The Muse
By Amy Ellis
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A scandalous and seductive love story of a young artist thrust into the indulgent world of art, sex, and money.
In Georgian London, Elizabeth spends her precious free time painting watercolour flowers at the kitchen table. Art is not only an escape from the monotony of chores but a way to find a suitable husband who can give her security and a stable future. That was all she ever wanted until she met John, a talented painter with connections and patrons, who offered to take her on as a student and model for his new works.
Being given the freedom to paint what she likes, Elizabeth is quickly seduced by John's world: art, beautiful women, wealthy patrons, and the opportunity to earn her own money by becoming London's premiere erotic portrait artist. But her newfound freedom comes at a cost and when her business is picked up in London's scandal papers, there's no way to go back to the stable life she once craved.
Amy Ellis
Amy Ellis is a Longwood University graduate with a BA in English/Creative Writing and a minor in Children’s Literature. She is currently working on her Master's degree in Digital Publishing from Oxford Brookes University in the UK. She is the founder of The Self-Publishing Toolbox, a resource for self-published authors. Find out more about the toolbox at selfpubtoolbox.com.
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The Muse - Amy Ellis
The Muse
Amy Ellis
First Published 2022 by Amy Ellis, London UK
ISBN 978-1-7396986-1-4
Copyright © Amy Ellis 2022
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A CIP catalog record for this book is available from the British Library.
The Muse is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events, locales, and incidents are either the products of the author’s imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.
Cover Illustration by Jean Auguste Dominique Ingres (French, Montauban 1780–1867 Paris) and Workshop. Image from The Met.
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The Muse
You know what happens to women like me?
There are a hundred and fifty thousand bodies
buried nearby in unmarked graves,
their headstones worn from long summers of rain, toppled
over and cut into flagstones, ground down by strangers’
footsteps on the threshold. There is no poets’ corner for us:
the presence of our paint stained hands, the pigment powders
under our nails are blood moons, a dust storm
brought up from the Sahara. We turned the sky red.
I painted those covered up pictures layered in dust,
the portraits in your grandmother’s attic are now unknown
retrospectives at the small gallery, my unread signature.
Someone paid me to paint those breasts in the rose garden and turn their lovers
into hidden pictures, discarded. Lewd pastel portraits
of your great-great-something grandmothers stripped
out of their corsets and chemise. They used to touch
each other too, pressed together like flowers
between the pages of your thrift store poetry books.
Invited me into their bedrooms and memorialised their bodies
where I am just bones somewhere, a skull, a sternum.
In memoriam of me and my breasts and the men
I let paint them and the lovers that held them.
I sold a hundred portraits of my body
to buy this nameless grave I’m in.
The Beginning
The day I learned to paint was the kind of crinkly, sugary
day that hurts to sink your teeth into.
My mother, at the table with her paints.
The blocks of colour dented with her dreams.
Her brush washed against the page
like a hand on a bruise
while my brush bled. She taught me
to mop up the mess.
The bristles feathered and flung colour
in all the wrong places. The purple bled
into green, a bruise shifting to the brown of riverbank.
We tapped the brushes against the side of glass until I made
something in the shape of a petal and repeated until I bloomed
a single flower that we set outside to dry in the sun.
Sunday afternoons
are a ritual spent humming and licking
the brush to the page. The dented kitchen table turned
a stack of florals on the windowsill, piled up in my hope
chest among my unfinished linens.
I tried to wash away the future with watercolour while
my mother held the pictures to the light: it is an accomplishment
meant to be hung on the wall in the kitchen between
church and supper and putting the children to bed
to impress a man. A pastime
not a lifetime of watercolour.
My Father
My father was a wig maker,
spent his days hunched over a bust
sewing the long hairs into place.
His spectacles sliding down his nose
as the early winter sun waned in the sky.
He could afford a whole house just for us,
and was thankful for a small family.
While the other homes teemed
with small children, crying
in their sodden nappies,
ours was a sanctuary of four.
Love
And in those long afternoons
around the kitchen table
my mother would tell me
stories of how she met our father
and their long engagement
where he would write her long poems
and she would illustrate them, saving
the pages as a story for her children.
In church I gaze over my shoulder
and crave the contact of a man
I could marry and carry on the habit
of swirling paint in a glass jar, leaving
rings behind on the table full of blues
and the muddled purple of too much colour.
I’d paint every flower he’d bring me
and save them until their edges curl
and the pages crumble away like ash
or dust or bodies in the grave,
forgotten in that dull floral of decay.
The Shop
The childhood afternoons watching my father
in his shop, sewing each strand into place,
curling, moulding, fixing a hairstyle worthy
of a wealthy customer.
Out from under my mother’s feet
my toes tapped the floorboards
as the hours passed, helping little
but providing good company in the quiet shop.
On days his customers would come in,
I stood by the