Clarkesworld Magazine Issue 196
By Neil Clarke, D.A. Xiaolin Spires, Gregory Feeley and
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Clarkesworld is a Hugo and World Fantasy Award-winning science fiction and fantasy magazine. Each month we bring you a mix of fiction, articles, interviews and art. Our January 2023 issue (#196) contains:
- Original fiction by D.A. Xiaolin Spires ("Symbiosis"), Gregory Feeley ("The Fortunate Isles"), R.T. Ester ("Anais Gets a Turn"), Cao Baiyu ("Reverie"), Natasha King ("Sharp Undoing"), and Felix Rose Kawitzky ("Pearl").
- Non-fiction includes an article by Ashley Deng, interviews with Ada Hoffmann and Paul McAuley, and an editorial by Neil Clarke.
Neil Clarke
Neil Clarke (neil-clarke.com) is the multi-award-winning editor of Clarkesworld Magazine and over a dozen anthologies. A eleven-time finalist and the 2022/2023 winner of the Hugo Award for Best Editor Short Form, he is also the three-time winner of the Chesley Award for Best Art Director. In 2019, Clarke received the SFWA Kate Wilhelm Solstice Award for distinguished contributions to the science fiction and fantasy community. He currently lives in New Jersey with his wife and two sons
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Table of Contents
Symbiosis
by D.A. Xiaolin Spires
The Fortunate Isles
by Gregory Feeley
Anais Gets a Turn
by R.T. Ester
Zhuangzi’s Dream
by Cao Baiyu
Sharp Undoing
by Natasha King
Pearl
by Felix Rose Kawitzky
A (Brief) Love Letter to the Chemistry of Molecules
by Ashley Deng
Pausing to Think: A Conversation with Ada Hoffman
by Arley Sorg
Relentless Curiosity: A Conversation with Paul McAuley
by Arley Sorg
Editor’s Desk: 2022 in Review
by Neil Clarke
The Different Path
Art by Kishal Sukumaran
*© Clarkesworld Magazine, 2023
www.clarkesworldmagazine.com
Symbiosis
D.A. Xiaolin Spires
When I had been chosen to have a child, I was apprehensive more than ecstatic. All the other lottery winners
seemed to be joyous. On the holoscreens, I saw them cry happy tears. I tried to mimic that but could not. I tried to smile like I had won a bag of chocolates. I wish it were a bag of chocolates. Chocolate caramels layered with taro cream. Instead, I was the one leaking cream, leaking all sorts of fluids from the bodily changes. It wasn’t sweet. I had terrible dreams. I dreamed of my belly distended, engorged, growing, and growing, until I floated right past the atmosphere into cold space. I could see myself floating past the colonies, past the blue coin that was Earth and toward the sun. Why would the fetus lift me up like that? Maybe it wanted to feel the warmth of the sun, seeing I was not warm enough, I conjectured. It was a dream; it had no meaning. I shouldn’t have assigned it any. But I did.
I was younger then, and I had visions of myself, not as a Carrier but alone journeying on. On to the other asteroids that made up the belt. Not stuck in the colonial city. Carriers had responsibilities. The progeny must drink. We would be implanted with specialized hydration tubes after the operation, hanging from our torsos like tethers dangling off EVA suits. People talked of these tubes lovingly, like it was their hair, about how they would make them up, braid them into plaits and decorate them. What are you thinking of etching onto your tubes? asked another Carrier when they found out I was chosen. They had mentioned phoenixes with bright tails and oranges that blossomed into prosperity that could glow in ethereal beauty from the conduits from my chest. They suggested iconographs of the shuttling machines and the labyrinth of journeying pathways of vehicular traffic that others had professionally scrawled onto their tubes with the help of artisans. Conduits, they said. It was a perfect embodiment of their function. Or perhaps I would be more satiated with etching onto my to-be-installed tubes the colored rocks that lined the beds of the Celestial garden? Something simple but possessing ethereal beauty that spoke of home and hearth? I shook my head. Mumbled something about cleanliness and choices. I was not sure it made sense, just that I had to clear my head, and I was paralyzed by options. I said this slowly as I looked at their brown-green eyes that flickered with a kind of anticipation, waiting for me to return the question. The eyes told me they had an answer to their own question, a unique scrawling that would signify their fidelic connection to the yet implanted offspring I did not. I stepped away. I could not even think that far in advance. I had honestly forgotten about the tubes, so stunned I was about the news. The tubes would be temporary, until the progeny weaned. But, Carriers adored these accoutrements. I was too disconcerted, startled into stillness by the unexpected nature of the broadcast. I stared at the patterns flashing from the holoscreens, comparing one specific configuration to the shape-shifting brand on my arm. Yes, that was me alright. I even called up a lab technician. The genomic resonance that they included was certainly mine. I had run the analysis scan on it, and that was nearly foolproof.
To say I was flummoxed would have been an understatement. There was just no way I could be chosen. I had a defect. I was not socialized the way others had been, as I was brought up with the Celestials. I was blunt, and I also did not have the kind of cosmetic beauty and immaculate health credentials that would have been selected for Carriers. Everyone called the process a lottery,
like a huge boon when chosen, but we all knew there was always someone or ones behind the scenes making a choice—that it was a deliberate decision given the phenotypical expressions. I thought I was immune to this fate. When my Best Sibling came with the message, saying that the chimes were for me, that I needed to open the holoscreen to check, I couldn’t comprehend what the High Restorative Center was saying. I accused my Best Sibling of pranking me. They denied it and looked hurt. They didn’t talk to me for a few days after, until I gave penitence by offering them some of my Ejecta festival cakes. I gave them my best one, flavored with durian and peppered with numbing spices. That appeased them, and they told me they were happy for me. I looked at them with grave eyes I tried to make crinkle and said, me too. I didn’t want to start another fight. I only had three more cakes left and months before another shipment from beyond.
Since I had been assigned (I did not want to say won
since I did not see it as a boon), I made the motions. Everyone had a duty to do. If I didn’t, I would be Noncompliant. Noncompliance meant potential ejection from the colony city and the asteroid belt around it. You would be a Wafter, like a hungry ghost, living past the belt, in the scourge of the cold and ice, among the civilizational detritus that had been spewed there from neglect. I liked a good adventure, but I was not in favor of sleeping in an artifact of a washing machine assemblage or coasting in a half-frozen milling tank tube, as the stories would have you believe. They said things about the Wafters, probably all made up and fantastical. Perhaps to scare you into compliance. They said they craved light and food and any sustenance since they were deprived of all things that made us Us. I knew it couldn’t be completely true. But, the nugget of truth that may be locked in the stories was enough of a frightening prospect to lock me into place. Besides, I liked the colony city. It was vast and smooth, with its laser-like aerial course-ways for travel and organized weather patterns. I liked our educational trips to the closest asteroids, but I never imagined myself living there either. I was a city person. Granted, I was an outlier from the bulk of metropolitan kind, having been raised with the Celestials at the outer temple, but it still constituted a part of that diverse fabric of society in our bustling urban region.
The first clue that something was awry was the lack of feeling. Not my cold numbness, which was pervasive at the time. No, it was the lack of nausea. They had scanned me, told me things were progressing. They looked satisfied and again I tried to smile wanly. But, I had not fallen sick like the other Carriers. They were clutching onto filtering heaving pouches, their faces twisted into incredible dreadful expressions of misery, despite their spurious smiling eyes for having been chosen. I was out and about, running to the lab to deliver machinery, running the used rags and soakers to the recombination system. I was on my feet while they cried for me to get them some anti-nausea serums. I did. The Celestials always kept me busy, except for ordained downtime while conducting Carrier duties. My downtime was ordained, an edict from the headquarters of the city, but I didn’t feel the need to slow. Serums, herbs, and elixirs filled my purses and pockets as I shoveled handfuls to unwell, but grateful Carriers.
Perhaps I should have made a show of being sick, despite feeling at the top of my health. Perhaps I should have staggered in, clutching my abdomen, and pretended to heave periodically to fall into line with expectation. I could have done this with a crinkle in my eye to suggest I didn’t mind at all, no, not at all—a way to exhibit ailment and enthusiasm at once. But, I was not much into theater, and it felt silly to feign ailment. I was proud of being in tip-top health, and I wanted to be operational and contributing. Sure, one can argue that being a Carrier is contributing enough, no need to stride around saving the world. But, I simply enjoyed being active.
Many were grateful but being so active while others suffered brooded resentment. Why are you so awake, my fellow Carrier? What gives your feet the lightness of a child’s holograph projector and not the heaviness of a meteor that makes a crater? Why do you look like a guardian lion who has shed his ball? Have you so chucked away the structured world and can now prance so effortlessly? I didn’t stop my inactivity, but I did stop interacting with some folk, deciding to employ intermediaries to deliver remedies to them.
The second clue that something was awry was my appetite. Other Carriers had gained food aversions and the green on their faces implied that their appetites had all but slipped away. Mine was so strong and was laced with such potency, it could have easily been characterized as indecent. I did not eat for two; I ate for ten. I ate everything in sight: hydroponic taro leaves, milyum bars, lotus seed pastes by the spoonful, charred tofu satay, mycelium mochi, spherified grass jellies, braised red bean foams, and tapioca suspensions.
Surprisingly, the anatomy scan at Week Twenty showed no aberrations. Like many procedures at the High Restorative Center, they were strictly confidential. Not even Carriers were allowed to view the scans. They said it would violate the sanctity of the miracle of the Package within. Like peeking at red envelopes before New Year’s. Or ripping open gifts before the Cold Season Fests. I thought, maybe I had a chance, maybe the Celestials would gain the information and pass it on to me. I made some queries and waited on both the High Restorative Center and Celestial Temple’s responses, but the docs had nodded politely and said nothing. Nothing came of my appeals to the Celestials, as well, except light castigations of being impatient.
The third clue of something amiss was the Owl. We were all assigned owls as the growth of our Packages progressed and our bellies became distended, marked with the sign of ancient rivers. They said that the stretch marks were good signs, passed down through unseen Wisdoms, with the imprint of the rills of the land on our skin. When I passed my hands over these marks, I could feel their coarse texture, our epidermides collectively trying to keep up with the burgeoning, a competition of taut circumference and volume.
The point of our Week Twenty-Eight scan was precisely to configure an AI, contained in a relatable, feathery shell: an avian construct counterpart. This AI would be able to indicate to us the kind of Carrier we would be and how the bond between Carrier and Package would play out. They took another whole-body scan. I hummed in the machine patiently as flashes burst in my eyes. They would use physiological, cosmetic, and affective resonances to perfectly curate our Owls.
When my Owl came, it was a tropical one, and rare. The owls were based based on past and present variations from Earth. Mine was severely threatened and loved islands. I was told they were printed in genetic labs and were beautiful replicas, down to the spectrum of colors in facial ruffs. Mine was a prepossessing peppered brown and had piercing yellow eyes with big black pupils. It was a Ryūkyū scops owl, its shape-shifting brand on the blank on its flank told me. Its mung bean-colored bill tapered to a point, and it blinked hard at me as if trying to figure me out. I had never landed in the cloudy blue glass disk, the terra firma, origin of our kind. But for a moment, I felt transported there, seeing this majestic creature. Granted, my Owl’s insides were more a mixture of sinews and screws, tissues and sprockets, and hamstrings and springs than the organic type that once nested on Earth. But, it sure did look like the real thing, as far as my untrained eye could tell. It hooted at me, short yelps funneled through a translation device. It said, Well, you look the paradigm of health.
I wasn’t sure if that was a sarcastic tone or not. I suppose I am rather sprightly for a Carrier of this advancement,
I responded.
The Ryūkyū scops AI owl, which I brilliantly nicknamed Ryū, had this way of blinking at me that made me feel unnerved and judged. It was still an alluring, majestic creature, nonetheless. It pecked at the mechanical mouse I had in my hand and sometimes when it lifted its beak, I could see the remnants of metal within, and its curve sometimes unsheathed, not one hundred percent layered in rhamphotheca.
It tsk tsked at my relentless activity.
Keep that up, and you’ll have me redundant. I don’t want to sit idle. I’m supposed to take care of you. Like, nudge you to drink water, and rustle my feathers into your soft tissues, and relieve your sore spots. You’re going to make me idle. Your posture is supposed to be wonky, and your pelvis pulled forward. But, you walk like the Lunar Princess of the Ages and each step is like the sinuous grace of the irrigation system flowing to life.
I wasn’t sure what to make of it. The Owl was strange to me, and I did not feel that affection that the Other Carriers spoke of theirs, starry eyed with devoted tones. I poked at it curiously and gave it a pat on the head, which it turned away, almost in indignance. This one was a curmudgeon. It complained about everything. Who knew an Owl could complain about me being too healthy seeming, too capable? My Best Carrier Sibling said it was an aberration. That I should take it back for review. I didn’t want to raise any flags.
The Owls were supposed to be nurturing, supportive. They reflected your own temperament and behavior and were a harbinger of your upcoming bond with your Package. The Owl of my Best Sibling had helped them through the worst nights of their insomnia and brought them synthetic bladders of nourishing hydration. Their Owl had guided them through the implantation of catheter systems for the proper drainage of their excess fluids and sat to warm their swollen feet as if that was the most comfortable place to roost. Mine refused to eat off my hand, disparaged my naming abilities, did not rustle when called, and pecked at me at the most monstrously inappropriate times, which was especially unnerving during my release of human waste discharge when it somehow gained access to my private portal. It griped that it could not find my sore spots, that I had none, and perhaps I was feigning my Carrier position for some relief of duties.
Admittedly, there were times I was incensed and threw the mechanical mouse that it cherished over my shoulder. Ryū didn’t need to eat anyway. It was an AI, wrapped in muscular tissue. If in minor disrepair, it would regenerate on its own, and for anything more than a scratch, it got serviced by the prenatal zoological engineers. The mimicry of feeding was more of a quote sacred soldering rite, a kind of bonding to cement our reliance on one another. But, admittedly, it soldered one thing, resentment of its constant unwanted companionship. It was beautiful to look at, but when it squinted at me, the gaze contained so much scrutiny, as if a judge pronouncing a distasteful verdict.
I was getting fed up. Fed up with its constant tagalong tendencies, irate at its comments.
On the flip side, a very interesting and polar opposite phenomenon occurred. I started to appeal to my Package for help. I wanted someone on my side. I gave my Package a voice, spoke for it, listened for appeals and squeals of laughter and encouraging acknowledgment when I said something witty and caustic to Ryū. I imagined the Package inside me, colluding with me against this foul fowl. The voice was somewhat timid