has plot. Plus, I've read few authors who can write a character-driven story as well as Dennis Lehane. - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Nov 22, 2023
Boston in 1974 had a lot in common with Birmingham, Alabama. A court ruled earlier that year that Boston public schools must be desegregated with the start of school in the fall, leading to a summer full of racial tension centered on the black neighborhood of Roxbury and vociferous protests in the white working-class neighborhoods of South Boston.
Mary Pat, proud Irish Catholic single mother and vehement anti-busing advocate, is distracted from the activism she plans with other mothers in Southie when her teenage daughter Jules goes missing. On the same evening, a young black man is found dead in a Southie subway station. Do these two events connect, and how?
Man, the racism and the foul language, the cruelty and the violence that characters perpetuate on each other is so hard to read — not because it's exaggerated or over-the-top in its depiction but because it is all too depressingly real. The ways that even Mary Pat — as close as this novel comes to a protagonist — speaks about black people is like a bucket of cold water in your face. When the dead teenager turns out to be the son of Mary Pat's black co-worker at the nursing home, she tries and mostly fails to reach out to her with compassion, and is nevertheless surprised when her half-hearted condolences are met with anger and resentment. The gulf between these two women, who have so much in common, cannot be overcome with a clever plot point or one heartfelt conversation. It is bone deep, generations old, and will undoubtedly live on in future generations on both sides.
There are also more bog-standard depictions of neighborhood gangsters and drug dealing, and it all comes together in an explosive finale that metes out a certain rough justice that satisfies no one. But those weren't the aspects that stuck with me. It was the seeming hopelessness of the interpersonal relations between two sets of Americans who struggle to even see each other as human that still haunts my thoughts. - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
May 16, 2023
If you lived in Boston during the busing crisis of the mid 1970's, this will be a familiar story to you, and you'll understand why Dennis Lehane of Dorchester said it was a necessity for him to write it, finally. Even after all this time, even after all the misery, even after Whitey Bulger was caught and killed in prison, even if thousands of school children were cheated out of their educations, even if you remember ROAR and Pixie Palladino and Louise Day Hicks and Dapper O'Neill, and even if working class and poor white and Black families are now being forced from their former segregated neighborhoods by wealthy renovators, you'll need to read this. If you come from anywhere else and weren't even born yet, you'll be stunned by Mary Pat Fennessy, 42, of the Southie projects, raised in hatred and violence, brought up in the code of omerta, that snitches get stitches, who loves fighting with her fists more than relaxing with a cup of coffee and a cigarette, whose breaking point is when her teenage daughter disappears and no one saw anything and no one knows anything, this after losing her son to an overdose, and after two divorces. And Mary Pat will meet Bobby Coyne, BPD detective, Dorchester native, who runs up against her when he finds out that her missing daughter Jules may have been involved in the murder of a young Black man at an MBTA station. This novel brings back all the ugliness, but the pain of the reader dims before the authority and command of Lehane’s writing. - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
May 14, 2023
Dennis Lehane is one of my favorite writers and I have read many of his books. I have heard that this may be his last as he devotes his time to screen writing etc. I hope not but if this is it then this is a good one. Set in familiar Lehane territory(Boston etc) during the beginning of school busing in the late summer of 1974, it deals with the embedded racism of South Boston and how strong was the anti busing sentiment of that time. The main character Mary Pat is 42 year old white woman with I dead son from drugs and a wild 17 year old daughter. She is divorced from her 2nd husband and her back story and those of her friends and family are of crime, violence, family, loyalty, and extreme tribalism. The main focus of the story surrounds the disappearance of her daughter Jules on the same night as a black co-worker's son is found dead in a neighborhood train station. The story goes from there with her pursuit to find her daughter. Lehane introduces his usual cast of cops, criminals and everyone in between. The book moves quickly and gets into Mary Pat's changing attitudes as she examines everything within her and around her to try and understand the extreme racial hostility from her white tribe. Lehane gives a great feel for the times and of course we can all see the connection 50 years later to what still exists. If you like crime fiction, then I strongly recommend this book. Lehane has written books that have turned into movies and he is very capable handling different types of stories besides crime fiction. - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Aug 24, 2023
Excellent modern noir style that captures the culture and tone of working class Boston as best as anyone has. Dialogue reminiscent of George V. Higgins- The Friends of Eddie Coyle. Reminds me of his earlier Darkness Take My Hand and A Drink Before the War but even closer to the bone. - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Aug 23, 2023
This is a wonderful audiobook. The depictions of grief, racism, senseless violence, long held prejudices and xenophobia were very well done. Another strong point was how little tolerance there is for someone who steps out of line with the code of conduct in Southie. Mary Pat was a great character as was Bobbie, the detective. As the novel progressed, I found Mary Pat's actions less believable which is my only negative comment. - Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5
Jul 31, 2023
Dennis Lehane's last few books have been disappointing and this is no exception. I wish he'd go back to his original mysteries. - Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5
Oct 4, 2023
When I was 9 years old the Ku Klux Klan blew up a bunch of school buses in Pontiac Michigan just a few days before bussing was set to start in that working-class suburb of Detroit. I lived in a different suburb, and though I am sure we would have been subject to later desegregation action (my elementary school and my middle school were 100% White, and my high school was pretty close though there were a few Black and East Asian students) that time was not yet upon us. This event and the heated conversation on TV and among my parents with their friends and neighbors made such a strong impact on little Bonnie G that I can recall even the names of the protest leaders more than 50 years later. Dennis Lehane's choice to set this story of paranoic insularity, a neighborhood owned by organized crime, and bitter deadly racial hatred in the midst of South Boston's infamous resistance to desegregation was genius. He really got inside Southie and how the years of clannish neighborhood "rules" bred fear and hatred of anyone considered "other" and especially of Boston's Black residents, He also covers how that generalized fear and racial hatred was fanned by organized crime since the existence of a common enemy kept people from looking at what they were doing and also buoyed their protection rackets. This is not a strictly relevant aside, but my friend Anita and I were just last week talking about our picks for the top 5 most segregated cities we knew -- she grew up in suburban Chicago and I grew up in suburban Detroit and both of those cities made the list, but we agreed Boston took the prize.
The central story unrolls really smoothly, so I won't get into details. The action revolves around a mother avenging the murder of her daughter and to a lesser extent the "murder" of her son who was a heroin addict who od'd and who got his drugs from the same gangs that cost her daughter her life. That mother, Mary Pat, was in many ways an interesting and engaging character, and I liked seeing things from her perspective. The problem was that she was as educated or uneducated as she needed to be to make scenes work, and also as smart or intellectually average as she needed to be to make other scenes work. This is a problem I often have with thrillers, but there were some truly egregious instances in this book. We have a character who had no interest in school, no ambition to learn, and yet she knows about the history of harbor forts and the Boston Tea Party (she has a monologue about the meaning of "without representation" while she is beating down a drug dealer) and the subject matter of James Joyce. (To be fair she says she never read Joyce, but she knows about the things he wrote about and compares them to events in the book. I recognize he is Irish so there might be an awareness of his existence in 1970s Southie which was solidly Irish, but I am confident that that one would be hard-pressed to find nursing home attendants who watched games shows and joined racist groups in their spare time who could identify the major themes in Finnegan's Wake.) Mary Pat also became a tactical genius when she finally had her John McClane moment, knowing what people are going to do even before they know and understanding how to make physics work for her. I am not great with the use of Deus ex machina, and a woman ping ponging between being a female Derek Zoolander and Doris Kearns Goodwin pretty cleanly fits that description. Lehane also hits his messaging about handing down our racism a little (or a really a lot) too hard. Still, it is worth repeating that Mary Pat was mostly interesting and entertaining (in a violent and pitiable way) and I really liked the central cop in the story too. Bobby was the vehicle for lots of those racism-is-bad-teach-the-children moments, but also he was kind of like Frank Furillo on NYPD Blue. The cop you wish all cops would be.
If you are looking for lighter reading with a rich and interesting setting I think this is a good choice. And I did enjoy reading this, that is an important point. I just finished the book in a nearly 5 hour marathon and I would not do that with a book that was not fun to read. Still, I had enough issues with the convenient flickering brilliance of Mary Pat and some other weird choices (Lehane introduces a White male character who exists for no reason and is found out to be having a relationship with a Black woman and that fact is gratuitous and weird. There is also a scene with Mary Pat and her sister that seems as pasted in as many of my parenthetical asides in this review) to keep this at a 3.5. - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
Sep 5, 2023
Small Mercies - Dennis Lehane
Well!
It is going to be hard to to find a better book than this one in 2023.
Everything about it is outstanding. Yes it is as good, if not better than Mystic River.
The author takes a real event- the desegregation of south Boston (100% white) and Roxbury - nearly 100% black and the forced bussing of students of these two neighborhoods to the other. It adds a murder(s) to the mix and let’s the sparks fly.
Excellent Book!!!! - Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5
Aug 7, 2023
Good story, but could hardly get through it and didn't want to read too long at one time because of the foul bigotry, hatred, cruelty and violence. It didn't feel over the top, but all too depressingly real.
Here are my notes as I read - (spoilers beware)
OMG Thom McAn & Purity Supreme - old New England brands from my childhood.
Not even 10 pages in and I'm in another world. A grotty one. Where mother and daughter say fuck to each other and share cigarettes. Bleak and grinding.
The racism is so unreal. Irish got their share of it, but have so much blind hate. Crazy.
A missing daughter & dead son have to be connected, but how?
Typical - ex gets out, away from the hate, anger & violence & he's the traitor. Is thinking this wrong with everyone or just an Irish thing? It's nuts.
p 87 Pat knows & speaks truth, but will she act differently? Eventually? (I mean being a racist asshole)
p 127 "Marty isn't just Southie's protector. He is't just Southie's favorite son. Marty isn't just the rebel for them all who thumbs his nose at the merely criminal, not a practitioner of hijinks and shenanigans, not just running an underworld that needs to be run by someone, so why not him? - is to believe Southie is evil. And Peg would never do that. So, instead of baring her soul to a sister who would turn her back to that soul and ask it to put its clothes back on in the name of common decency, Mary Pat didn't answer the door." - What an amazing insight into just how much shit people willingly accept in the name of belonging. Why not create another thing or another way to belong? They must like being used, abused & ground into the dust to accept it so universally.
p 207 were people this naive about criminals in the 1970s? Of course Marty is the source of the drugs - it's the most profitable, long-term investment.
p 254 he (Bobby) thinks idiot, marginalized cops are bad then?
In the end Mary Pat gets what she wants - to feel like she did something even when it results in nothing. - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
May 28, 2023
I fell in love with Lehane's writing when I picked up Mystic River, and enjoyed the hell out of him through Shutter Island and his Kenzie & Gennaro series. I still believe The Given Day is one of the best novels I've ever read.
But then something happened. Lehane kept the Coughlins going through a couple of more books after The Given Day that felt like diminishing returns. And he put out a couple of standalones that also didn't seem to have that same bite and grit of his earlier stuff.
Still, every time I see a new Lehane novel—based on my adoration of those first nine novels—I get a thrill of anticipation.
And this one? This one did not let me down. I devoured this book.
I often complain, in my reviews, of authors who create unlikeable characters, but don't have the skill or ability to get the reader to root for them. I actually quite enjoy unlikeable characters, because the reading experience—when the book is done right by an author with skill—is a more challenging and fun one.
And in Mary Pat, we are given someone that, within a couple of pages, you feel her fierceness, but also her racism.
And, a side note here...this book is set in south Boston during the very real, and very racially charged period when the schools became integrated in 1974. And I had to laugh, because one reader noted her DNF of the book, because the author dared used the word "n*gg*r"...because, you know, back in south Boston in 74, during all this racial strife, NOT ONE PERSON would have ever used that vile word.
Some readers...JFC.
Anyway, so, here we are, with Mary Pat facing the prospect of her daughter going to school with black kids for the first time. In 1974. And I've gotta say, it's seriously been less than 50 years since this has been a thing? Unbelievable.
But now, here's the thing with Lehane. He's a writer's writer. He's an absolute master of dialogue. I'd go so far as to say that, if anyone can lay claim to Elmore Leonard's crown as King of Dialogue, it's Lehane. He gets more across by having a character not say the answer than most do through three pages of characters telling the reader exactly what they need to know. His dialogue is simply gorgeous.
Add to that his characters. I've read other reviews where they complain all the characters are "stock" characters. But are they, though? Did we read the same book? Because, yes, Lehane may start with a stock character, but he always subverts the readers' expectations by throwing a curve ball in there. He certainly did that here, but I won't get into spoiler territory to explain. But I will say that Mary Pat's ongoing parental suffering was a horrible, well-written, ungodly-awful thing to experience.
Then take a look at Lehane's plot. It may be safe to say Lehane has a bit of a formula where he sets up a situation, then gives it a twist, then one more twist, then brings it to a rather violent end, but he does it well, and those twists are beautiful things to behold. Even when I knew what was going to happen, still, as Lehane laid it out, it was always breathtaking. And heartbreaking.
And finally, Lehane has this way of dropping real-life realizations or observations into his characters' minds that are visceral truths about the human condition. There's very few other authors I've read that can do this, and even less that do it well.
This is a gorgeous, painful novel to read. And I adored every single second of it.
And now there are ten books of Lehane's that I think are fantastic. - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
May 16, 2023
Small Mercies by Dennis Lehane is his latest ‘smack you in the face and rip out your heart’ novel.
I was a bit reluctant to begin reading because I knew, I just knew, I would finish the book seething with anger and frustration and not be able to concentrate on anything except life’s injustices for weeks afterward.
The year is 1974 and school desegregation (achieved by integrating young students attending public schools through ‘busing’) is about to begin in Boston. For white neighborhoods, especially Southie, it was like a call to arms.
For our main character, Mary Pat Fennessy, the busing situation just adds fuel to the fire of her spiraling rage, hatred and anguish. She is alone, having ‘lost’ 2 husbands, a son to drugs and now her daughter is missing.
The book is quite upsetting (for me). Boston’s legacy of intolerance and racism is very well-known and Dennis Lehane shows no mercy in describing the hatred and attitudes of many of Boston’s communities and citizens.
I particularly liked the historical tidbits that were included in the book. I had no idea that (then) Senator Ted Kennedy was booed and pelted with eggs and tomatoes as he tried to speak at an anti-busing rally.
I liked the detective Bobby Coyne who tried to reason with Mary Pat and slow down her vengeance.
I liked the courage of Calliope Williamson as she spoke with Mary Pat after the funeral of her son.
A very good read ***** - Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5
May 15, 2023
Dennis Lehane takes us back to Boston in his latest book Small Mercies.
It's 1974 and the schools are being desegregated - and the neighborhood of Southie is determined that's not to happen. The Irish American neighborhood crime gang is the one who make the rules in Southie - not the cops. Alongside this, a dead black teenager is found at the train station - and a white teen is missing.
Small Mercies is told through Mary Pat Fennessy's eyes. She's lived her whole life in the Southie housing projects. She's tough and has suffered much over the years - losing her husband, son and now her daughter is missing. This conflux of events sparks something in Mary Pat. She's had enough, lost enough and isn't going to back down this time. I loved Mary Pat - she does bad things for the right reason. She made me cry for her and her losses, for a hard life, for the limits life handed out to her. But she's trying to see things from another perspective. The other character I really was Bobby - a cop in the neighborhood. He thinks before he does, he's calm and sees the big picture.
Racism is a large part of Small Mercies - and it's darn hard to read. This is 49 years ago, and truly, what has changed? (More tears from this reader.)
Lehane is a fantastic writer. Small Mercies is hard to read, but impossible to put down. You'll be thinking about it long after the last page is turned. See for yourself - read an excerpt of Small Mercies.
Gentle readers - there are triggers in Small Mercies with violence leading the pack. - Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5
May 15, 2023
Set in Boston during the time of forced integration, this is a dark and brutal story of a single mother seeking the truth about the disappearance of her teenage daughter. All the grit of poverty, race, and crime come together in his story.
Mary Pat has already lost a son to drugs and now her daughter doesn't come home after a night out with friends, one being a well-known drug pusher. At the same time, a young black man is found dead on the subway tracks and witnesses tell of four teenagers taunting him. The leader of the Irish Mob, Marty Butler, has control overmuch of this area and Mary Pat's unrelenting probes into what has happened causes all kinds of chaos.
I wasn't actually convinced of the Mary Pat character; she seems a bit too brave and too "super-womanish" but it is a good read in spite of brutal scenes.
Book preview
Small Mercies - Dennis Lehane
Dedication
For Chisa
Epigraph
To cut oneself entirely from one’s kind is impossible. To live in a desert, one must be a saint.
—Joseph Conrad, Under Western Eyes
Contents
Cover
Title Page
Dedication
Epigraph
Contents
Historical Note
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Acknowledgments
About the Author
Also by Dennis Lehane
Copyright
About the Publisher
Historical Note
On June 21, 1974, U.S. District Court Judge W. Arthur Garrity, Jr., ruled in Morgan v. Hennigan that the Boston School Committee had systematically disadvantaged black school children
in the public school system. The only remedy, the judge concluded, was to begin busing students between predominantly white and predominantly black neighborhoods to desegregate the city’s public high schools.
The school in the neighborhood with the largest African American population was Roxbury High School. The school in the neighborhood with the largest white population was South Boston High School. It was decided that these two schools would switch a significant portion of their student bodies.
This order was to take effect at the beginning of the school year, on September 12, 1974. Students and parents had less than ninety days from the date of the ruling to prepare.
It was very hot in Boston that summer, and it seldom rained.
1
The power goes out sometime before dawn, and everyone at Commonwealth wakes to swelter. In the Fennessy apartment, the window fans have quit in mid-rotation and the fridge is pimpled with sweat. Mary Pat sticks her head in on Jules, finds her daughter on top of her sheets, eyes clenched, mouth half open, huffing thin breaths into a damp pillow. Mary Pat moves on down the hall into the kitchen and lights her first cigarette of the day. She stares out the window over the sink and can smell the heat rising off the brick in the window casing.
She realizes she can’t make coffee only when she tries to make it. She’d brew some on the stovetop—the oven runs on gas—but the gas company grew sick of excuses and killed their service last week. To get the family out of arrears, Mary Pat has picked up two shifts at the shoe warehouse where she has her second job, but she still has three more shifts and a trip to the billing office before she can boil water or roast a chicken again.
She carries the trash can into the living room and sweeps the beer cans into it. Empties the ashtrays from the coffee table and the side table and one she found on top of the TV. It’s there she catches her reflection in the tube and sees a creature she can’t reconcile with the image she’s clung to in her mind, an image that bears little resemblance to the sweaty lump of matted hair and droopy chin dressed in a tank top and shorts. Even in the flat gray of the picture tube, she can make out the blue veins in her outer thighs, which somehow don’t seem possible, not yet. Not yet. She’s only forty-two, which, okay, when she was twelve seemed like one foot over the threshold into God’s waiting room, but now, living it, is an age that makes her feel no different than she always has. She’s twelve, she’s twenty-one, she’s thirty-three, she’s all the ages at the same time. But she isn’t aging. Not in her heart. Not in her mind’s eye.
She’s peering at her face in the TV, wiping at the damp strands of hair on her forehead, when the doorbell rings.
After a series of home invasions two years back, in the summer of ’72, the Housing Authority sprang for peepholes in the doors. Mary Pat looks through hers now to see Brian Shea in the mint green corridor, his arms full of sticks. Like most of the people who work for Marty Butler, Brian dresses neater than a deacon. No long hair or bandit mustaches for the Butler crew. No muttonchop sideburns or flared pants or elevated shoes. Definitely no paisley or tie-dye. Brian Shea dresses like someone from a decade earlier—white T-shirt under a navy blue Baracuta. (The Baracuta jacket—navy blue, tan, or occasionally brown—is a staple of Butler crew guys; they wear it even on days like today, when the mercury approaches 80 at nine a.m. They swap it out in the winter for topcoats or leather car coats with thick wool lining, but come spring they all bring the Baracutas back out of the closet on the same day.) Brian’s cheeks are shaved close, his blond hair cropped tight in a crew cut, and he wears off-white chinos and scuffed black ankle boots with zippers on the sides. Brian has eyes the color of Windex. They sparkle and glint at her with an air of mild presumption, like he knows the things she thinks she keeps hidden. And those things amuse him.
Mary Pat,
he says. How are you?
She can picture her hair splayed sodden on her head like congealed spaghetti. Can feel every splotch on her skin. Power’s out, Brian. How are you?
Marty’s working on the power,
he says. He’s made some calls.
She glances at the thin slats of wood in his arms. Help you with those?
That’d be great.
He turns them in his arms and stands the pile upright beside her door. They’re for the signs.
She seems to remember spilling beer on her tank top last night and wonders if the scent of stale Miller High Life is being picked up by Brian Shea. What signs?
For the rally. Tim G will be by with them shortly.
She places the slats in the umbrella bucket just inside her door. They share space with the lone umbrella with the broken rib. The rally’s happening?
Friday. We’re taking it right to City Hall Plaza. Making some noise, Mary Pat. Just like we promised. We’re going to need the whole neighborhood.
Of course,
she says. I’ll be there.
He hands her a stack of leaflets. We’re asking folks to pass these out before noon today. You know—before it gets crazy hot.
He uses the side of his hand to wipe at sweat trickling down his smooth cheek. Though it might be too late for that.
She takes the leaflets. Glances at the top one:
BOSTON’S UNDER SIEGE!!!!!!!!
JOIN ALL CONCERNED PARENTS AND PROUD MEMBERS OF THE SOUTH BOSTON COMMUNITY FOR A MARCH TO END JUDICIAL DICTATORSHIP ON FRIDAY, AUGUST 30, AT CITY HALL PLAZA.
12 NOON SHARP!
NO BUSING! NEVER!
RESIST!
BOYCOTT!
We’re asking everyone to cover specific blocks. We’d like you to cover . . .
Brian reaches into his Baracuta, comes back with a list, runs his finger down it. Ah. Like you to cover Mercer between Eighth and Dorchester Street. And Telegraph to the park. And then, yeah, all the houses ringing the park.
That’s a lot of doors.
It’s for the Cause, Mary Pat.
Anytime the Butler crew comes around with their hands out, what they’re really offering is protection. But they never exactly call it that. They wrap it in a noble motive: the IRA, the starving children in Wherever the Fuck, families of veterans. Some of the money might even end up there. But the anti-busing cause, so far, anyway, seems totally legit. It seems like the Cause. If for no other reason than they haven’t asked for a dime from the residents of Commonwealth. Just legwork.
Happy to help,
Mary Pat tells Brian. Just busting your balls.
Brian gives that a tired eye roll. Everyone busts balls in this place. Time I’m done, I’ll be a eunuch.
He tips an imaginary cap to her before heading down the green corridor. Good to see you, Mary Pat. Hope your power comes back soon.
Wait a sec,
she calls. Brian.
He looks back at her.
What happens after the protest? What happens if, I dunno, nothing changes?
He holds out his hands. I guess we see.
Why don’t you just fucking shoot the judge? she thinks. You’re the goddamn Butler crew. We pay protection
to you. Protect us now. Protect our kids. Make this stop.
But what she says is Thanks, Brian. Say hi to Donna.
Will do.
Another tip of the imaginary cap. Say hi to Kenny.
His smooth face freezes for a second as he probably recalls the latest neighborhood gossip. He flashes her doe eyes. I mean, I meant—
She bails him out with a simple I will.
He gives her a tight smile and walks off.
She closes the door and turns back into the apartment to see her daughter sitting at the kitchen table, smoking one of her cigarettes.
Fucking power’s off,
Jules says.
Or ‘Good morning,’
Mary Pat says. ‘Good morning’ works.
Good morning.
Jules shoots her a smile that manages to be bright as the sun and cold as the moon. I’m going to need to shower, Ma.
So shower.
It’ll be cold.
It’s fucking ninety degrees out.
Mary Pat pulls her pack of Slims back across the table from her daughter’s elbow.
Jules rolls her eyes, takes a drag, directs the smoke at the ceiling in a long steady exhale. What did he want?
Brian?
Yeah.
How do you know Brian Shea?
Mary Pat lights her second of the day.
Ma,
Jules says, her eyes bulging, "I don’t know Brian Shea. I know Brian Shea because everyone in the neighborhood knows Brian Shea. What did he want?"
There’s gonna be a march,
Mary Pat says. A rally. Friday.
Won’t change anything.
Her daughter tries for a tone of casual apathy, but Mary Pat sees the fear swimming in her eyes, darkening the pouches underneath. Always such a pretty girl, Jules. Always such a pretty girl. And now clearly aging. At seventeen. From any number of things—growing up in Commonwealth (not the kind of place that produces beauty queens and fashion models, no matter how pretty they were coming out of the gate); losing a brother; watching her stepfather walk out the door just when she’d finally started to believe he’d stick around; being forced—by federal edict—to enter a new school her senior year in a foreign neighborhood not known for letting white kids walk around after sundown; not to mention just being seventeen and getting into who knows what with her knucklehead friends. A lot of pot around these days, Mary Pat knows, and acid. Booze, of course; in Southie, most kids came out of the womb clutching a Schlitz and a pack of Luckies. And, of course, the Scourge, that nasty brown powder and its fucking needles that turn healthy kids into corpses or soon-to-be-corpses in under a year. If Jules keeps it to the booze and the cigarettes with the occasional joint thrown in, she’ll only lose her looks. And everyone loses their looks in the projects. But God forbid if she moves on to the Scourge. Mary Pat will die another death.
Jules, she’s come to realize over the last couple of years, never should have been raised here. Mary Pat—one look at her baby pictures and childhood snapshots, all scrunched face and wide shoulders and small powerful body, ready to audition for the roller derby or some shit—looks like she came off a conveyor belt for tough Irish broads. Most people would sooner pick a fight with a stray dog with a taste for flesh than fuck with a Southie chick who grew up in the PJs.
But that’s Mary Pat.
Jules is tall and sinewy, with long smooth hair the color of an apple. Every inch of her is soft and feminine and waiting on a broken heart the way miners wait on black lung—she just knows it’s coming. She’s fragile, this product of Mary Pat’s womb—fragile in the eyes, fragile in her flesh, fragile in her soul. All the tough talk, the cigarettes, the ability to swear like a sailor and spit like a longshoreman, can’t fully disguise that. Mary Pat’s mother, Louise Weezie
Flanagan, a Hall of Fame Irish Tough Broad who’d stood four-eleven and weighed ninety-five pounds soaking wet after a Thanksgiving dinner, told Mary Pat a few times, You’re either a fighter or a runner. And runners always run out of road.
Mary Pat sometimes wishes she’d found a way to get them out of Commonwealth before Jules finds out which she is.
So where’s this rally taking place?
Jules asks.
We’re going downtown.
Yeah?
That gets a wry smile from her daughter as she stubs out her cigarette. Crossing the bridge ’n’ shit.
Jules raises her eyebrows up and down. Look at you.
Mary Pat reaches across the table and pats her hand so she’ll look at her. We’re going to City Hall. They can’t ignore us, Jules. They’re gonna see us, they’re gonna fucking hear us. You kids ain’t alone.
Jules gives her a smile that’s hopeful and broken at the same time. Yeah?
She lowers her head. Her voice is a wet whisper when she says, Thanks, Ma.
Of course.
Mary Pat feels something clench in the back of her throat. You bet, sweetie.
This may have been the longest she’s sat with her daughter, just talking, in months. She’d forgotten how much she likes it.
A tiny clap of thunder shakes the floor beneath their feet, rattles through the walls, and the lights come on above the stove. The fans start moving in the windows. Radios and TVs in the other apartments return to battle with one another. Someone whoops.
Jules shrieks, I call shower!
and bolts from her chair like she owes it money.
Mary Pat makes coffee. Takes it into the living room with one of the freshly emptied ashtrays and turns on the TV. They’re all over the news—South Boston and the coming school year. Black kids about to get bused into Southie. White kids about to get bused out to Roxbury. No one on either side happy about the prospect.
Except the agitators, the blacks who sued the school committee—been suing it for nine years because nothing was ever good enough.
Mary Pat has worked alongside too many blacks at Meadow Lane Manor and the shoe factory to believe they’re bad or naturally lazy. Plenty of good, hardworking, upstanding Negroes want the same things she wants—a steady paycheck, food on the table, children safe in their beds. She’s told both her children if they’re going to say nigger
around her, they better be sure they’re using it about those blacks who aren’t upstanding, don’t work hard, don’t stay married, and have babies just to keep the welfare checks rolling in.
Noel, just before he left for Vietnam, said, That describes most of the ones I’ve ever met, Ma.
And how many have you met?
Mary Pat wanted to know. You see a lot of coloreds walking up West Broadway, do ya?
No,
he said, but I see ’em downtown. See ’em on the T.
He used one hand to imitate someone holding a subway strap and the other to scratch under his arm like a monkey. They’s always going to Fo’-rest Hills.
He made chimp sounds and she swatted at him.
Don’t be ignorant,
she said. I didn’t raise you to be ignorant.
He smiled at her.
God, she misses her son’s smile; she first saw it, crooked and wide, when he was on her breast, drunk on mother’s milk, and it blew open a chamber of her heart that refuses to close no matter how hard she presses down on it.
He kissed her on the top of her head. You’re too nice for these projects, Ma. Anyone ever tell you that?
And then he was gone. Back out to the streets. All Southie kids loved the streets but none more so than project kids. Project kids hated staying in the way rich people hated work. Staying in meant smelling your neighbors’ food through the walls, hearing their fights, their fucks, their toilet flushes, what they listened to on their radios and record players, what they watched on TV. Sometimes you’d swear you could smell them, their body odor and cigarette breath and swollen-feet stink.
Jules comes back into the living room in her old tartan bathrobe, at least two sizes too small at this point, drying her hair. We going?
Going?
Yeah.
Where?
You told me you’d take me back-to-school shopping.
When?
"Like fucking today, Ma."
You doing the buying?
Ma, come on, don’t fuck with me.
I’m not. You notice we don’t have a stove?
Who gives a shit? You never cook.
That gets Mary Pat off the couch with blood in her eyes. I never fucking cook?
Not lately.
Because the gas was turned off.
Well, whose fault was that?
Get a fucking job before I break your head in,
Mary Pat says, talking to me like that.
I have a job.
Part-time don’t count, honey. Part-time don’t make the rent.
Or keep the stove working, apparently.
I will knock you into fucking next week, I swear to Christ.
Jules raises her fists and dances back and forth in her ridiculous robe like a boxer in the ring. Smiling big.
Mary Pat bursts out laughing in spite of herself. Put those hands down before your punch your own head, end up talking funny the rest of your life.
Jules, laughing through her teeth, shoots her the bird with both hands, still doing the ridiculous dance in the ridiculous robe. Robell’s, then.
"I got no money."
Jules stops dancing. Puts the towel back over her head. You got some. You might not have Boston Gas bill money, but you got Robell’s money.
No,
Mary Pat says. I do not.
I’m gonna go to the spearchucker school looking poorer than them?
Her eyes well, and she runs the towel violently over her head to make the tears get no further. "Ma, please?"
Mary Pat imagines her there on day one, this trembly white girl and her big brown eyes.
I got a few bucks,
Mary Pat manages.
Jules drops into a crouch of gratitude. "Thank you."
But you gotta help me knock on a bunch of doors first.
Fuckin’ what now?
Jules says.
They start in the Heights. Knock on all the doors that circle the park and the monument. A lot of people aren’t home (or assume she and Jules are Christian Scientists spreading gospel
so pretend not to be), but plenty are. And few need converting. They provide the outrage, the righteousness, the umbrage. They’ll be there on Friday.
Bet your ass we will,
an old lady with a walker and smoker’s breath tells them. Bet your sweet ass.
The sun’s in descent by the time they finish. Not setting so much as dipping into the brown ribbons of smoke in a constant drift from the power plant at the end of West Broadway. Mary Pat takes Jules to Robell’s and they pick out a notebook, a four-pack of pens, a blue nylon school bag, a pair of jeans with wide flares at the bottom but which run high on the hips. Then Jules, in the groove of it all finally, goes with her mother to Finast, where Mary Pat buys a TV dinner for herself. When she asks what Jules wants for dinner, Jules reminds her she’s going out with Rum. They move through the checkout line with one TV dinner and one National Enquirer, Mary Pat thinking she may as well have Lonely, Aging, and Pudgy plastered to her forehead.
On the walk home, Jules, out of the blue, says, You ever wonder if there’s some different place?
Mary Pat says, What now?
Jules steps off the curb to avoid a pile of ants swarming what looks like a broken egg. She pivots around a young tree before stepping back up on the sidewalk. You just, you know, you ever have the feeling that things are supposed to be one way but they’re not? And you don’t know why because you’ve never known, like, anything but what you see? And what you see is, you know
—she waves at Old Colony Avenue—this?
She looks at her mother and cants a bit on the uneven sidewalk so they won’t collide. But you know, right?
Know what?
Know it’s not what you were meant for.
Jules taps the space between her breasts. In here.
Well, sweetie,
her mother says, with no fucking idea what she’s on about, what were you meant for?
I’m not saying it that way.
What way?
The way you’re saying it.
Then how’re you saying it?
I’m just trying to say I don’t understand why I don’t feel the way other people seem to feel.
About what?
About everything. Anything.
Her daughter raises her hands. Fuck!
What?
Mary Pat wants to know. What?
Jules waves her hand at the world. Ma, I just . . . It’s like . . . Okay, okay.
She stops and props a foot up on the base of a rusted BPD callbox. Her voice falls to a whisper. I don’t understand why things are what they are.
You mean school? You mean busing?
What? No. I mean, yes. Kind of. I mean, I don’t understand where we go.
Is she talking about Noel? You mean when we die?
Then, yeah. But, you know, when we . . . forget about it.
No, tell me.
No.
Please.
Her daughter looks her right in the eyes—an absolute rarity since her first menstrual cycle six years ago—and her gaze is hopeless and yearning in the same breath. For a moment, Mary Pat sees herself in the gaze . . . but what self? Which Mary Pat? How long since she yearned? How long since she dared believe something so foolish as the idea that someone anywhere has the answers to questions she can’t even put into words?
Jules looks away, bites her lip, a habit of hers when she’s fighting back tears. I mean, where do we go, Ma? Next week, next year? Like, what’s the fucking,
she sputters, what’s the—Why are we doing this?
"Doing what?"
Walking around, shopping, getting up, going to bed, getting up again? What are we trying to, you know, like, achieve?
Mary Pat wants to give her daughter one of those shots they give tigers to knock them out. What the fuck is she on about? Are you PMSing?
she asks.
Jules hucks out a liquid chuckle. No, Ma. Definitely no.
So what?
She takes her daughter’s hands in hers. Jules, I’m here. What?
She kneads her daughter’s palms with her thumbs the way she always did when she was feverish as a child.
Jules gives her a smile that’s sad and knowing. But knowing of what? She says, Ma.
Yes?
I’m okay.
You don’t sound it.
No, I am.
No, you’re not.
I’m just . . .
What?
Tired,
her daughter says.
Of what?
Jules bites the inside of her cheek, an old habit, and looks out at the avenue.
Mary Pat continues kneading her daughter’s palms. Tired of what?
Jules looks her in the eyes. Lies.
Is Rum hurting you? Is he fucking lying to you?
No, Ma. No.
Then who?
No one.
You just said.
I said I was tired.
Tired of lies.
No, I just said that to shut you up.
Why?
Cuz I’m tired of you.
Well, that’s a nice ax in the heart. She drops her daughter’s hands. Fucking buy your own school supplies next time. You owe me twelve sixty-two.
She starts walking up the sidewalk.
Ma.
Fuck you.
"Ma, listen. I didn’t mean I’m tired of you. I meant I’m tired of you giving me the third fucking degree."
Mary Pat spins and walks toward her daughter so fast Jules takes a step back. (You never take a step back, Mary Pat wants to scream. Not here. Not ever.) She puts a finger in her face. "I’m giving you the third fucking degree because I’m worried about you. Talkin’ all this stuff that don’t make sense, your eyes misting up, looking all lost. You’re all I got now. Ain’t you figured that out? And I’m all you got now."
Well, yeah,
Jules says, but I’m young.
If she hadn’t smiled right away, Mary Pat might have laid her out. Right there on Old Colony.
Are you okay?
she asks her daughter.
I mean, I’m not.
Jules laughs. But I am. That make sense?
Her mother waits, her eyes never leaving her daughter’s.
Jules gestures broadly at Old Colony, at all the signs—southie will not go; welcome to boston, ruled by decree; no vote = no rights—and the spray-painted messages on the sidewalks and the low walls around parking lots—Nigers Go Home; White Power; Back to Africa Then Back to School. For a second, it feels to Mary Pat like they’re preparing for war. All that’s missing are sandbags and pillbox turrets.
"It’s my senior year," Jules says.
I know, baby.
And nothing makes sense.
Mary Pat hugs her daughter on the sidewalk and lets her cry into her shoulder. She ignores the stares of passersby. The more they stare, the prouder she grows of this weak child she’s borne. At least Commonwealth hasn’t erased her heart, she wants to say. At least she held on to that, you thickheaded, coldhearted Hibernian assholes.
I might be one of you. But she isn’t.
When they break the clutch, she wipes under her daughter’s eyes with her thumb. She tells her it’s okay. She tells her someday it will make sense.
Even though she’s waiting for that day herself. Even though she suspects everyone on God’s green earth is.
2
Jules takes another shower when they get back, and then her poor excuse for a boyfriend, Ronald Rum
Collins, and her sidekick since second grade, Brenda Morello, come calling. Brenda is short
