Phases
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Suppose you finally say, I’m my own person.
Suppose you say, No one else is in charge of me.
Suppose you tell yourself, I’m nobody’s bad girl.
Suppose you’re that kind of woman. Just suppose.
In this new revised, expanded edition of her acclaimed debut poetry collection, Phases, Belinda Betker deftly captures what it is like for those who don’t fit within rigid notions of what it means to be a “boy” or a “girl.” She takes readers on a luminous journey of a young girl’s coming-of-age, her burgeoning sexuality, an unhappy marriage, the triumphant release of coming out, and the liberating power of drag.
In these poems, readers will find a celestial and transcendent re-discovering of the self; an unravelling of society’s expectations of gender, love, and desire, and how these falsehoods threaten to eclipse our truth. Phases is mercurial and unpredictable, a celebration of the non-conformist in each of us.
Belinda Betker
Belinda Betker (aka Dyke Van Dick), author of Phases, is a prairie-born poet living in Saskatoon with her Australian wife and their rescue dog, a springer-spaniel/terrier cross. Phases, her first poetry collection, was a finalist for two Saskatchewan Book Awards. Her poetry and award-winning haiku are also published online and in various anthologies, literary journals, and chapbooks. Belinda is a founding member of two long-running Saskatoon writing groups, Sisters’ Ink and The Obsessors. She is also a founding member of the Saskatoon Writers Collective.
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Phases - Belinda Betker
PRAISE FOR PHASES
Belinda Betker’s first collection of poetry, Phases, is a captivating tribute to the lunar and life cycles. Fierce and richly erotic, with acuity and candour her poems shine a bright light onto an intimate world and burst with power and play. Both lovingly tender and don’t-mess-with-me tough, Betker’s is an empowering voice.
– Sandra Ridley, Griffin Prize finalist for Silvija
"‘Walk loose,’ writes Belinda Betker in this riveting collection, ‘take up space like you own it.’ And oh, how she does. These bold, tender, cocky, shy, hilarious, heart-breaking poems enter a room like they own the house. Phases is a must-read and so you must. This is a beautifully nuanced voice that dares, teases, and challenges all notions of gender. I can think of few poets who do so with such generosity." – Katherine Lawrence, award-winning poet and author
Belinda Betker’s debut poetry collection, Phases, is a significant contribution to LGBTQ2S+ literature. The collection explores the trials of a lifelong journey toward knowing—toward identity—and the wayfinding power of embracing the body’s sensual nature . . . The poems . . . lean intimately into moments of great vulnerability and great strength. As a reader, I am grateful for the discrete and sustained attention she has brought to each poem, breathing through the pain toward a ‘place of knowing.
– Clea Roberts, The Humber Literary Review
"In Phases, Betker traces the transition of sexual identity through marriage, ‘coming out,’ and drag persona. Gritty, funny, eloquent and most definitely relevant." – Judges, Creative Saskatchewan Publishing Award, 2020 Saskatchewan Book Awards (Finalist)
"An honest look at the fluidity of the self, Phases pushes back against normative expectations of gender and sexuality in a series of poems that’s both deft and defiant. Belinda Betker, also known as Dyke van Dick, is an uncompromising cultural observer, the perfect guide to warn readers against past mistakes and renew their faith in the future. The poems in Phases are bona-fide manifestos, and a must read for those interested in how to live well in the 21st century." – Judges, SK Arts Poetry Award Honouring Anne Szumigalski, 2020 Saskatchewan Book Awards (Finalist)
These poems are at once tender and shy, cocksure and sassy, like the many faces that appear here in all their phases: childhood, young womanhood, motherhood—not to mention middle-age drag kinghood! In these pages, to be a woman manfully is just another way to be, and beauty is in the eye of the beheld.
– Elizabeth Philips, award-winning author of Torch River and The Afterlife of Birds
DEDICATION
For all my families,
everywhere they are
Just like the moon, I go through phases
tattoo
1: Saros Cycle
As far as I’m concerned, being any gender is a drag.
Patti Smith
Girls and Boys When I’m Five
Mom and I are girls,
and Dad and my brothers are boys.
Girls have vee-gees,
and boys have pee-pees.
Girls wear panties and dresses,
and boys wear underpants and jeans.
Moms are housewives,
and dads have jobs.
Girls help moms make beds, wash
dishes and clothes, sweep floors
and vacuum, and make pickles in jars,
and boys play catch with dads.
Girls play with dolls and Barbies,
and look after brothers
who play Lego, toy cars, guns,
and cowboys and Indians.
Girls grow up and get married
and have kids, and boys grow up
and get jobs and get married
and buy cars and trailers and boats.
Girls get really old and grey
and wrinkled and become grandmas,
and boys become whiskered grandpas,
and then they all die.
Out of the Box
Flip-top box, sixty-four colours,
but I’m only