The Back Channels
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Jennifer Houle's debut collection, The Back Channels, reflects the effort to build a meaningful life in a rapidly changing culture, in a region afflicted, as many are, with outmigration and an economy of anxiety and hard choices. Here, where memories of a more prosperous past loom large, she takes us to the backwoods where a discouraged woman walks, down to the shore beyond the fairgrounds, and into the parking lots where smokers gather to talk about layoffs or pay cuts. Houle's poems invite the reader to listen in on these moments and pause among these landscapes, never mistaking its often rural settings for places of retreat or escape. The largely Acadian culture depicted in these poems may still be influenced by the past, caught in its own reflected image, but it moves, as do the poems, to a steady, if moody, rhythm determined to find meaning and purpose in spite of difficulties, flux, and a seemingly pervasive cynicism. Reminiscent of Karen Solie's early work, Houle's brilliance as a poet is her mastery of language and keen sense of observation with which she draws the reader in. These poems come from a place of grappling, an attempt to find meaning, beauty and connection in the day-to-day, without being confined by it.
Jennifer Houle
Jennifer Houle grew up in Shediac, New Brunswick. Her poems have appeared in numerous literary journals over the past ten years and her work has won several awards, including The Writer's Federation of New Brunswick's Alfred G. Bailey Prize for best poetry manuscript. A lifelong East Coaster, she now lives near Fredericton, with her husband and two sons.
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The Back Channels - Jennifer Houle
THE BACK CHANNELS
TALK OF MERMAIDS
This is the shift of the heart’s tumbled pin,
the bloodshot eye and the haul: smokers trickle
from the old boucanerie, converted now,
one body, one bad lung, a rotting arctic char
between them: web of sick, soft tissues. Nets
of spittle, wry grins, unenviable shrewdness.
Banned crab heaved into slatted wirebounds
leaks into cynical chat. Dreaded things
are sure now, handed down, and trawling
for a private place to die, they ring our darkest
impulses and vex small acts of kindness
with a nervous calculation, shy self-interest.
Now is not the time for talk of mermaids,
questionable motives, far-fetched sentience,
or the pain of others. Skepticism rears
its double, whiskered chin, disarticulating
wonder with a grunt. Heavy snowfall
is predicted, work is to be done. Everywhere
we look, stock images: a hull shears cold,
black water in dead silence. Nothing floats,
nor swims, to the surface. Only when you turn
your back, a fin on the horizon. Excitations
kin to the aurora borealis fumble and fail
beautifully, trying something different.
FIRST TRIMESTER
I’m sure you’re fine. The body is a rough draft,
full of qualms and broken lines. Murky,
secretive, a muddle of mixed metaphors
all wanting at the heart. Though it insists
on its intent, on being what it is and things
being what they are. You have to laugh.
I don’t mean your body. I mean mine.
I am here now, having begged a little nap,
to settle, to imagine settling perfectly
in a quiet, swaddled hour. I can hear
your brother’s tinny ruckus in the kitchen,
and your father’s added ruckus. Peace
is nonsense. I have come to worry
in warm, soft, synthetic down. For what
it’s worth, to worry at the nib of you,
the tendril and the thought. And if the body
is the road to hell. And if it’s not.
And just what is beyond control?
My thoughts. They’ve settled on a course,
as you have settled on a course – Aurora? Finn?
Not to be frightened or full of irrational guilt.
If the twist came, always, from within,
from pure intent. If something didn’t, always,
have to act upon our will to change our ways.
THE PAST
The past is uncontrollable.
It’s at the back door with a knife.
It’s at the front door with a deep red
flash drive in the shape of genitalia.
It is everywhere and nowhere
like your very particular ghosts.
It is all you’ve ever known of love.
Every day, it beats you home, drifts
into the house through the vents.
It turns on your computer.
You know the cadence of its lament.
You can’t stop it, though you’ve heard.
It gathers and accumulates
like snow in the worst winters,
on the roof and in the gutters.
Makes it so you cannot see
what’s coming around corners.
Piles up. Dreams and details
enter its mouth like krill and algae
into a whale. What it swallows,
it becomes, irrevocably, as we
become what we ingest, time
and time again. It can’t be looked at,
not in the face. We glean as much
as we can. It is almost all there is.
It is our only source of light.
GATHERING
T’aimais ma blouse violette. Ben, c’était pas vraiment une blouse—I don’t know the word for what it was—stretchy material, ridged, a button-up, in style at the time. Gathering, pre-clubs, sur un de tes chums. Un gaddaring, I mocked. Moi, j’voulais pas être là j’étais gênée, j’me sentais out of place avec le monde de Cap-Pelé, j’me sentais mal a l’aise. Come on, t’as dis, ya personne qui va te mordre, pi j’aimerais right ça que tout le monde te mitte. Je te brag tout le temps. Ej voulais pas que tu saves about ma hell adolescence, pi